The pitter-patter of the rain befalls your roof, the sound echoing in your ears as you stare out the window of your room. Greying clouds shrouded the sky, covering what little left of the sun was visible in the storm brewing on what was supposed to be a lovely sunny Sunday afternoon. Well, it still is lovely.
Usually on days like these, the floor of your room would be cold to the touch of your feet and the only thing offering you comfort would be the covers you would hide under your bed; which you were in as of now with some extra warmth beside your lying body. You turn your head to the side to face the sleeping figure next to you, his arms wrapped around your waist securely like it was held on by a lock. The dark strands of hair fall on his face perfectly, covering his closed lids so gently it barely poked his skin. You make use of the time to study his features, his sharply curved nose, his inviting plump-coloured lips to counting all the spotted moles perfectly decorating his soft skin.
He looked perfect in this state of his yet there was a heaviness pulling the back of your throat, the palpitations of your heartbeat increasing the more you tried to hold in from bursting into tears. It was exhausting, having to rationalize yourself and bury the feelings that arise when looking at him like that. It felt so right and wrong all at the same time, you blame nobody but yourself for the demise brought to your own heart.
His chest was moving up and down pace fully as his breath softly contacted your face, the tip of his nose inches away from brushing yours; ever so gentle and vulnerable like that next to you, holding you as he continued to slumber like the world outside never grew dark. It was really, a lovely Sunday afternoon. Well, that was until you heard the sound of your younger brotherโs loud chatter and footsteps covering up the walls of your house, sounding closer each second as he made his way up the stairs to his room next to yours.
Immediately snapping yourself out of your daze from the loud bang of his door closing shut, your eyes widen in horror as they are still locked onto the boyโs face next to yours. This was not good. You had to wake him up quickly before anyone finds out he was ever here, in your bed; before your brother finds out his best friend was lying next to you. โSunghoon! Wake up!โ you hiss under your breath as you shake his arm, trying your hardest to be gentle with your touch yet making it known how urgently he needs to act. โHmm? What?โ the boy groans, eyes still fully closed and no attempt of waking up was made with the arm around your waist instead tightening and pulling you closer to him. โNo, wake up! Jungwon is home.โ You try to pry yourself off his hold and hope he gets up this time with the mention of your brother, his best friend. And how this was not a situation any of you wanted to deal with right now.
โOh.โ Finally, Sunghoon opens his eyes and unlike your panicked ones, they are tired. Maybe even sad? Who knows, but you did feel your heartstrings pull a little bit at the sight of his locked gaze, feeling all sorts of bad at how you ruined his peaceful sleep to have to go running out in the rain that probably caused him to feel what you assumed was sad. You stop your movements of trying to get his grip off your waist once your eyes stay on each otherโs for a few beats too long, not entirely sure why he was still in place. The longer the silence and the sound of only your breaths and rain outside took over the moment, the warmer you felt your cheeks turning. Seeing him like this felt like a new angle into things when he is awake and staring right into the window of your soul.
For some reason, what were mere minutes felt like an eternity that you seemed to find yourself lost in his captivation, searching for meaning behind every glint that shone in the pupils of his dark brown orbs. You could see yourself in them staring right back at you and you wonder if he sees the same thing as you.
โRight, I better go then.โ He snaps you back to the reality of the moment, the reality of the situation you need to get out of. The warmth of his skin disappears as fast as he pulls himself away from you, rolling over and getting up from your bed in search of his scattered clothing on the floor. It seems he does not waste any time in getting ready to leave, putting himself back into one piece presentable enough like whatever happened before the sun rose never did. You did not take any offense to it though, knowing how it goes. He is your brotherโs best friend. It was never meant to happen, ever.
Sunghoon walks over to your table and bends a little as he fixes his hair a few more times in front of your vanity mirror, glancing at the reflection of you sitting on the bed watching as he does so. You had the covers wrapped around yourself now, holding it tightly together as the cold of the air finally catches up with you. The boy clears his throat and stands straight again, turning around to face you with his hands resting in the pockets of his jacket, a smile playing on the corner of his lips. โIโll text you.โ
You look up to him with a similar sentiment you fake with a smile, nodding slightly at his words. โBe careful, itโs raining.โ And with that, he makes his way out of your room in stealth and much experience with this already, not without first planting a swift peck on your cheek and escaping out of your house successfully into the wet steps outside. To his car parked a few jogs away from your house behind the yellowing trees where Jungwon would not notice. Just like every other time for the past two months.ย
Two months of sneaking around in sealed secrecy, spending most of your time together intertwined in each otherโs beds. You donโt remember how exactly it all started, damn sure alcohol was the cause of it though. How drunk you both mustโve been that fateful night at whoeverโs turn it was to host the house party of the week. But you do remember the first touch of how his big hands cupped your face. The first mesh of your lips as he pulls you in for a kiss. Thus, spiralling down the road of not being able to keep your hands off each other no matter how hard you both tried to (not hard enough). He was intoxicating you with the taste of his lips, his cock, and offering you the pleasures of vulnerability like you never had before. In simple terms, he was the best fuck you ever had and kept having. See how youโre stuck in a predicament?
You do wonder if there was ever more he felt with you, even for just a second but you never dared venture into those territories of asking questions. This whole thing was a problem in itself and maybe you just didnโt want to face the reality by talking about it more. Sunghoon and you had your share of moments, exchanging stories, getting to know each other bit by bit and sharing intimate touches that never carried any sexual nature. But at the end of the day, you know he only sees this as a hook-up, an agreement youโve found yourselves in to give and take from one another. That doesnโt make it any easier to deal with though, having to suppress how fond youโve grown of him and ignoring the growing sentiment but you let the guilt gnaw you freely, losing the light sparkling in you in his company only to be reignited on the next meeting.
It was a miracle Jungwon never realised, not having even the slightest clue about what was going on inside his own house with the two people he was the closest to. There were times youโd both almost slip up, Sunghoon having come out of your room a mere second too early or too late before your brother disappears; or when heโd eye fuck you in front of a group of people be it at a party or even under your own roof with Jungwon standing right next to him. If he did notice, he never brings it up and sometimes that gets your hopes up of maybe, just maybe he doesnโt care. But seeing from time to time how heโd bring up girlsโ names to Sunghoon and talk freely as boys do when youโre around, you prefer to assume he was absolutely clueless.ย
You lie back down on your bed, exhaling a sigh when your head hits the softness of your pillow. You fish your phone out from under it and squint at just how bright the screen is, finding your brotherโs contact to call him. โAre you home?โ you ask feigning a sleepy voice when he picks up, glancing out the window as you wonder if Sunghoon had reached home safely in the heavy-paced rain. โYeah, like for a while now. Practice ran short cause of the rain and Sunghoon never showed up,ย again. Did you just wake up?โ you could hear the tinge of annoyance in your brotherโs voice as he mentioned his best friendโs name on the phone.
Your brother and Sunghoon were in the college football team, having their semis of the season coming up soon; and with how serious the team was set on victory, they would have practice even on Sunday mornings sometimes. Sunghoon was one of their best players and with how much he has been missing weekend practice lately for โfamily emergenciesโ, it is validated that your brother who happens to be the captain of said team put his annoyance on said boy.
โY/n?โ the knock on your door and Jungwonโs voice calling you out from behind it startles you, not realizing he ended the call when you failed to respond to him. You put your phone away and get up from your bed, putting on a hoodie over the thin fabric of your shirt before opening the door to your brother, who had one ear pressed against your wooden door almost falling head-first into your room.
โWhat are you doing?โ You watch him stumble on his feet as he tries to stand back up straight, arms crossed resting against your chest. โI thought you died.โ The younger just shrugs as if that was a reasonable enough answer, walking away from you and down the steps of the stairs. โCome down, Iโm gonna heat the pizza.โ Rolling your eyes, you chuckle a little to yourself at his antics, closing the door of your room before hurrying down the stairs.
โAgain?โ You sigh to yourself at the sight in front of you at the doorstep. Another Friday night, another drunk Jungwon was to be let in and carried to bed. Lucky for you, his best friend was the one who brought him home, supporting one side of Jungwonโs weight on his shoulder. โYeap, I tried to stop him but you know how stubborn he gets.โ Sunghoon offers an apologetic smile as he practically drags the boy by his shoulder into the warmth of your house.
โJust leave him on the couch.โ Plopping him down onto the couch of the living room, you drape the throw blanket over him, watching as he slept through with a snore. You watch him for a bit more, bending down to brush a little of his bangs away from his face before making your way back to where the kitchen was, opening the fridge in search of some cold bottled water. You hear the footsteps following you and finally stopping right behind you, you can feel his breath prickling the skin of your neck. Clearing your throat, you try your hardest to ignore the reddening of your cheeks. You had to keep your cool.
โMay I help you?โ you donโt bother turning around, pretending to look for more things in the fridge as you keep your focus on it longer before picking up two bottles from the side. โYeah, you could. I deserve a thank you, donโt you think?โ pushing the fridge close, Sunghoon encases both of his arms around your waist and pulls your back to land on his chest, chin resting on top of your head so easily. Damn him for being so tall. Letting out a deep exhale, you dismiss his hold off you easily before turning on your heels to face him this time, having to tilt your head up slightly to meet his eyes.
โThank you.โ You say with a short smile enough to come off genuine on your lips, pushing one bottle of the water in your hand to his chest, forming some distance between the two of you. Itโs bad enough he had your shorts riding up a little from his back hug before, it was getting tougher by the day to act nonchalant as if he doesnโt make your heartstrings tug at the sight of his teeth showing when he smiles ever so innocently to you.
Knowing you'd go around in circles trying to put a stop to your 'relationship' only to go back to him again, you had to control yourself. Glancing to the couch in the living room where your brother sleeps, you remind yourself why it is important you do this. Sliding away from the compromising position Sunghoon has put you in, he watches with confusion forming on his face at how you walk off to lean on the kitchen counter facing him but avoiding his eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asks, brows furrowed deep you'd think they were connected by now. His asking that question makes you scoff in disbelief at how oblivious he was trying to play as if everything was just alright. "What's wrong? This. This is wrong. We canโt keep doing this, Sunghoon.โ you softly answer, not wanting even the walls of your kitchen to hear what you'd have to open up about tonight, let alone Jungwon in the next room. The boy rolls his eyes at your words, having expected to hear of the same thing you've been repeating for the past two months of your 'relationship'. He knows why you feel the way you do and he knows why you think what you have to do is right but he decides to stick in denial of the fact that everything in front of him could crumble in an instant.ย
Sunghoon walks over to you and holds you firm by the waist this time, slotting one knee in between your thighs as he leans himself closer to your body. You gasp at the sudden movement, not being able to move out in time before he takes one grip off your waist and pinches your chin with his thumb and index finger to face up at him. "Are you sure?" he whispers under his hot breath trickling your lips, your eyes engrossed in his like chains pulling you in. Causing you to abide, yet again.
One heartbeat ticks before Sunghoon leans in and crashes his lips onto yours which you immediately return with haste. One minute it was slow, the next messy with your hands roaming around each other and tongues slipping past lips to connect with saliva dripping down your chins. His knee under your covered core settles in quickly and so do you sitting on it, grinding your way through the heat engulfing you whole with lids barely open but you do not close them completely, reality setting in like a switch in your brain. Your fingers gripping his hair to pull him closer before are now pulling it away in one swift motion, lips left bare and connected only by the air you struggle to catch.
"No, we can't. I'm serious.โ Your change in demeanour to his usual flirtatious ways confused him. It wasnโt shocking, not the first time this โroutineโ of yours came before giving in to him anyway but this time, it felt different. Like youโve made your mind up and are choosing to take a stand on the choice he so much despises to believe. Sunghoon furrows his brows deeper now lines were forming on his forehead, hand reaching out to hold yours that seemed much farther than it used to be as you push him off of you.
โPlease, Iโve told you again and again that everything is going to be fine, Y/n and-โ
โWhat if itโs not going to be fine, huh? What if everything goes to shit and Jungwon, you, me- everything just falls apart? I-I donโt want anything to change.โ You whisper-shout and pull your hand away from his grip once again, folding your arms and tucking your fingers away out of his reach if he ever tries to hold you again. It would make everything much, much harder to handle. Turning away from him, you sigh to yourself and walk towards the couch trying to clear your head of all the jumbled thoughts making you not see straight.
It was the right thing to do and you assured yourself a million times in your heart, knowing you werenโt one to take risks of even the smallest things that could change the trajectory of your family relations. Or get caught up in the downfall of their friendship? Hard pass. Yes, you knew it was wrong from the moment your eyes laid on Sunghoon that night and for two months consecutive; the notion to put a stop to it only came now. Who could blame you, really?
Sunghoon follows behind you and stops a few steps away, one hand ruffling his hair messily in frustration. If only he had the right words to say to convince that persistent head of yours to stay. โI get it, I do. Listen to me, I-โ
โI think you should leave. Itโs late, thanks for bringing Jungwon home.โ You cut him off immediately before he could continue whatever heโs come up with to sway your decision, deciding to look up and face him dead in the eye. His arms fall limp to the side with eyes staring right back at you, pupils moving around endlessly trying to find just anything, any reasoning he could use in your eyes; yet all he witnessed were the trembling of your lips. With a heavy sigh, he says what he always does before leaving. โIโll text you.โ
Sunghoon picks his feet up and starts walking towards the front door and opens it, walking out with one last look at your face though youโre not focused on him anymore. He gazes at you crouched down beside your brother one last time before shutting the door taking all of himself that he gave to you with him. Hearing the soft thud of the lock was when the tears youโve bit your tongue holding it in started falling down your cheeks.
And he does text you that night and all the nights following, but you always leave them unopened.
The gust of wind blows in signal of fall passing through, messing up the bangs on the side of your face to much dismay. It was reaching 4 pm now as you sat on one of the picnic benches outside the library alone, hoping to catch up with some of your notes from class while waiting for Jungwon to finish up with football practice. Not for another hour though.
So you sit there, studying; well trying to at least, constantly being distracted with thoughts floating around in your mind. Some were about school, some were about trivial matters you wonโt even remember by the end of the night. And some were about Park Sunghoon, the boy you swore to yourself not to contact anymore. It was impossible though, unlocking your phone now to read another one of his text messages in your notification bar from last night that you left unopened for reasons you deemed would help in your โjourneyโ. Wasnโt this what no contact was all about?
โCan we talk, please?โ
You sigh at the words slowly ingraining in your brain the longer you stare at it, not realizing the figure planting himself to the seat opposite you. โWhatcha doing?โ you blink in surprise at the sudden intrusion, eyes wide slightly as you look up from your phone to Jakeโs face smiling at you with his hands clasped together resting on the table separating you. He wasnโt a stranger but you didnโt know him well enough to say he was a close friend; more of an acquaintance? Classmate. Sure.ย Jake Sim was in your sociology class, always kept himself engaged in lectures and was pretty well known around your major mates. Youโve been in group projects with him several times but the exchange between you two never exceeded the academic level of interest before.
โWaiting for my brother.โ You say with a smile, locking and tucking your phone back into the pocket of your jacket. โJungwon, right?โ Jake tilts his head to the side when he questions, the smile never leaving his lips but he looks so innocent it almost made you want to pinch his cheeks. โYou know my brother?โ โEveryone knows your brother, Y/n.โ a small chuckle leaves his lips now, and you canโt help but do the same. He was right. Everyone did know your brother, the captain of the football team. How could you forget for the slightest how popular your brother actually is? How popular him and his friends were?
It grows quiet for a few seconds, not sure if you were meant to wait for Jake or you to say something else or anything at all to continue the conversation, which didnโt seem like one that bore any importance as of now. Jake still had his hands held together on the table, smile evidently growing wider as he kept his eyes on you like he was studying you. Your eyes carelessly did the same; seeing him up close under the warm sunrays shining through the cracks of leaves that tower over you both. Undeniably he was good-looking looking with a tinge of innocence playing in his expression. He seemed benign, genuinely pleasant and confident that you donโt care to wonder why he was well-liked among your peers.
You open your mouth slightly but before any words built up in your mind could come out, Jake softly taps the table and stands. โWell, Iโd like to keep you company longer but I need to get home now.โ It wasnโt expected of him to stay with you after that little exchange anyway but somehow a speck of disappointment fills you.
โWould you like to get coffee sometime?โ Jake rubs the back of his nape sheepishly with a wide grin, not able to keep his eyes on you so confidently this time around. And to think he was incapable of being shy around you. โY-yeah, sure. Okay.โ You werenโt any better than him though, the tip of your ears heating up at the sudden invitation. โGreat. Iโll text you!โ with that he walks away, turning around after a few steps to wave you goodbye accompanied by a smile. For some reason, your ears grow hotter as you wave back at him, not entirely opposed to this newfound excitement starting to bubble in the pits of your stomach. You watch him a little longer as his silhouette grows small and disappears into the distance, smiling to nobody but yourself now.
You glance off towards the other side where you can hear the football players yelling in the distance from the field, holding your breath momentarily when you meet Sunghoonโs eyes. Standing at the side of the field, staring at you as he wipes off the sweat dripping down the tips of his hair. Being quite far away, you couldnโt make out clearly the way his face expressed dissatisfaction but with those thick brows of his, anyone could see the way they quirked up from a mile away. Heโs been trying to contact you for the last week and this was what he had to see after you not responding last night? Who was that guy anyway? Sunghoon tongues the inside of his cheek in annoyance, scoffing when he catches you looking away and pretending like he didnโt exist.
No matter how much he tried to text, call, or anything- he kept himself behaved and respectful every time he was in near proximity of you much thanks to Jungwon. The boy was desperate but he wasnโt about to let another drama unfold in the midst of him trying to get a grip of present matters. He doesnโt know how long more he could stand watching you from afar, not being able to hold you close like before- he didnโt know how to handle being rejected. It was close to torture-no, it was absolute torture having to watch you greet him when he came over to hang out with Jungwon, only to scurry off in your little shorts back to your room and lock yourself in there till he was out of sight.
It was a mental battle for him, knowing at some point you were right about not wanting to hurt Jungwon in the long run of continuing whatever you had between the two of you. He knew that, he understood that. But what about him? What about the true feelings that he realized was a little too late to admit he had for you all this time of just โmessing aroundโ? He sighs to himself and tries to brush off his thoughts, tossing the towel to the ground before running back to his teammates huddled up in a circle. Letting go of you just seemed impossible in his books.
