Jodie

Trying to turn my chaotic life around so stay tuned.

[slowbriety]

[acidholic]

LOL

[poemswords]

[ziathal]

did anyone else ever just feel like you had to kill yourself but not because you particularly wanted to die? just as a person you felt like you were incompatible with life and it was inevitable that at some point you would have to die because you would no longer be able to cope with living

[gaypeopletwitter]

[drugsorinsanity]

i've never seen anything that can get two people to fall in love like drugs.

[lola-from-the410]

Me and babe first falling in love…getting addicted to dope and each other

[opiviod]

Songs that you wouldn’t expect that tend to help me through a relapse

Any addict has little things that tend to help them through a relapse. In this case I’ll be sharing a bunch of songs that help me, feel free to reblog/add songs.

Warning: I have a very broad taste in music ranging from 2012 emo - 1960s poetic justice (forgive me). I’m sure if you just skim through SOMETHING is bound to catch your eye.

TW/CW ADDICTION/DEPRESSION/SUBSTANCE ABUSE

be careful out there guys 💜

1. Addict by Lund

2. Burn by The Pretty Reckless

3. The Comedown by Bring Me The Horizon

4. Coming Down by Halsey

5. Cough Syrup by Young the Giant

6. Dark Necessities by The Red Hot Chili Peppers

7. Dope Fiend by Acid Bath

8. Down in a Hole by Alice In Chains

9. Edge of Seventeen by Stevie Nicks

10. Everybody Dies in their Nightmares by XXXTENTAICION

11. Fear by Kendrick Lamar

12. Fixin to Die by Bob Dylan

13. Florida Kilos by Lana Del Rey

14. The Fox and the Wolf by Bring me the Horizon

15. Here Comes the Sun by the Beatles

16. Hold me Down by Halsey

17. Junkhead by Alice In Chains

18. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds by the Beatles

19. MJ by Lund

20. Nights in White Satin by the Moody Blues

21. No Rain by Blind Melon

22. Oh My God by the Pretty Reckless

23. Opuim by Marcy Playground

24. Personal Jesus by Marilyn Manson or the original

25. Rx Luv by Lund

26. Same Drugs by Chance the Rapper

27. Slipknot by XXXTENTACION ft Kin$oul and Killstation

28. Take me Down by the Pretty Reckless

29. Telescope by Cage the Elephant

30. Terminal Sex by Pouya

31. Weep by Lund

32. White Wine by Lil Bo Peep (RIP GUSTAV) and Lil Tracy

[recovery-experts-blog]

“When I pictured heroin, I pictured some crazy crackhead with no shoes under a bridge. You never think that is going to be you. And it never was me. I was never under a bridge, and I always had shoes.”

— Nicole Richie

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

“I hate when people refer to my drug addiction as “partying”. The party stopped long ago before the addiction began, it hasn’t been partying since the very beginning of my drug use. I may be high, but it isn’t fun anymore, certainly no where near a damn party. I need to invade my veins with smack and my lungs with crack just to function normally enough to start my day. My life is consumed by addiction. Partying is a part of most peoples lives at some points on weekends or late nights, addiction is such a massive part of my life that when the weekend ends and the night turns to day I’m still trapped in the brutal cycle of drug addiction, this is no fucking party, it’s a nightmare.”

— journal entry 11-13-16

[burnt-out-angel]

“Do you remember the summer I always sat on your lap Nodding out on my porch, we fell in love way too fast You lit a cigarette and I saw your eyes flicker in the heat When your pupils were pins they were most beautiful to me When your eyes got big, the world stood still We stopped chasing dragons and September brought chills I only knew how to love you when we were running and hiding If our lips were moving it meant we were lying Except all the times you put your lips on me You weren’t lying then because those lies were my dreams. I gave you a needle and put you to sleep But before it could kill us, we killed off the dream That’s when we decided to say we were clean But then I woke up all alone and that killed me. I remember missing summer when it was still in full swing It felt gone as it happened cause we were slowly dying Thats why I held you tight with my arms around your neck I could feel a rhythm dead like winter that was beating through your chest Our love was built off of travelling time Every flick and sizzle was our speed of light When the fire stopped burning, we were empty inside We planted a garden in ashes, it couldn’t grow at the time We loved in illusions and expected to survive Our love was built off of ways to die. I gave you a needle and put you to sleep You believed in dope and you believed in me Dreams were reality when you were there with me So since I’ve been awake I don’t know what I should believe I gave you a needle and I put you to sleep Nothing is a lie if the lies are your dreams Nothing’s an illusion if you’re always asleep So since I’ve been clean i don’t know what to believe I wouldn’t have gone crazy if you just stayed with me I wouldn’t have gone crazy if I still lived in a dream”

— My summer of love and heroin and how codependency ruined me as much as the drug

[suicide--fuckboy]

[lil-peepquotes]

‘i don’t love her, but i love how i feel’

—

white girl - lil peep

[thepersonalquotes]

[lizmargaret]

Living in fear is not God’s plan for you. Yes, the road ahead may seem daunting, but the God who is with you is much larger than anything you’ll face.

Don’t simply press on. Press into the Lord your God. He knows the plans He has for you. Seek His will for your life above your own. Trust Him, and obey.

He loves you. He has you. He’ll guide you.

[holytemple]

[bibligical]

Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, — Acts 3:19

[onevoiceunited]

“A soul untried by sorrows is good for nothing.”

- Theophan the Recluse