dang it i have a fucking massive dookie crush. so now in true me fashion i have to write down every single interaction we had at hijinx LMFAOOO UGH I FULLY HAVENT HAD THIS BIG OF A CRUSH IN A LONG TIME. USUALLY ITS JUST ME HAVINF A CRUSH BC I CAN TELL THEY LIKE ME BUT AHHHH THIS TIME I FULLY STARTED CRUSHING AFTER TALKING TO THEM AND LIKING THEIR PERSONALITY AND HE SUCHHHHH A CUTIE. i feel like a fuckin highschooler
we didn’t talk at all, i don’t think i even hugged him when i got there i just said hi and introduced myself, and he did the same. that night i kinda just asked him basic stuff like where he’s gnna sleep and figuring out the sleeping arrangements for everyone. i honestly didn’t even notice that hes a cutie, i really didn’t care for it or him tbh.
okay so i think our first interaction was when i woke up and everyone was awake already. jinx went out and got james some bagels and i was like i want cream cheese!!! and jinx was like do you want this scone ? and i was like nahh that’s okayyy. anyways toronto crew went out to trader joes and jano and i went to walgreens to get him stuff for his leg.
when we came back, everyone was watching wolf of wall street. i made a comment about the jonah hill snorting victim an c thing and jinx was like “can’t you see we’re watching a movie here!” and i was like o0o LMFAO i was like :0 oKay IM SORRY and he cutely smiled and was like heheheh i’m kidding hehe and im like that’s so rude i made u a kandi and now ur not getting it and he’s like noooo im sorry i was joking heheh. we had many small interaction like when i was cutting marinas hair, he was tryna get thru but he’s like wow ur really into this im gnna wait until u finish to pass through or smthing idk.
when i was waiting for jessica to get back with food from chickfila, i sat down in the middle of the couch to watch wolf of wall street. i was eepy tho. jinx sat in front of me and idk he said smthing briefly and he asked me “are those your real eye colour?” and i was like oh,,, what do u think? and he’s like yea i think so LOL anyways i just ended up cuddling w jason and sleeping for a bit. i woke up to get ready anddddd literally my only interaction with him was when he was putting on his shoes to leave with the boys first and i was near the door doing my makeup and i asked him what his pjs are and if he’s rolling today. we just had very very minimal convo. he came back in to grab something and asked me for hand cream. he said something about him having dry hands bc he’s white LMFAOO i couldn’t find mines and he was like it’s okayyy and i think jano or mark ended up giving it to him.
at hijinx i fully did not interact with him atttt allll. i gave him his kandi bc it was the only one i could find LOL i literally gave him a small side hug. when i gave him his 67 kandi, he said thank u befoe looking at it and i was like look at it look at it!! and he looked and i did the 67 thing LOL…. he just laughed and i reached out for a hug. i think i asked him one other time during the rave if he was okay and gave him another side hug. at the end of hijinx i went around asking people if they had an extra ap ticket and jinx said i could take his ticket bc he doesn’t want to go anymore and i was like NOOOO U HAVE TO GOOO. and he’s like mmm ill go if u go and im like okay deal and then marina found me a ticket so fast HAHAHA so i went back to him and was like okay we’re going YAYYYY LOL. and he’s like ahhh okay looks like im going. anyways i walked forward with tor crew and looked behind to see if anyone was behind and i saw jinx alone so i went to walk with him. i asked him how his roll was and how the set was. we talked a bit. i linked arms with him as we were walking out. we lost the group so we walked home alone tgt. we chatted about him being friends w james and just small talk. we waited in the lobby for the others so we can open the door. he asked me about ohana and our kandis. he asked if marina and i are sisters bc we have this sisterly bond. i talked about amanda also being a teacher. he said how his kids would love the 67 kandi i made for him. maybe we were looking at something on insta (im pretty sure we were or maybe he went to look at something) idk why but he has his phone out on insta but he handed me his phone and i took it and did nothing with it and was like ??? and i’m like what. and he’s like oh ur insta ? and im like OHHHH okay! (teeheheheheheheheheheh) at this point i was like wait a minute… he’s kinda cute……….
