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Hazing at Omega Ki
Don’t join this fraternity if you don’t want to become an old man after hazing.
A day by the pool…
It’s the perfect spot to catch some rays and watch the water, the only draw back was the chair was sandwiched between two fat old guys. I figured the worse thing that would happen was they would fall asleep and start snoring. I figured I would take my chances and claim the spot. I sit down and they are non stop talking about a fishing trip they’re going on. Cod, snapper, haddock they would not shutup about the fish they wanted to catch. The only positive was they did offer me a beer which I gladly accepted. After about an hour I really started enjoying the conversation and found their knowledge about all the different types of fish fascinating. At one point one of the guys looked at me and said, “Are you excited about the fishing trip Harold?”. I responded and said, “I can’t wait!”.
some jobs just wear you down
Holy shit…
When I awoke in the middle of the night I immediately knew something was wrong. I tried to roll over and grab the water of my nightstand, but my weight felt completely wrong. I struggled and had to use my whole body. I was finally able to roll, but noticed my stomach was completely sticking out. It was dark, so I could barely see anything, but I sat there using my hands to feel the gut that was now attached to my body. I turned on the nightlamp, and noticed that I was in my friends Dad's room. We were on vacation with our family friends. All the kids shared a room, and my father, Richard, and my Mom, Sandra, got their own room, as well as my friends Dad, Dale, and his Mom, Lynn had their own room as well.
As my eyes adjusted to the light, I noticed that there was a body laying in the bed next to me. My vision was blurry, but I quickly realized that it was my friends Mom, Lynn. I stumbled over in shock but caught myself of my feet. I felt a low center of gravity as I stabilized myself in this wide body. I felt my weight holding me down, making it hard to move. I saw a pair of glasses on the nightstand and put them on my face, allowing my vision to be clear. I was wearing dress pants, but quickly slipped on a shirt that was on the chair in their room before stumbling out into the shared living room area.
I stood in the mirror in disbelief that my friends father was staring back at me. It felt weird to stand shorter than my previous height. I dropped the pants down to my ankles as I stared at myself, taking in my form. I traced my face, ruffling my new moustache, and rubbed my stubbled bald head. My heart raced as I felt the pressure of my gut, and my fat sagging. I had both hands on my large stomach when suddenly, I heard the door to the kids room open, and I watched as my Dad, Richard, stumbled out of the room sheepishly.
"Uh Richard- it's uh. I can explain" I said stumbling over my words. I had no idea how I was going to explain to my Dad why I was standing in the living room area with my shirt open and pants around my legs.
"Sam? Is that you?" my Dad asked. I was terrified, I had no idea how he knew. "It's me, Blake" my friend said in my father's body. We stood there in shock realizing that this was not a one-off event, we both had become each others fathers.
I couldn't help but laugh, and soon we were both doubled over with laughter.
"What do we do now?" I asked through my laughter.
"I think we go pour a glass of their whiskey and debrief" my friend laughed. It was weird hearing him joke inside of my strict fathers body. We both took a sip and let out a long "ahh", and continued to laugh realizing how similar we sounded.
"So are our Dad's in our bodies?" I asked and shuddered at the thought.
"Well that's what I wanted to see. But, when I woke up your Dad in my old body, he seemed oblivious. So I'm not sure where that leaves us" my friend responded, staring into his glass of whiskey.
"So we're stuck like this til we figure it out?" I asked staring down at my flabby body. All the jokes seemed to wash away as I realized the severity of the situation.
"At least we're adults?" my friend said trying to find a positive. "But yes, it looks like this is the case" he continued.
"I'm going to have to kiss your mom?" I asked but didn't want to know the answer.
"That's not even the worst part, I haven't been able to get rid of my boner since I woke up" my friend said grabbing his crotch. It was weird hearing my friend say that in my Dad's voice and body talking about jerking off, but he was right, I had noticed that effect to.
"Well neither of us will be able to think clearly, so I think we have to take care of it before we get back into bed with our new "wives"" I said. We both cringed at the thought, but agreed. We gave eachother a hug and waddled back to our rooms. We had no idea how we were going to get out of it, but I just have to hope that I can avoid Lynn until I can take care of myself first.
