Jacky Tsang

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[jackytsangg]

Why do guys lose interest in me so quickly ??

If you got an answer pls lmk lmao

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[jackytsangg]

home

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[jackytsangg]

is it stupid that I love you?

[jackytsangg]

So I just got my first tattoo and wanted to share it with you guys. I love it. It’s a thick and thin armband around my forearm. It symbolizes that saying “through thick and thin.”

2018 was quite a year. There were many good days. There were many rough days. I made new friends. But I lost close friends. I had my heart broken a few times. But I also developed new relationships I never thought would’ve happened.

Regardless of everything that has happened, I’m still here. I’m still living. I’m still breathing. Still living my best life. Still trying to be happy. And now, I got a little reminder to look at, to help me get through each day.

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[jackytsangg]

我想食火鍋

[juuliaroberts]

Looking at yourself in the Target check out camera

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Honestly, i want a real thing with someone

[amargedom]

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

— Bob Marley (via amortizing)

[caribbritchick]

Advice for people in their 20s from someone who’s just entered their 30s....

1. Don’t waste time being fearful: go for that job that you’re certain you’re not gonna get. What’s the worse that can happen? You are rejected, but you gain interview experience. Self-doubt is really a waste of time.

2. Live in the present. Yes, it is important to plan for the future, but it is easy to put off living until it is too late. Make sure that you have no regrets about what you should have done. Do one exciting thing per year.

3. Know your worth. This applies to both work and relationships; never sell yourself short. No job or romance is more important than your self respect. Also, charge for any unique skills/services that you can offer. 

4. Don’t be afraid to leave bad situations. I left a stable but draining teaching job in order to protect my mental health. Even though this was a big risk, it was the best decision I ever made. NOTHING is more important than your mental health. 

5. Most 20 somethings feel that they are underachieving. This is normal - especially in today’s financial climate. Don’t feel bad if you are still living at home and cannot afford to rent/buy. I’m 30 and still living at home, saving to buy.

6. People will disappoint you, but most of the time, it’s not about you. Everybody has their own demons and traumas that make them behave in certain ways. If somebody disrespects you, assert your boundaries and keep it moving. Also, examine if there was anything you could have done to avoid the situation. But DO NOT let it eat away at you.

7. In love, nobody owes you anything. Even if they made a promise, they are their own person…Everybody has the right to change their mind and to leave a situation which is not beneficial for them. This is hurtful and hard to accept, but it is the truth.

8. Learn to enjoy your own company. Your 20s can be a lonely time as your social sphere narrows, due to employment, finances and exhaustion. Use this time to find out more about yourself and do the things that you enjoy. There is something liberating about eating at a restaurant alone. 

9. Be kind, don’t gossip or overshare. I am still working on this one. It is really difficult to be kind and positive in a world full of annoying people. However, your attitude will influence how you are being perceived. If you are unkind, people will laugh at your jokes but they will never trust you. They will never trust you not to treat them as you treat other people. Remove yourself from toxic people, and only share negativity (sadness/anger/depression) with a therapist and one other person that you trust. If you overshare negative feelings, you may be stereotyped as being full of drama. Furthermore, people will want you to stay in a negative place because it’s entertaining and makes them feel better about their own lives. Just don’t do it.

10. You cannot win every battle. Within conflict, it is tempting to try to force others to agree with your perspective. However, most people are set in their ways, and find it difficult to change their views and behaviours. This is especially important when dealing with toxic family members. You may never get the apology and empathy that you seek, so it is important to accept that every battle cannot be won, and gain validation internally, rather than externally.

[jackytsangg]

honestly tho i feel you 100% its almost like your at fault when it isn't. the fact that they made you feel wanted but in the end dropped you that fucking sucks and you didn't deserve that no one does.

Aww yeah, you’re right. Worst part is that we have hella mutual friends and we’re basically in the similar orgs on campus so I’ll definitely see him around

[jackytsangg]

omg your post made me tear up a little

😭😭 it was so badly written, my thoughts were all over the place but thank you so much!!!

