[jeremydied]

CAUSE BABY I'VE NEVER SEEN BROWN EYES LOOK SO BLUE. an independent and private writing blog for jeremy gilbert from the vampire diaries universe. canon critical. 21+ only. loved and hated and everything in between by mimi 27.

[firstprinced]

Antonio Cipriano as John Logan OFF CAMPUS 1.02

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[jeremydied]

i'm so tired of disappointing you.

STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT. It's practically yelled with the way his lip quivered against her confession. There's a twitch to his brow, swallowing despite his throat being bone dry. There were times where he'd pray for moments like these, but now they're falling on deaf ears. He didn't want to hear it, he wants her to fix it. He wants everything to go away until nothing hurts anymore. Jeremy lets his shoulders rise and fall, the voided over expression taking place of anything else that could've bubbled up other than contempt and disinterest of heart to heart conversations when everything has been said and done. Jeremy's disappointment doesn't fall into Elena's hands because it's her fault. It falls because he wishes it was so he'd have someone else to blame for why he was so fucked in the head. A scarred hand trails up to wipe tiredly across purple tinted features. He hasn't slept in what felt like days, his eyes bruised just as his hands are. "You aren't disappointing me." He says, voice coming out half yawned and half dismissive. "I just wish things were different." And that's honest too, to give her some kind of compromise because arguing and listening to the same speech over and over again only does so much.

[jeremydied]

some key details that are very prominent in my portrayal of jeremy:

jeremy self harms. he digs his nails into his knuckles, rubs them raw when he's anxious or uncomfortable. his hands are rough and often bleeding. sports bandaids on his open wounds more often than not.

after the death of anna, he experiences a lot of apathy regarding the people around him and his own safety. he goes from erratic behavior to not experiencing any emotions and just lets his emotions go into a state of numbness.

jeremy is an addict and he relapses. often. even though damon "compelled" him to be better after vicki, he still has a drug problem after going back to trying to self soothe after losing anna.

speaking of being compelled, he doesn't know what memories of his are real and which ones aren't and it causes him to use to see if he can "restore" those lost moments he had of vicki.

jeremy's love of his life that he's always loved from day one is vicki. he didn't start to fall for anna for real until season three where anna is a ghost. it was always vicki, and will always be vicki that he saw his endgame with in the first two seasons.

his relationship with elena is complicated and while he doesn't hate her, his apathy is mostly pointed towards her and her friends. i hc that elena and jenna had to pull him out of the falls after a suicide attempt when vicki went "missing" and caroline found her body and since then is where his dullness and detachment started, and then it turned into erratic behavior when anna entered the picture.

[jeremydied]

jeremy trusting tyler to let him in even though hes sired to klaus. im punching him thru the screen. i cannot stand him

[chaesong-hwa]

the great divide is like what if you stayed and it haunted you and what if you left and it haunted you and what if you came back and it haunted you

[jeremydied]

jeremy gilbert in season 3 (and a lil bit of 4) is just "oh sure blame the guy who's fault it is" over and over again with different scenarios that could have been prevented if he wasn't a complete dumbass

[hymnfell]

[threespringspoet]

Almosts.., words by: @thesanitysipper

[jeremydied]

you're always looking at me like you hate me.

SHE SAYS IT SO CARELESSLY. As if her words don't hold the weight they deserve, and with that comes frustration that weaves itself through Jeremy's ego. His emotions. His desire to make sure everyone is on their two feet and standing tall and not six feet underground. Bella doesn't mean to offend, he feels like knows her like the back of his hand at this point in their friendship, but it still hurts to hear. It hurts to know this is what care and intention looks like from an outsider point of view. Jeremy's face tightened at the implication — assumption, if he were to be more specific, lips in a straight line as he shakes his head. The skin of his knuckles call to his right hand like a siren song and for once he pushes back the desire to dig his nails into the creases. His voice barely finds itself but he pushes it out anyway. "It's actually the opposite." He says finally, a moment too long of studying her face as if anything he says could flip a switch and she'd run the other way. "I look at you with worry." Worry that she's going to die just by aligning herself with him. Worry that the happiness he feels when next to her will fade within moments because that's what happens when he has a second to breathe.

"I look at you with frustration because you put yourself into danger too quickly to know what it all means." He's lived through death way too much for how long he's been on this planet. "You think you do, but you don't." Not like he has seen. Not in the same way where death does the scratching for him, his parents, his aunt, his girlfriends, the afterlife is a shadow and Jeremy thinks the darkness is sewn to the soles of his feet to never break free. Dark brown eyes are hoping that she understands from sentiment alone, ringing in his ears becoming louder against the sound of the thrashing of his heartbeat. "And if that reads to you as hatred, you don't know what caring really looks like." What love really looks like at the hands of a man who's cursed. "I don't hate you, Bella." a beat. "I could never hate you."

[t8i72]

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Words by: @thesanitysipper

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[ohisms]

✱ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 1-800 ( HIT MY LINE ) ... ( a collection of texting prompts, part two. adjust phrasing as necessary, mature themes present. )

[ TXT ] :   you could just say you're sorry.

[ TXT ] :   this doesn't mean i forgive you.

[ TXT ] :   be outside in two minutes or you're dead,  i mean it.

[ TXT ] :   the least you could do is let me know you're okay.

[ TXT ] :   you start your day at 2pm?

[ TXT ] :   i think i lost my  [ ITEM ].  is it there?

[ TXT ] :   where are you?  nobody's heard from you.

[ TXT ] :   pick up.  pick up.  pick up.

[ TXT ] :   what if i said i'm outside?

[ TXT ] :   keep me posted.

