How do I breathe?

AU| SINGLE VERSE RP| GRISHAVERSE IVAN AGE: 25 SMALL SCIENCE: HEARTRENDER RELATIONSHIP STATUS: TAKEN PARTNER: FEDYOR PARTNER SMALL SCIENCE: HEARTRENDER

[xmeinewelt]

“I can’t look at you without thinking that you’re the best thing that ever happened to me.”

- Unknown ( @xmeinewelt )

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[heartrenderfedyor]

Their hands bond together he feels Fedyors free hand take him by the back of the head and draw him nearly, he doesn’t hesitate leaning in to press his lips against the others his own free hand coming up to take a hold of Fedyors Kefta. When they pull away for air he nuzzles his forehead against Fedyor’s “I love you so much” his voice barely a whisper he nuzzles Fedyor again then reluctantly pulls back. The priest gives them a smile and disappears off into one of the back rooms now his job is done. Ivan looks down at their tied up a hands, releasing Fedyor’s kefta he begins to undo the knot. “Should we go hot chocolates and some pastries and go down to the river? Just you and me?” Maybe it was a childish and petty idea and maybe he was being selfish for only wanting this evening to be for him and Fedyor. Once he’s untied the silk he offers it to Fedyor “would you like to keep it? Or me?. We could….cut in half and each keep some” his cheeks flush maybe that was another foolish idea he wasn’t sure. “Is up to you husband” his voice soft, his accent strong.

A grin spreads over Fedyor’s face when Ivan tells him he loves him again. He would never tire of hearing those words. “ I love you more. From now until death.” He watches as the knot is untied and their hand released from it but they still did not let go of one another. At the mention of hot chocolate and pastries he felt a warmth grow within him. That was Ivan, like home. The two of them drinking hot chocolate and eating something together and just sharing the company of one another. “I would love to. I think It would be that perfect way to spend the evening.” When offered the ribbon he does take it but not for just himself. “I will take it and once we get back to the Little Palace I will get scissors and cut it in half and then if you want I can have Genya get us some pins so we can pin it to the inside of our keftas so we can carry it with us at all times.” He was not sure if Ivan would like the idea but if he did not then they could find something they both could agree on. He sees the flush on the other’s cheeks he knows he must he questioning himself so he leans in and kisses his cheeks, “I love the sound of that. Husband. At least now I can officially call you that, Mr. Kaminsky.” Looping his arm through Ivan’s he starts to lead them outside of the church and out onto the street. 

[ivantheheartrender]

When his arm is looped Ivan leans into his now husband making sure not to add too much of his weight as they walk back out into the town. “I have always wanted to take your surname” his cheeks flush a crimson as they make their way though the people and towards were they can get some hot chocolates and pastries. It was something himself and Fedyor did often, he probably should have suggested more but it’s what he hoped they both enjoyed doing. “I like that idea, then if the Darkling makes us separate I have a piece of you with me” he raises his free arm pointing a finger at his chest we’re his heart is. “I will have it stitched here”. They walk arm in arm, until they reach one of the vendors, Ivan asks for two hot chocolates and orders some pastries, whatever Fedyor would like, once they have all they need he walks with the other towards the river. “You are my husband, it doesn’t feel real” his voice soft. He takes a seat on one of the benches beside the river Fedyor at his side, he makes sure his knee is pressing to Fedyor’s as he takes a sip from his hot chocolate. “What do we do Fedyor, about Alina?. We can’t….I can’t…let him use her”

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[heartrenderfedyor]

