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[jebsplayshss]

Hey, Amanda, I saw your goodbye post and i really want to say im sorry that all this happened. I'm the same anon who sent holly the two asks to change her Kaitlyn post and when she was dismissive, i got really sad and felt invalidated, but then you replied to the post and it made me feel a lot happier. I was glad that I wasn't the only one who'd been bothered by Holly's post and i was glad that someone was out there that would help me speak out. I just want to thank you for helping me feel (p.1)

safer in the fandom and less alone. I can't thank you enough for being so vocal about the injustice a lot of the lgbt+ fandom was facing. I just... Thank you. Everything got really out of control, but i want to thank all the other people who've also spoken up. (p.2)

oh, woah. hi anon! it’s really, really great to hear from you.

you don’t have anything to apologize for! you were brave enough to speak out about it, and that’s something you should be proud of yourself for. it’s so difficult to find bravery to talk about these topics. i’m proud of you. 

you should never, ever feel like you have to apologize for showing courage.

 i hope you continue to be courageous. i hope you continue to speak up for yourself. there’s plenty of really wonderful, kind souls in this fandom who will stand right there with you. everyone who spoke up over this are so, so wonderful and i will always think of their strength, kindness, and care.

some advice for the road, from someone who used to ignore these things:

it will never, ever be a quiet fight. you have every right to feel every emotion over it. never take injustice sitting down. light fires. be angry. complacent people will always try and force you to be soft and kind. you don’t ever have to commit to the peaceful narrative if it weakens you.

(and i really wish you the best!!!!! be strong. thank you for your message. i love you so much and i hope you can keep feeling safe. we gotta look out for each other, you know? you don’t have to go through anything alone <3)

[jebsplayshss]

i might as well head out on a positive note:

i’ll still draw fanart for the fandom! but i’m keeping everything on my personal blog, @spacetravels if you’d still like to keep up with me and choices nonsense...... (or for just my art, @amaje)

you’re also welcomed to find me on instagram or twitter! all my links are still on my about page, i believe.

otherwise: it’s been real. it’s emotional to be leaving this behind. i’m grateful to all my friends here! thank you for the dumb jokes and participating in things i did (TAE & camphss!) and thank you to everyone leaving me farewells. i won’t respond to them personally, but i’ve been reading them and i’ll miss you guys lots and lots!

see ya later........ alligators................ <3

[jebsplayshss]

this was a really, really difficult post to write.

but i’ve given it some thought this weekend, amidst the fear and overwhelming pain and sadness i felt. i’ve made my decision.

i don’t think i can come back. and it breaks my heart to say that.

under the cut for suicide content warning. and, uh, length

when i was 15, my best friend killed herself. she died in the closet. when i was 13 and 17, i attempted suicide because i wanted to die straight rather than people finding out i wasn’t.

this issue has and will always be personal to me.

and as long as i know people here aren’t ever going to give this topic the sensitivity it needs? i can’t be here for that. i can’t pretend to like people who can’t even show a shred of compassion for that and still pretend they’re compassionate people who only want to spread love when you won’t acknowledge that we need your support and apologies.

i can’t pretend to like people who feel comfortable hitting anon and calling my friends slurs while at the same time publicly denouncing their homophobia.

i can’t just “move on.” i can’t just be complacent. complacency has killed my friends. complacency has left my friends homeless. it’s so much more to me than just something as simple as an argument. i can’t sit back and accept the topic as something of the past and try to move forward knowing people aren’t going to address this with the attention it deserves.

i don’t regret my time here. i don’t regret the friends i’ve made, i don’t regret my presence in this fandom. the last four years have been so, so special to me in ways i can’t describe.

pb saved my life at a time when i thought my life wasn’t worth saving. pb taught me to love who i am and to not take awful behavior sitting down. pb taught me i was allowed to let go, that i was allowed to move on and allowed to breathe and allowed to want and need and be.

and as i thought about what i wanted and needed, i never once thought i wanted or needed this blog.

i wish everyone the best in their future endeavors. i urge you to set aside the things you were always lead to believe and reexamine how your behavior might harm the lives of lgbt and poc lives. i urge you to stop looking at social injustice and politics as a matter of opinion but as a matter of survival. in this day and age, you cannot sit on the side of complacency when what we need is desperate change.

that was sort of cheesy. but it’s something i firmly believe in.

i’m grateful for the time here. it feels intensely bittersweet. i have this post here that states something... less political, i suppose. more focused on myself.

thank you for these last few years. bye.

[renthebarbarian]

Drunk Cole is basically a walking Tumblr post.

[jebsplayshss]

@playchoices please sell these shirts

[jebsplayshss]

I don't want to sound rude or anything ... but I have to point this out: some of you guys aren't exactly acting open minded at all. Instead I see a lot of hypocrisy. You are talking about respecting the different background stories of LGBTQ+ people but at the same time you aren't even willing to listen to HIS story. Why are you allowed to voice your opinion and HE Isn't? Yes the guy you are raging about is cis and white but he also is bisexual. Why is it necessary to attack him for those things

ok i’m leaving for real after this but uh

pascal confronted me first, lmfao. i’ve never spoken to this guy before. if he didn’t want to be yelled at, he didn’t have any place in confronting me about something he wasn’t involved in.

i’ll be honest, i wasn’t looking for a fight. i was respectful about it, until his tone got a little too patronizing and felt like he was looking down at me for responding the way i did. after that, i got pissed off. i got angry, and i called him out because i was angry. and like, you gotta understand that i don’t get angry easily. but what he said was so patronizing and i felt like i was being talked down to by someone who didn’t respect me at all.

so he made a post. and took a lot of the words i said out of context. i’ll be glad to share my full response but like, you gotta realize i wasn’t “attacking him on anon” for funsies. what he said to me was absolutely uncalled for in his tone and phrasing. he wanted me to apologize for being offended. and i wasn’t going to take that sitting down.

i am a candid person, and i like to think i’ll be honest about how i talk to people and if they treat me like i’m a child, then i’ll fire right back. i don’t care if he’s bisexual and i never attacked him for that but attacked him for his invalidating of the people in the community who were hurt by what was said.

thanks for the ask.

