I'd Go Through Hell To Find Her

"We're criminals right? So let's be criminals." Independent RP blog for Jasper Jordan from The 100. OC and Multifandom friendly.

[xthene]

“Exactly, no one can force me. So don’t even try it.” The girl was serious about it. Tilting her head to a side. “Just like the start, when we came to the ground. Now it’s all gone to his head. He’s acting crazy. I have the feeling he wants to prove something.” But to who or why, was something, Octavia wasn’t sure about, or figured it out. A deep sigh escaped her lips. Running her hand through her hair. “Don’t worry Jasper, he won’t hurt you, not as long I am alive.”

[jasperrjordxn]

He gave a small smile when she spoke about people not being able to force her to do anything. Jasper had learnt that, and he knew that he was never going to be able to get Octavia to do something that she didn’t want to do. “That’s reassuring. Thanks. I just hope that he realises that he doesn’t need to do any of this and that he doesn’t have to try to lead any of us if it’s the wrong thing to do.”

[queengxiffin]

Clarke simply grinned, already texting out the invite to their usual group of friends, they could all use a good party, she knew at the very least they could use a reason to drink. 

[jasperrjordxn]

He nodded, leaning back against the couch. “If we get a knock on the door from the police for being too loud though, then I’m blaming you,” he teased lightly. 

[hxdaleksakomtrigedakru-blog]

She could say the same to him like she had told Clarke, but it was not entirely true. The girl had seen right through the walls she had put up. For her people, as the commander yes she saw it was a weakness and acted as if she didn’t care. The fact was, she cared too much. In solitude would she allow herself to feel. Never for long, a good leader would not listen to her broken heart. It hurt, losing Costia, Anya,Gustus.. Clarke. “It fades, in time you learn to live with it. It will always be a part of you.. it helps us remember, not to ever forget. Scars, especially those not seen, are what shapes us.. helps us grow. We all deal differently.. some use it, to be stronger and others honor a last request. There is no giving time, to mourn. Have you spoken to your people? your friends?” Lexa didn’t need to give him any advice, yet the pain in his eyes was not something she wanted to ignore. Perhaps it was because the way he strode in her, reminded her so much of a certain blonde girl. One she also had a hard time denying her anything. “I lost someone too.. someone I, cared deeply for.. I worked hard, so it would not be in my thoughts.. I sparred until I was too exhausted to even think.. until my bones ached. I became the leader my people need.. I gave myself a purpose, a reason to live. My people, are my reason to live, to fight for.”

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper shook his head. “I’ve not spoken to anyone about it. All of my people are too busy trying not to hate each other,” he let out a small sigh and listened to what she was saying. What she had said about losing someone too just made him feel bad, he had no idea that she had been through something like that. “I’m sorry. I-I can try to talk to someone. I know that it doesn’t really help keeping it all in. And I want to be able to help my friends if they need it.”

[skaisister]

when octavia made her choice to stay and wait for bellamy, she knew what it meant. her STUBBORNNESS would eventually drive her to go try and REDEEM herself to the trikru, but until that happened, she needed to MANAGE things around camp jaha. when she spotted jasper sitting ALONE by the fire, she made her way over and sat next to him silently, debating whether or not she should speak.

❛ i WOULD ask you how you’re holding up but i think COMMON SENSE has already handed that answer to me. ❜

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper looked to her when she sat down and spoke and nodded slowly. He hadn’t talked to many people about what had happened. Hadn’t let any of the pain he was feeling pour out to anyone, all he could do was keep it bottled up and try to cope with it by himself. 

“Yeah. I’m not the best that I’ve ever been.”

[xthene]

“I can’t agree on what Bellamy is saying either. I don’t know what has changed him so badly, lately. It’s annoying me.”But perhaps that was obvious that she hated the fact how much her brother had changed. “Speak to my brother, I am not going to do that anytime soon Jasper. He’s being stupid, and he won’t listen to anything, I have to say. Seems like Clarke has gotten into him.”

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper nodded slowly. “Alright. I was expecting you to say something like that, and I know that nobody can force you to do it,” he gave a small smile in her direction. Her stubbornness had always been something that Jasper admired about her. “It does seem like he’s let some sort of power get to his head now that Clarke is gone. I don’t want to follow him but, you know what he’s like. I don’t really want to be hurt by him.”

[hxdaleksakomtrigedakru-blog]

“Often those that are innocent are the ones that suffer. Even our warriors, they have families too.. they leave loved ones behind, they are the ones who will suffer and mourn their loses. War is unkind, it’s cruel. You blame me, do you not? Me.. Klark. She made the decision what was right for her people, right for you. She was the leader your people needed.. the pain will ease, in time. Those people that helped you, believed in another world. One where there could be peace. They fought, risked their lives to save yours.. honor them, by living.”

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper nodded slowly. He knew that she was right. He knew that he couldn’t just hate Clarke forever. He knew that she did what she thought was right for everyone, and he knew that she had made the choice to make the sacrifice of the innocent people at Mount Weather. “How am I supposed to deal with the pain though? What can I do?”

[queengxiffin]

“I’ll make the calls– think Monty can whip up some of his moonshine?” She asked, finally plopping down next to him on the couch. 

[jasperrjordxn]

“I’m positive that he can,” Jasper nodded with a smile taking over his face. “If I know Monty, I know that he’ll be able to do that.”

[queengxiffin]

“I have yet to ever burn a building down, besides– I was thinking more of a bonfire burning, then at least we can have a party” the blonde replied, heading to their fridge for a beer.

[jasperrjordxn]

“Sure,” he nodded. “I could always do with a party anyway. We haven’t really seen everyone together for a while.”