Ivan takes the coin pouch from his Kefta opening it so the priest can get a good look at what was being offered. Quickly the priest seems to change his mind, a wicked grin on his lips as he becons the two of them forward towards the alter. Ivan resists the urge to roll his eyes. This is why he had always found it hard to believe in the saints. These people talked about the saints, talked about offering charity and yet how often did they help their fellow man unless coin was involved?. Show coin and most people would do anything. He makes his way to the alter with Fedyor. Positioning himself opposite the other so he’s facing Fedyor as the priest begins a little speech. Ivan remains quiet, his forest hues fixed on Fedyor as the priest speaks of love and religion. Finally he’s able to speak. “Fedyor” his accent thick and heavy as he reaches into his pocket bringing out a red silk ribbon. He gets Fedyor to place his hand ontop of his and begins to wrap the ribbon around their hands as he speaks. “You are my best friend, my true north, my true home. You have been their when nobody else was. You have loved me since we were boys and I have love you the same” he pauses “Fate, kept us apart but destiny bought us back together. And together we shall stay. I will never hurt you, never leave your side. I will protect you and love you until death takes me”. He smiles tilting his head to one side “I love you Fedyor”.

Fedyor was happy when the priest was happy to agree to do the ceremony once he saw the glint of the coin in the pouch. It was men like him that gave the saints a bad name. Part of him wanted to find a different priest, one of a better standing but he knew they did not have time to be choosey, they had to take what they could in that moment. As he stood facing Ivan the world around him fades away from him, even the priest’s voice goes away into nothing as  he finds himself focused on the man he loved before him. He offers him a soft smile. When Ivan speaks and the silk ribbons is wrapped around their hands he hangs on every word he says, each word hitting a new spot within his heart. He can feel his eyes want to shed tears but he holds them back. When it is his turn to speak he clears his throat before speaking. “Ivan, you have helped me through my toughest of times. You were a constant for me in a sea of despair.  Any time I need you  I know you would always be there for me no matter the time of day.  The past was not kind to either of us but our future will be because we will make it, we will make sure of our happiness. You are my life now. You are my soul. You are the light in my darkness. You are the calmness in my storm. I love you, Ivan.” At the last of his words the priest clasps his hands together, “ Good, now that the two of you are bound together. You may seal your fates with a kiss.” Looking down Fedyor had not realized the silk had been tied at their hands. Looking back up his hand wraps around the back up Ivan’s head to bring his mouth to his in a tender kiss.

[ivantheheartrender]

Their hands bond together he feels Fedyors free hand take him by the back of the head and draw him nearly, he doesn’t hesitate leaning in to press his lips against the others his own free hand coming up to take a hold of Fedyors Kefta. When they pull away for air he nuzzles his forehead against Fedyor’s “I love you so much” his voice barely a whisper he nuzzles Fedyor again then reluctantly pulls back. The priest gives them a smile and disappears off into one of the back rooms now his job is done. Ivan looks down at their tied up a hands, releasing Fedyor’s kefta he begins to undo the knot. “Should we go hot chocolates and some pastries and go down to the river? Just you and me?” Maybe it was a childish and petty idea and maybe he was being selfish for only wanting this evening to be for him and Fedyor. Once he’s untied the silk he offers it to Fedyor “would you like to keep it? Or me?. We could….cut in half and each keep some” his cheeks flush maybe that was another foolish idea he wasn’t sure. “Is up to you husband” his voice soft, his accent strong.

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[heartrenderfedyor]

Ivan’s lip curls into a sneer as the guards questions them but he allows Fedyor to deal with them. He’s calmer then he would have been, he knew if he’d have spoken his words wouldn’t have been so calm, so quiet and forgiving. He takes a deep breath releasing the air thought his teeth as they walk though the gates. His hand gripped tightly in Fedyor’s he brushes his thumb against the others skin. Familiar, home. He couldn’t think of ever been apart, it didn’t matter where they were in the world. Fedyor was his true north. Fedyor meant home. “Not this time Fedyor” his forest gaze turns towards the other “he will not win on this. I cannot, will not be apart from you. We lost so many years because he kept us apart. Because of unspoken words. If I had been braver then I could have already been your husband”. He brings the others hand up to his lips as they walk though the town. He didn’t care who looked, who saw them. All he wanted was to marry Fedyor. His eyes cast around, as they walk taking in the sights and sounds of the town. His eyes fall onto the church, the church of saint Anastasia. Reaching into his Kefta for his pouch of money he takes it out. “Something to bribe the priest with if all of this is too last minute”. He leans in and presses a kiss against Fedyors cheek. “I promise we will have our bracelets made after this. I know it might seem I am rushing things. But I almost died and then you did. It’s too much Fedyor. If I am to die. I want to die your husband”.

