Jesus, John

MOTA Blog while I write a Bucky x OC fic because the hyper fixation is real 🙊It’s all Callum Turner’s fault

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 74

I am so sorry for the delay! It’s the end of the school year here so I have been slammed at work. I’ve caught up to where I’ve written and it took me forever to get this done! But another few weeks and it’ll be break time so I’ll have all the time in the world (kind of) to write 👏🏻

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Penny turned to Bucky, raising her eyebrows in question to see what he thought. He’d been quiet, frozen behind her as he had watched it all unfold with Hall. At first he hadn’t understood what happened. One minute Penny was gripping his arm, the next she was crying. And not just the quiet tears he’d see her wipe away when she thought no one was looking. These were gasping sobs that came from somewhere deep within. He’d seen her cry before, but not like that.

As she looked at him now, waiting for his reaction to the question, he could see the pure relief on her face. For the first time in months he wasn’t what she needed and that realisation hit him hard.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 73

I just love feral Bucky 😅

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Her breath caught in her throat when he finally looked at her, pleading for her to follow Buck. She glanced over her shoulder, he was standing near a car waiting for her to follow.

With a final push from Bucky, she sucked in a breath and turned to follow him, walking quickly but casually down the same path the others had taken before her as the commotion continued behind her.

She was halfway to the car when the shouts came.

“HALT! HALT!”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 72

I love this gif 😂 just his whole attitude in that scene. So sullen.

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However, Bucky must have read it on her face. He reached up and set his palm to the side of her neck, his thumb resting under the hinge of her jaw. She leaned into the warm pressure of it, closing her eyes in peace.

“I love you, doll,” his voice was so soft in the hustle and bustle of the compound but she felt it.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 71

Sorry for the delay! Chapter 71 is up! I kinda love this one, and it’s the start of the next part of the war 😬

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For a moment, she didn’t feel like she was in a POW camp at all. She was back in the jeep with him, in the hotel in London, in the cockpit on the airfield at Thorpe Abbotts, anywhere but here.

But it didn’t last long. The world outside swiftly intruded on their moment.

It began faintly. Just a low, rolling thump that seemed to travel up through the ground and into their bones. Penny froze against him before a faint boom followed, distant, but undeniable. The echo of heavy shelling somewhere on the horizon.

They both knew that sound.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 70

here we go! On time for my Thursday posting for once 😅

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“That’s the problem!” Buck surged to his feet to, coming to stand in front of Bucky. “You’re so wrapped up in this guilt, in your need to fix everything for her, that you’re not thinking straight. You want to keep her safe? Fine. But not at the expense of every other man in this tent. You pull a stunt like that again, John, and you’re not just risking yourself, you’re risking us, you’re risking her,” he sighed. “Right now, we don’t think the guards realise she’s here. All it takes is one word from one jackass to them, or them catching on about a fight, and they’ll rip her outta here so fast you won’t even blink.”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 69

Sorry it’s so late!!! I got there in the end after more editing 😂

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Her forehead bumped his collarbone as she breathed in the smoke and wool smell of him. Letting a small part of her go slack, despite the stubborn part staying wired, the tension she was unable to let go staying knotted inside. He felt that resistance, of course he did, he knew her more than he knew himself these days. So he just let her think. His thumb drawing patient circles on her side.

“I’ve got you,” he murmured into her hat, his voice low and soothing. “Always, doll. It’s my job as your husband but… it’s not just that. It’s all I want to do in life.”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 68

Yay! Thanks @josieb100 for telling me AO3 was back online! I reloaded and got to uploading. Enjoy!

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Still, they didn’t let it dampen their spirits. Sitting around their tent’s fire, they did the usual ‘what is the first thing you’re gunna eat when we get out of here?’ chat. The tone had been getting more and more depressing back at Stalag Luft III but for some reason it had been rejuvenated since moving to this stalag.

“I mean obviously chocolate,” Penny scoffed when it was her turn.

“You always say that, Nellie,” Curtis rolled his eyes. “Come up with something more exciting for once.”

“It’s literally all I think about, Curt. Like <i>all I can ever think about</i>,” she groaned dramatically.

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Chapter 68 Delay 😭

I was late to try upload chapter 68 and now AO3 is down for like a whole day 😭😭😭

So I’ll upload as soon as they’re back online. A lil snippet in the meantime

She curled closer into him. “You’re gunna get yourself killed, John.”

He tightened his arms around her, pulling her impossibly closer as though sheer force could banish the thought. Instead of a relevant response, she only got, “I love you,” in return.

As his lips pressed to her hair she couldn’t shake the heaviness in her chest. She leaned into it though, tipping her face up to find his mouth in the dark. His breath caught in surprise, but then his hand cupped her cheek and he kissed her back, hungrily.

It deepened, his mouth moving over hers with all of the pent up fear and devotion of the last weeks. Months even. His arm locking firmly around her waist, holding her flush against him as though the whole camp might try to prise them apart.

Her fingers curled into his collar, pulling him closer and she poured everything into that kiss. Her gratitude, love, the desperate need to remind him that he wasn’t just her guard. He was still her husband. The man she chose. And she needed that more than some guard dog.

When they finally broke apart, foreheads pressed together, his breathing was ragged. He watched her, thumb stroking her cheekbone gently, caressing the scar that cut down through it.

“I’ve got you, doll, doesn’t matter what happens to me,” he vowed.

