DysFucktional

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[ishedysfucktional]

Show you all what a man is.

Pointed power.

Drips in every hour.

I learn to lead.

While lost in need.

Begging to.

Tied to loving you.

Not loving me.

Or even wanting to be.

Need and tired lies.

She had such pretty eyes.

Golden glee.

Moves before me.

Endlessly and end to greed.

I feel filled by you.

Taken by persevered youth.

Tied to your holy hold.

Leaking from your amber gold.

Her perfect skin.

Like morbid sin.

I need it more.

And more and more.

She was like a wrist slit.

Free and freeing.

Timid fear.

Of faulted feeling.

Sweet Leaking blood.

Her knowing love.

Gentle glare.

She had a pretty stare.

Held and holding.

Her mind was old and knowing.

Gentle glee.

I love and hate when you look at me.

Her hug was like a noose.

A tightened tie for setting loose.

It let's me leave.

This sordid space of grief.

Giving truth.

Her voice was bound for booth.

Talk me through my final moments.

Cut me up and keep me open.

Held in hoping.

And dying in youth.

I know the truth.

Please let me loose.

Here eyes burrow into me.

Deep into my ravaged skin.

She takes a piece.

Given free.

A taste of me that shouldn't be.

Burning in her care.

Held in my dispear.

I fear her lovinging light.

I fear the absence of night.

The days are never ending.

While night is not beginning.

Ending gives me ease.

Dying is release.

She had mahogany eyes.

Golden lies I loved like knives.

Treat me to your hate.

Gift me livings fate.

Unsightly truth.

My burdened youth.

I need you all.

Pressed to me.

Endlessly.

In knowing need.

Sweet gentle touch.

If you kill me.

That will be enough.

Driver a dagger through my heart.

Keep it there and make it last.

I want to die by your little hands.

Held and lost in your allure.

She was more then pure.

And I was just a whore.

Hang me in the louve.

You're choking hands a golden noose.

Take your time.

Lovingly watching me writhe.

Pretty pain.

Beat me till I'm sane.

Dyings Golden glare.

Tears and torrid tear.

Rip me to pieces.

While I worship you like Jesus.

Maybe I'll feel better when I'm dead.

But for now I'll go back to bed.

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Time is boring.

Tie me to my bed.

Safe and true to me.

Lend me the sleep of the dead.

Tightly tied I feel alive.

Hold me.

Own me.

I need it pressed to my flesh.

Sweet refresh.

Like broken blade.

Its heaven made.

And made for me.

Keep me there.

Safe from life's dispear.

The truest care.

Beyond knowing glares.

Of hatred eyes.

And lovers lies.

Purging truth.

While ruling youth.

And finding death.

Between each breath.

Its stuck there.

My bodys is it's lair.

Knives and inhibition.

I try but can not listen.

Lost in my knowing bed.

Hoping to play until I'm dead.

It hides beneath my breath.

Like sweet and loving meth.

A true escape.

A home I do not clean.

A truth that doesn't gleam.

It simple is.

And I like this.

I wish they bottle death.

And sell to sullen.

Who spend their days lost mulling.

The pages of their lives.

Each turn a set of knives.

Holding true.

Trully loving you.

They leak my sins away.

And tell the night to stay.

Holding in forever.

Taking me to never.

True love was solid to me.

I cut boxes with its glee.

Its holy gleam.

In moonlight beam.

Is majesty.

And magic greed.

Feed my Holding hunger.

Love me till I'm under.

Is this the worth of hell.

I welcome this evil spell.

That spells the end of glee.

I know my enemies.

They love and live in me.

Take me to my tomb.

My bed is burning to.

Tied alive.

A knife and life.

I feel enough in death.

The truth of me is not in breath.

Hug my neck.

Cut my wrists and write this check.

Fools gold.

And folly to.

I dream of you.

While dying to.

And breathing through.

The end of me.

Sweet enemy.

Is ending me.

So lovingly.

With horrid glee.

Take your time.

Write to me a faulted rhyme.

Church bells chime.

Finally.

I'm out of time.

[lifeinpoetry]

i // am statuesque. no colour & grotesque. i am art, i tell myself. i am worthy to be looked at, especially this way. this is love. this is love. this is —

— Lahraeb Munir, from "mother medusa," published in Pigeon Publishing

[ishedysfucktional]

I just want her to beat me to death.

Hot.

Hellish abyss.

Doused in her piss.

Sweet saving grace.