Landon ducked into the costume shop still wearing his backward cap, gym shorts, and fraternity hoodie, with the party already buzzing in his group chat. The theme was “come as someone you’re not,” and he wanted something funnier than a toga or fake cowboy hat. Then he saw it: a full English gentleman’s outfit on a mannequin — tweed jacket, waistcoat, crisp shirt, dark tie, bowler hat, and a polished wooden pipe tucked into a velvet-lined box. He laughed under his breath, imagining himself strolling into the frat house looking like someone’s ancient British uncle. The pipe sold it. “Perfect,” he muttered, thinking it would be hilarious to use it later to smoke weed.
In the changing room, the costume fit too well. As soon as Landon tucked the pipe into the corner of his mouth he sold the deal. He went glassy-eyed. The tweed tightened across his shoulders, then seemed to pull his posture upright, straightening his slouch into something dignified. His horseshoe mustache, grown after losing a bet, transitioned into the start of a more distinguished handlebar style.
His smooth college face sharpened, then transitioned through middle-age: crow’s feet etching around his eyes, laugh lines deepening beside his mouth, and the skin across his forehead loosened into warm, creased maturity.
His hairline crept backward as his dark hair thinned, then began to silver at the sides. Briefly regaining some sense of self-awareness, Landon lifted a hand to his cheek, with the vague notion that something had changed - but unable to put his finger on it. He tried to say, “Dude, what the—” but what came out was a crisp, startled, “Good heavens,” before the light in his eyes dimmed again.
The changes proceeded as his skin continued to age and his hair receded leaving a totally bald top. - pushing him into his 60s. What was left of his hair turned mostly white - including his signature handlebar mustache, a style he had worn for the last 40 years.
By the time he stepped out of the changing room, there was no panic left in him. The young man’s memories had folded away like discarded clothes. He adjusted his tie, placed the bowler hat neatly on his bald crown, and regarded himself in the mirror with calm approval. A distinguished English gentleman looked back: silver-haired at the sides, bright-eyed, deeply lined, and entirely at ease with himself. He gave the pipe a thoughtful puff, smiled beneath his mustache, and left the shop for home, having fully enjoyed his outing for the day and ready to curl up with a good book by the fireplace.
The organ
Weight gain - hairy - balding - bear tf
I never believed in love stories.
Not the slow ones. Not the intense ones. Not even the tragic ones people pretend to admire.
What I believed in was rhythm.
A clean, controlled sequence of moments that never overlapped, never lingered longer than necessary.
Morning started the same way every day.
The gym.
Weights. Precision. Repetition.
I liked the mirrors there. Not out of vanity—at least that’s what I told myself—but because they confirmed something simple: I was in control.
Of my body. Of my image. Of how I was seen.
“Man, you’re gonna scare people off at this rate.”
Lucas leaned against the rack, watching me finish a set.
I smirked, wiping sweat from my forehead. “That’s kind of the point.”
He laughed. “No, seriously. Do you ever keep anyone?”
I racked the bar, grabbed my towel, and shrugged.
“Why would I?”
He raised an eyebrow. “Because that’s… normal?”
I shook my head, already turning away. “Normal’s overrated.”
And honestly, I meant it.
Keeping people meant dealing with expectations. Messages. Attachments.
I preferred clean exits.
That carried into the rest of my day.
Work was just something to get through—efficient, detached. I did what I had to do, nothing more.
Evenings, though—that was where things started.
Bars. Clubs. Low lighting and loud music.
A glance across a room. A shared smile. A drink.
Sometimes I didn’t even need the apps.
But most nights, I still used them.
Back home, my apartment reflected that same philosophy.
Minimalist.
Neutral tones. Clean lines.
A couch no one ever really sat on. A kitchen barely used.
And the bedroom—
That was the only space that mattered.
Large bed. Soft lighting. Nothing personal.
No photos. No traces.
No history.
Just a place where people arrived… and disappeared.
I dropped my keys on the counter, loosened my shirt collar, and grabbed my phone.
Notifications. Messages. Profiles. The usual. Swipe. Swipe. Pause. Swipe.
It was almost mechanical at this point. Faces blurred into each other. Same angles. Same bios. Same attempts at standing out.
“Gym rat.” “Adventurous.” “No drama.”
I almost laughed.
Then— I stopped.
His profile appeared without warning, like it had been waiting.
No flashy pose. No exaggerated lighting. Just him. Looking straight at the camera. Calm. Grounded. Perfect.
Not in the obvious, sculpted way I saw every day—but in something quieter.
Something… complete.
I leaned back slightly, studying the photo longer than I intended.
