Iya

a place to put the thoughts

[iyaaakin]

12:28 am / April 23, 2026

I have so much thoughts running through my mind and sometimes it won’t let me sleep through the night.

It’s just so scary how much I feel like I am losing time, how fast time moves, and the things that I wanted to do with my life.

It overwhelms me, questioning my life choices, and what will I be years from now on.

[iyaaakin]

scrolling through my inbox here, it’s weird ‘cause I can’t remember I was this active before and di ko na matandaan lahat ng nakausap ko dito hahahaha

but im super glad I didn’t delete my tumblr, I have something to look back 🥺🤍

[iyaaakin]

hello tumblr, it’s been years 🤍

i wanted to start journaling again that’s why I am here 🥺

[iyaaakin]

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[iyaaakin]

'bakit kailangan pa nya dumating sa buhay ko mama, kung hindi naman pala siya yung para sakin? bakit ganon ang unfair eh ipinaglaban ko sya.' —Ate

that sht hurt sis, ramdam na ramdam ko tangina. gusto ko na lang magdamag nakayakap kay mama 😭 feel ko walang mananakit sakin.

[iyaaakin]

and my heart slowly continues to break everytime i see my sister crying and i can't do anything about it because my heart as well bleed for her and for myself. i hope that time will continue to passed by fast, so that our heart will completely heal.

[giajade]

Have you ever just randomly cried because you’ve been holding shit in for too long?

[iyaaakin]

i don't know why am i posting these right now maybe because last night brings back a lot of memories. Lanch message me last night and sent me all those letters and messages that I gave him since junior highschool telling me that he kept all those for six years he even sent me those cards from our former classmates which includes me in every letter, saying that they hope we might end up together someday. he even sent me that poem, Gakuwesaribig which was never sent to me up until last night, he couldn't remember why he did not gave me that card. and a while ago, after how many years i opened the box which have all those memories and cards that he gave me, i read all those from the journals (we used to write our everyday life since 2015) i'm actually thankful that we did that because i can re-read what happened way back when I was in highschool lol some are way too funny and all i could think was how immature am i since then hahahahahaha. Looking back, i could say that he really did treasure me, he's like the only person who made me feel very special way back highschool and if only i wasn't immature back then, maybe we could be something great or not. I don't know 😂 but what I'm actually glad that he wished that after everything, he hope that we could still be friends no matter what and I'm glad that we are right now. I'm very happy of what he became right now, I always knew one day that he could be something else, grow into a man he is today because he could give so much in everything that he does and I'm always here congratulating him for every success that he achieved even though we're still in college, but he achieved so much. those are the letters, cards, notes, arts that he gave me and some might find it weird because why does I kept it for too long even though we're not what we used back then, idk i really like to keep things especially things that come from every special person in my life. that i could re-read and think that at some point in my life, someone loved and treasured me for who i am. 💗

[yourbigsisnissi]

A part of being an adult is living with regret and not allowing it to consume you. The older you get, the more mistakes you’ve made, opportunities you’ve missed, people you’ve disappointed. And every day you have to remind yourself to be kind and forgiving of yourself. You accept and love the you from the past and understand that it’s all a part of the process. Then you move on and live your best life, knowing now as old as you feel today, you’ll never be this young again.

[iyaaakin]

lately my sister has been crying a lot, magugulat na lang kami ni mama humahagulgol na dahil sa jowa nya. hay naaawa na ko kay ate na lagi na lang iniiyakan yun, pagod na daw sya pero bat bumabalik pa din sya? bakit di nya mabitawan talaga? ganon ba pag sobra sobra mo mahal yung isang tao, yung kahit na sobra sobra ka ng sinasaktan pero hindi mo pa din maiwan? pagmamahal bang maituturing kung puro sakit lang naman dala neto? hindi ba dapat bumitaw na kahit mahirap, lalo na kung hindi ka na masaya? hay ☹️ sana dumating na yung para kay ate talaga, yung hindi na sya iiyak at tatanungin lagi sarili nya. ☹️

[keeppthevibe]

I like clingy. I like when someone purposely grabs my hand to show other people I’m theirs. I like that when something exciting happens during the day, I’m the first person you want to tell. I like coming back to an “I miss you” text message when I’m in class or taking a nap. I like that random call at one in the morning just because you wanted to hear my voice. I little gestures that show I’m important, and you enjoy having me in your life.

[eauudenil]

I try to stay low key and private. Not to be secretive. But to guard my energy. No one needs to know any and everything about what you got going on.

[iyaaakin]

minsan naiisip ko pano kaya nagagawa nung ibang tao na maging mabait? na ang bilis nila magpatawad sa mga taong ginago sila na para bang di sila nagtatanim ng sama ng loob? how do they do that? or kaya minsan nakangiti lang sila kahit harap harapan na silang ginagago ng mundo. naiinggit ako minsan kasi napipigilan nila yung emosyon nila na hindi magalit o kaya mainis man lang, san nila nahuhugot yung ganon? di ko alam ha pero para sakin sobrang hirap talaga ng ginagawa nila kasi di ko maiapply sakin yun hahahaha

[1moneychaserworld-deactivated20]

My toxic trait: I’m always prepared to never speak to a person again

[dragon-in-a-fez]

my friend’s four-year-old son wouldn’t go to sleep because he wanted to keep looking at the stars and she tried to bribe him with a piece of chocolate and he just said “would you rather get a reward or be happy” and turned back to the window

[iyaaakin]

no beach for this year ☹️ dagat na dagat pa naman akooOoooo 😩😩😩

[luvbey]

i just want to sit in front of the ocean for a little while