graphophobia

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[jay-hoover]

There is patience in the way she guides her body against mine, calling out, grasping. I am left wondering if she wants to hold on, but her grip is too shaky.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

I want to be the sole reason you cannot sleep at night, clawing at your skin, your mouth trying to find mine, reaching for air, not found in your lungs. I want to be the only purpose for your eyes to open, and find I’m not there.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

I wonder how many lies you had to tell yourself to walk away from me. Did you tell them it was all me? Was it because i lost my mind? What are you going to tell her, when she asks?

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

Don't ask me how I've been I'm wondering how you are in that same exact moment. If you ask, your voice will only make a home throughout my bones, a place you don't deserve to be a part of. You are there, coffee in hand, hand in your left pocket, eyes wandering across my face. Your lips, stained with my favorite shade of lipstick... Did you do that on purpose? I feel you beginning to make a home  where i don't want you to. And I watch your lips part. fuck.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

when i reached out, your fingertips brushed mine, hoping the electricity would pull you in. i became fooled to think you would ever close your fist around mine. instead, they wrapped around my neck.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

will you still love  me, even when i'm  not able to love myself?

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

I am taken away by the way she gazes at  me from the brim of her coffee  cup.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

Words i wish i had said, -no stop dont this isnt love- words i did say, -i deserve this it's my fault why me this is love- words she said, -yes please let me i love you.-

[Jay]

*women can be abusers too / abuse isn’t okay*

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[jay-hoover]

i am awarded something extraordinary when your eyes light up the whole room.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

while she is away, i promise to her that i will miss her more and more, as her side of the bed gets colder and colder

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

kiss me alone so no one can hear me call out to you, 'one more, one more'

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

i only think where my hands leave traces is the only places you let me love you.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

I've got miles and miles to  go, before this ever feels like home.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

[ Is it too much to ask you to fall in love with me again and again, like our hearts did when your eyes saw mine and our hearts laced together? ] [ Is it too much to ask you to kiss me again and again like our lips won’t touch anything so pure ever again? ]

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

there's a saying my father always told me, and i never knew if it were to be true, something in my head tells me that it is true, when the saying goes, 'If she is the wind, she cannot be tamed, the wind is wild, the wind is free, the wind is always where you don't want it to be,' and maybe i should've let you go, before i got attached, before i knew i wouldn't be able to rid the memories of your ghosts.

[Jay]

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[jay-hoover]

im fighting sleep, with a nightmare that keeps sawing away at my brain. inch by inch it makes its way touring and picking me all the way down to the bone i want you here, i want you here, to hold me tight in the middle of the night, when im trying to stay awake to keep the vultures from getting to my brain. though these nightmares are nothing to compared to you not here. because i dont want to be anywhere where you're not near. fighting sleep, i am reaching for you, in the dreams that saw away  at my brain. i want you here i want you here i want you.. here.

[Jay] 

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[jay-hoover]

[i want you here] alone naked bare [i want you here] hands grasping my face [i want you here] us together [i want you here] loving me [i want you here] saying you miss me

[Jay]

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