Ngl, I was hurt by it pretty severely, and I’m still a little hurt by it now. I really just needed to express my thoughts somewhere.

[jackytsangg]

I saw this post on SQUAD on Facebook.

“Why aren’t we talking anymore?”

I didn’t feel comfortable sharing it on Facebook so I’m going to write my feelings here.

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Why aren’t we talking anymore?

Well you texted me just the other day telling me you no longer had feelings for me.

I asked you what do you mean and you simply replied, “the feelings just aren’t there for me anymore.”

Wow, are you serious. I actually can’t believe this is happening right now.

You proceeded to say sorry and that the reasoning behind this was because you wanted to get your life on track, and being with someone right now at this point in your life wasn’t something you had in mind.

Cool, I support self-growth. I support you trying to be the best version of yourself.

And for that, I say, sure no problem. Go work on yourself. Go find your passion and your interests. Go love what you want to do.

But there’s still a part of me that doesn’t sit well with this. I keep thinking to myself...where did I go wrong? You switched up on me so quickly.

We were talking every day, making plans, laughing together, spending time whenever we both had time. I was texting you when I was in Japan/Taiwan and whenever I asked why you weren’t sleeping (because of the time difference), you’d tell me it’s because you wanted to stay up talking to me.

You talked to me like we had a future together. You brought my hopes up and I was excited to see you again when I came back to the states.

I remember when you first talked to me. It was on Instagram and I was like...who is this guy. He’s cute but I’m not interested since you intimidated me at first. But you didn’t give up and you kept trying to talk to me.

I never gave you the time of day though.

Fast forward a few months, I see you post on your story at San Holo. I was there too, and I saw you. In fact, I’ve seen you around the city but I never had the courage to say hi.

So seeing San Holo on your story? That was my chance to say something. And I did. And we talked. And then a few weeks later, you asked me out.

And we went out. And we ended up talking in Chinatown until 1am. I got to work the next day tired, but happy to have spent time with you.

Then I left to Asia for the break, but we still managed to talk pretty regularly. When I came back, I thought our relationship was going to grow stronger. You confessed your feelings for me and I had felt the same way. I was excited.

The first night I came back, you cancelled our plans. I was so disappointed, but I understood because you told me about your busy schedule. So I said, okay, another night then. But then you wanted to see me so badly so you found the time and got dinner.

When we had left each other that night, I was walking away and then you suddenly pulled me in for a hug, and I felt so warm despite that cold, chilly night. I was so happy after.

We hung out again the next day. You were really busy but you still found the time to come and see me. And that night, was the first time I made a move on you and gave you a kiss. I didn’t want you to leave my apartment, but our time together wasn’t long before you had to go.

So you left and I walked you downstairs, gave you a hug and said goodbye. What I didn’t know was that was our last time seeing each other.

A few days later, you asked what I was doing and I told you I was going to go to the gym later. You were like, “omg can I please come with.” And I was like yeah sure. We both agreed 9pm worked for us.

And then, about an hour later. You send me the text.

“Hey I’m sorry to tell you this but I am not feeling this.”

Wow.

What.

This can’t be happening.

You told me you weren’t ready, but I blame myself for what happened between us. I’m so mad at myself. I think about what I could’ve done differently to prevent you from leaving.

I was in denial. I thought that you were just playing a prank on me, that you were gonna send me a text and say “just teasing.”

I thought you were testing me, and all you wanted was to see if I would fight for you.

I came up with so many different situations, but honestly, I doubt any of that was true.

So why aren’t we talking anymore?

I don’t know. I wish I had the answer to that. I just want to text you and ask what happened between us. But I’m so scared. And I’m not gonna do that.

I guess there are just some things better left unanswered.

But I appreciate the times you’ve made me happy and enjoyed each moment with you. I realize now that I do have to do so much personal growth, and if it was meant to be, then it will be.

Thank you.