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Tumblrin' since January 17, 2010

[jaezeeel]

It's my 15 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Salamin Salamin Makeup Challenge

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cutie pie Gwen

[orangerainforest]

bini gwen 💌

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[bini-ph]

Gwen always be slayin’ 💅🔥

[jaezeeel]

Game na ba ulit?

Susulat na ba ulit?

Ayoko yata, di ko alam..

Lol. Char.

[malisoun-deactivated20200727]

How do you fall back in love with life?

clean your room.  clean space, uncluttered space, space that doesn’t have miasma clinging to it can work wonders.  clean the dishes.  sweep.  take out the trash.  peel the clothes off the floor and wash them, and then actually fold/hang them.  take a long shower.  scrub behind your knees.  brush your teeth.  (this can be utterly exhausting, but try to get it done in a day, if you can.  the end result is worth it.)

pull out your notebook.  it doesn’t need to be a new notebook, but preferably one that you don’t usually write in, or that you haven’t touched in a while.  fuck moleskins.  the yellow legal pad will work fine.  sit in your room, or in the park, or in the library, and write a list.  count clouds.  describe all the colors that you see, and note patterns that arise.  sketch the cracks in the walls.  note the shape light makes when it enters a space.  talk about what the air tastes like, smells like.  what sounds are there?  even the white nose, break that down: air planes, fans, cicadas, anything.  remind yourself that you are sitting in the middle of a space brimming with detail.  remind yourself that you are not in nothingness and emptiness.  your world is fathomless.  it has potential.

drink cold water and try to eat something that isn’t processed.  it does not need to be fancy.  buy yourself an apple with the change between your couch cushions.  eat it outside.  if you’re someone who walks, walk somewhere afterwards, just to stretch your legs.  take your fucking meds.  remember that its a good thing that you are inside your body.  your body is a fantastic and endlessly intricate machine, and even though society has smacked a bunch of poisonous ideas on it, that doesn’t change its inherent worth and splendor.  take care of it.

read a novel.  underline your favorite lines, and write phrases that twist your heart inside your chest on the back of your hand with an ink pen.  read a novel like it’s poetry.  read poetry, something decadent but unpretentious.  watch a movie you haven’t seen before.  if there are free art galleries near you, walk through one.  take your time.  let yourself bask.  if there are patterns in what makes your soul ache, write those patterns down – marbles arches or soot crumbling bricks or dandelions or descriptions of dresses or whatever it is, write them down.

your chosen family is important.  remember, they picked you as much as you picked them.  the love has no obligation.  it is given freely and it is given from a place of compassion.  you are not a burden.  if you need to breathe, take a minute by yourself and just exist, but remember to go back to your people.  when they need you, listen and be gracious.  always be gracious.  the universe sometimes remembers things like that.

listen to new music.  link jump on youtube or related artist jump on spotify or ask the chap beside you in the cafe what their favorite band is, and listen to that.  listen to something that you don’t usually listen to.  we tend to tie up a lot of memory with music.  we are falling in love again.  the soundtrack needs to be specific to that.  

allow yourself to indulge in romantics.  press flowers in old books.  play movies with subtitles and mouth the words.  dance in your room.  wear something that makes you feel good, even if you wouldn’t wear it in public.  write your chosen family letters, even if you hand deliver them.  write poetry, even awful poetry.  revel in its awfulness.  eat dark chocolate and when your chosen family want to go out, try to go out with them sometimes, even if its just to the market.  

[warevol]

try it,,

[mikiratsula]

no place I’d rather be than with you

[jaezeeel]

I’m not feeling well 😞😞😞

[freshlymidnite]

Ask me my top threes:

[spiderman-homecomeme]

1: Top 3 ice cream flavors

2: Top 3 Disney Movies

3: Top 3 vacation destinations

4: Top 3 places to shop

5: Top 3 subjects of study/classes to take

6: Top 3 make up products

7: Top 3 music artists

8: Top 3 spices/herbs

9: Top 3 drinks

10: Top 3 apps to use

11: Top 3 months of the year

12: Top 3 clothing items

13: Top 3 binge perfect tv shows

14: Top 3 romantic dates

15: Top 3 kinds of flower

16: Top 3 christmas movies

17: Top 3 OTPs

18: Top 3 quotes to describe your life

19: Top 3 characteristics you love about yourself

20: Top 3 kinds of candy

21: Top 3 ways to exercise/ be active

22: Top 3 spirit animals

23: Top 3 petnames

24: Top 3 books read outside of school

25: Top 3 most used websites

26: Top 3 people you last texted

27: Top 3 hashtags you use

28: Top 3 instagram accounts you follow

29: Top 3 guilty pleasures

30: Top 3 summer activities

31: Top 3 things to draw/doodle

32: Top 3 aesthetics

33: Top 3 things you’d buy if you gained three million dollars

34: Top 3 ways to treat yourself

35: Top 3 celebrity crushes

36: Top 3 books from your childhood

37: Top 3 accents to hear

38: Top 3 scents

39: Top 3 “Friends” quotes

40: Top 3 cupcake flavors

41: Top 3 fruits

42: Top 3 places you’ve had amazing pizza from

43: Top 3 sports teams to watch

44: Top 3 crayola colors

45: Top 3 things you hope to accomplish in college

46: Top 3 fanfictions you’ve read

47: Top 3 people you miss right now

48: Top 3 fears

49: Top 3 favorite literary devices

50: Top 3 pet peeves

51: Top 3 physical things you find attractive

52: Top 3 bad habits

53: Top 3 pets you’ve had/wish to have

54: Top 3 types of foreign food

55: Top 3 things you want to say to someone in your lifetime

56: Top 3 dog breeds

57: Top 3 cheesy romance movies

58: Top 3 languages you speak/wish to speak

59: Top 3 series (book, movie, television)

60: Top 3 pizza toppings

61: Top 3 youtubers you’re subscribed to

62: Top 3 tattoo / piercing ideas

63: Top 3 awards you want to win

64: Top 3 emojis

65: Top 3 cars you dream of owning

66: Top 3 authors

67: Top 3 historical figures

68: Top 3 baby names

69: Top 3 DIYs

70: Top 3 smoothie combos/flavors

71: Top 3 songs of this month

72: Top 3 questions of this post you want to be asked

73: Top 3 villains

74: Top 3 Cities you want to see

75: Top 3 recipes you want to try

76: Top 3 dream jobs

77: Top 3 lucky items

78: Top 3 traditions you have

79: Top 3 things you miss about being a kid

80: Top 3 harry potter characters

81: Top 3 lies you were told

82: Top 3 pictures in your camera roll right now

83: Top 3 turn ons

84: Top 3 turn offs

85: Top 3 magazines/news papers/ journals to read

86: Top 3 things you wish you had known earlier

87: Top 3 spongebob episodes

88: Top 3 places to be in the world

89: Top 3 things you’d do differently

90: Top 3 TV shows from your childhood

91: Top 3 meals you love

92: Top 3 kinds of tea

93: Top 3 embarrassing moments

94: Top 3 holidays to celebrate

95: Top 3 things to do in the rain

96: Top 3 things to do in the snow

97: Top 3 items you can’t leave the house w/o

98: Top 3 movies you’d like to see

99: Top 3 art mediums

100: Top 3 museums you’ve been to

101: Top 3 school memories

102: Top 3 things you don’t/Won’t miss

103: Top 3 pick up lines

104: Top 3 sports to watch

105: Top 3 taylor swift songs

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[jaezeeel]

Hello!!

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[jaezeeel]

Hays

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