That was exactly her worry. But instead of voicing it, she kissed him again, soft and lingering before settling down against his chest.

Even as the doubt gnawed at her, the guilt and worry that she was too much weight on his shoulders, she pushed it aside. She’d just love him, worry about the rest later.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 67

Next chapter up! Thanks again for the reading, sharing, and commenting 🫶🏻

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She shook her head, tugging her arm with panicked tears spilling from her eyes. “I can’t- Curt, I can’t do it-”

Bucky caught her chin gently, forcing her gaze up to meet his equally panicked eyes. “You don’t have a choice, sweetheart. You hear me? If you don’t get in, they’ll notice. They’ll take you.” His thumb stroked her jaw, gentle but pleading. “You trust me?” Her lips trembled, but she eventually nodded. “Good, then hold onto me,” he said, voice low and fierce. “Block everything else out. It’s only me and you. I’ll get you through it. Ok?”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 66

Eek! We’re moving along!! Thanks everyone for your continued love!

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Bucky closed the distance between their bodies, wrapping her in his embrace as his lips met hers in an open show of affection they’d never usually put on in front of the others.

But right now, they didn’t have the time nor energy to hide. And right now, no one could be jealous. They couldn’t envy Bucky right now. They’d all felt a tinge of it over the preceding months, borne from missing their wives or girlfriends back home. It was hard not to miss them and to then see Bucky with Penny and not feel that spark of jealousy.

But now? Not one man in that room felt that jealousy now. Unable to imagine being in Bucky’s shoes and have their wife alongside them on what was sure to be a hellish journey.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 65

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He cocked an eyebrow at Bucky from his spot against the wall next to Buck. “Well, well, look what the cat dragged in.”

“Take a wrong turn on the way to midnight, did you?” DeMarco remarked cheekily.

Penny rolled her eyes and gave them a flat look, though the corner of her mouth twitched a little holding back the smile. “I just needed some air.”

“Sure you did,” Hambone smirked. “Just some air.”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 64

I wish I could post more than once a week! I’m so excited to share these next parts but I powered through another chapter this week so hoping if I smash out a few more I might be able to pick up again. Anyway! Here we go!

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“You’re scaring me, John,” she whispered.

He seemed to snap out of it a little, pulling her immediately into his arms and shaking his head. “Fuck, I’m sorry, Pen, I didn’t think-” he cut himself off.

“I thought I was safe here,” she whispered against his chest. “I knew the guards were the danger but I stayed close to you, and Buck, Jimmy, the guys. But now…” her voice faltered before she could finish the thought and Bucky just squeezed her tighter into him.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 63

Slower updates now so I can keep up with the writing, once a week I think. But enjoy!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61268341/chapters/180479516

Curtis studied Bucky for a moment, it really hitting him now just how much Bucky loved his sister. It tore his heart up a little bit, in a good way, to see the conviction in Bucky’s eyes. He’d known since that night outside the officers’ club, when he got back from Scotland, just how much Bucky cared for Penny. But seeing it in this light… it was something else.

“Yeah,” he said eventually. “I’m sure it wouldn’t come to that but I hear you. But I think Hall and maybe Jacobs would do whatever it takes.”

“I know,” Bucky said, “and I believe em. But if it came down to split second hesitation? There’s no other option that’d cross my mind.”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 62

The gang is back together, kinda!

Thank you so much for all the love! 🫶🏻

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“Hopefully he’ll be more lucid tomorrow. I think he was still out of it. Probably thought I was a dream,” she chuckled sadly.

“You are,” Bucky whispered into her hair. “Always have been.”

She pulled back so she could meet his eyes again and lifted a hand to stroke the hair from his face.

“You’re too sweet, John,” she smiled softly.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 61

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61268341/chapters/178162061

Eeeek!!

Intrigued, Bucky pushed himself off his perch against the desk and followed after Buck. “Look, I know we’ve not been spending as much time together lately, but you’re still my number one gal, Buck,” Bucky joked as he slung an arm around Buck’s shoulder. “You don’t gotta sneak me off you know.”

“Jesus, John,” he grumbled in response, shrugging off Bucky’s annoying weight.

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 60

Sorry for the delay!

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Bucky threw down his cigarette and started jogging towards her, instantly on alert with the guard following a few feet behind. He immediately pulled Penny behind him and glared down the guard.

“Where did you take her? What did you do?” He demanded while Hall actually asked Penny if she was ok.

The young guard looked a little flustered, stuttering out, “A-a meeting, with M-Major Simoleit.”

Bucky eyed him and then turned to Penny to confirm. At her nod he turned back to the guard. “Next time, one of us goes with her. No one takes her without one of us.”

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The Air Between Us - Chapter 59

A lil love and a lil angst… Thank you as always <3

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Penny was the one to step into his space, pressing her face against his chest, wrapping her arms around his torso. So, he gently wrapped his arms around her in return and without even thinking he started to sway to the beat of Moonlight Serenade, like he’d wanted to do in the rec hall.

Penny knew exactly what song he was thinking of but made a mental note to ask the guys to learn Blue Skies next. She’d like to dance to that with him again.

Recalling their night in London one year ago, she blushed. That song, the dance hall, the hotel… she didn’t realise until now how lucky she was to be reunited with him. With every possible chance there had been, in the last year, for something to have gone even more horribly wrong, they still ended up together.