we all went back upstairs and sat down. he sat next to me on the floor and asked me if i would ever try whippets? and we chatted about that a little. he told me to never do it bc it will evaporate my brain cells and then we had to leave for ap. i kept saying to the group how marina anthony jinx and i will go in one car LOL hoping he’d sit in the back w me but anthony ended up sitting in the back instead. makes sense jinx is tall. this is where i started to scheme a little i think LOL not purposefully tho. we were standing at the doorway and i think he asked for my age or everyone else’s age. i told him how all the toronto boys are 30+ and he’s like wth seriously?? and he talked about how he wishes he’ll look that young at 30 and i was like i think u look very baby and young! we talked about his age and whatnot. (i don’t even think i was trying to flirt i think i just started noticing him more). when we got dropped off at the ap there was a slight walk and i was trying to fix my boot or get my id or smthing i don’t remember but i stopped to fix it and everyone left in front (but the ap line was like right there anyways its fine) but jinx noticed i stopped (holy i didnt even remember this until just now) and he came back to wait for me. he asked me if im okay and walked with me to the line. he kinda rubbed my shoulders a little bc i was superrrrr cold. we got in line and i penguin cuddled w bestie n rory bc i was scared to stare at him now. i was like bestie. jinx is kinda cute. and she’s like oh yea he is, like he’s actually very cute. (i think the moment i said it out loud to bestie is when it hit reality for me bc it was just a thought before and literally did not feel real and i don’t know why i said it but i said it so naturally). anyways we went inside and i just raved with him a little. and we walked into the crowd a bit more so i held his hand tehe. eventually we ran into some girl and we were still holding hands but he stood and walked behind them so we eventually let go. i looked behind asking if he was okay and gave a thumbs up. we didn’t interact tooooo much but marina and i tried to teach him to frat boy flick. i asked him if he could put my digi cam in his fanny pack. i was looking and noticing him more now… nearing the end of the ap, him and james wanted to go into the mosh pit. so james handed his stuff to maggie and then he turned to me and asked me if i can hold his stuff so i put my arms out. he handed his fanny pack and pash to me :3 i wore his sparkly pash on my head bc it looks so cutie honestly. anyways he came back n he said thank you and took his fanny pack and i heard him say, “oh u can wear it” but i wasn’t sure so i gave him his pash back. the tor crew went back first.
after everyone was back idk if this is when it happened but jinx sat next to me and had his arm like spread out on the side i was sitting on, eventually i leaned back and laid my neck on his arm but he never wrapped his arm around me, he just had it sitting there. i felt like lowkey that was kinda purposeful tho. it was awkwardly straight out and he put it out when he laid down but i was already sitting there. anywayssss after i showered and whatnot i went outside and sat w james n shawn and jinx was already sleeping on the couch. i texted ohana saying “uh oh i think jinx is a big fat cutie” and they were all clowning me saying how they were gnna tell him and that im cooked now.
i got up and sat on the couch with jason and jinx. i played wordle and he asked me for my phone to play a game with me and he pulled out a country naming game. freaking cutie. anyways i just laid next to him playing sudoku. he took a random photo of me on my phone when my phone was just in front of him. i think he accidentally picked up my phone. jason cuddled with me for a bit and he literally wasn’t getting up LOL jinx asked me for liquid iv and i said id give him later when im come back. shawn texted me saying he went on a niceeeeee walk with jinx and had a goood talk. i freaking hate him. he also said jinx is asking you for a liquid ivvvv when ur backkk. sooo annoying shawn is a shit stirrer. anyways i put a liquid iv on his head when he was just taking a little nap on the bed outside bc frankly im scared to interact w him now.
when we were getting ready, he came in asking for sparkles on his cheeks. marina was supposed to help him bc i was like IM SCARED U DO IT but marina couldn’t open the pot so she just left me to do it. anyways i just did it and was like okay bye ! LOL anyways nothing happened at the rave but i was standing in front of him for a little. he tapped my shoulders and asked me if i want his sunnies to try and gave me hehe. i asked him a few times if he felt okay on the tab. we danced a little bit and frat boy flicked but he never touched me or anything. i gave him like a slight head scratch. when it was the end of the rave i talked to him a bit. i was trying to put on my pash so i asked him to hold my phone and after i was done i gestured for my phone and hes like wha ? and i’m puppy eyes like :3 phone pls :((( and he cutely smiled and was like heh im playing and i just giggled. my pash was kinda weird and he like helped me untangle it,, i didn’t even know he was behind me.