The next day, you were surprised to find Jake standing out the hallway of your lecture hall with a cup of coffee in each hand. His eyes travelled around the sea of students exiting the hall after your morning class, grinning ear to ear when he spotted you walking over. โGood morning, this is for you but itโs hot, so be careful.โ You stop to stand right in front of him, biting down your lips to stop from smiling too widely in hopes he doesnโt get how embarrassingly happy you were of this surprise. How does he know you even had class this morning right here? Maybe because he had classes next door, idiot. How does he know what coffee youโd even like? Why was he being so friendly with you? You take the cup from his hand and notice the way his cheeks turn a little hue of pink when your finger brushes against his. โThank you, Jake. Thatโs so sweet of you.โ
โYouโre welcome, and before you think Iโm a creep for knowing your schedule- I just happen to have classes next door at the same time as you do here every week. So Iโve seen you walk by a few times.โ What, he's a mind reader now? Taking a small sip of the drink, you hum in approval as the taste of hot coffee washes over you and smile up at Jakeโs intrigued face. โThis is really yummy! Thanks again, Jake.โ โIโm glad you like it.โ He nods with satisfaction painted over his face, glancing around the hallway momentarily to concede the decreasing amount of students present now.
โSo, are you free right now? Want to go to the library and study?โ Jake asks with a tilted head, taking a longer sip of his coffee as if trying to hide half of his face. You take a look at the watch on your wrist and damn, you were hoping to fill your empty stomach up before your next class. โUm, actually- could we get something to eat? I havenโt had breakfast so..โ trailing off your words, you glance down to your feet before meeting his eyes apologetically. Maybe he really wanted to study and here you were, asking to go eat instead. What if he really just wanted a study buddy for the semester and he thought you were trying to hang out with him? It is almost noon so thatโs perfect for lunch so why would he even ask to study right now but what if- damn you and your overthinking.
Instead, Jake looks at you with slightly widened eyes and you were hoping that didnโt mean anything bad. โYes, of course! Iโm sorry, I shouldโve asked to go to lunch instead. We can go to the library after if youโre still up for it.โ Not sure why you found his reaction endearing, you lightly chuckle and nod along to his words as he leads the both of you out of the building and to the cafeteria of the campus. It wasnโt a long walk from where you were so not much awkwardness was present in your conversation, but that was thanks to how easygoing Jake was as a person.
Heโd ask every little thing in that head of his about you and he never seemed to run out of questions or hold back from them, despite evidently feeling shy prior. You notice the way he had this captivated look on his face whenever you answered and sometimes they were pretty long answers but he didnโt seem to mind one bit that you were spouting all sorts of trivial matters at this point. You liked that about him and donโt question anymore his intentions of getting all friendly with you, easing up to him quicker than youโd expect. From then on, youโve shared most of your meals on campus together, studying together when you could find the time and there were times heโd just ask you to hang out with him, doing nothing but talk. It felt refreshing, a (not so) new face taking your time up you almost, almost (not at all) forget the face that hangs around in the background of your life.
Sunghoon was definitely aware of your newfound friend; watching, glaring, judging every little interaction you had with Jake every time heโd see you. Always, always with Jake. Smiling, talking, laughing. Was he that funny that had you giggling your way all through lunch? Anyone with eyes could see that Jake was being flirtatious with you, or maybe thatโs just what the younger boy wanted to believe to justify his feelings of envy. Have you forgotten about him and all those moments youโd laugh at his jokes? Sunghoon catches himself smiling whenever he remembers them and sighs in defeat when he realizes it would never be a sight heโd see again.
Unless he decides to finally take matters into his own hands. He was not going to let you go just like that, despite your bullshit reasoning about caring for Jungwonโs feelings or whatever youโve been saying. It just felt unfair knowing how you really felt about the โrelationshipโ but choosing to end it anyway. It felt selfish and Sunghoon wanted to at least, make you listen and be selfish of his feelings for once- pushing back the regret slowly creeping in before itโs too late to have done something.
Two weeks pass by and spending time with Jake has added productivity into your routine; being that it used to be only studying and occasional social life activities with your friends; and hooking up with your brotherโs best friend. It was good to distract yourself with Jake, though you hated how you thought of him that way. It wasnโt your fault Sunghoon was still intruding on your life when he saw an opportunity, making it impossible for you to dismiss him or even get over him completely these past weeks.
He was with Jungwon more often than not these days, always coming over to your house for hours on end it felt intentional to mess with you at this point. He wasnโt even keeping to himself like he used to around you in public, making small talk last longer and teasing you as if youโre the one heโs best friends with and there was no reason you could justify giving him the cold shoulder in front of your brother. Jungwon never found it odd or out of character though, deeming it as if your relationship had always been this way.
You hate the way he still looks at you the same way he used to; with so much fondness and attachment no matter how menacing his words try to sound when he satirises you. You hate the way his scent fills up the air around your house now, taking you back to all those times he spent being so close to you. You certainly hate the way he lingers his touches on your skin, letting his hand brush softly on yours when he passes you things or placing his hand on the arch of your back when he wants to walk by you. It seems like anything you tried to do to put it all in the past crumbles down and pulls you back in like everything was still in the present.
Mostly you hated yourself, for letting your thoughts wander on and on about him on sleepless nights, for even letting him still make your heart skip a beat with that smile of his. It seemingly gets more difficult when you can hear his voice in Jungwonโs room, both of them yelling or arguing about whatever game they were playing that Friday evening before heading out to some party happening the same night.
Jake was coming over to work on a paired project you had for Sociology and it being the first time stepping foot into the home you share with Jungwon, you hoped itโd be some sort of an ideal comfortable place to get school work done. Definitely underestimated your brotherโs loud voice and your household. You make your way to his door and rap a couple of hard knocks on it to send a hint that maybe, you werenโt in the greatest of moods right now. Jungwon opens the door with a quirked-up brow and you try your best to not glance away from his face to the one behind him. โWhat? Iโm busy.โย
โJake is coming over to study so keep it down a little okay? I really-โ
โJake? Jake Sim?โ Sunghoon chimes in and cuts your words off, standing up from Jungwonโs bed and walking over to stand next to him with arms crossed over his chest. This time, you had no choice but to look at him and you pray to God he doesnโt see the way your feet fidget.
โYeah, theyโre like going out now or something,โ Jungwon responds instead of you, shrugging his shoulders with not a care in the world as he walks off to pick his phone up from the bedside table. Sunghoon stays put though, arms still crossed and now leaning his side against the door frame as he intensifies his look on you. It felt like you were being interrogated for a crime you had yet to commit with the way he was looking. โWeโre not! Just-just keep it down okay?โ you raise your voice a little higher to talk over Sunghoonโs towering figure, only earning an agreeing whine from your brother.
You roll your eyes in annoyance, taking a step back from the door to turn and walk off before Sunghoon grips your wrist momentarily and pulls you back to face him.ย ย โAre you coming to the party later?โ The boy questions and this time Jungwon looks up from whatever got his attention on that phone of his awaiting your answer. โNo, Iโm not.โ
โWell, you should. Invite Jake, though Iโm sure heโs already going so heโll probably ask you.โ Sunghoon says in such a nonchalant manner, giving you a smile that seems so fake like he meant to let you know it was. Alarm bells ring in your little head every time he mentions Jakeโs name but you try to ignore them, not wanting to delve deeper into why it bothers you. To stop overthinking was to stop thinking in the first place.ย
โWhatever. Maybe.โ You decide to brush it off and walk away as quickly as possible back to your room, holding yourself from sparing a glance back at his watchful eyes as you close your door shut. โHave fun!โ Spending another second a breath away from each other would shatter the wall youโve built up completely.
โOkay, letโs take a 5-minute break and we can wrap this up for tonight,โ Jake says as he leans to rest his back on your bedside, both of you sitting cross-legged on the floor of your room with laptops and research papers cluttered around. The clock reads 10 pm now, not having realised time flew by so quickly and you felt it though thatโs unusual given doing school work was boring and draggy. Guess having Jake around your company made time work differently. You smile and nod in agreement at his suggestion of taking a well-deserved break. It was taxing trying to read the words written in those papers with him being in your room; well at least for the first 20 minutes until the only thing that could annoy you more than feeling anxious was the boisterous peals of laughter echoing next door.
โSorry about my brother and his friend.โ you huff out having to apologise on behalf of such things you couldnโt control but to your surprise, Jake didnโt seem to mind it at all. โNah, itโs all good.โ He shakes his head and lets out a soft chuckle under his breath which somehow increases assurance that you had nothing to worry about. โAnyways uh- thereโs a party at my friend Jayโs later. You should come with me.โ There it was, the invitation you previously had rejected in your head but now- with the way his puppy-eyed smile slowly convinced you? Itโd be cruel to say no. โSure, but I need a little time to change.โย
The physical space between the two of you seemingly grew closer without you noticing, only the bumping of his knees into yours takes you to recognise this. The shade of his eyes differs from a few seconds ago with the light on your ceiling reflecting on them it settled like tiny little stars. They gaze at your dark brown ones longingly and you donโt know why your hands are getting clammy.
โNo matter what you wear, youโd still be the prettiest girl there.โ Before you could respond with words instead of just widened eyes and tinted cheeks, Jake gradually leaned in closer to you with a hand reaching out to cup your cheeks. The moment felt still, the air held back down your throat from exhaling and all the thoughts in your head paused. You glance down at his lips and every single second your heartbeat increases he is getting closer and closer to touching yours. Sure, you were aware of the growing uncertainty between the two of you after hanging out endlessly but you never did decide on what to call it. Friendly banter? Flirting for the sake of humour? Jake seemed to have his mind made up with this forward move and all you could think about at that very last second was how Sunghoon used to call you pretty.ย
โMy pretty girl.โย
And then a loud laugh echoing through the house kills the moment. Speak of the devil. It was like he knew what was happening behind these walls that separated the two rooms and he had to remind you that he was still living in the back of your mind. Jake immediately pulls his hand away from your face and clears his throat, the switch from confident to fluster taking over him. The moment fleets away and snaps like a flash, the trance-filled air evaporates from your systems which quickly takes you back to reality.
โSorry.โ Jake ruffles his hair in an attempt to hide his eyes but you notice the smile he bites back from showing. You do the same in averting your gaze with how hot your face was getting, shaking your head in dismissal at his apology. โItโs okay.โ
โI think we can continue the project on Monday. Iโll wait for you downstairs and we can go?โ The flustered boy says while packing his things and stands up after, expression clean like nothing ever happened. โO-okay. I wonโt take long.โ You get up on your feet and nod, watching him close your door as he leaves and now all alone you stand there, gathering everything in your head to figure out what just happened. And- why was your blood feeling warm again like relief had washed over you? Whatever. You shake those thoughts away and stumble to your wardrobe, picking out the first top and short skirt in sight and changing quickly while adding a few touch-ups to prim your appearance.ย
Walking down the stairs slowly you hear chatter in the living room and when you do land on the final step, the sight of Jake casually conversing with Sunghoon and your brother on the couch welcomes you. They didnโt seem aware of your presence at first, engrossed in their little discussion and you slowly make your way to them.
โWell, donโt you look pretty?โ Sunghoon was the first to blurt that out when you came into view, earning questioning (a little weirded out and a โdude!โ mostly from Jungwonโs) glances from the other two. Heโs never openly complimented you, especially in front of your brother and what in the world does he think heโs doing that now? You blink in astonishment at the sudden forwardness he was showcasing, even more surprised the younger did not seem to think it was a misstep on his part at all. Jake decides to let it slide and smiles at you as he stands up. โYou do look pretty.โ
He might not have heard it but the scoff Sunghoon lets out under his breath rings right through your ears. โAre we done? Can we go now?โ Jungwon stands up as well now, groaning along his steps towards the front door with Sunghoon following suit from behind. โYeap, see you guys there.โ He says without even a glance back, implying they are heading out in Sunghoonโs car and you were left to go in Jakeโs. It had you hesitant to be alone with him once again, unsure whether the conversation would pick up where it got interrupted.
Much to ease your worries though, Jake appears to have moved past the recent events, effortlessly slipping back into his usual self as he drives you to Jay's place. Talking and laughing with you like he always would, devoid of any awkwardness you mentally prepared to face.ย
Arriving at the party, you were welcomed by a music-blasted house full of drunken students, the smell of booze thinning through the air and a ton of new faces you had to meet. Jake introduces you to his friends the moment they spot him arriving, learning that despite being third years just like you- they were all good friends with Jungwon and Sunghoon who were in their second and always attended Jayโs parties. Itโs no surprise Jungwon never mentioned to them he had an older sister all this while and that it was you, given how dumbfounded their faces expressed when you were introduced.
โCโmon, let me get you a drink.โ Jake holds his hand out to take yours, leading the both of you through the swarm of bodies to the kitchen counter where a variety of bottled alcohol were lined up for your choosing. He releases your hand to grab one, pouring its contents into a red cup mixed with what he explained was apple juice before passing it for you to try with anticipation in his eyes. โGood?โ โGreat.โ You nod and smile in approval as the taste of liquor mixes in your throat but it doesnโt burn like it should thanks to the added condiment. Jake laughs softly in relief and makes one for himself, bumping his cup with yours for a little โcheers!โ before taking a sip and exhaling in delight at the taste.
You were not one in favour of much drinking even when you do attend parties with your friends but to relax with Sunghoon still roaming around nearby and at any given moment could catch you off guard, you decided why the heck not.ย
After a few more leisurely sips, Jake gently gestures with his chin towards a cosy, unoccupied couch nestled in a quieter corner of the living room. With a warm smile, he reaches for your hand once more, guiding you towards this inviting spot where you both settle in next to each other, finding comfort in the serene ambience of the less crowded area. โIโm really glad you decided to come with, you know,โ he states when he catches you turning to smile at him, confidence from the early spur of the moment in your room seeming to have returned. โOh, and why is that?โ
โCause I like hanging out with you. Plus, you tell the funniest jokes known to mankind.โ You roll your eyes playfully at his bantering remark, nudging his side softly. โNot as funny as the ones you tell, Mr Sim.โ Jakeโs laughter infects you, drawing you into a lively exchange where conversation flows like it usually does with him.
You seemed to be really enjoying yourself and when Sunghoon sees you from across the room where heโs leaned up against the wall with his own condiment in hand; getting up to presumably head to the bathroom, he wipes the frown he wore while observing your interaction with Jake and quietly follows you.
Admittedly, he was very jealous of Jake. Of anyone and everyone who got to receive your warm reactions he used to be the reason of. With other eyes around the room glancing and looking at you in ways only he allowed himself to do so felt like fire charring through his skin and veins. The alcohol he kept chugging every time your voice grew clear to his ears that he could make out the words in detail, was certainly not helping his mind be kept sane at this point.ย
Turning the tap off and giving yourself a once over in the mirror of the bathroom you found empty in the back, a sigh falls from your lips. Looking straight into your reflection you no longer see yourself with expressions earlier directed to Jake. No, not when you were alone once again under the coarse fluorescent lighting with a swarm of thoughts coming back to haunt your mind. You donโt know why the fact Sunghoon was here at the same party as Jake bothered you so much, after the whole compliment he decided to throw out in the open you felt defeated.
For one, Jake was a decent guy and you werenโt so naive to throw out the option of venturing into your relationship with him more than just friends. Plus, he wasnโt your brotherโs best friend- Jungwon already thinks youโve got more going on. All positives, no cons to be detected. But one, he was not Sunghoon. You groan in frustration and curse yourself, why the fuck does this guy have such a hold on you that you couldnโt even do this one thing right? Itโs over and done with, youโve got to stick with your decision no matter how long it takes for you to convince yourself that.
A loud knock from the door startles you from overthinking (your personality at this point) and you roll your eyes in annoyance. Drunk people and their impatience with bathrooms, especially when occupied never cease to tick you off. โYes, yes Iโm done,โ you grumble while straightening your skirt, stepping towards the door to unlock it and before you can even open it fully; Sunghoon forces himself in and bumps you to stumble backwards as he shuts the door and locks it.
The hair on your skin stands and shock waves wash over you, not fully comprehending what exactly is going on. He takes notice of your bewildered expression and smirks, back leaning against the door with eyes gazing at you with nothing but grey in them. Itโs quiet for a few beats, save the faded-out music playing in the background from the party happening outside this small room you were seemingly trapped in.ย ย
โWhat are you doing?โย
"What are you doing?" he questions back, a hint of attitude present in the tone. Bafflement spreads across your face, and he pushes himself off the door, walking forward slowly and stopping just right in front of you. Sunghoon had both hands tucked in the pocket of his jeans as he towered over you, prompting you to tilt your head up to meet his eye. With a gentle motion, he removes one hand from his pocket, brushing aside the bangs that have fallen on the side of your face. His finger then traces a slow, deliberate path up and down your arm, sending a shiver up your spine.
โThrew me away for that guy, huh?โ a playful pout formed on his lips now, moving down his hand from your arm to wrap around your waist with a tight grasp pulling you to bump his chest. Red colours your features from the contact and there was no way to hide it at this point, being so dangerously close to him everything in you weakened by the minute. For a flicker, you donโt even recall Jake, or his name or him being the context of the conversation. Your mind grows more cluttered it is like everything was upside down, with Sunghoonโs mere touch of skin sending your brain into a wired mess.ย
โThro- I didnโt throw you away, Sunghoon. I told you why-โ
โYou probably have no idea, but Iโm quite a jealous man.โ
Before you can respond, Sunghoon leans in, capturing your lips with a fervent kiss. You taste the yearning in his kiss and, almost instinctively, you return it with equal intensity. Any remnants of your defences crumble, and you know there's no point in trying to rebuild them, especially now as you fully succumb to him. Moments like this remind you why you typically donโt drink alcohol. Though there wouldnโt really be a different outcome even if you were fully sober; knowing and finally admitting to yourself that you do want this. You want all of him.
The kiss deepens, becoming more passionate as he pushes you up against the edge of the sink. One of his hands remains tightly gripped around your waist, anchoring you to him, while the other slowly travels down to the hem of your skirt. With a deliberate motion, he lifts it slightly, allowing his hand to slip underneath, where he firmly grasps your thigh, pulling you even closer to him. A moan escapes through your connected lips as you feel his hand firmly gripping every inch of your thigh and tracing along the curve of your ass, his touch sending electric sensations through your body.