[jebsplayshss]

i’m outtie!

i want to be here for y’all but it’s really been a uhhhh draining day. i don’t really have the energy or emotional ability to keep up right now

so seeing as i’m busy with work, zines, and fall semester starting monday, i’m thinking it’s time i go on hiatus for a while. or uh. consider just kind of stepping back completely?

i might lurk and post sometimes, but for the most part, i’m exhausted. i want a nap. but i gotta go do a deposit and finish my work so alas........ (lol)

thank you guys for the sweet messages. thank you for hearing us out. i genuinely love and appreciate this fandom and all it’s done for me, but there are things that i can’t always stomach and can’t always face head on. that’s no one’s fault, by the way. sometimes i like to take steps back and do personal introspection before i can keep going.

i like to look ahead.

i won’t be closing my messages or anything, so if you need a friend to listen to you vent or anything, i’ll try to respond as quick as possible. you can always shoot me a message on my personal, twitter, or instagram. thank you.

[kaitlynsgf-blog]

I love Kaitlyn Liao

[jebsplayshss]

My queen!

<333

[jebsplayshss]

im a silent lurker in the fandom who never quite had the courage to join in but recently was feeling more comfortable and considering it but honestly not anymore!! i recently started the process of coming out and its been really hard and seeing so many people in the fandom be so gross about it gave me an anxiety attack like woah... i love a lot of the fandom and the game but after today it doesnt feel like a safe space for me :( i just wish allies wouldnt talk over lgbt+ ppl and would listen...

(lurker coming out anon) thank you for being so vocal and sticking up for whats right, if it wasnt for you and others being supportive i wouldnt even want to lurk in the fandom after today tbh... but knowing at least some ppl are out there fighting for us is wonderful

hey!!! i’m proud of you for starting the process. i know it’s tough and emotionally draining, and i am 100% here for you as you take these brave steps. you are so, so strong.

please know that you have a support system here. i know how hard it can be and it’s definitely been quite... a day. i know you probably don’t feel safe to come out of lurking as it is, but if you ever do, drop me a line! heck, stay on anon and keep droppin lines! i’m here to be friends, i promise. thank you so much for messaging me! i love you and wish you so much luck and love in your personal life. <3

[amelia-is-watching]

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[jebsplayshss]

mfw lovehacks was cute this chapter but spent my diamonds on endsum and got that "(your relationship with aiyana will be affected)" and i died

[jebsplayshss]

this.... is a lie

[jebsplayshss]

Hey, thanks for being so vocal about what's going on in the fandom right now. You've articulated my issues with what's going on better than I ever could and I really appreciate it. You keep on being awesome and keep on doing what your doing. I support you ~harfeldneedsanewhairdresser

AWH i lov u thank u for the support! i am doin my best to be candid with y'all and explain myself to my best ability so i'm relieved to see that a lot of y'all think i'm doing pretty ok at that ;; ❤️

[shazrystyles]

Happy One Year Anniversary, dear @playchoices 🎉! This is my entry for the 3rd round. I made a fan art of Talos my bronze boy, aka Kenji.

Isn’t he look sexy?😜💕💛

Do not repost this art without permission. Just reblog, ok?

[zig-orteg-deactivated]

Ahh I love this!! 😍😍 My only fave in the whole book lol. 😄

[britaneeleeannart-deactivated20]

Very cool 😁 like his expression

[zeesqueere]

@gayforgayle

[jebsplayshss]

@cordcnia // i've had perfectly accepting friends say things to me like "im going gay like you cause boys suck." and i haven't said anything because they'd get defensive and think i was calling them a homophobe. it's not fun for us to have to correct people about these things. im glad you're speaking out about it.

i love u!!! and yeah!!! talking about this is so so difficult for us but the discussion is so so important. thank u for sharing 💖

[jebsplayshss]

hey straight up, probs not the last post i make today but although i don't agree with complacency and ignoring these issues/discussions if you're strongly affected and feel anxiety over this you're allowed to remove yourself from the situation. you can unfollow me. i don't try to maintain a false image of love and serenity and i won't pretend to. i've made mistakes in the past where i've stayed silent and have only ever regretted my silence. i'm not asking for people to support me, really! i want you to do what's best for you, and if that means cutting me out, so be it. i take full responsibility if what i've said hurt you or if i come from a place that feels unreasonable. however i don't tolerate being called names under the guise of anonymity. if you think i've wronged you, confront me. i do my best to be candid and i don't ever want to apologize for that (especially if my candid can be volatile and angry. i take responsibility for that too.) otherwise yo take care of yourselves! i'll probably take a break and follow my own advice but! genuinely. take care.