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non-binary || trans masc || he/they Switch || claimed unclaimed I basically live in the art studio, I'm just here for the art classes.

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

You get that one too, huh? Okay. Just…Thought I would make sure. 

PM: That’s sadly accurate. That’s alright, that’s not the important part anyway. Well, in that case I would say you double-deserve your more-than-okay-and-fine then. Not that you didn’t before. But, what I meant by that was more…When you said that being helpful doesn’t turn back time. As much as I wish it could, I meant that at some point, there will be a time (not that there hasn’t been before either) when it isn’t “just”. When maybe…You’re not so fine, or are less fine than you are now. And so, maybe in those times, it might help just a little to remember that there is someone out there who cares enough to want to help. Maybe it’ll help you remember that you don’t have to be so alone, no matter what someone else made you feel. That’s okay. Trusting people isn’t a bad thing. Not always. And, if it helps anything, I’m no Dahmer. And, for what it’s worth…You really should give yourself more credit than that, Mx. I know that’s a hard thing to do sometimes, and right now especially, but that doesn’t make it any less true. 

Yeah, I got that one. It’s a classic. 

PM: You’re no Dahmer, huh? Sounds suspiciously like something a Dahmer would say. I’m teasing, by the way. I know you’re not. Probably. I have really bad people judging skills. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know that I agree, but I guess we’ll see. I can’t stop people from caring, it seems. I’m not sure how to trust anyone, or if I want to. It’s not about having people knocking on my door, there are plenty of people looking for someone around here, it’s about me not wanting to let them in.

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

You’re killing me, Smalls. I do, yes. Is that okay? 

PM: Really? That’s cool. It’s usually kind of a toss-up with a show like that. It’s one of my favorites. And, it’s…This might come off as totally cliche, but I don’t really know a better way to say what I’m trying to. There’s a scene, it’s in one of Matt Smith’s seasons- I won’t try to explain exactly what was happening at the time. Anyway, there’s something the Doctor says that comes to mind. “Every time you see them happy, you remember how sad they’re going to be. And it breaks your heart. Because what’s the point in them being happy if they’re going to be sad later? The answer is, of course, because they’re going to be sad later.” Does that…Make sense? I haven’t, no. I’ll make sure you do. 

Nice reference. Yeah, it’s okay. 

PM: Yeah, I can see that. It seems like people have either seen every episode or never heard of it. I can’t say I know the show well enough to know what scene you’re talking about, but the quote does make sense. How does it fair against walking into bad situations, though? Skipping right over the happy and moving right into the sad. And scared. And hurt. Not to be an edgelord here, but anyone could secretly be Jeffrey Dahmer. I wouldn’t know until it was too late. 

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

You don’t need to thank me, you know. I mean, you’re welcome, and it’s really kind that you did. But you don’t have to. I want to see you. 

PM: Unfortunately, I managed to leave home without my handy-dandy time machine. I understand, Mx. Maybe not…Exactly that. But I do understand. Which is exactly why I want to try and be helpful. Because I know that one day, eventually, it won’t just be. What i mean is…Okay, this is going to seem off-topic but, have you ever watched Doctor Who? You don’t have to admit it, then. You will. Have you eaten, Mx?

And here I am, almost thanking you again. You want to see me?

PM: Dr. Who? I’ve seen a few episodes. Why? I haven’t, no. Time got away with me. Have you?

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

I’m on my way. 

PM: Mx…I don’t mean to overstep my bounds by any means, but “not worrying about it” isn’t exactly in my repertoire. If you think of anything, I hope you’ll let me know. I actually do like being helpful. And I do want you to be more than fine, or okay. You deserve that. 

Thank you.

PM: You’re not overstepping, but there really is nothing to be done. Unless you’ve got a time machine so that I can stop myself from getting claimed. You are helpful, but being helpful doesn’t turn back time. There isn’t anything that anyone can do to erase what happened. So it just is. It’ll be nicer than I want to admit to not be alone, so there’s that. I’ll see you soon. 

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

It’s not too bad, though. I would like that, as long as that’s what you want. Same isn’t always bad, but being better than fine would be fantastic. Is there anything I can do, Mx?

You can come over. There isn’t really anything that can be done for me. Don’t worry about it. I’ll go open my door, don’t worry about knocking.

