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@jaggedbird
Well, Huey, even though you don't remember, that particular attempt of time traveling to stop the kidnapping creates a paradox where you never existed, and thus, never could have stopped it. It is pretty similar to the Grandfather paradox.
oh, I've been there...
Like father
Like daughter/ cloned ghost/psychic type of Gengar that needs to pay child support
Ignore authority
I feckin' warned em!
Once upon a time, there was a curious traveler. At first, he was bitter, and was not fond of the world he discovered on his long journey. “This place is full of nothing but conceit and ignorance. There is so much to know and so much to see, and all they do is destroy it and stand still, blind to it’s beauty.” He looked down on them in spite.
But the longer the traveler explored the world, the more he grew to tolerate it. He learned there were those who were strong, and kind, and those who could learn. He learned they were not as weak as he’d thought, and he started to even like them. He wanted to show them the things he knew, he wanted to protect them and help them grow.
The traveler found many others who would travel with him for a time, ones he could share his secrets with. He loved to see them smile, and discover things just as he’d done many times. They could never stay with him, but he was fine because there were more to meet and see.
As he continued on his travels, he grew to be a hero. The more he loved them, the more he protected them. He saved the world many times without ever asking to be thanked. But in this big world, he was actually very lonely. There was no one who would ever really understand the things he’d seen, or anyone who would stay with him. He never really wanted them to leave, but he knew they always would.
So he would smile, and show them as much as he could because he wanted them to stay with him as long as possible. He hid away his own feelings, his darkness, his selfishness, and his pain because it meant “Just a little longer.” His love for this discovered world grew and grew, but with that so did the pain of knowing there were some he could never save, and those who would leave him. His love was so great that he learned to lie in order to protect his own heart and the hearts of those around him.
But one day, the traveler grew tired. His travels were long, and his loneliness was devouring him. He collapsed, unable to walk any further. But he thought “I have made many friends. Perhaps if I rest a while, one of them will come and carry me just until I get my strength back.”
So he waited, and he waited…
There were those who passed him without a glance, and some who remembered him but only scowled and scorned him, for they believed he had given up. “Look, the rest of the world is suffering and you’re just lying there. How pitiful that someone we thought was good is actually so selfish. You’re a liar.”
No one came to help the traveler. And slowly, he remembered why he originally hated the world.
They all forgot him and moved on, being just as blind as they were when he found them.
The traveler died from fatigue, and no one came.
“Fleece of Black”
[[A poem I wrote a few years ago. Goes to show how I was feeling back then.]]
How Zerum Ends
Well, everyone, it's finally happened. The end of Discord Whooves has occurred so now I can talk about what Zerum is and where he was going.
I've said in the past that Zerum's timeline runs parallel to Discord Whooves' timeline, meaning both exist at the same time. And by this I mean events in Discord Whooves line up to the various things that happen to Zerum, starting from the start of both blogs. How this is happening?
Well, Zerum is supposed to be the discord curse in the Doctor's head. He's a literal virus infecting the Doctor's mind, planted there to keep him captive to Discord's influence. The ways you can line up events is through 4 various types of events.
1: Sex. Most of the times that sex occurs, is when The Doctor is overcome by his lust and goes on various sexapades. This doesn't ALWAYS line up, but it does for sure whenever Discord shows up for it.
2: The Light. The light occurs any time The Doctor becomes his old self, undiscorded. It's the glimpses of hope that we get that he's still there, deep down, and the light is a threat to Zerum because if the light stays on, the virus gets destroyed along with Discord's influence. The light's appearance remains consistent with the Doctor's blog, so this is the best way to keep track of where Zerum is in The Doctor's story. I was planning for the light to manifest as a cute creature so people would try to defend it which would ultimately cause more harm to Zerum because the light is basically antibodies.
Eventually the light was going to get so bad that it nearly kills Zerum, during the time that Twilight and Minuette helped the Doctor. Discord seems to have abandoned him but really he can't get in his head during that time.
3: The baby nightmares. These nightmares happen any time Hyde becomes active in The Doctor, and eventually the 'baby' who is actually The Valeyard breaks free of Zerum and escapes the mind prison.
4: Perry Doctor. After the point where Perry appears in Discord Whooves, any time The Doctor is sleeping Perry travels into his mind to interact with Zerum. Perry is a dream traveler, which is why he is able to do this.
Also, there is a reason Perry was able to reach him. Perry travels through the dreams of various ponies and beings, he is a dream traveler rather than a space/time traveler. He found Zerum by visiting his old self's dream, because Zerum is in Dissy's mind.
How was the blog supposed to end?
Eventually, Zerum was going to be able to be convinced to fight Discord when the light shows up and weakens him, and he manages to kill Discord. The event that causes him to have his change of mind is when Discord disguises himself as Perry and attempts to destroy their relationship after he discovered it. But Zerum manages to figure out it's not Perry, and Discord reveals himself. That's when the light returns and Zerum is able to kill him.
Of course, he's accepted that he'll die with Discord, and is ready to accept his fate... but Perry found a way to materialize a TARDIS in The Doctor's mind and rescue Zerum before it's too late.