“Okay…” I muttered under my breath.
I tapped into his profile. Minimal text. No clichés. And a single line:
“I prefer real connections.”
I huffed a quiet laugh. “Yeah, sure you do.”
Still—
I didn’t swipe right immediately. That alone should have told me something was different. But curiosity won. I swiped.
Match.
Instant. I blinked.
“That was fast.”
A message popped up almost immediately.
Him: “I was hoping you’d show up.”
I frowned slightly, typing back.
Me: “You say that to everyone?”
Three dots appeared.
Disappeared.
Then—
Him: “No. Just the ones who think they’re in control.”
I paused. Something about that… lingered. I smirked anyway.
Me: “Sounds like you’ve already figured me out.”
Him: “Not yet. But I’d like to.”
I leaned against the counter, reading that again. There was no hesitation in his tone. No need to impress. Just certainty. And that— That was new.
Me: “Drink tonight?”
A few seconds.
Then:
Him: “No.”
I raised an eyebrow.
“No?”
Another message followed immediately.
Him: “Your place.”
I let out a short laugh.
“Confident.”
I typed:
Me: “You always this direct?”
Him: “Only when I know what I want.”
I stared at the screen for a moment longer.Then— Without overthinking it— I sent my address.
I knew something was different the moment I opened the door. He didn’t hesitate when I stepped aside. Didn’t scan the room like most people did. Didn’t ask questions. He just walked in. Like he belonged there. I closed the door behind him, watching carefully.
“You’re quiet,” I said.
He turned slightly, his gaze settling on me.
“I listen first.”
There was no tension in his posture. No nervous energy. Just stillness. Measured. I stepped closer, testing the space between us.
“See anything you like?”
A faint smile touched his lips.
“I see exactly what I expected.”
I tilted my head. “And what’s that?”
His eyes didn’t leave mine.
“Someone who never gets chosen first.”
That hit harder than it should have.
I scoffed lightly. “That’s a bold assumption.”
“Is it?”
A beat.
Silence stretched—but it didn’t feel empty.
It felt… deliberate. Then he stepped closer. And just like that— The rhythm I knew so well… shifted.
There’s always a moment. A precise, almost invisible threshold where a night becomes predictable. I know it by heart.
The distance closes. The tone softens. The bodies align.
Routine.
But this time— Something was off. Not wrong. Just… different. I stepped even closer, expecting him to meet me halfway. He didn’t move. Not back. Not forward.Just… waited.
That faint smile still there. Observing. Me. It unsettled me more than I wanted to admit.
“Careful,” I said lightly, trying to regain control of the rhythm. “You’re starting to sound like you’ve got me figured out.”
“Not figured out,” he replied calmly. “Positioned.”
I frowned. “Positioned?”
His gaze didn’t break.
“You always stand here.”
He gestured subtly—barely a movement—between us.
“Close enough to invite. Far enough to stay in control.”
A pause.
“You don’t step in until they do.”
That—
That was true.
And I hated that he saw it.
I let out a small chuckle, masking the tension. “You’ve done your homework.”
“No,” he said softly. “You’re just consistent.”
Silence stretched again.
But now it pressed.
I didn’t like that.
So I broke it.
My hand reached his arm—firm, confident, practiced. Warm. Solid. Real.
“Then maybe it’s time I break the pattern.”
That, at least, felt right. Familiar.I leaned in. This time, he let me. His hand slid to my waist—not grabbing, not pulling. Guiding. Subtle. Measured. Too measured. Our bodies aligned. Breath mixed.
Close enough now that I could feel the steadiness of him. No hesitation.No anticipation. Just… certainty.
“You’re tense,” he murmured.
I scoffed quietly. “I’m not.”
His fingers pressed lightly against my side. Not enough to restrain. Just enough to notice.
“Yes,” he said. “You are.”
I exhaled through my nose.
“Maybe I just don’t like being analyzed.”
“Everyone likes being seen.”
“Not like that.”
A beat. His hand moved—slowly—up along my side, deliberate. Not searching. Mapping. I should have pulled away. I didn’t. Because underneath the discomfort— There was something else. Curiosity. And something dangerously close to… wanting to know where this went.
“You don’t have to think so much,” he said quietly.
“I’m not thinking.”
“That’s new.”
I smirked despite myself. “You talk a lot.”
“And yet,” he leaned in slightly, voice lower now, “you’re still here.”