[ TXT ] :   i want to kiss you so bad it hurts.

[ TXT ] :   send me your location.

[ TXT ] :   i hope this is some sort of emergency.

[ TXT ] :   i woke up and you were gone.

[ TXT ] :   they know.  i don't know how,  but they know.

[ TXT ] :   don't come home yet. i'll explain later.

[ TXT ] :   don't say i didn't warn you.

[ TXT ] :   i can't tell if you're mad at me...

[ TXT ] :   just trust me,  ok?

[ TXT ] :   [ IMAGE DELIVERED ]  you left this behind.

[ TXT ] :   are we still on for tonight?

[ TXT ] :   i want you to admit what you did.

[ TXT ] :   did you just hang up on me?

[ TXT ] :   are we ever going to talk about this?

[ TXT ] :   this is bigger than both of us now.

[ TXT ] :   i'm still waiting.

[ TXT ] :   what are you doing tomorrow night?

[ TXT ] :   fine,  i'll do it myself.

[ TXT ] :   you're still my emergency contact.

[ TXT ] :   stop,  you're making me blush.

[ TXT ] :   i lied earlier.  i'm not fine.

[ TXT ] :   [ MEDIA ]  ...  delete this after you look.

[ TXT ] :   i'm not joking.

[ TXT ] :   what happened to "never again"?

[ TXT ] :   i just want to make sure you know you're not alone.

[ TXT ] :   i don't know who else to call.

[ TXT ] :   can't stop thinking about you.

[ TXT ] :   you couldn't have told me this in person??

[ TXT ] :   i can't wait to see you again.

[ TXT ] :   did i do something wrong?

[ TXT ] :   i can't help you if you don't let me.

[ TXT ] :   i have ... sort of a favor to ask.

[ TXT ] :   i'm grabbing food, want me to pick you up?

[ TXT ] :   you looked at me different tonight.

[ TXT ] :   i don't want to be alone right now.

[ TXT ] :   i can't believe you'd actually say that.

[ TXT ] :   don't worry,  i handled it.

[ TXT ] :   i didn't think this through.

[ TXT ] :   give me a straight answer.

[ TXT ] :   if you go to the cops,  so will i.

[ TXT ] :   someone's feeling bold today.

[ TXT ] :   were you ever going to tell me?

[ TXT ] :   i shouldn't have said that.

[ TXT ] :   we kind of have a situation...

[ TXT ] :   i keep re-reading our old messages.

[ TXT ] :   like,  a BODY-body??

[ TXT ] :   you should hate me right now.

[ TXT ] :   i didn't plan for this,  either.

[ TXT ] :   i know you're reading these.

[ TXT ] :   have you been taking care of yourself?

[ TXT ] :   it's getting really bad again.

[ TXT ] :   [ IMAGE DELIVERED ]  am i doing this right...?

[ TXT ] :   i'm coming over whether you want me to or not.

[ TXT ] :   i need you to delete our texts.

[ TXT ] :   were you at  [ LOCATION ]  yesterday?

[ TXT ] :   you got anywhere to be later?

[ TXT ] :   i know it's 3am but i need to hear your voice.

[ TXT ] :   are you having fun?

[ TXT ] :   i'm on my way,  don't go anywhere.

[ TXT ] :   it's been awhile,  we should meet up somewhere.

[ TXT ] :   oh my god,  are you bailing again?

[ TXT ] :   [ LINK ]  ...  this reminded me of you.

[ TXT ] :   so that's it?  we're just...  done?

[ TXT ] :   wear the  [ ITEM ]  i got you tonight.

[ TXT ] :   you looked at me different tonight.

[ TXT ] :   bring a jacket,  it's freezing.

[ TXT ] :   your secret is safe with me.

[ TXT ] :   this wasn't meant for you. forget you saw that.

[ TXT ] :   do i need to come over?

[ TXT ] :   stop,  you're making me blush.

[ TXT ] :   you're running out of time.

[ TXT ] :   don't bother making excuses.

[ TXT ] :   i see you typing...

[ TXT ] :   i don't think i caught your name.

[ TXT ] :   they know.  i don't know how,  but they know.

[ TXT ] :   i wouldn't ask if it wasn't important.

[ TXT ] :   you snore,  by the way.

[ TXT ] :   show me what you're working on.

[ TXT ] :   call me right now,  it's an emergency.

[ TXT ] :   if i tell you something,  promise you won't freak out.

[ TXT ] :   i thought you were dead.

[ TXT ] :   this is all a big mistake.

[ TXT ] :   movie's showing tonight at 9,  are you in?

[ TXT ] :   [ IMAGE DELIVERED ]  ...  miss this yet?

[ TXT ] :   you don't have to be such an asshole.

[ TXT ] :   you know what you're doing to me.

[ TXT ] :   i just heard what happened... are you okay?

[ TXT ] :   you owe me one.

[ TXT ] :   i miss you so much.

[ TXT ] :   can you send me the photos from last night?

[ TXT ] :   [ LINK ]  ...  have you seen this???  [ NAME ]??

[ TXT ] :   you looked beautiful last night.

[ TXT ] :   can i see that beautiful face?

[ TXT ] :   i kept your stuff. in case you ever wanted it back.

[ TXT ] :   sorry,  i'm running late.

[ TXT ] :   i'm not supposed to be talking to you.

[ TXT ] :   you can't ignore me forever.

[ TXT ] :   [ LINK ]  ...  don't freak out.

[ TXT ] :   i think my phone is tapped.

[ TXT ] :   hold on,  i'm in the middle of something.

[ TXT ] :   just checking to see if you've blocked me...

[ TXT ] :   you can't tell anyone about this.