Zerum is then brought into Perry's dreamscape, where he slowly learns to recover and gain a sense of self worth.
Zerum's cutie mark was going to change to represent his newfound freedom and the self love that he found with Perry's help.
So there you have it, you now know what Zerum's whole deal was, and where the story was meant to go.
This blog was extremely personal to me, and was an exploration of the trauma I had obtained from past abuse, both sexual and mental from horrible people in my past. For a long time I had unmedicated PTSD so this was the best way I could find to cope. The blog was meant to be shocking and to manipulate people into saying and requesting horrible things to feed into the abuse and put people in the place of the abuser, or those trying to help the abused. I'm happy to say while it started out pretty awful, after a while people were much more kind and wanting to help. It started from a very basic hypnosis kink idea, but then I got to wondering why it was a kink and if it was okay to be one. The blog itself wasn't meant as me being kinky, but me exploring 'why does this make me feel this way', and I was able to come to the conclusion that many abuse survivors have these kind of kinks because it gives them a sense of control in something they lost control over in the past. It's a safe way to explore a traumatizing experience, and their own way of having consent in exposing themselves to it. A lot of people assume people are getting turned on by the idea of being abusive, when in actuality most of us are putting ourselves in the victim's role. These are complex feelings but it gives us autonomy over our experiences. It doesn't mean we're turned on by being victims, or that we enjoyed what happened to us. It just means we want to have control over when we feel submissive and vulnerable. We're not 'sick fucks' who get turned on by the suffering of others, most of us would never want anyone to experience what we went through. But we want a safe space to come to terms with our feelings, to feel power in exploring a fantasy situation of powerlessness. This is a process that we need to cope with trauma, and it doesn't hurt anyone but the fictional characters we put ourselves into.
That said, I will be deleting all the posts of this blog besides this one, because it is much to sensitive to me and I've closed that chapter in my life. I don't want this series to be easily found or associated with my original works, so it's time to say goodbye to Zerum. I will leave the posts up for a month so people can read and see all the clues and how the story lines up with Discord Whooves, but after a month is up I will delete the rest of the blog and leave this post in its place.
Thank you all for following, and especially thank you to all who approached this story with understanding. I hope I helped people come to terms with their own traumas, or at least informed people more on what trauma is like.
What game/movie had the worst rendition of mewtwo? (In your opinion)
The mirage special, but I guess mirage Mewtwo wasn’t technically Mewtwo XD
it wasn't one of the Mewtwo we know, but it was A Mewtwo. Though that has me curious: seeing the professor said that Mirage Mew had a true soul it gave me a thought to ask: ever wanna use that idea for your story at some point? It'd be interesting to see it reincarnate
Baby's first dessert :)
it went well
Most creative use of the Scatman song I've ever seen ngl
Are we ever gonna see the consequences of Mewtwo's tea and spice diet?
probably not, even if he's dragged to a doctor
God damnit...
I'm worried about Mewtwo's spice & strong tea diet tbh. Yes he has a weakened esophageal lining from spice but there's more risks with it. One is his stomach lining with the amount of hot tea & spice he eats (plus anxiety's coetisol effect on stomach acid); The other is his bones. the type of tea the Celtic Isles & Mewtwo himself love have fluoride in it, weakening the bones. Very strong tea drank often can weaken bones & cause osteoporosis. MEWTWO YOUR STOMACH, ESOPHAGUS & BONES MATE PLEASE—
mewtwo still thinks he's indestructible lol
god fucking damnit, Scarfy...
@xxtc-96xx made a GIF and now there’s music.
The song was mentioned by @ultramarinemewtwo and I think it absolutely fits.
I don’t own any of this stuff. Just wanted to add the music since I had the chance.
Ha wow XD
okay TC, you know that old Harry Partridge animation of the Nick Cage remix going I WANT THAT CAKE? Do it.
“It’s me”
WHERE DO I GET THESE—
Sevdiğim kediler
sound on!!!
Mom you’re embarrassing me!
Fierce Dragon - Submitted by fastman27
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Hart on the Trail - submitted by @meowstic-seer-of-the-future
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Handmade Horseplay - Submitted by SeesawSiya
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Goodbye tumblr
I'm no longer gunna be using here; I don't post. I won't deactivate but I'm never going to be here again.
Goodbye guys
timeline
here’s me when i was just a li’l tike
this is me about 10 years old
and then…. this happened…… 12.9 years old
then high school
graduation
cut my hair! (baby’s first cosplay)
about 1 year ago - another hair cut
the first selfie i ever posted (10 months ago)
5 months ago
the past two months
i honestly never thought i’d be happy with how i look but i’ve come so far and i’ve gained a lot of confidence! i still have a ways to go though.
this thing is a little outdated……
bleached my hair for the first time ever and ended up ginger…
after bleaching again
and now this timeline is up to date!
since it’s trans day of visibility (and also coincidentally transformation tuesday) i thought i’d update this again!
i accidentally dyed my hair purple….
but even with purple hair i feel more confident and masculine every day. @ all u trans kids out there: don’t give up. it’ll get better. i believe in you.