Your hands roam eagerly over his broad chest, fingers threading through his locks and pulling him closer like your life depended on him. Sunghoon seizes the momentary parting of your lips, his tongue sweeping in to explore the wet warmth of your mouth. He skillfully intertwines his tongue with yours, drawing you deeper into the kiss, his movements becoming more eager and vigorous.
Breaking the kiss briefly, a thin strand of saliva glistens between your lips, hinting at the raw desire that lingers. "You think I don't see the way he looks at you?" he whispers huskily, his eyes now a darker shade. "Flirting with you, touching youโGod, it's so fucking annoying.โ Your mind too clouded to respond, you tug on his shirt, urging him back into the kiss, but he hesitates, teasingly resisting your pull. The fingers resting on your dampened cloth underneath start to circulate and that just sends you into a drive of lusting need for him, now.ย
"And you choose to wear this skimpy ass skirt around himโaround me, all wet like this,โ Sunghoon murmurs, frustration evident in his voice. "I swear, you'll be the death of me." With a sigh, he reconnects your lips with his, each moment growing hotter than the last. You moan in between kisses, your own hands now gripping onto his shirt to tug and pull him even closer, bodies pressing against each other. With that eagerness coming from you, Sunghoon holds your underwear to the side with his thumb, pushing two fingers into your folds without breaking the kiss. Your gasp disappears into his mouth as the intrusion takes you off guard.
โF-fuck.โ Unable to hold it in, you let out a moan and pulled away from his lips with your eyes closed shut surrendering to the pleasure overtaking your senses. He doesnโt stop kissing you though, moving down to the side of your neck and you tilt your head giving him an easier excess in smothering your bare skin with kisses and marks you really hoped would be easy to cover up tomorrow.
โYouโre mine. My pretty girl.โ the way he exhales those words tickles your skin and makes the hair on your body stand up as if electrified, the fingers pumping in and out of you intruding harder than before. Your senses grow hazier by the second and a sting shoots through your veins at the feel of Sunghoonโs teeth sinking on your flesh and he sucks on it, lips not leaving your neck only to grow rougher when you give his locks a harsh pull.ย
โM-mhm.โ you bite your lips hard from stuttering out any coherent words, gasping for a little bit of air to come soothe your quickened heart when Sunghoon pulls himself away from you. He grips both sides of your panties from underneath your skirt and pulls them down as he gets on his knees directly in front of you.
The rush of cold air breezes through and tickles your exposed core making you squeeze your thighs together which earns a playful smirk from the younger's lips. He then leans his face close and has his hands gripped onto your thighs for support before he dives under your skirt to give your wetness a clean lick. The warm feel of his wet tongue on your folds jolts you in a gasped surprise, making you pull onto his hair harder as you wobbly stood against the sink praying your knees didnโt decide to give up so easily. He didn't seem to mind the aggressiveness, more so enjoying it now as he gets on the same level with the flick of his tongue and saliva all combed up around your core.
โM-mhm, right there.โ you bunch your skirt up now to get a good view of him under you like this, his eyelids closed as he hungrily swirls his tongue around and inside you with quenched thirst trying to taste every inch of your dripping wetness. Itโs a sight you wish you could take a picture of and stare at forever.
Sunghoon opens his lids a little to gaze up at your face, both hands on your thighs now going up to grip the cheeks of your ass harshly as he accelerated his pace. Guiding you to ride his face with his hands, your vision starts to blur at the heightening sensation brewing in your stomach with every jab of his tongue. The sloshing sound of wet licking and the groans vibrating through your folds with such a face clamped up between your legs, you were reaching to release quicker than intended; wanting to devour the moment of pleasure a little bit longer but it wasnโt really a choice you couldโve made.
โYeah, yeah, yeah- Iโm cumming-โ the words grow a pitch higher with your moans as you grip onto his hair fully, coming undone right into his mouth for his senses to devour all of you, and he doesnโt stop licking even when your insides were throbbing. After a few breaths, Sunghoon licks your bare flesh clean and finally pulls away from your core, standing back up to his feet to leave a bruising kiss on your lips. He doesnโt leave out the swift swiping of his tongue on your lips for you to have a taste of yourself.
โTastes so fucking good, my pretty girl.โ The room felt like it was spinning, nothing was making any sense but it felt too good to be probing for any. Getting a morsel of what youโve been missing for the last month has made you long for more- an addiction that fed you a little too well.ย
โIโm not done with you yet,โ Sunghoon says in the silent seconds of the moment and grabs to hold the sides of your waist again. He then turns you around to face the bathroom mirror, pushing himself up on you until your skirt rides up even more to feel the hardened bulge in his pants making you grip onto the sink tightly to balance yourself. The look on both of your faces stares back at you from the reflection, plumped-up lips and reddened skin paint the view of the state you are in.
What a turn of events- you really had faith in yourself to not end up in this exact situation again and maybe if you just avoided gaping at what was in front of you, you might feel a little better about yourself; not that any ounce of regret would stand in the way of any of this.
The boy snakes up one hand over your shoulder to hold a grip on your jaw, making you look straight into the mirror while using the other to unzip his pants down. He knew what was going on in your head and wanted to make sure you saw this; saw the truth of what you both really feel. โSay it, admit it, whose are you?โ he growls and gives your earlobe a little suck until it turned red, pushing you down to bend over the sink with your bare ass fully pressed against him. That makes you lose your balance a little, hands once gripping the sink swiftly falls off to the side and he instead takes hold of your waist again seeing how you struggled to stand in place in such a position. โY-yours, Iโm yours.โย
A smirk recreates on his lips while he pulls his boxers off and you see this through the mirror, eyes trying so hard to focus on him but immediately failing when his sprung-out cock presses against you. โMโ gonna fuck you so good, you donโt ever forget that.โ Sunghoon inclines forward to plant a soft kiss on the back of your head before thrusting himself into your still throbbing wetness with a loud grunt. โFuuuuck, I missed you.โ As he starts to catch his pace, the lump forming on the back of your throat threatens to let the tears in the brim of your eyes fall. You missed him too.
The fill of his length pulls you into overdrive with how much ecstasy is streaming through your veins with each pump he pushes in you. The sound of skin slapping on skin gets faster and louder, only covered by the moans and groans falling out both of your lips. Sunghoon had his eyes closed momentarily as he pulled his head back, swimming in the sensation of your walls clenching on him, enveloping him with such a warm welcome it felt like home.
โA-ah, feel so full.โ โYeah, baby? You like feeling me all in you?โ You nod along your moans that you donโt even try holding back anymore, despite being in the bathroom of someone elseโs house which, who cares at this point? The people outside were probably all gone in their respective vices and nobody was bothering you, yet. Opening your eyes only to meet Sunghoonโs shaded ones reflected in the mirror, and seeing him fucking you in such a view with his hair all dishevelled and tongue constantly licking his lips; how could you not fall to your knees for this man?
โFuck, fuck, keep squeezing me like that and Iโm gone baby.โ he breathily pants with furrowed brows, hand reaching out to bunch up your hair and giving it a pull to make your back arch while he uses another hand to trail up your chest, groping onto your boobs over your shirt so harshly you were sure his hands were printed on your skin. โYouโre so fucking perfect.โ
โF-feels s-so good, Sunghoon, mhm fuck.โ You werenโt sure if saying that made him angry or more turned on but with the way his hand from your chest made it way up to encircle your neck and his pace growing quicker than before you could barely keep your legs upright; you figured it was the latter. โYeah, baby say my name again. Say my name and Iโm gonna cum all in you.โ
โMmnn! Iโm a-almost there Sunghoon please-โ The tears plunge from your eyes and the saltiness glistens your lips, gulping down the lump in your throat forming when he continuously slams his tip on your walls. โMโ gonna fill you up so good, fuck, fuck, fuck! Iโm cummingโ He says this through his breath barely reaching your ears, too busy indulging in your own pleasure as you ride out your high clenching yourself around his warm spill filling you to the brim.
The vigour of pleasure you felt made you see nothing but white, the air rising so hot and clammy it made you feel like combusting. Sunghoon gives it a few more pumps to make sure his load doesnโt spill out in a mess and groans at the aftermath of it all, leaning forward again to kiss your head before pulling out of you slowly. Your waist throbbed in pain when you do stand up straight again and turned back around to face him, but you seemed still stuck in a daze to focus on that.
The room fills with nothing but the panting of your breaths hoping to slow down your heaving and the burning still buzzing in your brain. Sunghoon pulls his pants up and fixes himself in the mirror with a satisfied smile etched on his face, and you watch him reach out to take some tissue from next to the sink and bend down in front of you yet again. You look down at him with a quirked-up brow and he looks back up to you still wearing the same expression. โCโmon, let me clean you up.โ he then proceeds to do so, wiping every inch of your core and thighs clean from any excess that could (hopefully not) spill down later on.
It takes you back to those times he used to take care of you after fucking you until you saw stars; this habit of his making your cheeks burn up like it was the first time. Sunghoon throws the used tissue away and gets up on his feet, eyes no longer grey but complete of longing, gazing into yours once again drawing you in. He leans in closer to brush his nose against yours before planting the softest most loving kiss on your lips and you wish it lasted a lifetime. โI missed you, Sunghoon.โ you blurt out first this time after pulling away and it comes to both of your surprise that you didnโt stick to denying and hurting his feelings anymore. What did they say about growth?ย
โY/n, I-โ Sunghoon begins with a desperate plea in his tone, hands clasped on yours but was immediately cut off by the knocking of the door from continuing. Ah right, you were still in Jayโs fucking bathroom. Realisation seemed to hit only seconds later, both trying to shush the other from erupting with laughter. โLetโs go outside first.โ You say with an assuring hold on his hand, reaching for the doorknob to swing it open. โSor-โTaking a step out, you gasp at the sight of widened eyes looking straight back at you and Sunghoon, most probably in horror.
The pitter-patter of the rain befalls your roof, the sound echoing in your ears as you stare out the window of your room. Greying clouds shrouded the sky, covering what little left of the sun was visible in the storm brewing on what was supposed to be a lovely sunny Sunday afternoon. Well, it still is lovely.
Usually on days like these, the floor of your room would be cold to the touch of your feet and the only thing offering you comfort would be the covers you would hide under your bed; which you were in as of now with some extra warmth beside your lying body. You turn your head to the side to face the sleeping figure next to you, his arms wrapped around your waist securely like it was held on by a lock. The dark strands of hair fall on his face perfectly, covering his closed lids so gently it barely poked his skin. You make use of the time to study his features, his sharply curved nose, his inviting plump-coloured lips to counting all the spotted moles perfectly decorating his soft skin.
He looked perfect in this state of his yet there was a heaviness pulling the back of your throat, the palpitations of your heartbeat increasing the more you tried to hold in from bursting into tears. It was exhausting, having to rationalize yourself and bury the feelings that arise when looking at him like that. It felt so right and wrong all at the same time, you blame nobody but yourself for the demise brought to your own heart.
His chest was moving up and down pace fully as his breath softly contacted your face, the tip of his nose inches away from brushing yours; ever so gentle and vulnerable like that next to you, holding you as he continued to slumber like the world outside never grew dark. It was really, a lovely Sunday afternoon. Well, that was until you heard the sound of your younger brotherโs loud chatter and footsteps covering up the walls of your house, sounding closer each second as he made his way up the stairs to his room next to yours.
Immediately snapping yourself out of your daze from the loud bang of his door closing shut, your eyes widen in horror as they are still locked onto the boyโs face next to yours. This was not good. You had to wake him up quickly before anyone finds out he was ever here, in your bed; before your brother finds out his best friend was lying next to you. โSunghoon! Wake up!โ you hiss under your breath as you shake his arm, trying your hardest to be gentle with your touch yet making it known how urgently he needs to act. โHmm? What?โ the boy groans, eyes still fully closed and no attempt of waking up was made with the arm around your waist instead tightening and pulling you closer to him. โNo, wake up! Jungwon is home.โ You try to pry yourself off his hold and hope he gets up this time with the mention of your brother, his best friend. And how this was not a situation any of you wanted to deal with right now.
โOh.โ Finally, Sunghoon opens his eyes and unlike your panicked ones, they are tired. Maybe even sad? Who knows, but you did feel your heartstrings pull a little bit at the sight of his locked gaze, feeling all sorts of bad at how you ruined his peaceful sleep to have to go running out in the rain that probably caused him to feel what you assumed was sad. You stop your movements of trying to get his grip off your waist once your eyes stay on each otherโs for a few beats too long, not entirely sure why he was still in place. The longer the silence and the sound of only your breaths and rain outside took over the moment, the warmer you felt your cheeks turning. Seeing him like this felt like a new angle into things when he is awake and staring right into the window of your soul.
For some reason, what were mere minutes felt like an eternity that you seemed to find yourself lost in his captivation, searching for meaning behind every glint that shone in the pupils of his dark brown orbs. You could see yourself in them staring right back at you and you wonder if he sees the same thing as you.
โRight, I better go then.โ He snaps you back to the reality of the moment, the reality of the situation you need to get out of. The warmth of his skin disappears as fast as he pulls himself away from you, rolling over and getting up from your bed in search of his scattered clothing on the floor. It seems he does not waste any time in getting ready to leave, putting himself back into one piece presentable enough like whatever happened before the sun rose never did. You did not take any offense to it though, knowing how it goes. He is your brotherโs best friend. It was never meant to happen, ever.
Sunghoon walks over to your table and bends a little as he fixes his hair a few more times in front of your vanity mirror, glancing at the reflection of you sitting on the bed watching as he does so. You had the covers wrapped around yourself now, holding it tightly together as the cold of the air finally catches up with you. The boy clears his throat and stands straight again, turning around to face you with his hands resting in the pockets of his jacket, a smile playing on the corner of his lips. โIโll text you.โ
You look up to him with a similar sentiment you fake with a smile, nodding slightly at his words. โBe careful, itโs raining.โ And with that, he makes his way out of your room in stealth and much experience with this already, not without first planting a swift peck on your cheek and escaping out of your house successfully into the wet steps outside. To his car parked a few jogs away from your house behind the yellowing trees where Jungwon would not notice. Just like every other time for the past two months.ย
Two months of sneaking around in sealed secrecy, spending most of your time together intertwined in each otherโs beds. You donโt remember how exactly it all started, damn sure alcohol was the cause of it though. How drunk you both mustโve been that fateful night at whoeverโs turn it was to host the house party of the week. But you do remember the first touch of how his big hands cupped your face. The first mesh of your lips as he pulls you in for a kiss. Thus, spiralling down the road of not being able to keep your hands off each other no matter how hard you both tried to (not hard enough). He was intoxicating you with the taste of his lips, his cock, and offering you the pleasures of vulnerability like you never had before. In simple terms, he was the best fuck you ever had and kept having. See how youโre stuck in a predicament?
You do wonder if there was ever more he felt with you, even for just a second but you never dared venture into those territories of asking questions. This whole thing was a problem in itself and maybe you just didnโt want to face the reality by talking about it more. Sunghoon and you had your share of moments, exchanging stories, getting to know each other bit by bit and sharing intimate touches that never carried any sexual nature. But at the end of the day, you know he only sees this as a hook-up, an agreement youโve found yourselves in to give and take from one another. That doesnโt make it any easier to deal with though, having to suppress how fond youโve grown of him and ignoring the growing sentiment but you let the guilt gnaw you freely, losing the light sparkling in you in his company only to be reignited on the next meeting.
It was a miracle Jungwon never realised, not having even the slightest clue about what was going on inside his own house with the two people he was the closest to. There were times youโd both almost slip up, Sunghoon having come out of your room a mere second too early or too late before your brother disappears; or when heโd eye fuck you in front of a group of people be it at a party or even under your own roof with Jungwon standing right next to him. If he did notice, he never brings it up and sometimes that gets your hopes up of maybe, just maybe he doesnโt care. But seeing from time to time how heโd bring up girlsโ names to Sunghoon and talk freely as boys do when youโre around, you prefer to assume he was absolutely clueless.ย
You lie back down on your bed, exhaling a sigh when your head hits the softness of your pillow. You fish your phone out from under it and squint at just how bright the screen is, finding your brotherโs contact to call him. โAre you home?โ you ask feigning a sleepy voice when he picks up, glancing out the window as you wonder if Sunghoon had reached home safely in the heavy-paced rain. โYeah, like for a while now. Practice ran short cause of the rain and Sunghoon never showed up,ย again. Did you just wake up?โ you could hear the tinge of annoyance in your brotherโs voice as he mentioned his best friendโs name on the phone.
Your brother and Sunghoon were in the college football team, having their semis of the season coming up soon; and with how serious the team was set on victory, they would have practice even on Sunday mornings sometimes. Sunghoon was one of their best players and with how much he has been missing weekend practice lately for โfamily emergenciesโ, it is validated that your brother who happens to be the captain of said team put his annoyance on said boy.
โY/n?โ the knock on your door and Jungwonโs voice calling you out from behind it startles you, not realizing he ended the call when you failed to respond to him. You put your phone away and get up from your bed, putting on a hoodie over the thin fabric of your shirt before opening the door to your brother, who had one ear pressed against your wooden door almost falling head-first into your room.
โWhat are you doing?โ You watch him stumble on his feet as he tries to stand back up straight, arms crossed resting against your chest. โI thought you died.โ The younger just shrugs as if that was a reasonable enough answer, walking away from you and down the steps of the stairs. โCome down, Iโm gonna heat the pizza.โ Rolling your eyes, you chuckle a little to yourself at his antics, closing the door of your room before hurrying down the stairs.
โAgain?โ You sigh to yourself at the sight in front of you at the doorstep. Another Friday night, another drunk Jungwon was to be let in and carried to bed. Lucky for you, his best friend was the one who brought him home, supporting one side of Jungwonโs weight on his shoulder. โYeap, I tried to stop him but you know how stubborn he gets.โ Sunghoon offers an apologetic smile as he practically drags the boy by his shoulder into the warmth of your house.
โJust leave him on the couch.โ Plopping him down onto the couch of the living room, you drape the throw blanket over him, watching as he slept through with a snore. You watch him for a bit more, bending down to brush a little of his bangs away from his face before making your way back to where the kitchen was, opening the fridge in search of some cold bottled water. You hear the footsteps following you and finally stopping right behind you, you can feel his breath prickling the skin of your neck. Clearing your throat, you try your hardest to ignore the reddening of your cheeks. You had to keep your cool.