Fedyor hears the hiss of air come from Ivan from beside him as they walk through the gates. He knew he was not happy with the guards but they had made it through and that was all that mattered. When his hand was squeezed he grips it back trying to reassure the other man. “Ivan, you need to stop blaming yourself for not coming forward sooner. I could have spoken up sooner as well. We just were not meant to come together at that time but we are now. We will do everything we can to make sure no one makes us part again.” The town was full of life and it made a smile spread of his face as they walked through it hand in hand. Part of him wished they could do this, just live a life where they did not live in danger every day, no war and could just visit the markets everyday with Ivan and falling asleep every night in his arms. When they get to the church he looks up at the tall steeple where wooden decorations had been carved into it. Looking towards his lover he sees him pull out the pouch and presses his cheek into the kiss. Fedyor shakes his head, “None of this is rushed. This has been overdue for awhile I feel. The bracelets can wait as long as it takes. We still have our rings. Do you remember the day we got them? The day that started all of this?” he asks as he holds his hand out looking at the silver sing on his hand. Images of Ivan broken and hurt on the floor flash in his memory and he feels the hurt rack his body, “I will not lose you. We will get married and we will be husbands before something happens.” Stepping forward he opens the door to the church and Ivan and him step inside. 

The Priest approaches them with what looks like a welcoming smile but he knew better. “How may I help you today?” he asks. “ Are you in need of blessings or atonements?” Fedyor tries not to drop his own smile as he goes to speak, “We are in need of a quick marriage ceremony. As in one this moment. It would only take a few moments of your time.” The Priest holds up his hand to stop Fedyor in the middle of his talking. “I have no time. Maybe look for charity elsewhere.” Fedyor turns to Ivan as the Priest goes to turn away from them.

[ivantheheartrender]

Ivan takes the coin pouch from his Kefta opening it so the priest can get a good look at what was being offered. Quickly the priest seems to change his mind, a wicked grin on his lips as he becons the two of them forward towards the alter. Ivan resists the urge to roll his eyes. This is why he had always found it hard to believe in the saints. These people talked about the saints, talked about offering charity and yet how often did they help their fellow man unless coin was involved?. Show coin and most people would do anything. He makes his way to the alter with Fedyor. Positioning himself opposite the other so he’s facing Fedyor as the priest begins a little speech. Ivan remains quiet, his forest hues fixed on Fedyor as the priest speaks of love and religion. Finally he’s able to speak. “Fedyor” his accent thick and heavy as he reaches into his pocket bringing out a red silk ribbon. He gets Fedyor to place his hand ontop of his and begins to wrap the ribbon around their hands as he speaks. “You are my best friend, my true north, my true home. You have been their when nobody else was. You have loved me since we were boys and I have love you the same” he pauses “Fate, kept us apart but destiny bought us back together. And together we shall stay. I will never hurt you, never leave your side. I will protect you and love you until death takes me”. He smiles tilting his head to one side “I love you Fedyor”.