Lost lorn and alone.

Held in her porn.

He evilness form.

Holy hell.

He frame a growing spell.

Bound to me.

Loving her endlessly.

We.

Turn to me.

Ever so quickly.

Lost again.

He finds a different friend.

He courts the end.

With herbs and liquor.

The black ice,

Gets ever sliker.

We all falling soon.

My lover gives us slapstick doom.

Brown.

Eyes and skin of sin.

Both darling chocolate.

Laced with need.

My favorite weed.

Sweet Mary Jane.

Making me,

We I'm still insane.

Curbed and cured.

Loved and lured.

She's tying me.

Tirelessly

Timelessly.

Her deed is done.

Now with knife.

She has her fun.

A cut and slice.

She loves alike.

I scream in spite.

Longing for the end of strife.

It's coming soon.

She whispers drapped in blood.

Sweet perfect lust.

Is friends with true disgust.

She grabs his neck.

Sulking away at more then his breath.

Bound to breast.

He'll try to rest.

She's such a mess.

Of hair and gore.

Her tight thin core.

Is my abore.

Love and hate.

Tied together by lovers fate.

Without this pain.

It's all just fake.

Sade me Sweet.

Turn my body to pounded meat.

Oh holy hell.

I'm tied to spell.

Her fingers reach.

Through ribs and bone.

Her fingers cold.

She takes a hold.

Of beating heart.

It feels like end.

But it's a start.

She loves me I know.

As light turns to white.

Which is all taken by night.

Her killing curse.

A knife inside her purse.

Please let it loose..

Please tie my noose.

She loves me soo.

She beats me to death then let's me go.

[anxietyproblem]

[ishedysfucktional]

Endless nights and lust.

Haze.

Wonders through his days.

Lost and still alone.

Hoping for a home.

He's tied.

To his need to be needless.

Lost in his own mind.

Shackled to shame he made.

The bed is laid.

He tries to wad.

But drowns instead.

Stuck.

Surely now he's out of luck.

Yet he drags on.

Setting date after date.

Consistently sealing his fate.

But fickle mind full of hate.

Holds him still.

He hopes to kill.

Feeling much to ill.

It plauges me.

But maybe.

It could curb greed.

Need.

A hollow word he holds.

Maims and breaks.

Changing its meaning.

Sweet crafty poetry.

Still keeping me.

He sees only himself.

Cares for all others.

In suicidal love.

He needs another.

What does need even mean.

Lean.

She was petite and mean.

Smile of venomous mead.

He drank her soul.

Stole it and tied it to page.

Something he could maintain.

His morbid flaw.

Then afterwards he calls her whore.

In love and hate.

He holds on still.

Unable to swallow his home made pill.

It's me and it always will be.

Ending.

He knows only pretending.

Lost in form and tied to scorn.

He lives off porn

And lyst that's lorn.

His heart is torn.

You did this to.

Oh I.

Tied to her evil eyes.

Trying to let her go.

In mind he sucks her toes.

Sweet woes.

I miss all of you.

Every person hidden in her head.

Oh burning bed.

Soon I should be dead.

I still pretend.

Harrow holding me to the end.

Sweet light.

I welcome the endless night.

[ishedysfucktional]

We should legalize suicide.

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Obsession is only the start sometimes I look through superbal7st and plan outfits for her. I honestly shouldn't be.

[ishedysfucktional]

I just want to have sex before I die. That's all. Waiting on this next paycheck. No work all week.

[kakuriyo]

[ishedysfucktional]

Honey and hell.

Lay in her hand like tempering spell.

She's brewing evil.

Sweet senseless sin.

Leaks from her timid grin.

Cinnamon Empress.

Born of my greed.

Bored of my every need.

(She bores herself)

Sun dyed daises.

Hide behind her smile.

Simple and sweet.

Beestung beam of dreams.

Reaches out to heaven.

With longing legs.

Sweet daddy.

Yet still a baddy.

She had an emotional fatty.

(She's a psychologist.)

The stars too.

Belong to holy you.

Gemini June and ruin.

Are wrapped to your allure.

Constantly begging for more.

Morbid broken dregs.

And fingers like spiders legs.

Lost in her eyes.

I look away.

I look again.

And see only pain.

(What do you love me too?)

Sweet you.

Perfection distilled twice.

She was more then nice.

Sweetness exudes from her soul.

While living in endless toil.

I see beneath you mask.

All you hide and heal.

I hate how much you feel.