โMay I help you?โ you donโt bother turning around, pretending to look for more things in the fridge as you keep your focus on it longer before picking up two bottles from the side. โYeah, you could. I deserve a thank you, donโt you think?โ pushing the fridge close, Sunghoon encases both of his arms around your waist and pulls your back to land on his chest, chin resting on top of your head so easily. Damn him for being so tall. Letting out a deep exhale, you dismiss his hold off you easily before turning on your heels to face him this time, having to tilt your head up slightly to meet his eyes.
โThank you.โ You say with a short smile enough to come off genuine on your lips, pushing one bottle of the water in your hand to his chest, forming some distance between the two of you. Itโs bad enough he had your shorts riding up a little from his back hug before, it was getting tougher by the day to act nonchalant as if he doesnโt make your heartstrings tug at the sight of his teeth showing when he smiles ever so innocently to you.
Knowing you'd go around in circles trying to put a stop to your 'relationship' only to go back to him again, you had to control yourself. Glancing to the couch in the living room where your brother sleeps, you remind yourself why it is important you do this. Sliding away from the compromising position Sunghoon has put you in, he watches with confusion forming on his face at how you walk off to lean on the kitchen counter facing him but avoiding his eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asks, brows furrowed deep you'd think they were connected by now. His asking that question makes you scoff in disbelief at how oblivious he was trying to play as if everything was just alright. "What's wrong? This. This is wrong. We canโt keep doing this, Sunghoon.โ you softly answer, not wanting even the walls of your kitchen to hear what you'd have to open up about tonight, let alone Jungwon in the next room. The boy rolls his eyes at your words, having expected to hear of the same thing you've been repeating for the past two months of your 'relationship'. He knows why you feel the way you do and he knows why you think what you have to do is right but he decides to stick in denial of the fact that everything in front of him could crumble in an instant.ย
Sunghoon walks over to you and holds you firm by the waist this time, slotting one knee in between your thighs as he leans himself closer to your body. You gasp at the sudden movement, not being able to move out in time before he takes one grip off your waist and pinches your chin with his thumb and index finger to face up at him. "Are you sure?" he whispers under his hot breath trickling your lips, your eyes engrossed in his like chains pulling you in. Causing you to abide, yet again.
One heartbeat ticks before Sunghoon leans in and crashes his lips onto yours which you immediately return with haste. One minute it was slow, the next messy with your hands roaming around each other and tongues slipping past lips to connect with saliva dripping down your chins. His knee under your covered core settles in quickly and so do you sitting on it, grinding your way through the heat engulfing you whole with lids barely open but you do not close them completely, reality setting in like a switch in your brain. Your fingers gripping his hair to pull him closer before are now pulling it away in one swift motion, lips left bare and connected only by the air you struggle to catch.
"No, we can't. I'm serious.โ Your change in demeanour to his usual flirtatious ways confused him. It wasnโt shocking, not the first time this โroutineโ of yours came before giving in to him anyway but this time, it felt different. Like youโve made your mind up and are choosing to take a stand on the choice he so much despises to believe. Sunghoon furrows his brows deeper now lines were forming on his forehead, hand reaching out to hold yours that seemed much farther than it used to be as you push him off of you.
โPlease, Iโve told you again and again that everything is going to be fine, Y/n and-โ
โWhat if itโs not going to be fine, huh? What if everything goes to shit and Jungwon, you, me- everything just falls apart? I-I donโt want anything to change.โ You whisper-shout and pull your hand away from his grip once again, folding your arms and tucking your fingers away out of his reach if he ever tries to hold you again. It would make everything much, much harder to handle. Turning away from him, you sigh to yourself and walk towards the couch trying to clear your head of all the jumbled thoughts making you not see straight.
It was the right thing to do and you assured yourself a million times in your heart, knowing you werenโt one to take risks of even the smallest things that could change the trajectory of your family relations. Or get caught up in the downfall of their friendship? Hard pass. Yes, you knew it was wrong from the moment your eyes laid on Sunghoon that night and for two months consecutive; the notion to put a stop to it only came now. Who could blame you, really?
Sunghoon follows behind you and stops a few steps away, one hand ruffling his hair messily in frustration. If only he had the right words to say to convince that persistent head of yours to stay. โI get it, I do. Listen to me, I-โ
โI think you should leave. Itโs late, thanks for bringing Jungwon home.โ You cut him off immediately before he could continue whatever heโs come up with to sway your decision, deciding to look up and face him dead in the eye. His arms fall limp to the side with eyes staring right back at you, pupils moving around endlessly trying to find just anything, any reasoning he could use in your eyes; yet all he witnessed were the trembling of your lips. With a heavy sigh, he says what he always does before leaving. โIโll text you.โ
Sunghoon picks his feet up and starts walking towards the front door and opens it, walking out with one last look at your face though youโre not focused on him anymore. He gazes at you crouched down beside your brother one last time before shutting the door taking all of himself that he gave to you with him. Hearing the soft thud of the lock was when the tears youโve bit your tongue holding it in started falling down your cheeks.
And he does text you that night and all the nights following, but you always leave them unopened.
The gust of wind blows in signal of fall passing through, messing up the bangs on the side of your face to much dismay. It was reaching 4 pm now as you sat on one of the picnic benches outside the library alone, hoping to catch up with some of your notes from class while waiting for Jungwon to finish up with football practice. Not for another hour though.
So you sit there, studying; well trying to at least, constantly being distracted with thoughts floating around in your mind. Some were about school, some were about trivial matters you wonโt even remember by the end of the night. And some were about Park Sunghoon, the boy you swore to yourself not to contact anymore. It was impossible though, unlocking your phone now to read another one of his text messages in your notification bar from last night that you left unopened for reasons you deemed would help in your โjourneyโ. Wasnโt this what no contact was all about?
โCan we talk, please?โ
You sigh at the words slowly ingraining in your brain the longer you stare at it, not realizing the figure planting himself to the seat opposite you. โWhatcha doing?โ you blink in surprise at the sudden intrusion, eyes wide slightly as you look up from your phone to Jakeโs face smiling at you with his hands clasped together resting on the table separating you. He wasnโt a stranger but you didnโt know him well enough to say he was a close friend; more of an acquaintance? Classmate. Sure.ย Jake Sim was in your sociology class, always kept himself engaged in lectures and was pretty well known around your major mates. Youโve been in group projects with him several times but the exchange between you two never exceeded the academic level of interest before.
โWaiting for my brother.โ You say with a smile, locking and tucking your phone back into the pocket of your jacket. โJungwon, right?โ Jake tilts his head to the side when he questions, the smile never leaving his lips but he looks so innocent it almost made you want to pinch his cheeks. โYou know my brother?โ โEveryone knows your brother, Y/n.โ a small chuckle leaves his lips now, and you canโt help but do the same. He was right. Everyone did know your brother, the captain of the football team. How could you forget for the slightest how popular your brother actually is? How popular him and his friends were?
It grows quiet for a few seconds, not sure if you were meant to wait for Jake or you to say something else or anything at all to continue the conversation, which didnโt seem like one that bore any importance as of now. Jake still had his hands held together on the table, smile evidently growing wider as he kept his eyes on you like he was studying you. Your eyes carelessly did the same; seeing him up close under the warm sunrays shining through the cracks of leaves that tower over you both. Undeniably he was good-looking looking with a tinge of innocence playing in his expression. He seemed benign, genuinely pleasant and confident that you donโt care to wonder why he was well-liked among your peers.
You open your mouth slightly but before any words built up in your mind could come out, Jake softly taps the table and stands. โWell, Iโd like to keep you company longer but I need to get home now.โ It wasnโt expected of him to stay with you after that little exchange anyway but somehow a speck of disappointment fills you.
โWould you like to get coffee sometime?โ Jake rubs the back of his nape sheepishly with a wide grin, not able to keep his eyes on you so confidently this time around. And to think he was incapable of being shy around you. โY-yeah, sure. Okay.โ You werenโt any better than him though, the tip of your ears heating up at the sudden invitation. โGreat. Iโll text you!โ with that he walks away, turning around after a few steps to wave you goodbye accompanied by a smile. For some reason, your ears grow hotter as you wave back at him, not entirely opposed to this newfound excitement starting to bubble in the pits of your stomach. You watch him a little longer as his silhouette grows small and disappears into the distance, smiling to nobody but yourself now.
You glance off towards the other side where you can hear the football players yelling in the distance from the field, holding your breath momentarily when you meet Sunghoonโs eyes. Standing at the side of the field, staring at you as he wipes off the sweat dripping down the tips of his hair. Being quite far away, you couldnโt make out clearly the way his face expressed dissatisfaction but with those thick brows of his, anyone could see the way they quirked up from a mile away. Heโs been trying to contact you for the last week and this was what he had to see after you not responding last night? Who was that guy anyway? Sunghoon tongues the inside of his cheek in annoyance, scoffing when he catches you looking away and pretending like he didnโt exist.
No matter how much he tried to text, call, or anything- he kept himself behaved and respectful every time he was in near proximity of you much thanks to Jungwon. The boy was desperate but he wasnโt about to let another drama unfold in the midst of him trying to get a grip of present matters. He doesnโt know how long more he could stand watching you from afar, not being able to hold you close like before- he didnโt know how to handle being rejected. It was close to torture-no, it was absolute torture having to watch you greet him when he came over to hang out with Jungwon, only to scurry off in your little shorts back to your room and lock yourself in there till he was out of sight.
It was a mental battle for him, knowing at some point you were right about not wanting to hurt Jungwon in the long run of continuing whatever you had between the two of you. He knew that, he understood that. But what about him? What about the true feelings that he realized was a little too late to admit he had for you all this time of just โmessing aroundโ? He sighs to himself and tries to brush off his thoughts, tossing the towel to the ground before running back to his teammates huddled up in a circle. Letting go of you just seemed impossible in his books.
The next day, you were surprised to find Jake standing out the hallway of your lecture hall with a cup of coffee in each hand. His eyes travelled around the sea of students exiting the hall after your morning class, grinning ear to ear when he spotted you walking over. โGood morning, this is for you but itโs hot, so be careful.โ You stop to stand right in front of him, biting down your lips to stop from smiling too widely in hopes he doesnโt get how embarrassingly happy you were of this surprise. How does he know you even had class this morning right here? Maybe because he had classes next door, idiot. How does he know what coffee youโd even like? Why was he being so friendly with you? You take the cup from his hand and notice the way his cheeks turn a little hue of pink when your finger brushes against his. โThank you, Jake. Thatโs so sweet of you.โ
โYouโre welcome, and before you think Iโm a creep for knowing your schedule- I just happen to have classes next door at the same time as you do here every week. So Iโve seen you walk by a few times.โ What, he's a mind reader now? Taking a small sip of the drink, you hum in approval as the taste of hot coffee washes over you and smile up at Jakeโs intrigued face. โThis is really yummy! Thanks again, Jake.โ โIโm glad you like it.โ He nods with satisfaction painted over his face, glancing around the hallway momentarily to concede the decreasing amount of students present now.
โSo, are you free right now? Want to go to the library and study?โ Jake asks with a tilted head, taking a longer sip of his coffee as if trying to hide half of his face. You take a look at the watch on your wrist and damn, you were hoping to fill your empty stomach up before your next class. โUm, actually- could we get something to eat? I havenโt had breakfast so..โ trailing off your words, you glance down to your feet before meeting his eyes apologetically. Maybe he really wanted to study and here you were, asking to go eat instead. What if he really just wanted a study buddy for the semester and he thought you were trying to hang out with him? It is almost noon so thatโs perfect for lunch so why would he even ask to study right now but what if- damn you and your overthinking.
Instead, Jake looks at you with slightly widened eyes and you were hoping that didnโt mean anything bad. โYes, of course! Iโm sorry, I shouldโve asked to go to lunch instead. We can go to the library after if youโre still up for it.โ Not sure why you found his reaction endearing, you lightly chuckle and nod along to his words as he leads the both of you out of the building and to the cafeteria of the campus. It wasnโt a long walk from where you were so not much awkwardness was present in your conversation, but that was thanks to how easygoing Jake was as a person.
Heโd ask every little thing in that head of his about you and he never seemed to run out of questions or hold back from them, despite evidently feeling shy prior. You notice the way he had this captivated look on his face whenever you answered and sometimes they were pretty long answers but he didnโt seem to mind one bit that you were spouting all sorts of trivial matters at this point. You liked that about him and donโt question anymore his intentions of getting all friendly with you, easing up to him quicker than youโd expect. From then on, youโve shared most of your meals on campus together, studying together when you could find the time and there were times heโd just ask you to hang out with him, doing nothing but talk. It felt refreshing, a (not so) new face taking your time up you almost, almost (not at all) forget the face that hangs around in the background of your life.
Sunghoon was definitely aware of your newfound friend; watching, glaring, judging every little interaction you had with Jake every time heโd see you. Always, always with Jake. Smiling, talking, laughing. Was he that funny that had you giggling your way all through lunch? Anyone with eyes could see that Jake was being flirtatious with you, or maybe thatโs just what the younger boy wanted to believe to justify his feelings of envy. Have you forgotten about him and all those moments youโd laugh at his jokes? Sunghoon catches himself smiling whenever he remembers them and sighs in defeat when he realizes it would never be a sight heโd see again.
Unless he decides to finally take matters into his own hands. He was not going to let you go just like that, despite your bullshit reasoning about caring for Jungwonโs feelings or whatever youโve been saying. It just felt unfair knowing how you really felt about the โrelationshipโ but choosing to end it anyway. It felt selfish and Sunghoon wanted to at least, make you listen and be selfish of his feelings for once- pushing back the regret slowly creeping in before itโs too late to have done something.
Two weeks pass by and spending time with Jake has added productivity into your routine; being that it used to be only studying and occasional social life activities with your friends; and hooking up with your brotherโs best friend. It was good to distract yourself with Jake, though you hated how you thought of him that way. It wasnโt your fault Sunghoon was still intruding on your life when he saw an opportunity, making it impossible for you to dismiss him or even get over him completely these past weeks.
He was with Jungwon more often than not these days, always coming over to your house for hours on end it felt intentional to mess with you at this point. He wasnโt even keeping to himself like he used to around you in public, making small talk last longer and teasing you as if youโre the one heโs best friends with and there was no reason you could justify giving him the cold shoulder in front of your brother. Jungwon never found it odd or out of character though, deeming it as if your relationship had always been this way.
You hate the way he still looks at you the same way he used to; with so much fondness and attachment no matter how menacing his words try to sound when he satirises you. You hate the way his scent fills up the air around your house now, taking you back to all those times he spent being so close to you. You certainly hate the way he lingers his touches on your skin, letting his hand brush softly on yours when he passes you things or placing his hand on the arch of your back when he wants to walk by you. It seems like anything you tried to do to put it all in the past crumbles down and pulls you back in like everything was still in the present.
Mostly you hated yourself, for letting your thoughts wander on and on about him on sleepless nights, for even letting him still make your heart skip a beat with that smile of his. It seemingly gets more difficult when you can hear his voice in Jungwonโs room, both of them yelling or arguing about whatever game they were playing that Friday evening before heading out to some party happening the same night.
Jake was coming over to work on a paired project you had for Sociology and it being the first time stepping foot into the home you share with Jungwon, you hoped itโd be some sort of an ideal comfortable place to get school work done. Definitely underestimated your brotherโs loud voice and your household. You make your way to his door and rap a couple of hard knocks on it to send a hint that maybe, you werenโt in the greatest of moods right now. Jungwon opens the door with a quirked-up brow and you try your best to not glance away from his face to the one behind him. โWhat? Iโm busy.โย
โJake is coming over to study so keep it down a little okay? I really-โ
โJake? Jake Sim?โ Sunghoon chimes in and cuts your words off, standing up from Jungwonโs bed and walking over to stand next to him with arms crossed over his chest. This time, you had no choice but to look at him and you pray to God he doesnโt see the way your feet fidget.
โYeah, theyโre like going out now or something,โ Jungwon responds instead of you, shrugging his shoulders with not a care in the world as he walks off to pick his phone up from the bedside table. Sunghoon stays put though, arms still crossed and now leaning his side against the door frame as he intensifies his look on you. It felt like you were being interrogated for a crime you had yet to commit with the way he was looking. โWeโre not! Just-just keep it down okay?โ you raise your voice a little higher to talk over Sunghoonโs towering figure, only earning an agreeing whine from your brother.
You roll your eyes in annoyance, taking a step back from the door to turn and walk off before Sunghoon grips your wrist momentarily and pulls you back to face him.ย ย โAre you coming to the party later?โ The boy questions and this time Jungwon looks up from whatever got his attention on that phone of his awaiting your answer. โNo, Iโm not.โ
โWell, you should. Invite Jake, though Iโm sure heโs already going so heโll probably ask you.โ Sunghoon says in such a nonchalant manner, giving you a smile that seems so fake like he meant to let you know it was. Alarm bells ring in your little head every time he mentions Jakeโs name but you try to ignore them, not wanting to delve deeper into why it bothers you. To stop overthinking was to stop thinking in the first place.ย
โWhatever. Maybe.โ You decide to brush it off and walk away as quickly as possible back to your room, holding yourself from sparing a glance back at his watchful eyes as you close your door shut. โHave fun!โ Spending another second a breath away from each other would shatter the wall youโve built up completely.
โOkay, letโs take a 5-minute break and we can wrap this up for tonight,โ Jake says as he leans to rest his back on your bedside, both of you sitting cross-legged on the floor of your room with laptops and research papers cluttered around. The clock reads 10 pm now, not having realised time flew by so quickly and you felt it though thatโs unusual given doing school work was boring and draggy. Guess having Jake around your company made time work differently. You smile and nod in agreement at his suggestion of taking a well-deserved break. It was taxing trying to read the words written in those papers with him being in your room; well at least for the first 20 minutes until the only thing that could annoy you more than feeling anxious was the boisterous peals of laughter echoing next door.
โSorry about my brother and his friend.โ you huff out having to apologise on behalf of such things you couldnโt control but to your surprise, Jake didnโt seem to mind it at all. โNah, itโs all good.โ He shakes his head and lets out a soft chuckle under his breath which somehow increases assurance that you had nothing to worry about. โAnyways uh- thereโs a party at my friend Jayโs later. You should come with me.โ There it was, the invitation you previously had rejected in your head but now- with the way his puppy-eyed smile slowly convinced you? Itโd be cruel to say no. โSure, but I need a little time to change.โย
The physical space between the two of you seemingly grew closer without you noticing, only the bumping of his knees into yours takes you to recognise this. The shade of his eyes differs from a few seconds ago with the light on your ceiling reflecting on them it settled like tiny little stars. They gaze at your dark brown ones longingly and you donโt know why your hands are getting clammy.