we all went home and they arrived a bit later. i sat on the floor mattress and marina sat to my left and he sat to my right but a little more off to the side. i was still tweaking so marina and i were bouncing on that air mattress. he was giving me slight head scratches kek. and i kept turning around to him and talking to him a little bit. marina and i were bouncing him up and down and hes like this is fun like a bouncy castle heh.
i got up to charge my phone and my charger is next to the tv stand and right when i plugged it in, the tv stopped working, literally it just shut off and i was like huh and everyone goes “OH MY GOD YOU BROKE THE TV WHAT DID YOU DOOO” and everyone was clowning me and yelling at me and i was like AHHH IM SORRY IDK WHAT I DID IM SORRY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING I SWEARRRR and i think because i was tweaking i got a lil scared and i was literally pacing around and in a circle. during this i literally saw this thing fly past me in the corner of my eye but i thoguht i was just tweaking. and then jinx was like “hey ____ come here” and he was waving his hand in a gesturing motion. and i walk to him and hes like “come closer” and i got closer and he kept asking me to come closer until i was right by his face and he whispered in my ear “i sat on the remote.” and gasped so fucking hard and i was like “YOU DID THAT??? EVERYONE WAS YELLING AT ME WHAT THE HECK JINX” and he was laughing and he was like HAHA IM SORRY ILY IM SORRY HAHA and he’s like yea i threw it over there LOL and im like IS THAT WHAT FLEW ACROSS ???? i FUCKING SAW THAT and he kinda grabbed my hand and was like HHAHA IM SORRYYYYY
anyways, james was now sitting beside jinx so seating was like this:
i sat inbetween james’ legs and it’s kinda funny bc i wanted to lay back and i did lay down half way and before i could actually lay down, i shot back up in a sitting position bc i realized if i lay all the way down, id be laying on his dick LMFAOO T•T and bestie came around the corner and was like i know why u sat back up i saw the thought process through ur head and im like LMFAOOO U KNOW ME TOO WELL WTHHHH. anyways i just saw laying back but propped up (bc jason and i were basically sitting on the floor laying back on the edge of the air mattress and kinda on them. i made a comment to jason about how his neck gnna break bc we have no neck support for anything. and then jinx kinda put his hand on my neck for support … uwu kekekeke. the whole time i was drawing circles on his knee and scratching his leg. at one point he was like that feels really nice and i was like oh okay :) i also kept asking him if he still feels the tab and he’s like noo i don’t even know what im feeling anymore LMFAO
anthony and i were talking about taking shots LMFAO and he got up to get a seltzer and i asked him to get me one too and jinx was like i’m gnna get an apple. literally kill me that’s so fucking cute anyways. he got up to get it and when he sat back down, he sat on the air mattress next to me, so he’s not laying back down anymore.
he was eating it and he made a face and i’m like is it not good and he’s like it’s not what i expected and i’m like ??? and i asked him if he wanted my seltzer and he took it and he asked if i wanted to try his apple and he watched me eat it and i was like oh hmmmm and he’s like it’s kinda mid right and im like yea it’s not that juicy it’s like bite through-able. and i gave it back to him and he’s like u don’t want more? and im like … no T.T and he’s like yea i don’t like it either T.T LOOL it was kinda cute lowkey bc i feel like we were just looking into each others eyes and talking cutely about a fucking apple LOL. anyways he stayed sitting next to me but james left so we both laid back
at one point i think i was bouncing around and i kicked my drink and it spilled and i yelped LOL and i ran to get paper towels to clean it and jinx was just watching and said “you’re really good at that” LMFAO ??? and i just responded “thank you” i wanted to say more but i was like it’s gnna sound weird now LMFAO i wanted to say some shit like oh i’m used to cleaning or make some fucking woman in her cleaning place joke idk LOL anyways i came back and sat next to him and we did talk a bit but i got soooo nervy sitting next to him that i locked eyes with anthony and shawn who were sitting on the other side so:
anthony said “ong i can’t believe it’s last night already” so i took this as my opportunity to run to them and hug them and go NOOO IM GNNA MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH and i laid face down in between anthony and shawn with my arms around both of them. i turned around and situated myself in between them. after a bit, anthony got up to get a seltzer again, and im not sure if this is when jinx came and sat in front of me or he came before anthony got up. i’m pretty sure he came when anthony got up… anthony left for a really long time lowkey. anyways so when anthony left i kinda laid sideways where he was sitting so my body was diagonal with my legs near shawn who was on my right. and jinx fucking just moves spots… and he just sat on the floor in front of me…. HE GOT UP TO MOVE FROM AIR MATTRESS 1 TO AM 2 FOR WHAT REASON???? WHATTT REASONNNN. THERE WAS NO REASON. so he sat and leaned back on his elbows so hes still propped up. I FUCKING REMEMBER LOOKING AT SHAWN AND SHAWNS JUST SMIRKING AND IM GIVING HIM THE BIGGGGESSTTTTTT SIDE EYE. i was STRESSSEDDD.