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[heartrenderfedyor]

Ivan gives a slow nod his forest eye’s fixed on their hand’s as he brushes his fingers against the other’s. He wasn’t sure how many people would be listening to what he had to say. Even himself Genya and Zoya had, had to be careful earlier. Though Ivan wasn’t entirely sure he trusted Zoya. “I don’t mind where we get married. I have plenty of coin to offer the priest. It’s last minute but I doubt they have much going on. Do you mind which saint he favours over the others?” he tilts his head to one side, he knew Fedyor believed in the saint’s. Himself not so much, he believed in the small science. But maybe with Alina now here all the Darkling had said meant nothing. Shaking his head quickly “I wont let him Fedyor. Not anymore. I refuse to be parted from you”. His own lips press against Fedyor’s when the other leans in to kiss him, his eye’s closing over briefly. “Husband” he say’s gently, as he stand’s making his way with Fedyor out of the garden’s and towards the gate’s of the Little Palace, his hand firmly in the younger heartrender’s, the first hurdle would be convincing the guard’s to let them out. Hopefully them wanting to marry was a good enough reason.

Fedyor thinks for a moment as they walked. He did not care where they had the ceremony as long as he had Ivan. “What about Saint Anastasia? She is the saint of healing. Her blood was used to heal people far and wide till she became a husk. She is one of my favorites for obvious reasons.” He brings their joined hands up to his heart letting the older man feel his heartbeat. Even the heartrender had to admit that even The Darkling scared him. “We will make sure it does not happen. I just do not want you doing something rash and being hurt. You know he is good at getting what he wants not matter what it costs.” His mind reminds him of Genya and The Darkling giving her to the Queen and the way she was treated over the years. When they go through the gates and he sees the guards. “Let me talk to them.” he says as he greets the two men with a smile. “What business do you have?” they ask Fedyor.  “We are trying to go meet a priest. They are waiting for us. We have have had a meeting planned with them for weeks now.”  The guards look between each other and Fedyor finds himself growing impatient as they spoke amongst themselves. With his free hand he reaches into his kefta and pulls out a small pouch of coins and tosses it to one of the guards. “Go on,” the guard says as he weighs the poch in his hand.

[ivantheheartrender]

Ivan’s lip curls into a sneer as the guards questions them but he allows Fedyor to deal with them. He’s calmer then he would have been, he knew if he’d have spoken his words wouldn’t have been so calm, so quiet and forgiving. He takes a deep breath releasing the air thought his teeth as they walk though the gates. His hand gripped tightly in Fedyor’s he brushes his thumb against the others skin. Familiar, home. He couldn’t think of ever been apart, it didn’t matter where they were in the world. Fedyor was his true north. Fedyor meant home. “Not this time Fedyor” his forest gaze turns towards the other “he will not win on this. I cannot, will not be apart from you. We lost so many years because he kept us apart. Because of unspoken words. If I had been braver then I could have already been your husband”. He brings the others hand up to his lips as they walk though the town. He didn’t care who looked, who saw them. All he wanted was to marry Fedyor. His eyes cast around, as they walk taking in the sights and sounds of the town. His eyes fall onto the church, the church of saint Anastasia. Reaching into his Kefta for his pouch of money he takes it out. “Something to bribe the priest with if all of this is too last minute”. He leans in and presses a kiss against Fedyors cheek. “I promise we will have our bracelets made after this. I know it might seem I am rushing things. But I almost died and then you did. It’s too much Fedyor. If I am to die. I want to die your husband”.

[faheys-bitch]

Fedyor: Nina's at that special age where she only has one thing on her mind.

Ivan: Boys?

Fedyor, affectionately: Waffles.

[ivantheheartrender]

OOC: I cried >< read this guys and girls

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[ivantheheartrender]

Fedyor can see the worry on Ivan’s face as he stares at their joined hands. “Then we will talk by the lake. If you feel more comfortable talking there then it can wait.” When the servant showed up and informed them that Nina would not be joining them again he nods his head as well. They could always take her another day but today was their day, their wedding day. The thought that they would finally be going through with it made him want to jump for joy. “Coin is always a good incentive to getting people to do what you want without threats. The local priest would do it for himself and maybe a donation to the church. Do you want to do it next to the lake? Or where do you want to do it?” When Ivan takes his hand and kisses it he feels his heart flutter from the romantic gesture. His free hand comes out to run his fingertips along the jawline of the older heartrender. “I know that you would never separate from me willingly but what if he....” Fedyor cannot even bring himself to say The Darkling’s name or what he may do. “He is not happy that we are together. You were his for so long and now that you finally are with me he knows that his attempts were a waste.” Pushing the thoughts aside he leans in to press his lips to Ivan’s in a tender kiss before he pulls back. “I want to do this and waste no more time so lets go.” Standing he tugs the other man to his feet with their joined hands. “Come, my love. I want to get back to our room so I can snuggle my husband properly. I like the sound of that. Husband. Rolls off the tongue nicely.” He grins at the other as he starts to lead him away from the garden.