โNo matter what you wear, youโd still be the prettiest girl there.โ Before you could respond with words instead of just widened eyes and tinted cheeks, Jake gradually leaned in closer to you with a hand reaching out to cup your cheeks. The moment felt still, the air held back down your throat from exhaling and all the thoughts in your head paused. You glance down at his lips and every single second your heartbeat increases he is getting closer and closer to touching yours. Sure, you were aware of the growing uncertainty between the two of you after hanging out endlessly but you never did decide on what to call it. Friendly banter? Flirting for the sake of humour? Jake seemed to have his mind made up with this forward move and all you could think about at that very last second was how Sunghoon used to call you pretty.ย
โMy pretty girl.โย
And then a loud laugh echoing through the house kills the moment. Speak of the devil. It was like he knew what was happening behind these walls that separated the two rooms and he had to remind you that he was still living in the back of your mind. Jake immediately pulls his hand away from your face and clears his throat, the switch from confident to fluster taking over him. The moment fleets away and snaps like a flash, the trance-filled air evaporates from your systems which quickly takes you back to reality.
โSorry.โ Jake ruffles his hair in an attempt to hide his eyes but you notice the smile he bites back from showing. You do the same in averting your gaze with how hot your face was getting, shaking your head in dismissal at his apology. โItโs okay.โ
โI think we can continue the project on Monday. Iโll wait for you downstairs and we can go?โ The flustered boy says while packing his things and stands up after, expression clean like nothing ever happened. โO-okay. I wonโt take long.โ You get up on your feet and nod, watching him close your door as he leaves and now all alone you stand there, gathering everything in your head to figure out what just happened. And- why was your blood feeling warm again like relief had washed over you? Whatever. You shake those thoughts away and stumble to your wardrobe, picking out the first top and short skirt in sight and changing quickly while adding a few touch-ups to prim your appearance.ย
Walking down the stairs slowly you hear chatter in the living room and when you do land on the final step, the sight of Jake casually conversing with Sunghoon and your brother on the couch welcomes you. They didnโt seem aware of your presence at first, engrossed in their little discussion and you slowly make your way to them.
โWell, donโt you look pretty?โ Sunghoon was the first to blurt that out when you came into view, earning questioning (a little weirded out and a โdude!โ mostly from Jungwonโs) glances from the other two. Heโs never openly complimented you, especially in front of your brother and what in the world does he think heโs doing that now? You blink in astonishment at the sudden forwardness he was showcasing, even more surprised the younger did not seem to think it was a misstep on his part at all. Jake decides to let it slide and smiles at you as he stands up. โYou do look pretty.โ
He might not have heard it but the scoff Sunghoon lets out under his breath rings right through your ears. โAre we done? Can we go now?โ Jungwon stands up as well now, groaning along his steps towards the front door with Sunghoon following suit from behind. โYeap, see you guys there.โ He says without even a glance back, implying they are heading out in Sunghoonโs car and you were left to go in Jakeโs. It had you hesitant to be alone with him once again, unsure whether the conversation would pick up where it got interrupted.
Much to ease your worries though, Jake appears to have moved past the recent events, effortlessly slipping back into his usual self as he drives you to Jay's place. Talking and laughing with you like he always would, devoid of any awkwardness you mentally prepared to face.ย
Arriving at the party, you were welcomed by a music-blasted house full of drunken students, the smell of booze thinning through the air and a ton of new faces you had to meet. Jake introduces you to his friends the moment they spot him arriving, learning that despite being third years just like you- they were all good friends with Jungwon and Sunghoon who were in their second and always attended Jayโs parties. Itโs no surprise Jungwon never mentioned to them he had an older sister all this while and that it was you, given how dumbfounded their faces expressed when you were introduced.
โCโmon, let me get you a drink.โ Jake holds his hand out to take yours, leading the both of you through the swarm of bodies to the kitchen counter where a variety of bottled alcohol were lined up for your choosing. He releases your hand to grab one, pouring its contents into a red cup mixed with what he explained was apple juice before passing it for you to try with anticipation in his eyes. โGood?โ โGreat.โ You nod and smile in approval as the taste of liquor mixes in your throat but it doesnโt burn like it should thanks to the added condiment. Jake laughs softly in relief and makes one for himself, bumping his cup with yours for a little โcheers!โ before taking a sip and exhaling in delight at the taste.
You were not one in favour of much drinking even when you do attend parties with your friends but to relax with Sunghoon still roaming around nearby and at any given moment could catch you off guard, you decided why the heck not.ย
After a few more leisurely sips, Jake gently gestures with his chin towards a cosy, unoccupied couch nestled in a quieter corner of the living room. With a warm smile, he reaches for your hand once more, guiding you towards this inviting spot where you both settle in next to each other, finding comfort in the serene ambience of the less crowded area. โIโm really glad you decided to come with, you know,โ he states when he catches you turning to smile at him, confidence from the early spur of the moment in your room seeming to have returned. โOh, and why is that?โ
โCause I like hanging out with you. Plus, you tell the funniest jokes known to mankind.โ You roll your eyes playfully at his bantering remark, nudging his side softly. โNot as funny as the ones you tell, Mr Sim.โ Jakeโs laughter infects you, drawing you into a lively exchange where conversation flows like it usually does with him.
You seemed to be really enjoying yourself and when Sunghoon sees you from across the room where heโs leaned up against the wall with his own condiment in hand; getting up to presumably head to the bathroom, he wipes the frown he wore while observing your interaction with Jake and quietly follows you.
Admittedly, he was very jealous of Jake. Of anyone and everyone who got to receive your warm reactions he used to be the reason of. With other eyes around the room glancing and looking at you in ways only he allowed himself to do so felt like fire charring through his skin and veins. The alcohol he kept chugging every time your voice grew clear to his ears that he could make out the words in detail, was certainly not helping his mind be kept sane at this point.ย
Turning the tap off and giving yourself a once over in the mirror of the bathroom you found empty in the back, a sigh falls from your lips. Looking straight into your reflection you no longer see yourself with expressions earlier directed to Jake. No, not when you were alone once again under the coarse fluorescent lighting with a swarm of thoughts coming back to haunt your mind. You donโt know why the fact Sunghoon was here at the same party as Jake bothered you so much, after the whole compliment he decided to throw out in the open you felt defeated.
For one, Jake was a decent guy and you werenโt so naive to throw out the option of venturing into your relationship with him more than just friends. Plus, he wasnโt your brotherโs best friend- Jungwon already thinks youโve got more going on. All positives, no cons to be detected. But one, he was not Sunghoon. You groan in frustration and curse yourself, why the fuck does this guy have such a hold on you that you couldnโt even do this one thing right? Itโs over and done with, youโve got to stick with your decision no matter how long it takes for you to convince yourself that.
A loud knock from the door startles you from overthinking (your personality at this point) and you roll your eyes in annoyance. Drunk people and their impatience with bathrooms, especially when occupied never cease to tick you off. โYes, yes Iโm done,โ you grumble while straightening your skirt, stepping towards the door to unlock it and before you can even open it fully; Sunghoon forces himself in and bumps you to stumble backwards as he shuts the door and locks it.
The hair on your skin stands and shock waves wash over you, not fully comprehending what exactly is going on. He takes notice of your bewildered expression and smirks, back leaning against the door with eyes gazing at you with nothing but grey in them. Itโs quiet for a few beats, save the faded-out music playing in the background from the party happening outside this small room you were seemingly trapped in.ย ย
โWhat are you doing?โย
"What are you doing?" he questions back, a hint of attitude present in the tone. Bafflement spreads across your face, and he pushes himself off the door, walking forward slowly and stopping just right in front of you. Sunghoon had both hands tucked in the pocket of his jeans as he towered over you, prompting you to tilt your head up to meet his eye. With a gentle motion, he removes one hand from his pocket, brushing aside the bangs that have fallen on the side of your face. His finger then traces a slow, deliberate path up and down your arm, sending a shiver up your spine.
โThrew me away for that guy, huh?โ a playful pout formed on his lips now, moving down his hand from your arm to wrap around your waist with a tight grasp pulling you to bump his chest. Red colours your features from the contact and there was no way to hide it at this point, being so dangerously close to him everything in you weakened by the minute. For a flicker, you donโt even recall Jake, or his name or him being the context of the conversation. Your mind grows more cluttered it is like everything was upside down, with Sunghoonโs mere touch of skin sending your brain into a wired mess.ย
โThro- I didnโt throw you away, Sunghoon. I told you why-โ
โYou probably have no idea, but Iโm quite a jealous man.โ
Before you can respond, Sunghoon leans in, capturing your lips with a fervent kiss. You taste the yearning in his kiss and, almost instinctively, you return it with equal intensity. Any remnants of your defences crumble, and you know there's no point in trying to rebuild them, especially now as you fully succumb to him. Moments like this remind you why you typically donโt drink alcohol. Though there wouldnโt really be a different outcome even if you were fully sober; knowing and finally admitting to yourself that you do want this. You want all of him.
The kiss deepens, becoming more passionate as he pushes you up against the edge of the sink. One of his hands remains tightly gripped around your waist, anchoring you to him, while the other slowly travels down to the hem of your skirt. With a deliberate motion, he lifts it slightly, allowing his hand to slip underneath, where he firmly grasps your thigh, pulling you even closer to him. A moan escapes through your connected lips as you feel his hand firmly gripping every inch of your thigh and tracing along the curve of your ass, his touch sending electric sensations through your body.
Your hands roam eagerly over his broad chest, fingers threading through his locks and pulling him closer like your life depended on him. Sunghoon seizes the momentary parting of your lips, his tongue sweeping in to explore the wet warmth of your mouth. He skillfully intertwines his tongue with yours, drawing you deeper into the kiss, his movements becoming more eager and vigorous.
Breaking the kiss briefly, a thin strand of saliva glistens between your lips, hinting at the raw desire that lingers. "You think I don't see the way he looks at you?" he whispers huskily, his eyes now a darker shade. "Flirting with you, touching youโGod, it's so fucking annoying.โ Your mind too clouded to respond, you tug on his shirt, urging him back into the kiss, but he hesitates, teasingly resisting your pull. The fingers resting on your dampened cloth underneath start to circulate and that just sends you into a drive of lusting need for him, now.ย
"And you choose to wear this skimpy ass skirt around himโaround me, all wet like this,โ Sunghoon murmurs, frustration evident in his voice. "I swear, you'll be the death of me." With a sigh, he reconnects your lips with his, each moment growing hotter than the last. You moan in between kisses, your own hands now gripping onto his shirt to tug and pull him even closer, bodies pressing against each other. With that eagerness coming from you, Sunghoon holds your underwear to the side with his thumb, pushing two fingers into your folds without breaking the kiss. Your gasp disappears into his mouth as the intrusion takes you off guard.
โF-fuck.โ Unable to hold it in, you let out a moan and pulled away from his lips with your eyes closed shut surrendering to the pleasure overtaking your senses. He doesnโt stop kissing you though, moving down to the side of your neck and you tilt your head giving him an easier excess in smothering your bare skin with kisses and marks you really hoped would be easy to cover up tomorrow.
โYouโre mine. My pretty girl.โ the way he exhales those words tickles your skin and makes the hair on your body stand up as if electrified, the fingers pumping in and out of you intruding harder than before. Your senses grow hazier by the second and a sting shoots through your veins at the feel of Sunghoonโs teeth sinking on your flesh and he sucks on it, lips not leaving your neck only to grow rougher when you give his locks a harsh pull.ย
โM-mhm.โ you bite your lips hard from stuttering out any coherent words, gasping for a little bit of air to come soothe your quickened heart when Sunghoon pulls himself away from you. He grips both sides of your panties from underneath your skirt and pulls them down as he gets on his knees directly in front of you.
The rush of cold air breezes through and tickles your exposed core making you squeeze your thighs together which earns a playful smirk from the younger's lips. He then leans his face close and has his hands gripped onto your thighs for support before he dives under your skirt to give your wetness a clean lick. The warm feel of his wet tongue on your folds jolts you in a gasped surprise, making you pull onto his hair harder as you wobbly stood against the sink praying your knees didnโt decide to give up so easily. He didn't seem to mind the aggressiveness, more so enjoying it now as he gets on the same level with the flick of his tongue and saliva all combed up around your core.
โM-mhm, right there.โ you bunch your skirt up now to get a good view of him under you like this, his eyelids closed as he hungrily swirls his tongue around and inside you with quenched thirst trying to taste every inch of your dripping wetness. Itโs a sight you wish you could take a picture of and stare at forever.
Sunghoon opens his lids a little to gaze up at your face, both hands on your thighs now going up to grip the cheeks of your ass harshly as he accelerated his pace. Guiding you to ride his face with his hands, your vision starts to blur at the heightening sensation brewing in your stomach with every jab of his tongue. The sloshing sound of wet licking and the groans vibrating through your folds with such a face clamped up between your legs, you were reaching to release quicker than intended; wanting to devour the moment of pleasure a little bit longer but it wasnโt really a choice you couldโve made.
โYeah, yeah, yeah- Iโm cumming-โ the words grow a pitch higher with your moans as you grip onto his hair fully, coming undone right into his mouth for his senses to devour all of you, and he doesnโt stop licking even when your insides were throbbing. After a few breaths, Sunghoon licks your bare flesh clean and finally pulls away from your core, standing back up to his feet to leave a bruising kiss on your lips. He doesnโt leave out the swift swiping of his tongue on your lips for you to have a taste of yourself.
โTastes so fucking good, my pretty girl.โ The room felt like it was spinning, nothing was making any sense but it felt too good to be probing for any. Getting a morsel of what youโve been missing for the last month has made you long for more- an addiction that fed you a little too well.ย
โIโm not done with you yet,โ Sunghoon says in the silent seconds of the moment and grabs to hold the sides of your waist again. He then turns you around to face the bathroom mirror, pushing himself up on you until your skirt rides up even more to feel the hardened bulge in his pants making you grip onto the sink tightly to balance yourself. The look on both of your faces stares back at you from the reflection, plumped-up lips and reddened skin paint the view of the state you are in.
What a turn of events- you really had faith in yourself to not end up in this exact situation again and maybe if you just avoided gaping at what was in front of you, you might feel a little better about yourself; not that any ounce of regret would stand in the way of any of this.
The boy snakes up one hand over your shoulder to hold a grip on your jaw, making you look straight into the mirror while using the other to unzip his pants down. He knew what was going on in your head and wanted to make sure you saw this; saw the truth of what you both really feel. โSay it, admit it, whose are you?โ he growls and gives your earlobe a little suck until it turned red, pushing you down to bend over the sink with your bare ass fully pressed against him. That makes you lose your balance a little, hands once gripping the sink swiftly falls off to the side and he instead takes hold of your waist again seeing how you struggled to stand in place in such a position. โY-yours, Iโm yours.โย
A smirk recreates on his lips while he pulls his boxers off and you see this through the mirror, eyes trying so hard to focus on him but immediately failing when his sprung-out cock presses against you. โMโ gonna fuck you so good, you donโt ever forget that.โ Sunghoon inclines forward to plant a soft kiss on the back of your head before thrusting himself into your still throbbing wetness with a loud grunt. โFuuuuck, I missed you.โ As he starts to catch his pace, the lump forming on the back of your throat threatens to let the tears in the brim of your eyes fall. You missed him too.
The fill of his length pulls you into overdrive with how much ecstasy is streaming through your veins with each pump he pushes in you. The sound of skin slapping on skin gets faster and louder, only covered by the moans and groans falling out both of your lips. Sunghoon had his eyes closed momentarily as he pulled his head back, swimming in the sensation of your walls clenching on him, enveloping him with such a warm welcome it felt like home.
โA-ah, feel so full.โ โYeah, baby? You like feeling me all in you?โ You nod along your moans that you donโt even try holding back anymore, despite being in the bathroom of someone elseโs house which, who cares at this point? The people outside were probably all gone in their respective vices and nobody was bothering you, yet. Opening your eyes only to meet Sunghoonโs shaded ones reflected in the mirror, and seeing him fucking you in such a view with his hair all dishevelled and tongue constantly licking his lips; how could you not fall to your knees for this man?
โFuck, fuck, keep squeezing me like that and Iโm gone baby.โ he breathily pants with furrowed brows, hand reaching out to bunch up your hair and giving it a pull to make your back arch while he uses another hand to trail up your chest, groping onto your boobs over your shirt so harshly you were sure his hands were printed on your skin. โYouโre so fucking perfect.โ
โF-feels s-so good, Sunghoon, mhm fuck.โ You werenโt sure if saying that made him angry or more turned on but with the way his hand from your chest made it way up to encircle your neck and his pace growing quicker than before you could barely keep your legs upright; you figured it was the latter. โYeah, baby say my name again. Say my name and Iโm gonna cum all in you.โ
โMmnn! Iโm a-almost there Sunghoon please-โ The tears plunge from your eyes and the saltiness glistens your lips, gulping down the lump in your throat forming when he continuously slams his tip on your walls. โMโ gonna fill you up so good, fuck, fuck, fuck! Iโm cummingโ He says this through his breath barely reaching your ears, too busy indulging in your own pleasure as you ride out your high clenching yourself around his warm spill filling you to the brim.
The vigour of pleasure you felt made you see nothing but white, the air rising so hot and clammy it made you feel like combusting. Sunghoon gives it a few more pumps to make sure his load doesnโt spill out in a mess and groans at the aftermath of it all, leaning forward again to kiss your head before pulling out of you slowly. Your waist throbbed in pain when you do stand up straight again and turned back around to face him, but you seemed still stuck in a daze to focus on that.
The room fills with nothing but the panting of your breaths hoping to slow down your heaving and the burning still buzzing in your brain. Sunghoon pulls his pants up and fixes himself in the mirror with a satisfied smile etched on his face, and you watch him reach out to take some tissue from next to the sink and bend down in front of you yet again. You look down at him with a quirked-up brow and he looks back up to you still wearing the same expression. โCโmon, let me clean you up.โ he then proceeds to do so, wiping every inch of your core and thighs clean from any excess that could (hopefully not) spill down later on.
