To my ex.
I know you may not want to hear from me, but I feel this is the best way to let you read how I feel on your own time. When I wake up I think of you , I wonder about you, I’d kill to just see you. I hope you’re doing well and you’re happy, not anyone making you happy but your own mind giving you love and peace in your mental well being. I only wish the best for you because you deserve all the love and happiness this life can give us. You’re one of the most incredible people to exist and I truly know how much great things you’ve done and continue to do and all the things you’ll achieve. You are the biggest prize in this world, and the best thing you can bless someone with. You’ve grown through some tough things & you’re still giving life your everything and I admire you so much for that. You’re on my mind fully from night to day and on repeat, I love you so much and I’m sorry I’ve taken years to realize how much you truly mean to me and how much you mean to me. I hope one day we can meet and we don’t even have to meet as lovers but even just friends. A conversation with a coffee or a bite to eat or even just a walk. I have so much to tell you and so much I’d love to say, as I’m sure you’d have as well. No matter what I’ll always love you whether you want me to from afar or near, the thought of you existing in this world and me not having access kills me, but that’s my doing and sometimes in life I’ve learned play stupid games get stupid prizes so here I am with that haha and here’s to me having to be punished for that. Anyways. This is my letter to you, I hope you read it and I hope you know you are living rent free in my head more than you’ll know. The amount of times a day I log in & hope there’s a blue color notification from you. A girl can dream, I hope that can still happen if not then atleast this post makes me feel like I’m talking to you.
Anyways.
Have an amazing day.
Love you.
-Jen