Ivan gives a slow nod his forest eye’s fixed on their hand’s as he brushes his fingers against the other’s. He wasn’t sure how many people would be listening to what he had to say. Even himself Genya and Zoya had, had to be careful earlier. Though Ivan wasn’t entirely sure he trusted Zoya. “I don’t mind where we get married. I have plenty of coin to offer the priest. It’s last minute but I doubt they have much going on. Do you mind which saint he favours over the others?” he tilts his head to one side, he knew Fedyor believed in the saint’s. Himself not so much, he believed in the small science. But maybe with Alina now here all the Darkling had said meant nothing. Shaking his head quickly “I wont let him Fedyor. Not anymore. I refuse to be parted from you”. His own lips press against Fedyor’s when the other leans in to kiss him, his eye’s closing over briefly. “Husband” he say’s gently, as he stand’s making his way with Fedyor out of the garden’s and towards the gate’s of the Little Palace, his hand firmly in the younger heartrender’s, the first hurdle would be convincing the guard’s to let them out. Hopefully them wanting to marry was a good enough reason.

[leoofitz-moved]

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[ivantheheartrender]

Fedyor watches with a smile on his lips as Nina bounces away to get bread from Genya. Seeing Ivan get up, he hurries up and pops the last bit of waffle inside his mouth, swallowing it just as the other say beside him.  When the older heartrender takes his head in his hands he finds his eyes searching the emerald green of his lover. His eyes close over as he feels Ivan’s lips on his own, “We will protect her but what has you so fearful, duckling? How are we in danger? She is here to help us.” When the other man sits back and takes his hand he finds himself smiling again. “Like this minute? Do you know someone who will do it? I will gladly do it right this moment, just you and I. That is all we need anyways. We can always ask David about making the bracelets later. I just want to be your husband now before.....” his eyes follow Ivan’s to their joined hands. “Before we are sent off again or worse sent off on separate missions.” Having the other rubbing the skin of his hand was calming but he still worried about what may happen next. These past few months were too close of calls for his comfort.

Ivan rest’s back one hand resting on his leg’s the other still holding Fedyor’s hand, their ring’s brushing together as he gently squeezes the other’s hand. “I am not sure I can talk about it here” he shake’s his head quickly his forest eye’s focusing on his and Fedyor’s hand’s. He needed somebody else to talk too. Genya had seemed concerned and Zoya---well Zoya was Zoya she didn’t seem to mind either way. “I promise I will talk but when we are by the lake”. He take’s a deep breathe closing over his eye’s. “Not from Alina Fedyor”. He’s about to answer Fedyor about them getting married when a female servant approaches them. “Genya say’s Nina is to sleep, she apologises” the servant turns after Ivan gives a slow nod. His attention now back on Fedyor. “I am sure the local priest wont be busy. Maybe if we give him some coin he would happily do a quick marriage?” he cocks his head to one side. “I want to be your husband too Fedyor” he brings the other’s hand up to his lips and presses a kiss. “I wont be separated from you”.