That was the problem. He was right.Again. I closed the remaining distance. This time fully. Our foreheads almost touching. My hand moved to his jaw. Rougher than his had been. Reclaiming something.
“Let’s stop talking.”
He held my gaze for one more second. Then—
“Alright.”
Simple. Too simple. But I didn’t question it. Not yet. The kiss wasn’t rushed. It wasn’t hesitant either. It was— Heavy. Grounded. Like everything else about him. No urgency. No need to prove anything. And somehow— That made me lean in more. My hands moved, pulling him closer now.Reasserting control. At least— That’s what I told myself.
Because beneath that— There was a growing awareness.Something was slipping.Not dramatically. Not obviously. But enough. Enough that I noticed. Enough that I ignored it. His hand left my side. I barely registered it. Too focused on the moment. On regaining the rhythm. On not losing ground.
Then— A shift. Subtle. His body angled slightly away. Just enough to create space. I frowned, pulling back a fraction.
“What?”
He didn’t answer immediately. Instead, his hand disappeared briefly behind him. Out of sight. Out of frame. A small movement. Insignificant. I almost didn’t question it. Almost.
“Hey—”
A prick. Sharp. Quick. Barely there. I blinked.
“What was—”
The words didn’t land. My vision flickered. The room tilted—just slightly. My grip loosened.
“What did you—”
He was still there. Right in front of me. Perfectly steady. Watching. Always watching.
“Relax,” he said.
My legs felt… wrong. Too heavy. Too distant. My body didn’t respond the way it should.
“You’re—”
I tried to step back.Failed. His hand caught me. Effortless. Like I weighed nothing.
“That’s it,” he murmured.
The edges of the room blurred. Sound dulled.My thoughts slowed. No— Not slowed.Thickened. Like moving through something dense.
“You’ll understand later.”
His voice felt far away now. Even though he was right there.
“I—”
Nothing. My knees gave in.Darkness rushed up—Or I fell into it. I’m not sure which.The last thing I saw—Was his expression.Unchanged.Calm.Certain. Like everything had gone exactly as expected.
Then— Nothing.
I woke up gasping.
Air slammed back into my lungs like I’d been underwater too long.
For a second— I didn’t move. Didn’t think.Didn’t exist, really. Just… breath.In.Out. In—
Too fast. Too sharp. Something was wrong. I knew it before I even opened my eyes. There was a weight in my body that hadn’t been there before. Not external. Not like pressure.
Internal. Anchored. Deep. I forced my eyes open. My apartment. My ceiling. My bed. Everything looked exactly the same. Too normal. That’s what made it worse.
I pushed myself up— And pain exploded through my abdomen. I sucked in a breath, clutching my stomach instantly.
“What the—”
My voice cracked. Dry. Unfamiliar. My hand pressed against something thick. Fabric. Bandages. My heart started pounding. No.
No, no—
I tore the blanket off. My shirt was gone. Replaced with gauze wrapped tightly around my midsection. Clean. Precise. Deliberate. My hands started shaking as I pulled at it.
“Okay… okay…”
Like saying it would make it make sense. The tape came loose. The fabric peeled away—And underneath—A line. A fresh, clean incision.Running just below my ribs. Still slightly swollen. Still… real. My stomach dropped.
“Someone—”
No. Not someone. Him. I stumbled out of bed, legs unsteady. The room tilted slightly, like my balance hadn’t caught up yet.
Bathroom. Mirror.
I braced myself against the sink and looked. Same face.Same body. At least— At first glance. But I couldn’t stop looking at the cut. At the way the skin around it felt… tight. Wrong. Like something inside didn’t belong.
“Hospital,” I muttered.
“Yeah. Yeah, okay.”
That made sense. Doctors. Answers. Reality. I grabbed the first clothes I could find and left. The waiting room felt unreal. Too bright. Too slow. Too disconnected from what was happening inside me. I kept pressing my hand against my stomach. Feeling. Testing. There was something there.
I couldn’t explain it. But I could feel it.Not pain. Not exactly.Presence.
“Sir?”
I looked up. A nurse.
“Come with me.”
Tests. Questions. More tests. I told them everything. Or tried to.
The app. The meeting. The apartment. The blackout.
I watched their expressions shift. From concern— To confusion— To something else. Something quieter.
“Let’s get imaging done,” one of them said.
