jadien

jaiden animations fuzztive | she/coo | violet-backed starling hybrid | pfp by @wolfhotels

[jadienhere]

it’s been ages since i’ve posted on here. hi. i feel sick to my stomach and i am haunted by everything and everyone that has ever hurt me.

[tiny-paws]

lil jaiden agere moodboard as a gift for @jadienhere bc uhhh i think she’s pretty cool :] hope u like it bdjshkdjshdjs

vaguely based off source jaiden’s interests, birds, and cozy vibes (+ lowkey cg jacob :3) i think the colour matching couldve been a lil better but its pretty cute anyway!

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[gorokisser]

hi guys. cg jacob stimboard. anyway

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[tiny-paws]

very, very self-indulgent teen regressor alpharad board :3 we’ve been Super Duper hyperfixated on them lately, and when I had the idea to make a board themed around them… well it was kinda inevitable lol

lil disclaimer bc i know some ppl will think this— i’m not saying the actual guy is an age regressor!!!!!!!! this is a fun fictionalised version of them i’m thinking about to bring me comfort :)

i think jacob would regress to around 14-17, sometimes 10-13 if they were stressed out, but generally not a younger kid age. not a lot of people would know abt their regression, but at least jaiden, jo and jan (oh my gosh all the j names) would know and be his caregivers/babysitters :]

he would probably do/enjoy a lot of stereotypical teen stuff, mixed with his current interests, like video games (especially nintendo/pokemon), chaotic shenanigans with friends, immature jokes, junk food, etc. it’d be really hard for people who don’t know them well to tell if they’re regressed, since they’re just as chaotic and excitable when they’re big, but their caregivers would know The Signs.

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[jadienhere]

hey! not a jacob (sorry aha .) but you seem rlly rlly cool smile

HIII !!!!!!! DONT BE SORRY i love meeting new people. thank u hehehee id love to get to know u!!!!!

[jadienhere]

hi guys. i miss jacob a normal amount (LIE!!!!) so i’m doing a sourcecall….

i’m jaiden, jaiden animations,,, really anyone who might know me can interacttt!! but mostly i’m looking for jacob alpharad… my darling boyfriend (which does not align w source but it’s my memories and im my own person. so) whom i love very much. Uagh. please come home

we’re bodily 15 so please keep that in mind when interacting umm. yeah!! and we’re trans n queer n stuff…. all that. yeagh. also we’re a mixed origin system!!

idk what else to include really but. jacob alpharad PLEAAASE interact. pleek. i miss you so much Please.

[jadienhere]

JACOB ALPHARAD PLEASE COME HOME!!!!!!!! missing you horribly

[jadienhere]

hes gotta be here Somewhere. im looking foryou . im looking Everywhere i miss you so much

[jadienhere]

JACOB ALPHARAD PLEASE COME HOME!!!!!!!! missing you horribly

[jadienhere]

i miss my boyfriend ....................... @jo-real-not-fake come home

[bloomics]

day 3: sanrio character! usahana 🌺💛💖

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[lovelylovely-stims]

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[jadienhere]

every time i remember im dating jo i feel like my heart explodes. like FUCK!!!! THAT’S MY BOYFRIEND!!!!! my lovely pathetic boyfriend. my malewife. hes so everything to me i would give him the world….. he deserves all the love in the history of forever. i wish i could give him even more than i already have. i need him to know and feel how much i love him because i just love him So much. he’s just so. fuck!!!!

@jo-real-not-fake im thinking about you always…… i love you. ur the best boyfriend i could ever have

[bonebais]

[respect-the-kitty]

You and who?

[faeberrywine]

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[fireboltsystem]

It is okay and normal if you have to invent or decide things about your headspace/innerworld. Building your innerworld isn't less meaningful than inherently having one. It's normal to NOT have an innerworld at all for that matter!

We've had problems with getting "deeper" into our innerworld, so we invented what is essentially a grounding technique for specifically our innerworld. It's just an object, a simple white orb we call the Tether. We just hold it and focus on the sensory experience - you could give any object any qualities you like really. Ours is like glass, smooth and cool to the touch. Holding it gives us something to focus on while also keeping us grounded to our inner selves rather than "stuck" in the front. It works best if we're in a more meditative state, so our attention isn't divided between front and innerworld experiences. Front always takes priority it seems.

This strategy has allowed us access to innerworld areas we were not able to get to before! System hall pass. Sometimes inventing new rules tricks the brain into following them. You can make shit up!

[jadienhere]

i think my relationship with gender is really interesting tbh. the system is transmasc bigender, and i’m not quite Cis but i’m. something. i’m definitely fem-aligned, and i prefer she/her over anything else, but i don’t feel any dysphoria at All. we’ve been on T for over a year and not once have i been bothered by any of the effects. in fact, i find them cool! and i don’t really make an effort to dress fem, i just go with whatever we’re all comfortable in day by day.

i almost feel like i’m transfem, in some way, being in a body that presents and identifies masculinely, while internally identifying as fem. but i don’t quite resonate with that label. and i don’t quite feel nonbinary either — by definition, i am, but it just isn’t Me.

i’m just a girl!! a bird girl, but a girl. and it’s fun. sometimes i still wish i had my long hair, but otherwise, i’m happy in this body, even if it isn’t Me.

i dunno. it’s interesting to me. i think i could be comfortable with any pronouns or terms — maybe not they/them though lmao. they/them irks the whole system for whatever reason… but like. i could be someone’s girlfriend Or boyfriend. i could be someone’s brother Or sister. i could be anyone or anything at any given time.

i guess i’m bigender, but really, i feel like it’s better to just not label it. aside from bird-related xenogenders lmao