i see jinx look back at me a couple of times, mostly at how i was laying?? i guess? and after a bit…. he lays on me…… fully puts his head on my stomach/side… INSTANTLY SHAWN JUST SMILES AY ME AND I LOOK TO MY LEFT AND JAMES AND MARINA ARE BOTH SMIRKING AT ME AND I ACC WANTED TO KMSSSSS LMFAOOAO and james starts taking photos of us im gnna kill him LMFAO. i give him head scratches and shawn keeps talking to me and is taking about a fucking goose while giving me the look i acc wanted to strangle him. anthony came back and he laid on my calf and hes like “glori do not move your leg” and i was like “im not going anywhere” and shawn’s like hehehe. ………. but i just keep giving jinx physical touches to the beat of the music. after like 15 mins he stretches his right arm behind his head and started tapping my waist or just whatever part of my body he was reaching. LIKE AHHHHHHH THESE ARE CHOICESSSSSSS he literally lays on me for at least like 25 mins. i have TIME STAMPS. i made his hair soooo poofy by scratching it so much. he propped himself up again. and james came and gave me a fat hug hehe that was sooooo cutie.
during this time, we talked about wanting to kandi flip and he’s like “i wish i kandi flipped” i was like me too i will probably next time and he’s like yea ill do it for edc and im like me too and he puts out his pinky and was like “okay we kandi flip together at edc then” and i was like okay im down and i pinky promised him. and i made him do the thumb thing too and im pretty sure i kissed on it and he did too.
jinx stood up bc he wanted to shower now. the moment he stood up james yelled “JINX YOUR HAIR LOOKS CRAZYYYY” and he was sooo shy about HAHA. someone said he looks like bob ross and i cant unsee its so fucking funny. so his bags were like behind AM2 so he would have to step over the AM i was sitting on. he stepped on it and i bounced up once and i was like omg don’t do that again and he was being silly and was pretending to step on it and i was like jinx don’t u dare…. and then he ran across the AM and made me BOUNCE UP SO MUCH and i was like JINXXXX and i think rory was like “omg jinx is so fast” and jinx goes “IM FAST ASS FUCK BOI” and starts running on the same spot in this grinch position IT WAS SO SILLY LMFAOO everyone was laughing and then he ran across my AM AGAIN and he was just giggling at me when he did that ugh he’s so cute.
after he showered and came back, lowkey this middle part is a blur to me. so much happened. i moved to the couch and i was just everywhere. gelo and james came back with the bag lol- everyone was up and dancing. he sat in front of me on the floor when i was on the couch. i remember i kept kicking him with my feet LOL. i would sit on the AM1 sometimes too and he’s also there but we don’t cuddle or anything. at most we just give each other lil head scratches or i asked him to pass me candy. omg i think we were sitting next to each other and ate maggie’s mommy cookies or smthing and it was kinda bad and he’s like eat more and im like no thanks… and he’s like i dont want it and im like I DONT EITHER and he’s like okay i throw it. LOL we kept teasing each other whenever the ads came on and we would call each others name in a teasing way. heheh
i got scared at one point of jinx bc he was just circling around me a lot idk and i moved to the other bed and sat there bc lowkey i was slightly overwhelmed. and then jason followed me and hugged me and laid next to me. and then shawn literally came and laid on my body in between my legs LOL and then sat in front of me with my legs wrapped around him LOL- and the bed is tucked away from the tv and all of that. but jinx came and just danced in front of the bed and i can see him lingering in front of the bed a bunch…. shawn asked him to do his best lightskin face LOL and i asked him what type of white is he LOL. and he’s like im the same are garrix and half dominican. and we were trying to guess where garrix was from bc i forgot. anyways he sat on that solo chair with a journal and i was like awwww. he kept drinking water i noticed lol- eventually he put away the journal.