The scan room was cold. Mechanical. I lay still as the machine hummed around me. Counting my breaths. Trying not to think. Trying not to feel that… thing inside me. When it was over, they told me to wait again. So I did. Sitting there. Alone. Time stretching too thin. When the doctor came back, he wasn’t alone. That was the first bad sign.
The second— Was the way he looked at me. Not scared. Not alarmed. But… fascinated.
“Can you sit up for me?” he asked.
I did. Slowly.Carefully. He held a tablet in his hand. Turned it toward me.
“Do you see this?”
I looked. My body. Rendered in shades of grey and white. Bones. Organs. Familiar shapes. Except—
There.
Something new. Something that didn’t match anything else. A structure. Dense. Compact. Nestled deep inside my abdomen. Connected. Integrated. Wrong.
“What is that?” I asked.
My voice sounded distant. He hesitated. That was worse than anything.
“We’re not entirely sure.”
I let out a hollow laugh. “Not sure?”
He didn’t react.
“It’s… not a transplant.”
“What?”
“There are no signs of removal. No damage to surrounding tissue consistent with extraction.”
I stared at him.
“Then what are you saying?”
He met my gaze.
“It appears to have been… added.”
Silence. Heavy. Impossible.
“That’s not—”
“It’s fully integrated into your system,” he continued. “Blood supply, neural connections… it’s functioning.”
“Functioning how?”
Another pause. Then—
“That’s what we don’t understand.”
My stomach twisted. Or maybe— It moved. I froze.
“You feel that?” I whispered.
The doctor frowned. “Feel what?”
I pressed my hand harder against my abdomen.
“There’s something—”
And then it hit. Sharp. Sudden. A pull. Deep inside. Not pain. Hunger. Raw. Immediate. Violent. I sucked in a breath.
“What is that?”
The doctor stepped closer. “What are you experiencing?” I looked at him. Then at the scan. Then back at my own body.
“I’m hungry.”
A beat.
“That’s normal after—”
“No.”
I shook my head. Too fast. Too hard.
“You don’t understand.”
Because this wasn’t normal. This wasn’t “I skipped a meal” hunger.
This was— Demanding. Expanding. Consuming. Like something inside me had just— woken up. And it wanted more. A lot more.
At first, I told myself it was manageable. That word—manageable—became a shield. A lie I repeated often enough to almost believe it. The hunger didn’t fade. It didn’t stabilize. It grew. Not in waves. Not in cycles. Constant. Present. Like a second pulse inside me. I started eating more.
At first, it felt almost… justified. My body needed energy, right? Recovery. Healing. That’s what they said.That’s what I told myself. But it didn’t feel like recovery. It felt like feeding something else.
I went back to the gym. Of course I did. That was the first thing I tried to hold onto. Control. Routine. Identity. I stood in front of the mirror again.
Same place. Same lights. Same movements. But it wasn’t the same. The weights felt heavier. Not dramatically. Just enough. Enough that I noticed. Enough that I couldn’t ignore it.
And my body— My body didn’t respond the same way. The pump wasn’t clean anymore. There was… resistance. A softness creeping in where there used to be precision.
I pressed my fingers against my abdomen in the locker room. Testing. It gave. Just slightly. I froze.
“No,” I muttered.
I adjusted my posture, straightened up, flexed harder. There it was again— The version I recognized. Almost. The hunger followed me everywhere. Work. Gym. Bed. It didn’t matter.
It was always there. A low, insistent pressure. Then louder. Then unavoidable. I started carrying food with me. Protein bars. Sandwiches. Anything. It helped— For minutes. Maybe an hour. Then it came back. Stronger. More demanding.And slowly—I stopped waiting. I just ate. Whenever it came. Wherever I was.
The changes accelerated. Not dramatically. Not in a way anyone else would immediately notice. But I did. Every morning. Every mirror. Every reflection in a dark window.
I tried to stop. That’s the part that matters. I tried. Diet. Strict. Precise. Measured. Back to discipline. Back to control.For a day— Maybe two.
Then— It hit. Harder than before The hunger wasn’t just physical anymore. It was… intrusive. It occupied my thoughts. My focus. My patience. I snapped at people. I lost track of conversations.
Everything blurred into one thing: Eat. I remember sitting at my desk, staring at my screen— And realizing I hadn’t heard a single word my colleague had said. Because all I could think about— Was food.
