sad
I can't stop crying. I reached out to emilie. I wish I didn't but I was just needing more closure. its weird going on with life knowing the one person you thought would be in your life forever is gone. and I know it's for the best, but part of me wanted us to rekindle our friendship. but ultimately knew it would never happen. my life is so full these days and im so excited that I have turned a page for me. however I did reach out to her and it was the most unexpected conversation EVER. I can't stop crying. she's the type of person I would never be friends with. I know she's upset with me, but she just seemed so different and it's not the type of person I would've ever dreamt she'd become. its heartbreaking. I ended up sharing that I was sorry for how I ended our friendship and that I never wanted to hurt her. I told her that I would always care for her and her well being. now she's moving to florida with these news friends that honestly seem like the type of people she would've made fun of. now she's cursing up a storm so casually. I just feel like she's making a huge mistake, but hopefully someone in florida comes into her life and makes a huge impact on her life and brings her back to Christ. she's forever on my prayer list now. her new life has stunned me. she's not the friend I had. my friend would never sleep around just because. my friend lived a calm and quiet life, but made it fun for herself. im just sad for her new life. it honestly makes me worried for her.



