It takes you back to those times he used to take care of you after fucking you until you saw stars; this habit of his making your cheeks burn up like it was the first time. Sunghoon throws the used tissue away and gets up on his feet, eyes no longer grey but complete of longing, gazing into yours once again drawing you in. He leans in closer to brush his nose against yours before planting the softest most loving kiss on your lips and you wish it lasted a lifetime. โI missed you, Sunghoon.โ you blurt out first this time after pulling away and it comes to both of your surprise that you didnโt stick to denying and hurting his feelings anymore. What did they say about growth?ย
โY/n, I-โ Sunghoon begins with a desperate plea in his tone, hands clasped on yours but was immediately cut off by the knocking of the door from continuing. Ah right, you were still in Jayโs fucking bathroom. Realisation seemed to hit only seconds later, both trying to shush the other from erupting with laughter. โLetโs go outside first.โ You say with an assuring hold on his hand, reaching for the doorknob to swing it open. โSor-โTaking a step out, you gasp at the sight of widened eyes looking straight back at you and Sunghoon, most probably in horror.
The pitter-patter of the rain befalls your roof, the sound echoing in your ears as you stare out the window of your room. Greying clouds shrouded the sky, covering what little left of the sun was visible in the storm brewing on what was supposed to be a lovely sunny Sunday afternoon. Well, it still is lovely.
Usually on days like these, the floor of your room would be cold to the touch of your feet and the only thing offering you comfort would be the covers you would hide under your bed; which you were in as of now with some extra warmth beside your lying body. You turn your head to the side to face the sleeping figure next to you, his arms wrapped around your waist securely like it was held on by a lock. The dark strands of hair fall on his face perfectly, covering his closed lids so gently it barely poked his skin. You make use of the time to study his features, his sharply curved nose, his inviting plump-coloured lips to counting all the spotted moles perfectly decorating his soft skin.
He looked perfect in this state of his yet there was a heaviness pulling the back of your throat, the palpitations of your heartbeat increasing the more you tried to hold in from bursting into tears. It was exhausting, having to rationalize yourself and bury the feelings that arise when looking at him like that. It felt so right and wrong all at the same time, you blame nobody but yourself for the demise brought to your own heart.
His chest was moving up and down pace fully as his breath softly contacted your face, the tip of his nose inches away from brushing yours; ever so gentle and vulnerable like that next to you, holding you as he continued to slumber like the world outside never grew dark. It was really, a lovely Sunday afternoon. Well, that was until you heard the sound of your younger brotherโs loud chatter and footsteps covering up the walls of your house, sounding closer each second as he made his way up the stairs to his room next to yours.
Immediately snapping yourself out of your daze from the loud bang of his door closing shut, your eyes widen in horror as they are still locked onto the boyโs face next to yours. This was not good. You had to wake him up quickly before anyone finds out he was ever here, in your bed; before your brother finds out his best friend was lying next to you. โSunghoon! Wake up!โ you hiss under your breath as you shake his arm, trying your hardest to be gentle with your touch yet making it known how urgently he needs to act. โHmm? What?โ the boy groans, eyes still fully closed and no attempt of waking up was made with the arm around your waist instead tightening and pulling you closer to him. โNo, wake up! Jungwon is home.โ You try to pry yourself off his hold and hope he gets up this time with the mention of your brother, his best friend. And how this was not a situation any of you wanted to deal with right now.
โOh.โ Finally, Sunghoon opens his eyes and unlike your panicked ones, they are tired. Maybe even sad? Who knows, but you did feel your heartstrings pull a little bit at the sight of his locked gaze, feeling all sorts of bad at how you ruined his peaceful sleep to have to go running out in the rain that probably caused him to feel what you assumed was sad. You stop your movements of trying to get his grip off your waist once your eyes stay on each otherโs for a few beats too long, not entirely sure why he was still in place. The longer the silence and the sound of only your breaths and rain outside took over the moment, the warmer you felt your cheeks turning. Seeing him like this felt like a new angle into things when he is awake and staring right into the window of your soul.
For some reason, what were mere minutes felt like an eternity that you seemed to find yourself lost in his captivation, searching for meaning behind every glint that shone in the pupils of his dark brown orbs. You could see yourself in them staring right back at you and you wonder if he sees the same thing as you.
โRight, I better go then.โ He snaps you back to the reality of the moment, the reality of the situation you need to get out of. The warmth of his skin disappears as fast as he pulls himself away from you, rolling over and getting up from your bed in search of his scattered clothing on the floor. It seems he does not waste any time in getting ready to leave, putting himself back into one piece presentable enough like whatever happened before the sun rose never did. You did not take any offense to it though, knowing how it goes. He is your brotherโs best friend. It was never meant to happen, ever.
Sunghoon walks over to your table and bends a little as he fixes his hair a few more times in front of your vanity mirror, glancing at the reflection of you sitting on the bed watching as he does so. You had the covers wrapped around yourself now, holding it tightly together as the cold of the air finally catches up with you. The boy clears his throat and stands straight again, turning around to face you with his hands resting in the pockets of his jacket, a smile playing on the corner of his lips. โIโll text you.โ
You look up to him with a similar sentiment you fake with a smile, nodding slightly at his words. โBe careful, itโs raining.โ And with that, he makes his way out of your room in stealth and much experience with this already, not without first planting a swift peck on your cheek and escaping out of your house successfully into the wet steps outside. To his car parked a few jogs away from your house behind the yellowing trees where Jungwon would not notice. Just like every other time for the past two months.ย
Two months of sneaking around in sealed secrecy, spending most of your time together intertwined in each otherโs beds. You donโt remember how exactly it all started, damn sure alcohol was the cause of it though. How drunk you both mustโve been that fateful night at whoeverโs turn it was to host the house party of the week. But you do remember the first touch of how his big hands cupped your face. The first mesh of your lips as he pulls you in for a kiss. Thus, spiralling down the road of not being able to keep your hands off each other no matter how hard you both tried to (not hard enough). He was intoxicating you with the taste of his lips, his cock, and offering you the pleasures of vulnerability like you never had before. In simple terms, he was the best fuck you ever had and kept having. See how youโre stuck in a predicament?
You do wonder if there was ever more he felt with you, even for just a second but you never dared venture into those territories of asking questions. This whole thing was a problem in itself and maybe you just didnโt want to face the reality by talking about it more. Sunghoon and you had your share of moments, exchanging stories, getting to know each other bit by bit and sharing intimate touches that never carried any sexual nature. But at the end of the day, you know he only sees this as a hook-up, an agreement youโve found yourselves in to give and take from one another. That doesnโt make it any easier to deal with though, having to suppress how fond youโve grown of him and ignoring the growing sentiment but you let the guilt gnaw you freely, losing the light sparkling in you in his company only to be reignited on the next meeting.
It was a miracle Jungwon never realised, not having even the slightest clue about what was going on inside his own house with the two people he was the closest to. There were times youโd both almost slip up, Sunghoon having come out of your room a mere second too early or too late before your brother disappears; or when heโd eye fuck you in front of a group of people be it at a party or even under your own roof with Jungwon standing right next to him. If he did notice, he never brings it up and sometimes that gets your hopes up of maybe, just maybe he doesnโt care. But seeing from time to time how heโd bring up girlsโ names to Sunghoon and talk freely as boys do when youโre around, you prefer to assume he was absolutely clueless.ย
You lie back down on your bed, exhaling a sigh when your head hits the softness of your pillow. You fish your phone out from under it and squint at just how bright the screen is, finding your brotherโs contact to call him. โAre you home?โ you ask feigning a sleepy voice when he picks up, glancing out the window as you wonder if Sunghoon had reached home safely in the heavy-paced rain. โYeah, like for a while now. Practice ran short cause of the rain and Sunghoon never showed up,ย again. Did you just wake up?โ you could hear the tinge of annoyance in your brotherโs voice as he mentioned his best friendโs name on the phone.
Your brother and Sunghoon were in the college football team, having their semis of the season coming up soon; and with how serious the team was set on victory, they would have practice even on Sunday mornings sometimes. Sunghoon was one of their best players and with how much he has been missing weekend practice lately for โfamily emergenciesโ, it is validated that your brother who happens to be the captain of said team put his annoyance on said boy.
โY/n?โ the knock on your door and Jungwonโs voice calling you out from behind it startles you, not realizing he ended the call when you failed to respond to him. You put your phone away and get up from your bed, putting on a hoodie over the thin fabric of your shirt before opening the door to your brother, who had one ear pressed against your wooden door almost falling head-first into your room.
โWhat are you doing?โ You watch him stumble on his feet as he tries to stand back up straight, arms crossed resting against your chest. โI thought you died.โ The younger just shrugs as if that was a reasonable enough answer, walking away from you and down the steps of the stairs. โCome down, Iโm gonna heat the pizza.โ Rolling your eyes, you chuckle a little to yourself at his antics, closing the door of your room before hurrying down the stairs.
โAgain?โ You sigh to yourself at the sight in front of you at the doorstep. Another Friday night, another drunk Jungwon was to be let in and carried to bed. Lucky for you, his best friend was the one who brought him home, supporting one side of Jungwonโs weight on his shoulder. โYeap, I tried to stop him but you know how stubborn he gets.โ Sunghoon offers an apologetic smile as he practically drags the boy by his shoulder into the warmth of your house.
โJust leave him on the couch.โ Plopping him down onto the couch of the living room, you drape the throw blanket over him, watching as he slept through with a snore. You watch him for a bit more, bending down to brush a little of his bangs away from his face before making your way back to where the kitchen was, opening the fridge in search of some cold bottled water. You hear the footsteps following you and finally stopping right behind you, you can feel his breath prickling the skin of your neck. Clearing your throat, you try your hardest to ignore the reddening of your cheeks. You had to keep your cool.
โMay I help you?โ you donโt bother turning around, pretending to look for more things in the fridge as you keep your focus on it longer before picking up two bottles from the side. โYeah, you could. I deserve a thank you, donโt you think?โ pushing the fridge close, Sunghoon encases both of his arms around your waist and pulls your back to land on his chest, chin resting on top of your head so easily. Damn him for being so tall. Letting out a deep exhale, you dismiss his hold off you easily before turning on your heels to face him this time, having to tilt your head up slightly to meet his eyes.
โThank you.โ You say with a short smile enough to come off genuine on your lips, pushing one bottle of the water in your hand to his chest, forming some distance between the two of you. Itโs bad enough he had your shorts riding up a little from his back hug before, it was getting tougher by the day to act nonchalant as if he doesnโt make your heartstrings tug at the sight of his teeth showing when he smiles ever so innocently to you.
Knowing you'd go around in circles trying to put a stop to your 'relationship' only to go back to him again, you had to control yourself. Glancing to the couch in the living room where your brother sleeps, you remind yourself why it is important you do this. Sliding away from the compromising position Sunghoon has put you in, he watches with confusion forming on his face at how you walk off to lean on the kitchen counter facing him but avoiding his eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asks, brows furrowed deep you'd think they were connected by now. His asking that question makes you scoff in disbelief at how oblivious he was trying to play as if everything was just alright. "What's wrong? This. This is wrong. We canโt keep doing this, Sunghoon.โ you softly answer, not wanting even the walls of your kitchen to hear what you'd have to open up about tonight, let alone Jungwon in the next room. The boy rolls his eyes at your words, having expected to hear of the same thing you've been repeating for the past two months of your 'relationship'. He knows why you feel the way you do and he knows why you think what you have to do is right but he decides to stick in denial of the fact that everything in front of him could crumble in an instant.ย
Sunghoon walks over to you and holds you firm by the waist this time, slotting one knee in between your thighs as he leans himself closer to your body. You gasp at the sudden movement, not being able to move out in time before he takes one grip off your waist and pinches your chin with his thumb and index finger to face up at him. "Are you sure?" he whispers under his hot breath trickling your lips, your eyes engrossed in his like chains pulling you in. Causing you to abide, yet again.
One heartbeat ticks before Sunghoon leans in and crashes his lips onto yours which you immediately return with haste. One minute it was slow, the next messy with your hands roaming around each other and tongues slipping past lips to connect with saliva dripping down your chins. His knee under your covered core settles in quickly and so do you sitting on it, grinding your way through the heat engulfing you whole with lids barely open but you do not close them completely, reality setting in like a switch in your brain. Your fingers gripping his hair to pull him closer before are now pulling it away in one swift motion, lips left bare and connected only by the air you struggle to catch.
"No, we can't. I'm serious.โ Your change in demeanour to his usual flirtatious ways confused him. It wasnโt shocking, not the first time this โroutineโ of yours came before giving in to him anyway but this time, it felt different. Like youโve made your mind up and are choosing to take a stand on the choice he so much despises to believe. Sunghoon furrows his brows deeper now lines were forming on his forehead, hand reaching out to hold yours that seemed much farther than it used to be as you push him off of you.
โPlease, Iโve told you again and again that everything is going to be fine, Y/n and-โ
โWhat if itโs not going to be fine, huh? What if everything goes to shit and Jungwon, you, me- everything just falls apart? I-I donโt want anything to change.โ You whisper-shout and pull your hand away from his grip once again, folding your arms and tucking your fingers away out of his reach if he ever tries to hold you again. It would make everything much, much harder to handle. Turning away from him, you sigh to yourself and walk towards the couch trying to clear your head of all the jumbled thoughts making you not see straight.
It was the right thing to do and you assured yourself a million times in your heart, knowing you werenโt one to take risks of even the smallest things that could change the trajectory of your family relations. Or get caught up in the downfall of their friendship? Hard pass. Yes, you knew it was wrong from the moment your eyes laid on Sunghoon that night and for two months consecutive; the notion to put a stop to it only came now. Who could blame you, really?
Sunghoon follows behind you and stops a few steps away, one hand ruffling his hair messily in frustration. If only he had the right words to say to convince that persistent head of yours to stay. โI get it, I do. Listen to me, I-โ
โI think you should leave. Itโs late, thanks for bringing Jungwon home.โ You cut him off immediately before he could continue whatever heโs come up with to sway your decision, deciding to look up and face him dead in the eye. His arms fall limp to the side with eyes staring right back at you, pupils moving around endlessly trying to find just anything, any reasoning he could use in your eyes; yet all he witnessed were the trembling of your lips. With a heavy sigh, he says what he always does before leaving. โIโll text you.โ
Sunghoon picks his feet up and starts walking towards the front door and opens it, walking out with one last look at your face though youโre not focused on him anymore. He gazes at you crouched down beside your brother one last time before shutting the door taking all of himself that he gave to you with him. Hearing the soft thud of the lock was when the tears youโve bit your tongue holding it in started falling down your cheeks.
And he does text you that night and all the nights following, but you always leave them unopened.
The gust of wind blows in signal of fall passing through, messing up the bangs on the side of your face to much dismay. It was reaching 4 pm now as you sat on one of the picnic benches outside the library alone, hoping to catch up with some of your notes from class while waiting for Jungwon to finish up with football practice. Not for another hour though.
So you sit there, studying; well trying to at least, constantly being distracted with thoughts floating around in your mind. Some were about school, some were about trivial matters you wonโt even remember by the end of the night. And some were about Park Sunghoon, the boy you swore to yourself not to contact anymore. It was impossible though, unlocking your phone now to read another one of his text messages in your notification bar from last night that you left unopened for reasons you deemed would help in your โjourneyโ. Wasnโt this what no contact was all about?
โCan we talk, please?โ
You sigh at the words slowly ingraining in your brain the longer you stare at it, not realizing the figure planting himself to the seat opposite you. โWhatcha doing?โ you blink in surprise at the sudden intrusion, eyes wide slightly as you look up from your phone to Jakeโs face smiling at you with his hands clasped together resting on the table separating you. He wasnโt a stranger but you didnโt know him well enough to say he was a close friend; more of an acquaintance? Classmate. Sure.ย Jake Sim was in your sociology class, always kept himself engaged in lectures and was pretty well known around your major mates. Youโve been in group projects with him several times but the exchange between you two never exceeded the academic level of interest before.
โWaiting for my brother.โ You say with a smile, locking and tucking your phone back into the pocket of your jacket. โJungwon, right?โ Jake tilts his head to the side when he questions, the smile never leaving his lips but he looks so innocent it almost made you want to pinch his cheeks. โYou know my brother?โ โEveryone knows your brother, Y/n.โ a small chuckle leaves his lips now, and you canโt help but do the same. He was right. Everyone did know your brother, the captain of the football team. How could you forget for the slightest how popular your brother actually is? How popular him and his friends were?
It grows quiet for a few seconds, not sure if you were meant to wait for Jake or you to say something else or anything at all to continue the conversation, which didnโt seem like one that bore any importance as of now. Jake still had his hands held together on the table, smile evidently growing wider as he kept his eyes on you like he was studying you. Your eyes carelessly did the same; seeing him up close under the warm sunrays shining through the cracks of leaves that tower over you both. Undeniably he was good-looking looking with a tinge of innocence playing in his expression. He seemed benign, genuinely pleasant and confident that you donโt care to wonder why he was well-liked among your peers.
You open your mouth slightly but before any words built up in your mind could come out, Jake softly taps the table and stands. โWell, Iโd like to keep you company longer but I need to get home now.โ It wasnโt expected of him to stay with you after that little exchange anyway but somehow a speck of disappointment fills you.
โWould you like to get coffee sometime?โ Jake rubs the back of his nape sheepishly with a wide grin, not able to keep his eyes on you so confidently this time around. And to think he was incapable of being shy around you. โY-yeah, sure. Okay.โ You werenโt any better than him though, the tip of your ears heating up at the sudden invitation. โGreat. Iโll text you!โ with that he walks away, turning around after a few steps to wave you goodbye accompanied by a smile. For some reason, your ears grow hotter as you wave back at him, not entirely opposed to this newfound excitement starting to bubble in the pits of your stomach. You watch him a little longer as his silhouette grows small and disappears into the distance, smiling to nobody but yourself now.
You glance off towards the other side where you can hear the football players yelling in the distance from the field, holding your breath momentarily when you meet Sunghoonโs eyes. Standing at the side of the field, staring at you as he wipes off the sweat dripping down the tips of his hair. Being quite far away, you couldnโt make out clearly the way his face expressed dissatisfaction but with those thick brows of his, anyone could see the way they quirked up from a mile away. Heโs been trying to contact you for the last week and this was what he had to see after you not responding last night? Who was that guy anyway? Sunghoon tongues the inside of his cheek in annoyance, scoffing when he catches you looking away and pretending like he didnโt exist.