The gym became harder. Then frustrating. Then pointless. I was lifting less. Looking worse. Feeling heavier. Each movement slower than the last. And the mirrors— I started avoiding them. Because when I looked— I didn’t see progress anymore. I saw drift.
My clothes changed before I admitted it. Tighter across the waist. Pulling at the seams. Shirts clinging differently. Pants pressing when I sat down. I told myself it was temporary. Water weight. Recovery. Anything. But then— One night—
I caught my reflection without expecting it. No posture correction. No flexing. No control. Just— Me. And I didn’t recognize it immediately.
I stood there. Frozen. My hand moved— Almost without thinking. To my stomach. I pressed. Firmer this time. It didn’t resist. It shifted. Heavy. Real.
“Stop,” I whispered.
But I didn’t move my hand. I pressed again. Slower. Testing the limits. Feeling the weight. The presence. That same presence from before— But now it wasn’t hidden. It was visible. Growing. Becoming me.
I stumbled back slightly. My breath uneven. My reflection staring right back at me. Not panicked. Not shocked.Just— Watching. Adapting. Accepting faster than I was. And underneath the fear— Something worse began to form.
Not acceptance. But— Recognition. Because the hunger… wasn’t fighting me anymore. It was winning.
There’s a point where denial stops being possible. Not because you accept. But because your body refuses to let you ignore it anymore. I crossed that point without realizing when. Or maybe—
I realized it, and just didn’t want to name it. The hunger didn’t just stay. It evolved.It sharpened. It became… specific. Not just eat.
But more. Always more. I stopped planning meals. I reacted. Constantly. Kitchen. Delivery. Snacks. Anything within reach. And still— It wasn’t enough.
The mirror became unavoidable. Because now— It wasn’t subtle anymore.
I noticed the beard first. Not because it appeared. But because it wouldn’t stop. I shaved. Clean. Sharp. Controlled. The next morning— Stubble. Thick. By evening— It was already back. Dense. Darker. Stronger than before.
“What the hell…”
I ran my hand over my jaw.
It felt… wrong. Not unfamiliar. But accelerated. Like my body had stopped following normal rules. Then the hair. Chest. Arms. Shoulders. Even my back. It spread. Filled in. Darkened.
What used to be light, barely there— Now stood out. Thick. Coarse. Present. Everywhere.
And my body— There was no hiding it anymore. My shirts stretched. Pulled tight across my stomach. Clung to my chest in ways they never had before. I tried going up a size. Then another. Still— The shape underneath didn’t change. Just… expanded.
The first tear happened at home. I bent down to pick something up— And—
rrrip
I froze. Slowly straightened. Looked down. The seam of my pants had split. Clean. Irreversible. I stared at it. Then at myself in the mirror. And for a moment— I didn’t feel panic. I felt something else. A hollow, quiet realization.
“This isn’t stopping.”
I stopped going out. It wasn’t a decision. It just… happened. Clothes didn’t fit. Nothing felt right. Nothing looked right. And people— People looked. Even when they tried not to. I saw it. Every time. I opened the apps again. Out of habit. Out of… hope. I didn’t upload new pictures.
Of course I didn’t. I used the old ones. The ones that still looked like me. Matches came. Messages too. Same as before. Same rhythm. For a second— It almost felt normal. Then came the meeting. And the look. That split second when they saw me— And something shifted. Politeness. Excuse. Exit. Every time.
Back home— I sat on the edge of my bed. Breathing heavier than I should have been. My stomach resting against my thighs. Solid. Present. Unavoidable. I placed both hands on it. Held it. Not testing. Not denying. Just… holding.
My hair started falling a week later. At first— Just strands. On the pillow. In the shower. On my hands. Then more. Noticeable. The front thinned. The crown showed. I stared at it in the mirror.
Beard thicker than ever. Body bigger than ever. Hair— Leaving. The contrast was almost cruel.
The hunger was still there. Always. But it didn’t feel like an attack anymore. It felt like… baseline. Like breathing. Like something I had stopped questioning. I stood in front of the mirror again. Longer this time. No adjusting. No correcting posture. No trying to find angles. Just— Looking.
My hand rose. Slow. Heavy. Rested on my stomach. It filled my palm. Warm. Alive. Mine. And for the first time— I didn’t immediately pull away. Not because I accepted it. Not yet.
But because— I didn’t know what I was supposed to fight anymore.