i moved to the couch after i didn’t want to lay next to jason anymore LOL. so i sat on the couch with marina and bestie. jinx also came not soon after and he sat horizontal in front of me:
me marina james someone else idk
we were all sitting vertical on the sofa. i had my leg under his leg. i think he moved to sit in front of marina at one point. maybe shawn’s as next to me ?? idk butttt basically jinx was on the floor and then he was kinda on his knees on the floor and the reached all the way up to lay on my stomach on the sofa…. and his arms were together and tapping my right side …. MARINA AND JAMES BOTH LOOKED OVER AND I ROLLED MY EYES SO HARD AHHHH. i eventually told him to put his leg sideways in front of marina and james so he’s not dangling to the floor and he just napped on me….. at one point his hands were near my face so i leaned my face onto his hands and he was just slightly caress my cheek. i was playing with his hair and shirt and shoulders the whole time. i kept laughing and everytime i laugh i would be rumbling his head basically LOL so i would hold his head and say sorry and i think he’s just smiling heh. i gave him head stratchies and then im like oh no sorry i dont wanna make you bob ross and he’s like no it’s okay u can and i did it a bit more just on the sides heh. i was rubbing his ear lobe at one point and hes like that kinda feels good and im like LOL no one’s played with ur ear before ? LOOOL anyways i continued.
i grabbed his neck at one point and i said “it’s like i’m grabbing a cat” and he’s like oh do you have cats? and then we talked about our cats a bit. the entire time he had his eyes closed and didn’t look at me at all. (i wonder if that’s him being super shy hehe) anyways we had some small talks here and there. i literally had my hand in his shirt at one point LOL. i was also caressing his face so much and playing with his facial hair. he was also tapping my arm to the beat of the music the entire time.
LOOOL at one point i was scratching his hair or like under his chin and shawn was talking or barking or something and i think jinx and shawn were talking? kinda? and i think i went “aweee who’s a good boy” LOL and jinx started wagging his leg LMFAOOOO i freaking died…. and i kept saying it and he kept thumping his leg on the couch LOOL
so shawn was showering and he’s like “can you let me know when shawn’s out the shower i need to pee” and after shawns out i told him and he goes to pee and comes back and lays on me again. after a while he needed to go again and before he went he looked at me and went “save me a spot?” and that caught me soooo off guard that i was like “oh… yea,,, sure …” BRO I WAS TWEEEASKKIKGNGGG HOLYYYYYY
he came back (and got a beanie for his hair HAHA) and this time he wanted to get under the blanket so he crawled from the end of the sofa into the blanket and went in between marina and i and we were like “it’s like a newborn child coming out LOL” and he just laid there with his hands on his abdomen. i just sat up bc i was sooo scared to make moves. i gave myself headscratches bc it felt sooo good. (also bc i wanted him to maybe do something) and he’s like what are u doing and im like LMFAO giving myself head scratchies and he started giving me head scratches. mind u he had his beanie over his eyes sooo he wanted to look at me i think. kekek.
anyways i eventually laid back but just next to him. i was laying next to him practicing like finger tutting and shit and he looks up and laughs and i’m like LOL WHY ARE U LAUGHING and he’s like i just look and see u doing this. anyways i lean my head on his shoulder now with my body turned towards him and i think his arm was on my knee a bit and he was just tapping me heh. after a whileeeee i have to say, he puts his arms around me heheheheehheheheheheheheheheheheheh and he puts his hand on my hip and he’s just patting me to the music. i kinda gently placed my hand near his hand and at one point we were just kinda touching each others hands and tapping. idk what happened but it didnt last long bc i think i went to shower now after marina came out.