[hxdaleksakomtrigedakru-blog]

“We both made decisions what was best for our people, Jaspa. I cannot regret that. My people will always come first, however it does not mean it was my intention to harm any of you.” she blamed the maunon, they were responsible but she did wear the guilt of leaving Clarke and her people who had been part of the reason she had her people back. She couldn’t apologize for taking the deal to save her people, but she could apologize for causing Clarke such pain. “You cared for them.. perhaps one in particular? It does not give me pleasure, knowing innocent people died.”

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper shook his head, feeling his anger bubbling up. Maybe it wasnt’ just Lexa that he was angry at. He was angry at everyone. Angry at so many people for what had happened. “Yes. I cared about some of the people at Mount Weather. Not all of them were bad. Some people there helped me with everything.”

[queengxiffin]

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“I’m going to need a stiff drink and your help burning all my old med school stuff” Clarke spoke as she came into her shared apartment, throwing her bag onto the couch.

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper let a small smirk take over his lips and nodded. “Sure Clarke. I’ll go and get some matches. Let’s just not burn the whole building now this time.”

[jasperrjordxn]

@frombrokenplaces

Jasper had never seen the girl before, and he had thought that he had seen everyone. That’s what had thrown him off. “Wha- Who the Hell are you? What do you want?”

[linctaviasource]

that’s my type of girl

[jasperrjordxn]

@skaisister liked for a starter

Jasper wasn’t even sure who he could trust anymore. He hadn’t spoken to Clarke since what had happened at Mount Weather. He didn’t think that Bellamy was any good to be able to trust and he had noticed that Monty was acting slightly differently. He had thought that he was completely alone, and didn’t make an effort to go and speak to anybody. He just sat away from everyone else and by himself.

[jasperrjordxn]

starter call for tomorrow when i wake up

[angstmemes]

Basic Angst Starters

because sometimes what’s left to the imagination is much more terrifying.

“Are you feeling alright? You don’t look it.” “I just heard something… Something bad…” “Why didn’t you tell me about this?!” “What’s all this blood?!” “Will you tell me what the fuck is going on?” “Don’t give me that look! It wasn’t my fault!” “You should probably sit down for this.” “Please tell me you forgive me!” “I can’t live without you!” “Oh god, It was a mistake coming here… I’m sure of it.” “What the hell happened to you?!” “Where have you been?! I’ve been waiting for hours!” “You promised you wouldn’t do this anymore!” “I knew not to trust you!” “What’s that in your bag…? Is that–? Tell me it’s not!” “Is this what a dislocated shoulder feels like?!” “How could you do this to me?!” “Wake up! Wake up!!! You’re having a nightmare!” “I feel weird… what was in that drink…?” “I don’t want to leave you, but you’re not really giving me another option.” “Please… you’re scaring me…” “Ssh, I heard something again. How aren’t you hearing it? It was loud… and getting closer.” “Are you okay in there? You’ve been so quiet.” “I came as soon as I could! Did he/she get to you already?” “I don’t know whether I want to do this. I don’t know whether I CAN do this.” “Do you remember anything?” “You have to tell me who did this to you!” “No, no, I’m not alright. I’m definitely not alright.” “What’s your fucking problem?!” “Are you crying?” “You’re freaking me out! Please calm down!” “I’m leaving. And I’m not intending to come back.” “You… are dying?” “Did you drink the whole bottle while tripping? Seriously?” “Do you have a deathwish or something? Jesus!” “Ever been held at gunpoint? Want to know what it feels like?” “Stop screaming! Shh, calm down! You have to keep quiet!” “When’s the last time you slept?”.

[sandcvstles]

six-word sentences.

[disillusionedhumanityarchive]

“ frankly speaking, i wanna give up. ”

“ they love me cause i’m hot. ”  

“ just try to guess the answer. ”

“ everyone here knows you don’t care. ”

“ fine, do things your way. ”

“ i want to be in love. ”

“ no, i would rather make money. ”

“ shut up already, i’m not going. ”

“ because you said that, fuck you! ”

“ i hate you more than anything. ”

“ just sit down? let me explain? ”

“ can i be a little nasty? ”

“ there’s nothing wrong with being sexual. ”

“ i want you to like me. ”

“ don’t you dare lie to me. ”

“ i’m way too scared to fall. ”

“ terrified of my love for you? ”

“ we were both afraid, shut up. ”

“ it wasn’t anyone’s fault. not really. ”

“ life’s too short to care anymore. ”

“ i dreamt about you last night. ”

“ really? what did you dream about? ”

“ i dreamt you chose me instead. ”

“ how did you become like this? ”

“ this isn’t any of your business. ”

“ i’m losing my mind, losing control. ”

“ you weren’t there! i needed you! ”

“ please don’t start with me, okay? ”

“ why do you always leave me? ”

“ this is all we have left. ”

“ i turned around. you were gone. ”

“ all i can think about is you. ”

“ wow, you look like shit today. ”

“ i called and you didn’t answer. ”

“ i wanna be a child forever. ”

“ today, my love is in mourning. ” 

“ your words felt like sharp knives. ”

“ say something nice or don’t speak. ”

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@jasperrjordxn

Clarke desperately wanted to reach out, to take him in her arms. She wished she could somehow take the pain away. “I know it probably doesn’t mean anything.. but I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you, Jasper.”

[jasperrjordxn]

Jasper shook his head, tear stained cheeks and more tears threatening to fall. “It’s too late for that now Clarke. I used to think of you as a person that would want to find a way for every single person to survive. I guess that I need to rethink my impression.”