No matter how much he tried to text, call, or anything- he kept himself behaved and respectful every time he was in near proximity of you much thanks to Jungwon. The boy was desperate but he wasnโt about to let another drama unfold in the midst of him trying to get a grip of present matters. He doesnโt know how long more he could stand watching you from afar, not being able to hold you close like before- he didnโt know how to handle being rejected. It was close to torture-no, it was absolute torture having to watch you greet him when he came over to hang out with Jungwon, only to scurry off in your little shorts back to your room and lock yourself in there till he was out of sight.
It was a mental battle for him, knowing at some point you were right about not wanting to hurt Jungwon in the long run of continuing whatever you had between the two of you. He knew that, he understood that. But what about him? What about the true feelings that he realized was a little too late to admit he had for you all this time of just โmessing aroundโ? He sighs to himself and tries to brush off his thoughts, tossing the towel to the ground before running back to his teammates huddled up in a circle. Letting go of you just seemed impossible in his books.
The next day, you were surprised to find Jake standing out the hallway of your lecture hall with a cup of coffee in each hand. His eyes travelled around the sea of students exiting the hall after your morning class, grinning ear to ear when he spotted you walking over. โGood morning, this is for you but itโs hot, so be careful.โ You stop to stand right in front of him, biting down your lips to stop from smiling too widely in hopes he doesnโt get how embarrassingly happy you were of this surprise. How does he know you even had class this morning right here? Maybe because he had classes next door, idiot. How does he know what coffee youโd even like? Why was he being so friendly with you? You take the cup from his hand and notice the way his cheeks turn a little hue of pink when your finger brushes against his. โThank you, Jake. Thatโs so sweet of you.โ
โYouโre welcome, and before you think Iโm a creep for knowing your schedule- I just happen to have classes next door at the same time as you do here every week. So Iโve seen you walk by a few times.โ What, he's a mind reader now? Taking a small sip of the drink, you hum in approval as the taste of hot coffee washes over you and smile up at Jakeโs intrigued face. โThis is really yummy! Thanks again, Jake.โ โIโm glad you like it.โ He nods with satisfaction painted over his face, glancing around the hallway momentarily to concede the decreasing amount of students present now.
โSo, are you free right now? Want to go to the library and study?โ Jake asks with a tilted head, taking a longer sip of his coffee as if trying to hide half of his face. You take a look at the watch on your wrist and damn, you were hoping to fill your empty stomach up before your next class. โUm, actually- could we get something to eat? I havenโt had breakfast so..โ trailing off your words, you glance down to your feet before meeting his eyes apologetically. Maybe he really wanted to study and here you were, asking to go eat instead. What if he really just wanted a study buddy for the semester and he thought you were trying to hang out with him? It is almost noon so thatโs perfect for lunch so why would he even ask to study right now but what if- damn you and your overthinking.
Instead, Jake looks at you with slightly widened eyes and you were hoping that didnโt mean anything bad. โYes, of course! Iโm sorry, I shouldโve asked to go to lunch instead. We can go to the library after if youโre still up for it.โ Not sure why you found his reaction endearing, you lightly chuckle and nod along to his words as he leads the both of you out of the building and to the cafeteria of the campus. It wasnโt a long walk from where you were so not much awkwardness was present in your conversation, but that was thanks to how easygoing Jake was as a person.
Heโd ask every little thing in that head of his about you and he never seemed to run out of questions or hold back from them, despite evidently feeling shy prior. You notice the way he had this captivated look on his face whenever you answered and sometimes they were pretty long answers but he didnโt seem to mind one bit that you were spouting all sorts of trivial matters at this point. You liked that about him and donโt question anymore his intentions of getting all friendly with you, easing up to him quicker than youโd expect. From then on, youโve shared most of your meals on campus together, studying together when you could find the time and there were times heโd just ask you to hang out with him, doing nothing but talk. It felt refreshing, a (not so) new face taking your time up you almost, almost (not at all) forget the face that hangs around in the background of your life.
Sunghoon was definitely aware of your newfound friend; watching, glaring, judging every little interaction you had with Jake every time heโd see you. Always, always with Jake. Smiling, talking, laughing. Was he that funny that had you giggling your way all through lunch? Anyone with eyes could see that Jake was being flirtatious with you, or maybe thatโs just what the younger boy wanted to believe to justify his feelings of envy. Have you forgotten about him and all those moments youโd laugh at his jokes? Sunghoon catches himself smiling whenever he remembers them and sighs in defeat when he realizes it would never be a sight heโd see again.
Unless he decides to finally take matters into his own hands. He was not going to let you go just like that, despite your bullshit reasoning about caring for Jungwonโs feelings or whatever youโve been saying. It just felt unfair knowing how you really felt about the โrelationshipโ but choosing to end it anyway. It felt selfish and Sunghoon wanted to at least, make you listen and be selfish of his feelings for once- pushing back the regret slowly creeping in before itโs too late to have done something.
Two weeks pass by and spending time with Jake has added productivity into your routine; being that it used to be only studying and occasional social life activities with your friends; and hooking up with your brotherโs best friend. It was good to distract yourself with Jake, though you hated how you thought of him that way. It wasnโt your fault Sunghoon was still intruding on your life when he saw an opportunity, making it impossible for you to dismiss him or even get over him completely these past weeks.
He was with Jungwon more often than not these days, always coming over to your house for hours on end it felt intentional to mess with you at this point. He wasnโt even keeping to himself like he used to around you in public, making small talk last longer and teasing you as if youโre the one heโs best friends with and there was no reason you could justify giving him the cold shoulder in front of your brother. Jungwon never found it odd or out of character though, deeming it as if your relationship had always been this way.
You hate the way he still looks at you the same way he used to; with so much fondness and attachment no matter how menacing his words try to sound when he satirises you. You hate the way his scent fills up the air around your house now, taking you back to all those times he spent being so close to you. You certainly hate the way he lingers his touches on your skin, letting his hand brush softly on yours when he passes you things or placing his hand on the arch of your back when he wants to walk by you. It seems like anything you tried to do to put it all in the past crumbles down and pulls you back in like everything was still in the present.
Mostly you hated yourself, for letting your thoughts wander on and on about him on sleepless nights, for even letting him still make your heart skip a beat with that smile of his. It seemingly gets more difficult when you can hear his voice in Jungwonโs room, both of them yelling or arguing about whatever game they were playing that Friday evening before heading out to some party happening the same night.
Jake was coming over to work on a paired project you had for Sociology and it being the first time stepping foot into the home you share with Jungwon, you hoped itโd be some sort of an ideal comfortable place to get school work done. Definitely underestimated your brotherโs loud voice and your household. You make your way to his door and rap a couple of hard knocks on it to send a hint that maybe, you werenโt in the greatest of moods right now. Jungwon opens the door with a quirked-up brow and you try your best to not glance away from his face to the one behind him. โWhat? Iโm busy.โย
โJake is coming over to study so keep it down a little okay? I really-โ
โJake? Jake Sim?โ Sunghoon chimes in and cuts your words off, standing up from Jungwonโs bed and walking over to stand next to him with arms crossed over his chest. This time, you had no choice but to look at him and you pray to God he doesnโt see the way your feet fidget.
โYeah, theyโre like going out now or something,โ Jungwon responds instead of you, shrugging his shoulders with not a care in the world as he walks off to pick his phone up from the bedside table. Sunghoon stays put though, arms still crossed and now leaning his side against the door frame as he intensifies his look on you. It felt like you were being interrogated for a crime you had yet to commit with the way he was looking. โWeโre not! Just-just keep it down okay?โ you raise your voice a little higher to talk over Sunghoonโs towering figure, only earning an agreeing whine from your brother.
You roll your eyes in annoyance, taking a step back from the door to turn and walk off before Sunghoon grips your wrist momentarily and pulls you back to face him.ย ย โAre you coming to the party later?โ The boy questions and this time Jungwon looks up from whatever got his attention on that phone of his awaiting your answer. โNo, Iโm not.โ
โWell, you should. Invite Jake, though Iโm sure heโs already going so heโll probably ask you.โ Sunghoon says in such a nonchalant manner, giving you a smile that seems so fake like he meant to let you know it was. Alarm bells ring in your little head every time he mentions Jakeโs name but you try to ignore them, not wanting to delve deeper into why it bothers you. To stop overthinking was to stop thinking in the first place.ย
โWhatever. Maybe.โ You decide to brush it off and walk away as quickly as possible back to your room, holding yourself from sparing a glance back at his watchful eyes as you close your door shut. โHave fun!โ Spending another second a breath away from each other would shatter the wall youโve built up completely.
โOkay, letโs take a 5-minute break and we can wrap this up for tonight,โ Jake says as he leans to rest his back on your bedside, both of you sitting cross-legged on the floor of your room with laptops and research papers cluttered around. The clock reads 10 pm now, not having realised time flew by so quickly and you felt it though thatโs unusual given doing school work was boring and draggy. Guess having Jake around your company made time work differently. You smile and nod in agreement at his suggestion of taking a well-deserved break. It was taxing trying to read the words written in those papers with him being in your room; well at least for the first 20 minutes until the only thing that could annoy you more than feeling anxious was the boisterous peals of laughter echoing next door.
โSorry about my brother and his friend.โ you huff out having to apologise on behalf of such things you couldnโt control but to your surprise, Jake didnโt seem to mind it at all. โNah, itโs all good.โ He shakes his head and lets out a soft chuckle under his breath which somehow increases assurance that you had nothing to worry about. โAnyways uh- thereโs a party at my friend Jayโs later. You should come with me.โ There it was, the invitation you previously had rejected in your head but now- with the way his puppy-eyed smile slowly convinced you? Itโd be cruel to say no. โSure, but I need a little time to change.โย
The physical space between the two of you seemingly grew closer without you noticing, only the bumping of his knees into yours takes you to recognise this. The shade of his eyes differs from a few seconds ago with the light on your ceiling reflecting on them it settled like tiny little stars. They gaze at your dark brown ones longingly and you donโt know why your hands are getting clammy.
โNo matter what you wear, youโd still be the prettiest girl there.โ Before you could respond with words instead of just widened eyes and tinted cheeks, Jake gradually leaned in closer to you with a hand reaching out to cup your cheeks. The moment felt still, the air held back down your throat from exhaling and all the thoughts in your head paused. You glance down at his lips and every single second your heartbeat increases he is getting closer and closer to touching yours. Sure, you were aware of the growing uncertainty between the two of you after hanging out endlessly but you never did decide on what to call it. Friendly banter? Flirting for the sake of humour? Jake seemed to have his mind made up with this forward move and all you could think about at that very last second was how Sunghoon used to call you pretty.ย
โMy pretty girl.โย
And then a loud laugh echoing through the house kills the moment. Speak of the devil. It was like he knew what was happening behind these walls that separated the two rooms and he had to remind you that he was still living in the back of your mind. Jake immediately pulls his hand away from your face and clears his throat, the switch from confident to fluster taking over him. The moment fleets away and snaps like a flash, the trance-filled air evaporates from your systems which quickly takes you back to reality.
โSorry.โ Jake ruffles his hair in an attempt to hide his eyes but you notice the smile he bites back from showing. You do the same in averting your gaze with how hot your face was getting, shaking your head in dismissal at his apology. โItโs okay.โ
โI think we can continue the project on Monday. Iโll wait for you downstairs and we can go?โ The flustered boy says while packing his things and stands up after, expression clean like nothing ever happened. โO-okay. I wonโt take long.โ You get up on your feet and nod, watching him close your door as he leaves and now all alone you stand there, gathering everything in your head to figure out what just happened. And- why was your blood feeling warm again like relief had washed over you? Whatever. You shake those thoughts away and stumble to your wardrobe, picking out the first top and short skirt in sight and changing quickly while adding a few touch-ups to prim your appearance.ย
Walking down the stairs slowly you hear chatter in the living room and when you do land on the final step, the sight of Jake casually conversing with Sunghoon and your brother on the couch welcomes you. They didnโt seem aware of your presence at first, engrossed in their little discussion and you slowly make your way to them.
โWell, donโt you look pretty?โ Sunghoon was the first to blurt that out when you came into view, earning questioning (a little weirded out and a โdude!โ mostly from Jungwonโs) glances from the other two. Heโs never openly complimented you, especially in front of your brother and what in the world does he think heโs doing that now? You blink in astonishment at the sudden forwardness he was showcasing, even more surprised the younger did not seem to think it was a misstep on his part at all. Jake decides to let it slide and smiles at you as he stands up. โYou do look pretty.โ
He might not have heard it but the scoff Sunghoon lets out under his breath rings right through your ears. โAre we done? Can we go now?โ Jungwon stands up as well now, groaning along his steps towards the front door with Sunghoon following suit from behind. โYeap, see you guys there.โ He says without even a glance back, implying they are heading out in Sunghoonโs car and you were left to go in Jakeโs. It had you hesitant to be alone with him once again, unsure whether the conversation would pick up where it got interrupted.
Much to ease your worries though, Jake appears to have moved past the recent events, effortlessly slipping back into his usual self as he drives you to Jay's place. Talking and laughing with you like he always would, devoid of any awkwardness you mentally prepared to face.ย
Arriving at the party, you were welcomed by a music-blasted house full of drunken students, the smell of booze thinning through the air and a ton of new faces you had to meet. Jake introduces you to his friends the moment they spot him arriving, learning that despite being third years just like you- they were all good friends with Jungwon and Sunghoon who were in their second and always attended Jayโs parties. Itโs no surprise Jungwon never mentioned to them he had an older sister all this while and that it was you, given how dumbfounded their faces expressed when you were introduced.
โCโmon, let me get you a drink.โ Jake holds his hand out to take yours, leading the both of you through the swarm of bodies to the kitchen counter where a variety of bottled alcohol were lined up for your choosing. He releases your hand to grab one, pouring its contents into a red cup mixed with what he explained was apple juice before passing it for you to try with anticipation in his eyes. โGood?โ โGreat.โ You nod and smile in approval as the taste of liquor mixes in your throat but it doesnโt burn like it should thanks to the added condiment. Jake laughs softly in relief and makes one for himself, bumping his cup with yours for a little โcheers!โ before taking a sip and exhaling in delight at the taste.
You were not one in favour of much drinking even when you do attend parties with your friends but to relax with Sunghoon still roaming around nearby and at any given moment could catch you off guard, you decided why the heck not.ย
After a few more leisurely sips, Jake gently gestures with his chin towards a cosy, unoccupied couch nestled in a quieter corner of the living room. With a warm smile, he reaches for your hand once more, guiding you towards this inviting spot where you both settle in next to each other, finding comfort in the serene ambience of the less crowded area. โIโm really glad you decided to come with, you know,โ he states when he catches you turning to smile at him, confidence from the early spur of the moment in your room seeming to have returned. โOh, and why is that?โ
โCause I like hanging out with you. Plus, you tell the funniest jokes known to mankind.โ You roll your eyes playfully at his bantering remark, nudging his side softly. โNot as funny as the ones you tell, Mr Sim.โ Jakeโs laughter infects you, drawing you into a lively exchange where conversation flows like it usually does with him.
You seemed to be really enjoying yourself and when Sunghoon sees you from across the room where heโs leaned up against the wall with his own condiment in hand; getting up to presumably head to the bathroom, he wipes the frown he wore while observing your interaction with Jake and quietly follows you.
Admittedly, he was very jealous of Jake. Of anyone and everyone who got to receive your warm reactions he used to be the reason of. With other eyes around the room glancing and looking at you in ways only he allowed himself to do so felt like fire charring through his skin and veins. The alcohol he kept chugging every time your voice grew clear to his ears that he could make out the words in detail, was certainly not helping his mind be kept sane at this point.ย
Turning the tap off and giving yourself a once over in the mirror of the bathroom you found empty in the back, a sigh falls from your lips. Looking straight into your reflection you no longer see yourself with expressions earlier directed to Jake. No, not when you were alone once again under the coarse fluorescent lighting with a swarm of thoughts coming back to haunt your mind. You donโt know why the fact Sunghoon was here at the same party as Jake bothered you so much, after the whole compliment he decided to throw out in the open you felt defeated.
For one, Jake was a decent guy and you werenโt so naive to throw out the option of venturing into your relationship with him more than just friends. Plus, he wasnโt your brotherโs best friend- Jungwon already thinks youโve got more going on. All positives, no cons to be detected. But one, he was not Sunghoon. You groan in frustration and curse yourself, why the fuck does this guy have such a hold on you that you couldnโt even do this one thing right? Itโs over and done with, youโve got to stick with your decision no matter how long it takes for you to convince yourself that.
A loud knock from the door startles you from overthinking (your personality at this point) and you roll your eyes in annoyance. Drunk people and their impatience with bathrooms, especially when occupied never cease to tick you off. โYes, yes Iโm done,โ you grumble while straightening your skirt, stepping towards the door to unlock it and before you can even open it fully; Sunghoon forces himself in and bumps you to stumble backwards as he shuts the door and locks it.
The hair on your skin stands and shock waves wash over you, not fully comprehending what exactly is going on. He takes notice of your bewildered expression and smirks, back leaning against the door with eyes gazing at you with nothing but grey in them. Itโs quiet for a few beats, save the faded-out music playing in the background from the party happening outside this small room you were seemingly trapped in.ย ย
โWhat are you doing?โย
"What are you doing?" he questions back, a hint of attitude present in the tone. Bafflement spreads across your face, and he pushes himself off the door, walking forward slowly and stopping just right in front of you. Sunghoon had both hands tucked in the pocket of his jeans as he towered over you, prompting you to tilt your head up to meet his eye. With a gentle motion, he removes one hand from his pocket, brushing aside the bangs that have fallen on the side of your face. His finger then traces a slow, deliberate path up and down your arm, sending a shiver up your spine.
โThrew me away for that guy, huh?โ a playful pout formed on his lips now, moving down his hand from your arm to wrap around your waist with a tight grasp pulling you to bump his chest. Red colours your features from the contact and there was no way to hide it at this point, being so dangerously close to him everything in you weakened by the minute. For a flicker, you donโt even recall Jake, or his name or him being the context of the conversation. Your mind grows more cluttered it is like everything was upside down, with Sunghoonโs mere touch of skin sending your brain into a wired mess.ย
โThro- I didnโt throw you away, Sunghoon. I told you why-โ
โYou probably have no idea, but Iโm quite a jealous man.โ
Before you can respond, Sunghoon leans in, capturing your lips with a fervent kiss. You taste the yearning in his kiss and, almost instinctively, you return it with equal intensity. Any remnants of your defences crumble, and you know there's no point in trying to rebuild them, especially now as you fully succumb to him. Moments like this remind you why you typically donโt drink alcohol. Though there wouldnโt really be a different outcome even if you were fully sober; knowing and finally admitting to yourself that you do want this. You want all of him.