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

I guess that depends on your definition of “okay”, Mx. I’m not actively dying or anything, but I’ve had better days. I’ll be okay, are you feeling okay?

Well, that doesn’t sound good. Do you wanna come over? Yeah, I’m fine. Just, you know, same.

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

I keep thinking warmer weather is coming, and then it just doesn’t. Some days, it seems like the temperature might rise, but its just been a tease. My allergies aren’t built for this, I can say that much. 

@bridgeportstarters​

Are you feeling okay?

[simsremodeler]

Of course. What kind of Dom would I be, otherwise? What about Saturday? Take your time.

PM: I see. I can't say I know much of relationships, outside the Dominant-submissive arena, but it seems to me that if you are not ready for feelings to be involved, then you're doing the right thing. You know, we are all adults here. As long as you are continuously honest, that's all you can really do. You can't make their choices for them. Just don't assume they'll know, without you directly and repeatedly telling them, what you want, and what it means. Not how I'd put it all, but we can talk about that when you come by.

[itselliskarofsky]

I don't know that I have an answer to that. Okay. Saturday is good with me.

PM: It would be a lot easier if I could just be antisocial, but it seems like that's not possible. I like being around people too much. Yeah... okay, we can do that.

[itselliskarofsky]

alfieclarington​:

Ah, hey…. Sorry… Got caught up with things… How’s everyone doing? Gosh..

@bridgeportstarters​

Oh yeah? Well hey, what’s up?

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

PM: Alright. Yes, Mx. I’m coming. Should I bring anything?

PM: Just yourself, and whatever you need for the night. 

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bridgeportoliver​:

As much as I always look forward to coming back home after an extended business trip, even I have to admit something seems a little off around here. I’ll cross my fingers that it’s just a case of jet leg and exhaustion, but I’ve seen more than a few people giving each other strange looks. Anyone care to fill me in on what I’ve missed? 

Speaking of seeing people, hey to all the people who arrived in my absence. I’m Oliver Bray, CEO & Owner of BrayTech, Inc. I won’t bore anyone with what that is publicly, but if you’re curious don’t stop yourself from coming to say hi.  @bridgeportstarters​

Not surprised that you’re still around here. You’ve got that big business, after all. Hey. What’s up?

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

PM: Maybe? I’m okay with ether. Whatever you feel up to. I want to hang out with you. I want to see you. It does look that way. I can come to you, if you want. 

PM: Both is good. Come here, that’s fine yeah. 

[itselliskarofsky]

PM from Archer Duval: Hey, Ellis. Are you....Feeling okay?

PM: Yes and no. Worse in some ways. I'll be fine, though. Are you asking because you're not okay?

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

PM: This weekend, or now? Either way, yes. Okay, I’m good with that. Thank you for thinking about me, then. That sounded strange, I’m sorry. I’m not so sure I would say I’m enjoying myself, but more that I’ve just been zoned out. Oh, that makes sense. No, I don’t have plans. Not anything Earth-shattering, anyway. I’ll probably finish some studying and read a book. 

PM: Both, maybe. If you want. Sounds like we’ve both got the time. 

[itselliskarofsky]

bridgeportpillsbury​:

continued

PM: Is that good or bad? You’re just alright? I’m glad you’re at least alright. Alright isn’t a bad thing to be, and I didn’t mean to make it sound like it was. I’m okay, thank you. I know, I’ve been with my sister a lot, and focusing on school. Trying to anyway. Are you looking forward to the weekend?

@itselliskarofsky

PM: Do you wanna hang out? It’s a good thing. I’m glad you’re enjoying yourself. I don’t really have plans for the weekend that are different than the week. So it’s all kinda the same. What about you?

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anastasiachq​:

I am, thanks for noticing. Hey Ellis. That’s a cool name, props to your parents. You basically live in the art studio? That sucks, did they not get you a dorm or what? I’m not a big artist, at least not in that sense. But, maybe I’ll stop in and hang. So, how long you been here?

More like props to me, I picked it and I live with it. They have entirely different names. It doesn’t suck, actually. I have my own space, but I prefer the art studio. I like being able to create, I fall asleep creating and wake up to do more of the same. That’s cool. If you wanna, that’s fine. I just got back, actually.