so hereās my lover secret sessionās storyā¦ 02/08/2019 london š¹š¬š§
i got my dm on twitter on july 16th at 5:15pm and i looked at it thinking someone was trying to boo boo the fool me and it was really gonna say something like āstream ME!ā so i opened it not thinking much of it and my heart literally SANK when i saw it was actually REAL. i got the phone call 4 days after from a girl called sara who was from Taylor Nation, she told me everything and i was literally in the storage room in work crying.
so itās finally august 2nd.. i got up at 5am cause i literally had 4 different trains and 2 ubers to catch, when i finally got to my hotel it was around 11am, i checked in and got ready and went to the meeting point. i was literally the first one there so i panicked thinking i was at the wrong place but more people started to show up and immediately everyone formed little friendship groups who they seemed to have stayed with the whole day which was insane. i met lisa and emma which iād recognised from twitter because weād been following each other for so long and then georgia, evie & shiv all came over and we all just bonded and instantly became friends and realised we weāre the brits of the group, there were SO many international fans and it was amazing seeing people come from all over the world! our group was first on the bus and iām not sure why but we were literally all crying like wtf was going on?? we drove past a few ambulances thinking āthatās gonna be our ride home after tonightā cause at this point iām like dying and then we finally got to THE HOUSE.
we all go inside, the ME! playlist was on, there was a huge moose head on the wall which we all became really intrigued by, a huge mirror to see ourselves ugly crying, there was food & drinks and little m&mās with āloverā and hearts on them and i have no idea what was going on in my mind at this point, like i didnāt know what to expect.
so then we all go to the living room weāre there was a bunch of cushions on the floor and a chair and speakers in front of us and i KNEW what was about to go down lads, itās about to happen, weāre about to hear lover and i just wasnāt ready and i was sat THERE in front of the chair and a few minutes laterā¦ SHE COMES OUT FROM BEHIND THIS DOOR LOOKING LIKE LIKE AN ACTUAL GODDESS THAT JUST STEPPED OUT OF HEAVEN AND I DEAD ASS DIED RIGHT THERE THINKING ABOUT THAT AMBULANCE I SAW EARLIER ON CAUSE SHE JUST WASNT REAL. so sheās like āwelcome to the lover secret sessionsā and the noise that came out me was actually not human at all. she played half the album the first and kept apologising for ranting and going off topic which was so funny, sheās so adorable i was literally in awe. then was like āweāre gonna take a break so you can all go the bathroom, have a drink and stretch your legsā and then mentions sheās made us treats and everyoneās like OMG and sheās literally like āitās just rice crispy treats i dyed in heart shapesā and it was just the funniest thing bc sheās just so sarcastic but they were the cutest things and just knowing she spent time making them was honestly insane. like i ate a rice crispy heart treat..made by taylor swift? sounds fake. so then as sheās passing them around, sheās goes into the garden and starts talking to everyone and thanking peopleās parents and let everyone on her trampoline and just shouts āTHESE ARE MY KIDSā with a glass of wine in her hand and it was such a taylor swift moment. it was just surreal like wtf? imagine bouncing on taylor swifts trampoline? i wouldāve went on it but i wasnāt about to break my neck before listening to the rest of the album x
okay so we go back in to listen to the rest of the album and throughout the whole album listening part, i just kept crying and she kept looking at me and smiling and singing and i was just bloody in shock. there was one point during a song weāre me and georgia weāre holding onto each other crying and she just looks at us and tilts her head and gives us the most warming smile. right there we both died together it was unreal. but the album HOLY SHIT every song was INSANE. i found it so hard to pick a favourite so i have 3, this album is literally her BEST, and this coming from a speak now stanš¤ i was just the happiest iāve ever been, it just seemed like a dream. seeing her sat there in front of me so happy and in such a good place, feeling so proud of this album and these songs just made my heart feel so full. what i was feeling in that moment is unexplainable. just pure happiness like i knew life doesnāt get any better than thisā¦ right itās time for the meet and greets and everyone goes back in to the other room whilst they got ready and people started queuing then to go in and meet her, she spent so much time with every single person and seeing everyoneās faces coming out that room was so magical. the event was supposed to be over at 11pm and itās literally 1:30am when it was my time to meet her. sheād literally been meeting people for HOURS and is 2 and half hours past the end time and she didnāt even mind. everyone was so eager to go inside that me and the girls decided to wait till the end.
