Joey

“Dear God, make me a bird so i can fly far, far, far away from here.”

[invaderzimxx]

it’s cruel how you say you like me so much but treat me as a dust collecting trophy on the wall

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i wonder who i’d be if i’d learn to love myself before i forced myself to love any one else

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people can be so cruel. the world is so cruel.

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my mom giving me the "don't worry; 48 lessons on relieving anxiety" book broke my heart to pieces because i haven't been trying as much as i could've to make something of myself and i feel like such a disappointment.

i didn't think i would live this long

i didn't think about living past the age of 16 so now i just feel so lost and don't know what to do to get back on track. i need to focus on school but i feel like the days are going by in a blur. i can't remember or focus on anything.

i love my mom so much and i know that she's trying to better her self and be a better mom and more understanding and i love her so much for that. i can see she's accepting me for me but i can also see her hurt and it hurts me so bad because i just think about all the times i get mad at her and it's just like she's going through things too.

i'm so sorry mommy.

i love you with all my heart.

[fawnangel555]

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all i ever think about is you

[invaderzimxx]

Because the world in fact did end for me when you left me

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they say they want a weirdo gf until they hear my lore of my wattpad obsession and the fact i was stuck in a maladaptive daydreaming state of harry potter marauders for 3 years with the same storyline over and over and that id listen to edit audios while daydreaming

[invaderzimxx]

is it because when he left me it made me feel so unwanted i can’t see anyone liking me or wanting me so i tell myself i like my alone time but in actuality im just so used to the comfort of talking to him it feels like cheating talking to other people

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i feel so unlovable but i wonder if it’s because i don’t want anyone to love me but you

i hate my mind

[invaderzimxx]

all i want is for him to feel the pain i felt when he was with her 2 weeks after he left me

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i feel like i’ll never love anyone like i did you, ill never find the connection with you so i try to change myself to prove to myself im not the same girl you left, i change myself hoping you didn’t like the way i looked so if i were prettier you’d eventually come back to me. i look for you in other people hoping i can feel what i felt with you again. i feel forgotten while you’re forever stuck in my mind. i don’t think ill ever find anyone life you

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its hard knowing you wanna look a certain way and then realizing you could never look like that because you’re not a pale white woman with green eyes and straight hair

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i’m so jealous of the people that look so cool and have good fits and have such niche hobbies and interests and have a pc and lots of piercings like why can’t i be that cool like all i need is 20k and permission from my parents to get piercings

[invaderzimxx]

my heart always aches

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i don’t understand but i understand for you

[invaderzimxx]

no matter how kind you think that man is, in the end he’ll always help you realize he’s a man