Message for Taylor 💛
Dear @taylorswift,
Hi, my name is Dustin. This is the most raw and vulnerable post I have ever written but because you have always bared your heart and soul to me I thought I could try to do the same for you. I apologize in advance if it comes out less than eloquent. The past two years have been the most soul crippling time of my life. I first lost my Mom, then during quarantine, I lost my Dad too. I was their only child and we were inexplicably bonded to each other. We would always say that we were “the soul triplets”. I treaded a sea of overwhelming and all consuming love from them both all of my life. I never once not even for a fleeting millisecond felt any negativity from them. They shielded me and protected me from all of the ugly in the world. I lived in this perfectly sealed bubble of love and acceptance. They weren’t just my everything. They were me. We were one. They were all of the most beautiful moments of my life magnified by an infinite number. They were all of the wondrous and magnificent things that make life worth it and our adoration for each other transcended time and space. My life with them would be what I imagine being a baby is like. Always safe and warm and surrounded by enrapturing love and blinding happiness. It was a taste of heaven. The closest we could get to on earth. My Mom and Dad were my strength. They were my faith. They were my soul. Life feels utterly meaningless without them. They were the only ones who ever truly loved me with every fiber of their beings and beyond. They never judged me, never forsook me, never turned their backs on me and never had a negative thing to say to me. We never fought. We only had love. We loved fiercely and unwaveringly. Our bond was incomprehensible and impenetrable. People would always say “I don’t know what Dustin is going to do when he loses his Mom or Dad!” And now I’ve lost them both. Everyone knew how infinitely strong our connection was. My Mom and Dad and I would talk about how our relationship was unlike any others and how our souls were unbreakably linked. I was my Mom and Dad’s whole entire world. I was their whole lives and they were mine. They would always call me their their miracle baby because it took them 17 years to have me and their angel child cause I was always so good to them but it paled in comparison to how good they were to me. When you lose both of your soul mates and you faithfully shared all of yourself with them, all that’s left is a shell. I’m just floating into one unrecognizable day to the next. They were my everything. They were the only real and true thing in my life. I told them so many times that when they died I would die too. A mind and heart can only take so much. I lost my livelihood, well being, and spirit. I lost the only true loves I will ever know. However, with all of this said I am so lucky to have known a kind of love that makes the human experience so remarkably worthwhile. I got to grow up with the best representation that is humanly possible of what a marriage should be. The love the best poets and songwriters, like you, write about. We always drew parallels with “The Notebook” and their relationship but their union made it feel vapid in comparison. True heartbreaking love. They were my angels. They sincerely and wholeheartedly loved everyone. Their love was an unchanging constant. They continuously prayed for me, family and friends and their family and friends and the world. They would walk around all day and night whispering prayers under their breath for everyone. They blessed countless lives. They were a rock to everyone that knew them and they were my mountain and my life force. They led by example and their love lifted masses of people, just like you. Even through all of this despondency, debilitating and mind numbing grief you and your music has pulled me through. I will never forget the night my Dad and I went shopping and as usual he told me to choose any CD I wanted. While browsing, a charming blonde curly haired country girl named Taylor Swift caught my eye and that’s where our beautiful fifteen year long journey together began. We listened to your debut on repeat the whole hour long trip back home. We even sat in the car for hours after getting home singing, bonding and crying together. It’s a memory among countless others that I’ll always carry with me and that’s all thanks to you. All of the road trips to concerts, the vacations, the late nights, the bonfires, the pool parties etc., were all shared with you. You and your music are one of the infinite invisible strings tying my parents and I together. I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my broken heart for being the sliver of healing light that I’ve so desperately needed to see in this black hole of anguish. You have truly been the sole constant in my life that keeps my heart beating and the lighthouse beaconing me to persevere. If you ever have a bad day just know you are changing lives every day. I am so unbelievably proud to be a Swiftie and to be on this extraordinary journey with you. You give me strength, purpose, inspiration and so much more. I admire you exponentially and am so deeply grateful for your heart, your generosity, your fierceness, your class, your connection with your fans, your humanitarianism, your empowerment for women, your humility, your fearlessness to be yourself and for always standing up for those in marginalized groups, your championing for social justice and change, your support for the LGBTQIAP+ community, your promotion of diversity and inclusivity, the way you foster meaningful connections with people of all cultures and your insane talent! I could praise you into infinity and write a book on what your music has done for me but just know you are loved and appreciated beyond compare and you are the reason I am still here. Beaming love and support to you, forevermore!