I couldn’t keep wearing the same clothes. That became obvious the moment I tried to leave the apartment again. Nothing fit. Not really. Everything either clung too tight… or gave up entirely. So I did something I hadn’t done in weeks. I went shopping.
The store felt too bright. Too open. Too… exposed. I stayed near the back at first. Larger sizes. Clothes I used to ignore completely. I picked up a shirt. Held it in front of me. Hesitated. Then another. And another. A pile formed in my arms. I didn’t look at anyone. Didn’t want to see if they were looking at me.
The fitting room mirror was worse. Always is. I tried the first shirt It fit. Not “almost.” Not “if I adjusted it.” It actually fit. Loose where it needed to be. Wide enough across my stomach. Long enough to fall over it. I stood there for a long time. Looking. Not judging. Not correcting. Just… seeing.
“This is it now,” I muttered.
No anger. No panic. Just a quiet statement. I bought everything. Didn’t think about it. Didn’t hesitate. I needed clothes for this body. So I got them. That night— I went out. Not to hunt. Not to impress. Just to… be somewhere else.
The bar was familiar. Same lights. Same noise. Same rhythm. But I wasn’t part of it anymore. Not in the same way. I felt it immediately. The space I took. The way I moved. The way people looked— Then looked away. Or didn’t look at all.
I went to the counter. Ordered a drink. Sat. Alone.
“You adapted faster than most.”
The voice hit before the recognition. Calm. Measured. Controlled. I turned. And there he was. Exactly the same. Perfect. Untouched. Unchanged. For a second— I didn’t recognize him. Then it clicked.
My stomach tightened. Not from hunger. From something else.
“You,” I said.
My voice was lower now. He smiled.
“Me.”
He looked me over. Slowly. Deliberately. Taking everything in. My size. My posture. My beard. My hairline. That same faint smile returned.
“Stable,” he said.
I frowned. “What?”
“You’re stable now.”
He stepped closer. Like nothing about this was strange.
“Your body’s done adjusting.”
I stared at him.
“You did this.”
It wasn’t a question. He tilted his head slightly.
“Technically… yes.”
Something inside me snapped— But it didn’t come out as anger. Just a heavy, tired breath.
“Why?”
He studied me for a moment.
“For the same reason you did what you did.”
I frowned. “What are you talking about?”
“Before,” he said. “Your routine.”
A small gesture.
“Meet. Use. Leave.”
I didn’t respond. Didn’t need to. He already knew.
“I used to be like you,” he continued.
I almost laughed.
“You?”
He nodded.
“Not like this.”
A pause.
“Like you are now.”
Silence. I searched his face. Looking for something— A crack. A lie. But there was nothing. Just calm. Just certainty.
“No one wanted me,” he said simply.
“Not like that.”
His eyes didn’t leave mine.
“I was ignored. Rejected. Dismissed.”
A faint tension in his jaw.
“Over and over.”
Then— It disappeared. Replaced by that same control.
“So I changed it.”
I swallowed. “How?”
He smiled slightly.
“I developed something.”
A small tap of his own abdomen.
“An organ. Or… something close enough.”
“It regulates fat. Converts it. Enhances muscle growth.”
I stared.
“You’re lying.”
“Am I?”
He stepped closer again. Lowered his voice.
“I perfected it.”
A beat.
“On myself.”
My chest felt tight.
“And me?”
His smile sharpened.
“You got a beta version.”
I let out a hollow breath.
“A beta version?”
“Yes.”
“Unstable. Incomplete.”
He glanced down at my body. Then back up.
“And very… expressive.”
I clenched my jaw.
“This is a joke to you?”
“No,” he said calmly.
“This is balance.”
Silence stretched.
Heavy.
“You picked men like me,” he continued.
“Men you thought were… beneath you.”
His gaze hardened slightly.
“So I gave you perspective.”
My hands curled into fists.
“And all the others?”
“Same.”
“Some handled it better.”
A small shrug.
“Most didn’t.”
I shook my head.
“This is insane.”
“And yet,” he said softly, “here you are.”
He reached out— Not touching. Just gesturing toward me.
“You feel it, don’t you?”
I didn’t answer. Because I did. That constant presence. That weight. That… change.
His eyes moved again. This time slower. More deliberate. They lingered. On my beard. Thick. Unavoidable. Then my chest. My stomach. Lower. My hips. My ass.
I shifted slightly. Instinct. He noticed. Of course he did. A quiet chuckle escaped him.
