it's me, ikebukuro tumblr, the terrible rat man that lived inside the c. 2015 fictionkin drama
(i'm sorry, this ended up getting serious at the end, idk what happened.)
I won't actually be excusing myself from when I actively used thus url or anything, but to anyone who stumbles in here, dazed as hell:
Hi! It's 2024 & yes, this is the same person originally behind this url. It's on a sideblog of an old account, which I still have access to, & I posted a few months ago as a silly little gag.
I'm in my 30s now & I am not reviving this blog, nor do I have any desire to behave the way I did 7-10 years ago on tumblr. I've all but abandoned social media in general at this point, & I think you should too.
For the insatiable curious: I'm still queer, I'm still in a relationship with the same partner(Just the "kindating" one. We're married now, even!), still disabled, still a ~kinny~, & I still fuck up now & then.
To anyone who was on the receiving end of my behaviour before or during the heyday of this url(or the couple of years after I stopped using it), especially anyone still affected by anything I said or did: I am sorry.
You are not, under any circumstances, obliged to forgive me. Apologising doesn't excuse the way I treated anyone, or the self destructive advice I shared with & encouraged in others.
I said a lot of things about personality disorders, in particular, which I think were especially damaging. In apologising now, I mostly hope to make very clear to anyone still trapped in that anti-recovery mindset that personal accountability does still apply to those of us with cluster B disorders. We're responsible for our actions & our actions often are inappropriate & certainly can & do hurt people. It's not alright just because we have [_________] Disorder.
That said, I do hope a belated apology can help anyone still holding onto the damage I did to them. If it can bring anyone even a little bit of relief, it was worth posting this. I don't plan to post here again.
Take care of yourselves out there. I love you! 🫶
