bit of a shithole

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Q-Zoned

We’ve banned self-control

Made wisdom illegal

Commitment will get you committed

And what we know you’ve committed

It’ll put you away for years

Oh it’s way too late for tears

Yeah

We’ll ignore the whispered curses

Your venom just flies past

A thousand doses of the little death

Carried on your stinking breath

  And we’re safe from all we cannot see

Herd immunity for you and me

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I Can Get Better

I can already feel you pulling away

But I’d be childish to start laying blame your way

Tonight we both did what we knew was right

And we’re staying friends, and we killed pie night

What’s between us was getting too loud to ignore

Noticed by our friends, and that guy at the store

We cuddled and we baked, on the couch, on the bed

My chin resting nicely on your matchless head

I’m glad we were able to each make a peep

We’ll be sad for a while, and then we’ll both go to sleep

We’ll get up tomorrow and have real good days

We’ll say hi to our friends, and cut it out with the daze

You and me’ll keep having just as much fun

Respecting our boundaries, staring into the sun

And it’s my fervent wish that in a year

We’ll love each other loud enough for all to hear

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Talladega Superspeedway

I have found some self-control

I have learned to quickly roll

I have found the strength to stand

I have found some good new bands

I am getting really good grades

I have self-respect in spades

I’m not using drugs too much

Well, I am, but not too much

I have string lights in my room

I make comments when on Zoom

I will always help my brother

Sibling roommate father mother

I can live when things are tough

Yet all of this is not enough

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Years and Beers

Four years later

I’ve just gotten worse

Every lesson I’ve learned

Carries with it a curse

The first is the hardest

Huh well I’m not so sure

Every day I’m hiding

From a permanent cure

Can I start getting better

Should I make a change

Should I answer that letter

Am I home on this range

Should I tell him to stop it

Or keep to myself

Should I ask her to start it

Or do I end it myself

I haven’t learned my lesson

I just care a bit more

And I live in the past

And my love lies in store

Eat my ass god I’m not having it

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A Message through the Aether

I hate being smart

I hate being healthy

I wanna fuck us both up

And then take a selfie

Sent to both our friends

Who know we’re chasing dead ends

It’s a bona fide party

But we’re playing pretend

I’ll hang up your artwork

Right next to my shirts

Asking question after question

Do we have the same hurts

Take your passion somewhere else

We’ve no need of it here

We stopped having feelings

When we stopped drinking beer

I know you don’t want to be sleeping alone

I just wanna see your name on my phone

My heart sings out when you say my name

Even though we know that we’re both losing this game

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On the Benefits of ZING

 I needed a summer this cold

So I could see

->everything that I don’t want to see<-

a little more clearly

 When one is in the cold

One wants to get

OUT OUT OUT

 I want to be warm again

 A few days ago, I felt a tremendous ZING and

It shot through my brain and my soul and I

KNEW!

That I had to pull it together

Because I don’t want it all to fall apart

 I still have myself left and I can’t lose that too

 Just remember the zing

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We we we we we

I can’t force myself to write

As the below clearly shows

When I feel alright

But that don’t last, as you know

But I still think of you

Even when I’m sad

Of your eyes, lightish blue

And the things that we had

And the thing that we have

And the things that will come

And the sound of the ocean

And the beat of the drum

I do my very best

Not to hassle you

All you should be is that

And you’ve got your own blues

But that’s okay, we’ll be better

Trust me, we will

And in the meantime we’ll stay

In the hole we can’t fill

And nothing is hopeless

You’ve proved that to me

And whatever may happen

We’ll learn to be free

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This Is Gonna Be Good

I don’t have the words

But I still hear the birds

And I still see your face

I guess this is the place

  I would hold you all night

Then all day then all night

Even though I got class

What a pain in the ass

  As I write all this down

I don’t think I could frown

If I tried

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I should put this on a tshirt or 3

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Come on dude

Explain this to me please

How you can dance with me

I want to hold you in my arms

But I guess it can’t be

  But you still dance with me

And talk about your boys

Like nothing ever changed

Like the radio’s just noise

  We hadn’t talked in months

I thought it could be done

But now you dance with me

Like you’re having so much fun

  We like the same music

We think the same things

And you dance and dance and dance

And my love for you still stings

  I guess I was close to happy

Knowing there was nothing I could do

And now you take my hand in mine

Cause I gotta dance with you

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Sunshine Girl

I wish I could see you

A little more often

I wish when you saw me

Your features would soften

 An embrace from your arms,

A touch from your hands,

A scene of you laughing

At my favorite bands

  I just want to see you

And hear you as well

Though if you’re in my life

It may not go well

 And can I just see you

Drinking some tea

Laughing and smiling

And glancing at me

 Can I just hear you

Singing out loud

Loving your music

No matter the crowd

 Can I just feel you

Sleep next to me

With your hair on my face

And your scent around me

 And can you still see me

With your eyes like the sea

Or do you just feel bad

Or don’t you trust me

 Can you still hear me

As I call out

Your name from my eyes

As I look at your mouth

 And can you still touch me

Is that still okay

Will you let me go

Or must I still stay

 But I’d stay forever

And ever with you

Cause I look like a rock star

And you look like one too

 And we’d be the coolest cats in this neighborhood

Yeah

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But on the other hand

Beautiful people and wonderful friends

Dominos pizza the flex never ends

Caffeine and nicotine pushing me through

History and German and being a Jew

A house of my own with a hundred fruit flies

Chilling around, cutting down on the lies

Smoking some weed, doing some drugs

Considering buying a couple of rugs

Seeing two people, the closest of friends

Making me sure that hope never ends

And some of these things might be killing me slow

But don’t ya know that we all gotta go

And just slower than faster strikes me as fine

That song that I like just came on in the Grind!

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This person is cool, but empty

I saw you five minutes ago

Or probably less

And I can’t tell anymore no I really can’t tell

Am I sad for you or for me or for you

Or for you or for me for you

Probably maybe I can’t tell you

  And I hate that you saw me

But I love that you saw me

And I hate that you left me

But what else were you gonna do

  I’m too selfish to really care about anyone but me

And I’m too inhuman to see what to be

Or is it human

Or is it me

Who even knows

  I’m gonna eat some fucking cheese

After I get out of this stupid meeting

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You can’t find happiness in chemical structures

Hope is not is a tab of acid

I’ll build my own damn future

One clean dish after the other

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LSA Daydreams

Nothing matters but

We’re all just trying to find

A framework of reality to live in

Where people are what you think they are

Where you can judge a book by its cover

Where everything is what it is

And your blood is as red as this

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Yeah okay

I know I have to let you go

But I really really really really

Really really really really

Don’t want to

Is that okay

Can that be okay

Please

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A Dream Too Far

I dreamed last night

That it was all okay

We were together and we could hold

Each other

For

As long

As we wanted to

I woke up on the couch

The storm at bay again

I need to stop dreaming