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Me, myself, and I

First of all, you'll have to excuse the way this is written, I write how things come out of my mind, not necessarily how they would make sense to the reader. It's funny how time can change things. A lot or a little. Just yesterday I found it almost physically painful to be in my own skin. I was dead set on writing a post about how I wanted to spend one day in someone else's body, not their life, just their body. I wanted to see what it would be like just to look different and feel different. But today I woke up and I got ready for the class, and up and I was/am so content with who I am and what I look like, and just amazed me how so little time it took to change my entire attitude toward myself. I've been trying to dedicate time toward myself lately, to work on my overall perception of myself. I've also been trying to get back into dating, because I'm not too big into the hookup culture and honestly I hate being alone, but what I've realized in this endeavor is that I am still a work in progress. Because of my efforts to work on myself, and because of my age, I am in a very selfish place in my life. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing, actually the opposite, I'm not ashamed of it at all. I'm somewhere where I want to, and ultimately need to, put my needs before someone else's. And what this journey is showing me is that maybe I don't need to be in some kind of conventional relationship. Would it be nice to have someone who was willing to give me everything I need to work on myself? Yes, but I don't know that I've found such a person to do that. I need time to indulge on my more selfish needs, and by that I mean that I need things like plenty of me time, the ability to what I want or need when I want or need it, and really just freedom to go about with myself. People shouldn't be ashamed of being this type of selfish. And I know there have to be other people who feel this way, they want the comfort and companionship of a relationship but also want to work on themselves. Do ya feel me?

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a bpd concept: the splitting stops. you can see gray. you can see gradients and shades and pastels and neons. you can see the entire spectrum; no more just seeing extremes. you are at peace.

Running with the Boys

Everyone knows that girl that only, or mostly, hangs out with boys. It doesn’t mean she’s all tomboy all the time. It doesn’t mean that she’s a huge flirt. She’s a very special type of girl. She may not know how to fix a car engine, but that won’t stop her from showing up in her best guy friend’s garage to help any way she can. She is the girl who is down for anything from watching football to going fishing. She doesn’t always need her fruity cocktails, she’s perfectly content with a beer or some whiskey. That doesn’t mean that she won’t ask her boys what guys look for in girls, or their opinion on her as a girl. Granted her guy friends will likely go one of two ways; they will either tease her a little and give her a non-helpful answer, or they will be direct and tell her exactly what they think. People, especially the girliest of girls, don’t always understand these lovely creatures. Maybe they grew up with a bunch of brothers and learned to embrace wrestling as a form of affection. Maybe her dad wanted a son and she learned to love football as a way to get along with the man she looked up to most. She learned to adapt and it helped form her into who she it. Sure, she played with her barbies when she was little, but she would also play hot wheels with her brother. This type of girl has no issue defying gender stereotypes. She fully believes she can do anything, and acts on it wholeheartedly. She has the best of both worlds, she wears makeup and motor oil. Here’s to these girls, these beautiful, misunderstood girls.

#runningwiththeboys

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when i see pics from my concert

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“remember that time in 7th grade when you-“

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please don’t feel bad because you feel like you cry too much or that your grades suck or that you eat too much. Sailor Moon had all those flaws but she was a hero and so are you.

People use People

I’ve been used by people for most of my life. I honestly accepted it as a part of my everyday reality. People use people for whatever they want, then they move on. People have used me for money, power, sex, and just because they could. As a result in life I haven’t had much to give. It has effected my trust and my ability to accept love in any form. I never know how to treat people, and I can never tell what they’re motives are. I’ve never had much money, but when I do I love to use it on others. I’ve never been powerful, but when I had leadership I like to use it for the betterment of others. When I was 15 years old even my virginity was taken from me without my permission from someone I thought loved me, soon after it happened they dropped me from their life. They used me and they threw me away, until I was convenient to them again, and now they continue to try and use me whenever they see fit. So many times I’ve wanted to quit this world because of its harsh ways. I’m about to be 20 years old. The world hasn’t changed, but I have. The new movement of my life is not letting people use me. People aren’t going to stop trying to bring you down. They don’t care if you’re up or already down. All you can do is lookout for yourself and worry about others second. You’re too precious to let someone tarnish you. It’s never too late to take care of you.

#deepthoughts #ranting #peopleusepeople

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This movie is one of my favorites ever

I solemnly swear that tomorrow I'll actually make a real post to tumblr about some real, deep shit. Stay tuned.

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Albums Im Still fucking waiting for

Frank Ocean

Let me catch you in these streets cause you think this shit is a game

Kanye

Let me find out that It’s North West’s little ass holding up this album. Dis gon be me & her… I don’t care how cute she think she is

Adele

21 done turned 51 and gettin ready to retire. It’s time for another damn album

Drake

IYRTITL mixtape was cute. But I can’t run through the 6 anymore nigga. My feet are tired. Woes tired. Ain’t no more runnin bih. Drop the album

Rihanna

Gurlllll… do you still sing? You done found everything under the sun to do BUT drop an album. Fuck yo money. Where is my ALBUM?

Lorde

Don’t be thinking you actually a royal now hunney. You still need to release music. Let me peep you at them tennis courts sis. We gon’ do some talking alright

Beyonce

I Just KNOW yo sneaky ass is working on an album, and planning how you’re going to drop it and fuck shit up. Ima need you to stop this war-like tactic of dropping music. This ain’t WW2 bih. We shouldn’t have to Stop, Duck and Cover every time you choose to release something. And why yo ass always wanna release something late at night? We got Jobs, Families, Lives. What about the Children!? Do it for the Children. They runnin into walls at school and falling down steps because they ain’t get any sleep last night, because you wanna be petty and do shit like call up Nicki and drop remixes when people are setting their alarms for work the next morning!? Then they gotta answer questions like “Tisha, what happened to your hair?”. Just because you love Jay-Z and He bald don’t mean everyone else that loves you wanna be bald. OK!?