“Honestly…”
He leaned in just enough for me to hear clearly—
“…the beard suits you.”
My jaw tightened.
“And the hair,” he added, glancing briefly at my thinning scalp, “or what’s left of it.”
I didn’t react. Didn’t give him that. But he kept going. Unbothered.
“Though I have to say…”
His eyes dropped again. Lingering longer this time.
“…you’ve really filled out.”
A pause. Then, almost amused:
“Especially back there.”
My stomach twisted. Different this time. Not hunger. Something heavier.
“You’re enjoying this,” I muttered.
“I’m observing,” he corrected.
“Big difference.”
I looked at him. Really looked. Perfect posture. Perfect control. Everything I used to be. Everything I wasn’t anymore.
“Can it be reversed?” I asked.
He hesitated.Just slightly.
“No.”
Simple. Clean. Final. Silence settled between us.
The noise of the bar faded into the background. People moved. Laughed. Lived. Like nothing had changed. Except everything had. He straightened slightly.
“Well,” he said, almost casually, “you’re stable now.”
Another look. One last assessment.
“You’ll adjust.”
Then— A faint smile.
“You don’t really have a choice.”
And just like that— He stepped back. Blended into the crowd. And disappeared. I stayed there. Sitting. Heavy. Still. My drink untouched.
My reflection faint in the mirror behind the bar. Distorted. Wider. Different. My hand moved slowly. Rested on my stomach. Pressed. Firm. Grounded. Real. And for the first time— I didn’t ask why anymore.
Just— “What now?”
Caleb woke because his stomach hurt.
At first he thought it was the cheap wine, or the takeout he had eaten sitting cross-legged on the floor of a stranger’s apartment after they had sex. The room was unfamiliar in the dark: a low bed, a chair with someone else’s jeans over the back, a phone charger that was not his. Beside him, the man from the bar slept heavily, one arm flung across the pillows.
Caleb pressed a hand to his abdomen and slipped out from under the sheet and made his way to the unfamiliar bathroom.
He was twenty-five, thin enough that people still called him “boy” sometimes or more frequently “twink,” with narrow shoulders, pale skin, and almost no hair on his chest. In the bathroom mirror, under the yellow light, he looked exactly like himself: messy blond hair with dark roots, faint stubble, soft brown eyes made sleepier by the hour.
Then pain folded through him.
He gripped the sink. His reflection seemed to ripple, as if the glass had turned to water. Caleb blinked hard. His stomach tightened beneath his palm. Not sick-tight. Strong. His shoulders widened first.
He watched in stunned silence as his collarbones became less sharp, his chest filled out, and his arms thickened with sudden muscle. His face matured in fast, impossible increments: jaw squaring, cheeks hollowing slightly, stubble darkening into a fuller beard. The boyish softness left him, replaced by something rougher, handsomer, more certain.
Caleb forgot to be afraid for one dangerous second.
He touched his upper arm. It was solid. Powerful. He looked like a man in his thirties, masculine in a way he had never been. His posture had changed. Even his breathing felt deeper. A thin trail of hair had appeared on his chest, spreading down his stomach. His eyes widened, not with horror yet, but fascination.
“Oh my God,” he whispered. Then the change kept going.
The hair at his temples grayed. Lines cut beside his eyes and mouth. The firmness in his stomach softened. His shoulders stayed broad, but his skin loosened over them. The beard turned salt-and-pepper, then mostly gray. The man in the mirror passed through middle age in less than a minute, dragging Caleb with him.
“No,” Caleb said. “No, stop.”
His hair thinned and darkened with sweat then mostly fell out. His forehead creased. The smooth skin of his neck folded. His stomach bloated - growing with each nearly hyperventilating breath. Strength remained in him, but it was older strength now, worn and heavy. His face settled into a stranger’s: sixties, rugged, tired, still handsome in places, but unmistakably old. He lifted a wrinkled hand to his mouth to prevent himself from sobbing.
Inside, Caleb was still twenty-five. He remembered the music at the bar. The hand on his lower back. Laughing too loudly. The man asleep in the other room fulfilling his need to be seen - and the fullness he felt as he thrusted into Caleb’s tight twink hole. He remembered these feelings thinking he had endless time to become whoever he wanted.
Behind the bathroom door, the stranger in bed stirred. “Everything okay?” he called sleepily.
Caleb stared at the old man in the mirror. He did not answer. He could not make the voice come out.
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