I first thought of putting "And just like that, we have a four year old.." as a caption to this post. But then, I immediately thought that it was not "just like that", it was not easy, it almost always never was. But still, I am very grateful for every circumstance that came along with you since the day I knew I had you in my womb. Yes, you weren't planned then, but you were a very welcome surprise to our lives. The past year was definitely like a roller coaster ride. It was full of transitions -- from you dealing with me being pregnant with Seth and then becoming a big brother to him, to you going to school and meeting a lot of new people. I know you need me now more than ever. But your baby brother needed to be physically cared for in a way different from you. I was too caught up that I neglected the deep mental and emotional dependence that you desired from me. And for that, I am truly sorry. I am sorry if you felt upset that you had less of my attention. I am sorry if you felt hurt that mommy seemed to be more concerned about your baby brother than you. I am sorry if you were forced to grow up a tad faster because we gave you a younger sibling. You never had a say, yet you willingly poured out your heart for your little brother. We are ever so thankful that God gave us you as our firstborn. We could not have asked for anyone more perfect than you are. You are the most loving big brother, the most sensitive son, and the sweetest little man in my life. I have watched you grow and am constantly amazed by the things that you do. Thank you for always putting a smile on my face even when I feel exhausted, even when things and people don't go on our side, even when things get really hard. I don't know what the future holds. All I know is that God had given me strength. A kind of strength that I had never experienced before. A mother’s strength which stems from her deep love for her child. This love, my child, will always follow you wherever you go. No matter how quickly you grow, no matter where you venture, my love will always be with you, Kuya Kester. 19 July 2019 #KesterMiguel https://www.instagram.com/p/B0W7EhfgSk-wNucSIMZcCUb8VTfqsYHWpxLmjU0/?igshid=19yyc7w6i8edo
