A head full of thoughts

✌🏽

[jesuisbell]

And in that moment

There

Before my very eyes

All that’s running in my mind

The days of wondering

The nights of crying

Feels like they’re finally through

After all this time

I finally found you.

[jesuisbell]

To fight your demons you gotta take a look in the mirror.

[jesuisbell]

You don’t even know what it would mean to me just to see your face again.

Even if you just walked on by and didn’t even recognize me I still would be happy .

You left your mark on me...

[jesuisbell]

To the city I'm from...

I need to go

It's becoming a pain

I feel so alone

This place isn't home

To me it's never felt like home

I just wanna go

Find my place

I wanna be free

Break all these chains

I'm tired of the same streets

Tired of playing routine

I was meant to fly

I am gonna fly

I'm gonna soar high

And just leave it all behind

I cant let life pass me by

I need to leave this nest

I'm ready to fly

It's time I say goodbye

To the life that I lived

And find myself

Find where I belong

That's all I ever wanted

Was to find where I belong

Dreaming of the day where I say

so long...

[jesuisbell]

A message from the heart

[jesuisbell]

It's like an eternal flame

It didn't go all the way out

It just died down to a steady glow

It's just enough.

But the moment the wind blows

The sparks begin to rise

The flame blazes brighter then ever.

That's what our love is like...

And maybe it sounds crazy but

I'm just waiting for the day it rains

To see how eternal this flame is...

[jesuisbell]

The truth...

The truth is I love you.

The truth is I miss you.

The truth is I want you.

The truth is I need you.

The truth is there's no me without you.

The truth is...

Its just you.

[jesuisbell]

Today has finally come.

I'm keeping my promise.

Today I'm letting you go.

Not like the times before.

This time I'm the one whose going.

I wish I could stay longer.

But if I did I'd miss my flight.

And I was meant to fly.

I didn't know I'd have to say goodbye.

Its feel more like adieu.

So I say Goodbye to you my love.

I bid you adieu.

[jesuisbell]

When I look at you

I see the person I wish I could be

When I look at you

I see all my insecurities

When I look at you

I see my worst fears

And it just haunts me

But when I'm with you

All those things seem to go away

When I'm with you

I feel safe

I feel happy

I feel love

So then I look at you

And I see my heart

-bm

[jesuisbell]

Locked out of Heaven.

I let my fears, insecurities,and doubts

I took for granted

I made excuses

And if could go back

I would...

But that wouldn't be fair

That day I made my choice very clear

Burned into my memory

Burned into my soul

The songs that sang louder than any song from before

I remember it clearly and you'd never let me forget

Nor should I

You made your choice too

And the silence was clear.

[jesuisbell]

You were the poison that entered my blood stream

It stopped my heart and didn't give me the chance to see

You took my last breath away

And I suffocated and gasped for air

And that was fate

In the end

Our love was always meant to be tragic

[jesuisbell]

Hey.

Are you there?

Are you here?

Are you anywhere near?

You seem so far away

Oh won't you come on out and play

Let's make this a sunny day

Where it's you and me

And its me and you

Under the sky of blue

Laying in the grass

As the flowers bloom

Yes It would be just us two

And the birds up in the clouds

And the wind gently blew

We would be here

And you would be near

Hand in hand

Hoping for the day to never end.

[jesuisbell]

You were the trees that surrounded me

They stood tall with thier watered greens

You were the sounds of birds that engulfed me

They chirped thier songs and filled me with peace

You were the ground full of the dirt and leaves

You were they neverending forest

I thought it was just a dream

[jesuisbell]

You will never know how much you mean to me

Even if I tried

Not even these words can say

Or a single thought expressed

[jesuisbell]

Like the sun and moon

Together they create day and night

Though the sun shines bright on its own

The moon needs the sun

Without it the moon can't shine.

[jesuisbell]

Im here to let you know

This time I'm finally letting you go

Its time that I grow

And let the wind blow

Its hard, yes that I know

The water has stopped its flow

From all the way down below

But the sadness still shows

How much I hate this letting go

But I just want to see you grow

With me? I guess thats a no.

[jesuisbell]

You make me mad.

Im mad that I still want you

Im mad that Think about you

Im mad that I can't get over you

Im mad that I still care about you

Im mad that I even pray for your well being

Im mad that I look for you in every person I see

Im mad that I never told you

Im mad that I never gave you the chance

Im mad that I was so scared

Im mad that I let you get away

Im mad that we're apart

Im mad because even after all this time

Im still so into you.