[sabrinaacarpenters]

shadow and bone appreciation week ↳ day four: favorite dynamic - Ivan and Fedyor Kaminsky aka Heartrender Husbands

[heartrenderfedyor]

IVAN & FEDYOR- HEARTRENDER HUSBANDS

Reaching out he pats the piglet’s small belly and it gave a oink. When asked about his home it takes him a moment as he tries to recall memories from being a young boy before the Little Palace. “I remember that my home was a small village. There were houses around us so I know I did not grow up on a farm or anything. I remember my mother or at least who I assume my mother having long black hair that I loved to hide my face in when she would hug me. I remember the day I was tested and being taken away and brought here. I was so scared I spent the whole trip crying and the first night I was here I stayed curled up on my bed in my room crying and trying to hide. I soon met other children and opened up once I realized how to use my powers.” Taking a moment he to run through the memories once more. “You were there. You told me that I would be ok and that there would be sweet pastries the next morning and that Genya would bring them to us. I remember following you around from that point on like a shadow.”  Fedyor watches as  the piglet wanders off. “Do you remember your family? What was life like before you came here?”

Fedyor wipes his hands clean on the back of his kefta as his arm wraps around Ivan who is leaning against him. A small chick makes its way over to them and he uses his free hand to pour some of the seed out on the ground for it to peck at the food. He watches it with a smile for a moment before turning his head to kiss the temple of the older man. “So you see a future for us, together? I know I like the idea of us being old together and getting warm in out chairs near a fireplace on a small farm somewhere  away from everyone else. I know how you like to be left alone to read. I used to watch you read while in the banya.” he chuckles as he recalls memories of seeing Ivan with a book while the others soaked in the warm spring. “Do you think before the grand feast we can soak in a nice warm bath together? I have always wanted to do that with you. I have always wanted to soak with you naked in the banya.”  

[ivantheheartrender]

Fedyor was not surprised when he woke alone since he knew Ivan would have a lot to do since they had made it back and especially since the sun summoner was found. He could see the way he looked at Alina, like he worried for her safety more then others did. He could see the fear that he held that day in the tent. Was it cause he was scared of her or something else? The heartrender dresses and makes his way outside where he knew he would find Ivan, his usual spot in the gardens. When he sees Nina sat on a blanket with her tea set, dolls and waffles, her favorite. Sitting beside Ivan he looks over his shoulder at the book and sees him hiding his book inside the children’s book. “Do dragons not entertain you as they used to like when we were children? How has this morning went?” he asks as he knew little ears would be hearing but he had known that Ivan said he needed to talk to Genya and Zoya. What about he was unsure of but he would not pry as Ivan would tell him what he felt he needed to know.  Moving to sit on the blanket he picks up a waffle as Nina looks at him laughing, “But you have not had your tea yet. Here, you play with Arnia.” she says as she hands him a doll with blonde hair. Holding the doll in his lap, Fedyor mucnhes away at the waffle.  “Nina, how would you feel about going to feed the ducks with Ivan and I? I think a walk would do us all good.” She jumps to her feet and runs over to Ivan, “Can we?!? Can we go see the duckies and feed them?!?!”.

When Nina comes running to him Ivan tuck’s the books against his chest hiding the fact he’s reading another and not the one she told him too. “Of course we can go and feed the duck’s Princess. Why don’t you go and ask Genya if she can wrangle any bread?”. Nina gives a firm nod and dart’s for the Little Palace. Ivan drops the book’s from his chest his forest eye’s falling onto Fedyor. He places both book’s on the bed, standing he make’s his way to his boyfriend. Kneeling down beside him on Nina’s blanket, he doesn’t hesitate his hand’s coming up to hold Fedyor’s face a hand either side, he hold’s the other’s head still, leaning down he presses a kiss against the other’s lips. He part’s his lips all but begging Fedyor to deepen their kiss and so when he does his lips dance with the other’s till they both need air. Drawing in a deep breathe he rest’s his forehead against the younger heartrender’s. “I needed that” his voice a whisper. “I have so much I need to talk to you about. We---we need to protect Alina----I fear for us---for Genya---for Nina---for you” he sits back his hand reaching for Fedyor’s. “Marry me?. Now, let’s just go” his voice thick, his accent heavy. “Just me and you, lets go now and marry”. He look’s down at their hand’s his fingers brushing against the other’s skin. 