so evie had just come out and now itās my turn. i almost fainted, i was so dizzy and nervous and WHEN I TELL U I WAS PETRIFIED TO GO INSIDE, I ACTUALLY MEAN IT BECAUSE I WAS STOOD OUTSIDE THE DOOR REFUSING TO GO IN FOR ABOUT A MINUTE CAUSE I COULD JUST SEE HER STOOD THERE AND I WASNāT READY BECAUSE LIKE IāVE DREAMT ABOUT THIS MOMENT SINCE FOREVER. emma and lisa weāre stood there laughing trying to force me inside as well as a girl from TN. took me a good minute but i finally walked in, i walk over to her trying not to cry AGAIN and sheās stood there smiling at me and she says to me āitās tyler isnāt it?ā and i was like JDJSKDJD āyeah ššššā cause i didnāt think she knew who i was and i was just randomly picked by TN??? she then pulled me in for the biggest hug and i just felt like this is it, iām gonna bloody pass out. I TOLD HER THAT WAITING IN THAT QUEUE TO MEET HER WAS LIKE WAITING FOR THE ELECTRIC CHAIR and i was like why tf did i just say that omg but she laughed and was like āomg hahaha itās like waiting for the electric chair thatās so funnyā then i gave her the lover necklace iād gotten made for her so we had matching and she kept saying how much she loved and how beautiful it was. then said āi love your necklaceā with a little smirk because i was wearing her āTSā initial necklace and my heart just went HDAJHDJDDH. then she asked did i enjoy the day and i was like of course??? it was so amazing i couldnāt stop crying and she was like āaw i had so much fun, i love doing theseā and then she asked how iād gotten here and i told her that i had to take 4 trains and she looked so shocked and thanked me for doing that and asked if i was travelling afterwards and i told her i had a hotel and she goes āomg good, PLEASE donāt talk to any strangersā and iām just like YEAH OF COURSE ANYTHING FOR U MISS SWIFT :ā)))) i hugged her about 3 more times and i asked her about tour, and how she found me and she said sheād found me on tumblr and literally said āits tylovestaylor right?ā and i was just like WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK. IM SCARED. cause i barely use tumblr because iām the only one who reblogs myself??? and iād gotten my dm on twitter so my mind was like wtf is going on right now?? i told her i changed my url and she said sheād follow me š„ŗ then says āso do you wanna likeā¦ take a picture together or something?ā YEAH OF COURSE, IM A BIT OF A MESS RN BUT ABSOLUTELY. she asks what i wanted to do for the photo like stand, sit, go near the piano? and i told her to choose because my mind was just all over the place and she says to me āi think one sitting down with our legs crossed over acting all (then does some pose) and stuffā i just couldnāt believe what was actually happening. we sit down next to each other and she grabs my hand and iām just holding her and the photographer takes the photo and she tells me to have a look to see if i like it and i said i looked so bad and she goes āITS SO CUTE, YOUāRE BEAUTIFUL AND PHOTOGENICā then the photographer told me i was really photogenic and tay goes āSEE SHE EVEN SAID ITā did taylor swift..who invented photos and beautyā¦ just call me beautiful and photogenic? surely not. so we took one more pic and she said she loved it so i loved itššš we got up and hugged again and i just kept saying i love you and she told me i was beautiful and i was like SO ARE U???? and then i told her that i still donāt believe sheās real and she laughed. we hugged again i told her i loved her as i was walking out she shouts āplease get home safelyā and i said āhave a safe flight wherever youāre going nextā at the same time and she laughed and was like āOMG THANKYOU?ā and i walked out and the emotions i was going through oh my god. iād just met my favourite person in the entire world? like never in a million years did i think iād ever meet her let alone get handpicked for secret sessions. i was in so much shock like it wasnāt real. that never happened? iām still in shock now and literally crying writing this. she was so lovely and welcoming and spoke to me like sheād known me forever.
AND AFTER ALL THAT, SHE DECIDES SHE WANTS ME LITERALLY DEAD AND LIKES MY POST ON HERE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. RIGHT AFTER IāD MET HER.
i couldnāt get over how beautiful she is, inside and out like i already knew that but seeing her in real life is so different, sheās literally flawless and so cute and delicate and iāll literally die for this woman. thankyou so much, from the bottom of my heart @taylorswift for choosing me out of 100m+ fans, iāll never understand why i was chosen but i canāt explain how grateful i am. it was by far the best day iāve ever had in my 18 years of being alive, nothing will ever come close to that moment. i cant wait for everyone else to hear this album, i miss you and your hugs already and i forgot to tell you because my mind was blank but iām insanely proud of you and will support you forever. promise.
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