i was sooo scared to cuddle him bc that’s sooo intimate.. i lowkey feel like it’s less intimate when im cuddling him uk. anyways i go shower and when i come back jason was in my spot :((( and jinx was sleeping i sat in between jason and jinx and jason made some room so i could lay down more in between them. i went to james bc i got scared that people would notice more so i had to diffuse. i did eventually sit back to jason and jinx but nothing happened. i eventually got up and had to pack and get ready
i remember walking to the living room and i saw jinx take off his shirt and i turned away soooo fast oh my god i was so shy. i didn’t look at him at all bc i was sooo shy. at the end when we were leaving i hugged everyone first and then him basically last. and i hugged him on his waist and i was like im gnna miss you :(((( u promised me to kandi flip at edcccc so happy that i met u this trippp it’s been sooo fun and all that so i was just hugging him for long but not out of the ordinary. anyways then i lefttt. end of storyyyy
pretty sure i started this beginning of january…. anyways he still texts me everyday like what the fuck…
HES BEEN TEXTING ME EVERYDAY SINCE JANUARY 1ST AND WE TALKED FOR TWO DAYS BEFORE THEN. LIEK RIGHT AFTER HIJINX. and we talked in the gc so like basically been having interactions with him since dec 26….
i have the fattest crush on this man…. i don’t think i’ve had a fatter crush in a while. arguably the biggest crush ive had in my life lowkeyyyy. like idk what about him and this that makes me acc feel crush like. i think it might be that i genuinely find him attractive and i also liked him AFTER we talked and got to meet his personality. highkey why is he the hottest guy that probably has an interest in me. literally the cutest guy ive talked to fr. but we’re just friends. like EEEEPPPP i think he’s so freaking cute fuck me. maybe it’s bc this is the first white man im talking to and im realizing that white men are just my type… that’s so tragic…. oh my god. ya looking back at all the guys ive liked and talked to i dont think i genuinely thought any of them were attractive besides the two most toxic fucking ones LFMAOOO (arck and naman i don’t even know if i had a code name for him i don’t even care to give him a code name, ill just say his name without the accent HAHAHA) like even then arck and naman were like conventionally not bad ?? but def not everyone’s type. jinx i highkey think he’s acc conventionally attractive. maybe bc he’s white passing LOL. idk i think he’s so cute. maybe naman made me into curly haired boys LOL though i really don’t think im specifically into guys with curly hair but i think it’s a cute feature?
dang it jinx has such a cute smile and looks so freaking cute in glasses. he might acc look better in glasses than without. i like the cute nerd vibe. broooo i wish naman could see who im kinda talking to rn HAHAHAHAH when he’s like i know im attractive,, ur not gnna be talking to someone as attractive as me (i dont think he said that but highkey i think he did give that vibe) i best know he ain’t finding someone else as attractive as me that man fully was like YOU ARE MY TYPE YOH ARE LITERALLY AT THE CORE ARE MY TYPE. and im like ya i would never go for a brown man it’s just bc u look middle eastern HAHAHAHAHAH oh my god that’s bad and racist maybe. but damn i remember when he was insecure about how all my guy friends were buff and gym rats and hot HAHAHA ahhh i love when my guy friends can scare and intimidate boys for me without even trying. i love having hot friends. anyways. idk how i got to this path but lowkey i wish naman could fucking see me with jinx. ITS NOT THAT IM NOT OVER NAMAN BUT ITS MORE LIKE I WANNA BE EVIL RN LOOOL. bc jinx is fucking 6’2, he isn’t gym rats buff but he def has a stature i think? def on the leaner side but most 6’+ guys are. he’s fucking cute as balls but he isn’t like hot hot, he has a cute “baby” face but still mature looking. he dresses pretty well. he’s SMART. he’s really soft n kind. HES A TEACHER ugh. very respectful. like he just looks kind too. and he isn’t rowdy when he raves, he just dances cutely to himself. dang i wanna see all my exes at edc this year and just be walking around with him. holy hes so cute i cant im gnna blow up why is he attractive and into me da fuq. and he’s american damn it. do i just have a thing for americans…… whatever.
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