[ivantheheartrender]

YOUR MUSE’S SEXUAL TRAITS

INCLINATIONS & HABITS

submissive / dominant / prefers to top / prefers to bottom / likes to switch / heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / pansexual / demisexual / asexual / enjoys sex with men/ enjoys sex with women / enjoys sex with multiple people at one time / initiates / waits for partner to initiate / spits / swallows / morning sex / night sex / sex at any time / no sex drive / low sex drive / average sex drive / high sex drive / hypersexual

BODY & APPEARANCE

slender build / medium build / athletic build / muscular build / curvy build / voluptuous build / wears boxers / wears lingerie / goes commando / shaves / waxes / cup size a-c (in his mtf trans verse) / cup size d-f / 1-5” in length / 6-9” in length / 10” or over in length

SOUNDS

silent / quiet / loud / grows in volume over time / bites hand / partner / pillow to muffle themselves / calls out partner’s name / curses / fakes / exaggerates / prefers a quiet partner / prefers a loud partner / turned on by dirty talk / turned off by dirty talk

TURN-ONS & KINKS

having their hands pinned / pinning their partner’s hands / having their hair pulled / pulling their partner’s hair / being watched (by their partner) / being watched (by a third party) / watching their partner / receiving oral / giving oral / calling their partner ‘daddy’ / being called ‘daddy’ / giving praise / receiving praise / biting / marking / being bitten / marked / spanking / being spanked / teasing / being teased / having toys used on them / using toys on their partner / giving anal / receiving anal / choking / being choked / dirty talk / being tied up  / tying their partner up / being worshipped / worshipping their partner / humiliating / being humiliated / degrading / being degraded / knife play / blood play / being pegged / pegging their partner / whipping / being whipped

PLACES

bedroom / shower / bath / pool / ocean / kitchen / home bathroom / public bathroom / car / tent / alleyway / field / forest / school / empty abandoned building / library / rooftop / terrace / dressing room / elevator / parking lot / museum / cemetery / beach / closet / hospital

[darklinadaily]

BEN BARNES Shadow and Bone | Bloopers 

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sex+romance headcanons!

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🌟 What is my muse’s sexual/romantic orientation? 💦 At what age did my muse lose their virginity? 😘 Would my muse have sex on the first date? 😊 Would my muse ever ask someone on a date? 👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking? 😉 What are my muse’s fetishes/kinks? 💬 When did my muse go on their first date? 💯 What is my muse’s ideal date? 💗 Has my muse ever been in love? 👠 What was my muse’s last serious relationship like? 👰 Would my muse ever get married? 🌼 Would my muse prefer a big wedding or a small wedding? 🍬 Is my muse a sub, dom, or switch? 🏩 What was my muse’s first time like? 🎆 Is my muse into monogamy? 💕 Would my muse ever be in a polyamorous relationship? 🔥 Would my muse ever be up for a threesome? 👮 Has my muse ever had sex in public? 💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak? 💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner? 💋 How many people has my muse slept with? 👀 Is my muse the type to sleep around? 👎 Would my muse ever cheat on their partner? 😳 What was my muse’s worst romantic/sexual relationship? 💲Would my muse ever date/marry/sleep with someone because they were rich? 👓 Would my muse ever lie for sex? 👿 Would my muse ever blackmail someone into sex? 🎥 Who is my muse’s celebrity crush? 🎀 Who would my muse sleep with if nobody ever had to know? 💍 Has my muse ever had a one-night stand? 💝 Does my muse like Valentine’s Day? 💘 What are the ways my muse says ‘I love you’ without actually saying it?

I want to rp with you, but I don’t think you want to rp with me: a book by me

[ivantheheartrender]

OOC: me with my Rp partner of 8 years

[eggsaladstain]

are we gonna talk about how adorable fedyor is

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