Love is but a curse.

And for me its getting worse.

Her arms must be a noose.

Her tightend grip let's me loose.

(I like her hugs not hugs)

Purple pain.

Dulled by Gaias glee.

Green and lean.

Lovingly mean.

You see it too.

My ever impending tomb.

Time taken and sworn.

Worn and tied to war.

I love the hard part.

And her softening eyes.

It's like you feel my pain.

(But the truth is I'm insane)

[ishedysfucktional]

BREATHSTROKE

Man I've been drowning.

Deep sea diving.

But on the surface you will never.

See me crying.

....Howling....

Moon solos of moans.

Begging and pleading.

Silently bleeding.

Sweet blood letting.....

Is always easier then forgetting.

Man I've been drowning.

Each day a wave.

Of sadness and sin.

Her perfect pure grin.

Beguiled glee.

Lovingly ending need.

Thrown to sea .

Still blind to see.

Her hurting me.

yet am I just using.

She.

Man I've been waiting.

For my taken ride to end the light.

The dark of night.

Feels more like shining knight.

The sweet holy arms of hell.

Draw with their honked spell.

Brimstone and greed.

We're given to me.

I take my time.

Regaining my smile.

Then enter death.

The only need I put above her breath.

[ishedysfucktional]

Amber charcoal.

Fills her skin.

Sweetest sin.

Drips from her sinister grin.

I'd she evil or love.

Or a demon from high above.

Her celestial body.

Was space black.

Glistening pearls of white light.

Her nappy noose.

While tight was also loose.

My goddesses glare.

Tied to her flowing hair.

Her bountiful body.

Was more then me.

Though still a need.

Such is the greed of me.

Held tight to skin.

Perfectly shaping her form.

I swear she looked like scorn.

My heartbreak.

My first and last mistake.

She looks at me.

Behind inspection lenses.

Holding me true.

Warmly feeling relief.

Of being part of her fief.

Her arms are winding and warm.

So I can help but feel safe and secure.

Hold me.

Drain away my pain.

Love me.

Don't look at me the same.

As other dudes.

I just feel used.

Sweet seductive noose.

I beg of you to let me loose.

Each battle turns to war.

Merely trying to find my adore.

Sweet whore.

Each day I miss you more.

[writing-prompt-s]

A cruel prank by your bullies leaves you separated from the rest of the class. Instead of finding your way back, you decide to “go missing” and let the consequences catch up to them.

[ishedysfucktional]

Kissing Catchers.

Winding world.

Starts to unfurl.

This horrid snake.

Reaches it fate.

Sweet biting glee.

She's biting me.

My enemy.

My deepest need.

Oh greed.

I need to watch you bleed.

Like up your blood.

Lost in morbid love.

That iron taste.

Of crimson haste.

Rushing further.

From chest to belly.

It takes me now.

The thoughts of you.

Locked in love.

Screaming for God's above.

I hate myself.

By loving you.

Tied to your fleeting.

Horrid hue.

Sweet purple pain.

No longer sain.

I break again afriad.

Feeling your embrace.

Crying ar the thought of your face.

I want to be her haste.

Feel her warm worn waste.

Hold me close.

And cut me again.

I miss the blade you made.

Her horror raid.

She gifts me death.

By letting me taste her breath.

[ishedysfucktional]

Kiss me at the crime scene

Hammers.

Pounding flesh,

Breathing death.

It sticks to steel.

The gorey glee.

Of bleeding breed.

Sweet blood.

Leaves me thoughts of lust and love.

It's breaks through bone.

Like styrfoam.

It feels like home.

This horrid act.

Mines metal made.

Hers wooden bat.

Breaking breed.

Later we'll feed.

My bloody bath.

Feels more like the past.

She gets the acid.

I pour it in.

I kind her grin.

Dripping with sin.

Both blood and skin.

Falls from her chin.

We watch and wait.

Use sex to hurry fate.

It's getting late.

But she'll arrive.

And so will I.

Slowing breath.

We return to breeding death.

A gooey pool.

Is all that's left of broken tool.

We scoop it up.

The pieces too.

We keep a piece.

Each ring finger.

We tight to steel.

Melted hammer.

Turns to morbid glammer.

Tied to our necks.

We keep a piece of death.

The guilted bat.

We turned to splintered wood.

It feed fire.

Together with gasolined tire.

Sweet burning love.

Sweet burning lust.

Kiss me at the crime scene.

My sweet and morbid evil queen.