The kiss deepens, becoming more passionate as he pushes you up against the edge of the sink. One of his hands remains tightly gripped around your waist, anchoring you to him, while the other slowly travels down to the hem of your skirt. With a deliberate motion, he lifts it slightly, allowing his hand to slip underneath, where he firmly grasps your thigh, pulling you even closer to him. A moan escapes through your connected lips as you feel his hand firmly gripping every inch of your thigh and tracing along the curve of your ass, his touch sending electric sensations through your body.
Your hands roam eagerly over his broad chest, fingers threading through his locks and pulling him closer like your life depended on him. Sunghoon seizes the momentary parting of your lips, his tongue sweeping in to explore the wet warmth of your mouth. He skillfully intertwines his tongue with yours, drawing you deeper into the kiss, his movements becoming more eager and vigorous.
Breaking the kiss briefly, a thin strand of saliva glistens between your lips, hinting at the raw desire that lingers. "You think I don't see the way he looks at you?" he whispers huskily, his eyes now a darker shade. "Flirting with you, touching youโGod, it's so fucking annoying.โ Your mind too clouded to respond, you tug on his shirt, urging him back into the kiss, but he hesitates, teasingly resisting your pull. The fingers resting on your dampened cloth underneath start to circulate and that just sends you into a drive of lusting need for him, now.ย
"And you choose to wear this skimpy ass skirt around himโaround me, all wet like this,โ Sunghoon murmurs, frustration evident in his voice. "I swear, you'll be the death of me." With a sigh, he reconnects your lips with his, each moment growing hotter than the last. You moan in between kisses, your own hands now gripping onto his shirt to tug and pull him even closer, bodies pressing against each other. With that eagerness coming from you, Sunghoon holds your underwear to the side with his thumb, pushing two fingers into your folds without breaking the kiss. Your gasp disappears into his mouth as the intrusion takes you off guard.
โF-fuck.โ Unable to hold it in, you let out a moan and pulled away from his lips with your eyes closed shut surrendering to the pleasure overtaking your senses. He doesnโt stop kissing you though, moving down to the side of your neck and you tilt your head giving him an easier excess in smothering your bare skin with kisses and marks you really hoped would be easy to cover up tomorrow.
โYouโre mine. My pretty girl.โ the way he exhales those words tickles your skin and makes the hair on your body stand up as if electrified, the fingers pumping in and out of you intruding harder than before. Your senses grow hazier by the second and a sting shoots through your veins at the feel of Sunghoonโs teeth sinking on your flesh and he sucks on it, lips not leaving your neck only to grow rougher when you give his locks a harsh pull.ย
โM-mhm.โ you bite your lips hard from stuttering out any coherent words, gasping for a little bit of air to come soothe your quickened heart when Sunghoon pulls himself away from you. He grips both sides of your panties from underneath your skirt and pulls them down as he gets on his knees directly in front of you.
The rush of cold air breezes through and tickles your exposed core making you squeeze your thighs together which earns a playful smirk from the younger's lips. He then leans his face close and has his hands gripped onto your thighs for support before he dives under your skirt to give your wetness a clean lick. The warm feel of his wet tongue on your folds jolts you in a gasped surprise, making you pull onto his hair harder as you wobbly stood against the sink praying your knees didnโt decide to give up so easily. He didn't seem to mind the aggressiveness, more so enjoying it now as he gets on the same level with the flick of his tongue and saliva all combed up around your core.
โM-mhm, right there.โ you bunch your skirt up now to get a good view of him under you like this, his eyelids closed as he hungrily swirls his tongue around and inside you with quenched thirst trying to taste every inch of your dripping wetness. Itโs a sight you wish you could take a picture of and stare at forever.
Sunghoon opens his lids a little to gaze up at your face, both hands on your thighs now going up to grip the cheeks of your ass harshly as he accelerated his pace. Guiding you to ride his face with his hands, your vision starts to blur at the heightening sensation brewing in your stomach with every jab of his tongue. The sloshing sound of wet licking and the groans vibrating through your folds with such a face clamped up between your legs, you were reaching to release quicker than intended; wanting to devour the moment of pleasure a little bit longer but it wasnโt really a choice you couldโve made.
โYeah, yeah, yeah- Iโm cumming-โ the words grow a pitch higher with your moans as you grip onto his hair fully, coming undone right into his mouth for his senses to devour all of you, and he doesnโt stop licking even when your insides were throbbing. After a few breaths, Sunghoon licks your bare flesh clean and finally pulls away from your core, standing back up to his feet to leave a bruising kiss on your lips. He doesnโt leave out the swift swiping of his tongue on your lips for you to have a taste of yourself.
โTastes so fucking good, my pretty girl.โ The room felt like it was spinning, nothing was making any sense but it felt too good to be probing for any. Getting a morsel of what youโve been missing for the last month has made you long for more- an addiction that fed you a little too well.ย
โIโm not done with you yet,โ Sunghoon says in the silent seconds of the moment and grabs to hold the sides of your waist again. He then turns you around to face the bathroom mirror, pushing himself up on you until your skirt rides up even more to feel the hardened bulge in his pants making you grip onto the sink tightly to balance yourself. The look on both of your faces stares back at you from the reflection, plumped-up lips and reddened skin paint the view of the state you are in.
What a turn of events- you really had faith in yourself to not end up in this exact situation again and maybe if you just avoided gaping at what was in front of you, you might feel a little better about yourself; not that any ounce of regret would stand in the way of any of this.
The boy snakes up one hand over your shoulder to hold a grip on your jaw, making you look straight into the mirror while using the other to unzip his pants down. He knew what was going on in your head and wanted to make sure you saw this; saw the truth of what you both really feel. โSay it, admit it, whose are you?โ he growls and gives your earlobe a little suck until it turned red, pushing you down to bend over the sink with your bare ass fully pressed against him. That makes you lose your balance a little, hands once gripping the sink swiftly falls off to the side and he instead takes hold of your waist again seeing how you struggled to stand in place in such a position. โY-yours, Iโm yours.โย
A smirk recreates on his lips while he pulls his boxers off and you see this through the mirror, eyes trying so hard to focus on him but immediately failing when his sprung-out cock presses against you. โMโ gonna fuck you so good, you donโt ever forget that.โ Sunghoon inclines forward to plant a soft kiss on the back of your head before thrusting himself into your still throbbing wetness with a loud grunt. โFuuuuck, I missed you.โ As he starts to catch his pace, the lump forming on the back of your throat threatens to let the tears in the brim of your eyes fall. You missed him too.
The fill of his length pulls you into overdrive with how much ecstasy is streaming through your veins with each pump he pushes in you. The sound of skin slapping on skin gets faster and louder, only covered by the moans and groans falling out both of your lips. Sunghoon had his eyes closed momentarily as he pulled his head back, swimming in the sensation of your walls clenching on him, enveloping him with such a warm welcome it felt like home.
โA-ah, feel so full.โ โYeah, baby? You like feeling me all in you?โ You nod along your moans that you donโt even try holding back anymore, despite being in the bathroom of someone elseโs house which, who cares at this point? The people outside were probably all gone in their respective vices and nobody was bothering you, yet. Opening your eyes only to meet Sunghoonโs shaded ones reflected in the mirror, and seeing him fucking you in such a view with his hair all dishevelled and tongue constantly licking his lips; how could you not fall to your knees for this man?
โFuck, fuck, keep squeezing me like that and Iโm gone baby.โ he breathily pants with furrowed brows, hand reaching out to bunch up your hair and giving it a pull to make your back arch while he uses another hand to trail up your chest, groping onto your boobs over your shirt so harshly you were sure his hands were printed on your skin. โYouโre so fucking perfect.โ
โF-feels s-so good, Sunghoon, mhm fuck.โ You werenโt sure if saying that made him angry or more turned on but with the way his hand from your chest made it way up to encircle your neck and his pace growing quicker than before you could barely keep your legs upright; you figured it was the latter. โYeah, baby say my name again. Say my name and Iโm gonna cum all in you.โ
โMmnn! Iโm a-almost there Sunghoon please-โ The tears plunge from your eyes and the saltiness glistens your lips, gulping down the lump in your throat forming when he continuously slams his tip on your walls. โMโ gonna fill you up so good, fuck, fuck, fuck! Iโm cummingโ He says this through his breath barely reaching your ears, too busy indulging in your own pleasure as you ride out your high clenching yourself around his warm spill filling you to the brim.
The vigour of pleasure you felt made you see nothing but white, the air rising so hot and clammy it made you feel like combusting. Sunghoon gives it a few more pumps to make sure his load doesnโt spill out in a mess and groans at the aftermath of it all, leaning forward again to kiss your head before pulling out of you slowly. Your waist throbbed in pain when you do stand up straight again and turned back around to face him, but you seemed still stuck in a daze to focus on that.
The room fills with nothing but the panting of your breaths hoping to slow down your heaving and the burning still buzzing in your brain. Sunghoon pulls his pants up and fixes himself in the mirror with a satisfied smile etched on his face, and you watch him reach out to take some tissue from next to the sink and bend down in front of you yet again. You look down at him with a quirked-up brow and he looks back up to you still wearing the same expression. โCโmon, let me clean you up.โ he then proceeds to do so, wiping every inch of your core and thighs clean from any excess that could (hopefully not) spill down later on.
It takes you back to those times he used to take care of you after fucking you until you saw stars; this habit of his making your cheeks burn up like it was the first time. Sunghoon throws the used tissue away and gets up on his feet, eyes no longer grey but complete of longing, gazing into yours once again drawing you in. He leans in closer to brush his nose against yours before planting the softest most loving kiss on your lips and you wish it lasted a lifetime. โI missed you, Sunghoon.โ you blurt out first this time after pulling away and it comes to both of your surprise that you didnโt stick to denying and hurting his feelings anymore. What did they say about growth?ย
โY/n, I-โ Sunghoon begins with a desperate plea in his tone, hands clasped on yours but was immediately cut off by the knocking of the door from continuing. Ah right, you were still in Jayโs fucking bathroom. Realisation seemed to hit only seconds later, both trying to shush the other from erupting with laughter. โLetโs go outside first.โ You say with an assuring hold on his hand, reaching for the doorknob to swing it open. โSor-โTaking a step out, you gasp at the sight of widened eyes looking straight back at you and Sunghoon, most probably in horror.
โfucking all the time is wrong when you're not mine, baby"
PAIRING: boyfriend's best friend!sunghoon x reader (f)
SUMMARY: just like eva did in the garden of eden, you fell under the serpent's court and now are under his spell. you knew you shouldn't betray your boyfriend, jake, like that when he was (not) so right for you, but seeing that he spent more time out for work made you seek the love and affection you needed, and who if not sunghoon could give you what you deserved?
WARNINGS: cheating (donโt like, donโt read). unprotected sex (donโt be silly, wrap your willy), they fuck everywhere and i mean it, toxic, creampie, masturbating, pussy eating, fighting, kissing, jealousy, doggy, missionary, rough blowjob, angst if u squint? jake is a toxic bf, sunghoon low-key corrupts reader, reader is designed with a weak personality. lmk if more. NOT PROOFREAD.
a/n: before some loser tries to throw shit at this i have to say that no, cheating is NOT hot and this is purely fictional. this isnโt the only fiction with cheating as a trope and it comes from a project that IS supposed to have heavy and bothering themes, mostly because it comes as inspiration from a song (go listen to it, daniel di angelo โGET YOU BETTERโ) that gives me toxic vibes. anw, LIKE & REBLOG please and lmk your thoughts (again) on this fic <3
โAgain?โ You asked with a deep frown after hearing that your boyfriend had yet to go to another work trip, despite having just returned from one โI know baby, what can I do? They need me.โ He said it as if you were complaining already.
But could he blame you? You had spent two summer weeks alone and bored without Jake and now you had to go through another couple of weeks.
โWhy you? They have other workers.โ You commented, raising a brow.
Jake sighed and walked closer to you โBecause Iโm good, arenโt you proud of me?โ You looked away and murmured โOf course iโm proud of you.โ
Jake noticed your sudden change of mood and turned you to look at him โCome on, I'll be back before you even realise it.โ
You rolled your eyes at his statement, something that Jake did not like โDonโt be selfish, I need to work to have money.โ
โI'm not being selfish,โ You reminded, tone cold. โI just miss my boyfriend whoโd rather be miles away from me.โ You snapped, stepping back and crossing your arms to your chest.
Those words had been left unspoken on your tongue for too long to be able to hold them back anymore.
โWe both know thatโs not true.โ He hissed, rubbing his temples โDo we?โ You scoffed
Jake clicked his tongue, โListen, I'm just asking you to understand.โ
You frowned again at him โI understand Jake, I've always done it!โ Your voice raised out of frustration โSo why canโt you understand me?โ
โYou?โ His frown matched yours, a few wrinkles appearing on his forehead โWhat is there to understand about a needy and clingy girl?โ
As soon as those words left his mouth your eyes saddened. Were you really being that whiney? So many questions formed inside your head while Jake regretted ever speaking.
You were just being honest, thatโs what Jake always wanted from you; honesty, to voice out your feelings, so why was he mad at you?
โTaking many short distance flights is also not good for your bodyโฆโ You murmured, bitter tears running down your cheeks, your gaze locked on the ground
Jakeโs face softened, realising that you werenโt complainingโ you were worried for him โBaby Iโโ
You shook your head โSave it.โ And walked away, disappearing in the bedroom. Jake ran a hand through his hair in frustration, leaving you to cool down.
However you both were two stubborn beings so, instead of resolving it, you laid on opposite sides of the bed with heavy hearts, hoping the night to wash the annoying feelings away.
Heleft early in the morning, without a single message or a note and not even a kiss on your shoulder.
Whenever he had a flight in the night or early morning to catch and you would still be asleep, he used to kiss you softly on the shoulder, but this time he hadnโt.
Had you been too harsh with him the day before? Were you really being selfish?
You glanced at the clock and noticed you had already slept the morning away so you decided to get something done.
You stretched your limbs and exited the bed, doing your usual routine and some chores as well, trying your best not to think about jake. If he wanted to stay mad, so be it.
When you were cleaning the living roomโs floor you heard your doorbell ring, so you went to open the door.
In front of you a tall man with a sheepish grin stood, waving his hand โHi, Y/N.โ He greeted warmly
โHi, Sunghoon.โ You said back, stepping aside to let him enter. you closed the door behind your back and walked him to the living room โWhatโs the occasion?โ You asked, smiling
Sunghoon looked around the house โIs Jake home?โ You shook your head in reply โHeโs on a work trip.โ
Sunghoonโs eyes widened โAgain?โ He asked and you couldnโt help but chuckle, you two had the same reaction to the news of Jake's departure โAgain.โ You nodded
โAw, man.โ He sighed, โI havenโt seen him in forever since he changed job.โ You wanted to reply that you too hadnโt seen him since he decided to pick a job that required to travel around the world, but Sunghoon didnโt need to know that.
Sunghoon tilted his head, looking you up and down โSo, home alone?โ You smiled sadly โunfortunately.โ
He gave you a wide smile, one that showed his two fangs โI took a couple of weeks off work because I had to go on vacation but the hotel shut down,โ He seemed to debate whether to continue, but then added โI can keep you company.โ
You blinked faintly at his offer, you two werenโt really close, you never really hung out apart from Jakeโs friend group so itโd be awkward.
However , loneliness made you desperate so you just smiled in return โwhy not?โ
Little did you know that Sunghoon had another plan in store for you.
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โGood morning, Y/N.โ Sunghoon greeted a few days later, entering your house with his awkward yet comforting demeanour.
โMorning.โ You said back, guiding him to the kitchen and placing down the casket of fruits he had brought you โYou didnโt have to..โ
โDotโt be silly, itโs a pleasure.โ Sunghoon smiled, sitting on a chair โCan i help you with anything?โ
You quickly shook your head โNo, no,โ You took a pear and showed it to him โI'll cut this so we can eat and chat?โ โSounds good.โ
It had become a small occurence that youโd sit together and talk about anything. You two had got to know each other, and you realised you had a completely different prejudice of him.
At first, you thought he was cold and awkward, but he actually was very soft spoken and kind. your heart always felt content when you were with him, but you chose to ignore that detail.
It was probably just because Jake hadnโt replied to your texts since he left the country, your heart was just pulling tricks on you.
You placed a small plate on the table with the pieces of pear and began to talk with him, laughing at a story of his dog scaring Jake's family dog, despite being a lot smaller.
โLayla and Jake are so alike,โ You commented, chuckling โIndeed, I see no difference between them. like an owner like a pet." Sunghoon replied, taking a bite of the pear.
A small drop of the fruitโs juice rolled down his cheek, reaching his jawline. You had never paid attention to his features so closely, but he was so attractive. His jaw was sharp, you thought that if you ran your finger on it, itโd cut.
His skin was pale, porcelain-like and his eyes were so dark in contrast, his eyebrows thick and hair that seemed so fluffy.
Before the drop could fall down, you quickly extended yourself and dried it with your thumb, making both of you stop in your tracks. Sunghoon โs deep eyes widened and you pulled away โIโIโm sorry..โ you stuttered, embarrassed
But Sunghoon didnโt seem to mind โItโs alright, thank you.โ He reassured, resuming to tell his story. You try to shake the awkward feeling but get sidetracked when your phone screen lit up.
You quickly took it, hopeful that it was finally a message from your boyfriend, but your face fell when you realised it was just a notification from YouTube.
You sighed and looked so gloomy, like a whole storm fell over your shoulders, Sunghoon blinked faintly โAre you ok?โ
You didnโt want to annoy him with your problems, you two had just started to be friends, but you just needed someone.
All your friends were busy working or living their adulthood somewhere, while you had been inside that house too much it felt almost sickish.
You sighed โItโs just that Jake and I had a small argument, right before he left.โ Sunghoonโs eyes were so attentive you felt exposed, so kind and gentle.
โIs that so?โ He asked, letting you know that he was listening โYes,โ You breathed out โWe said harsh things and now he wonโt even reply to my texts.โ
Sunghoonโs jaw clenched at your admission, How could Jake ever ghost you? He could be mad all he wanted, but he was on the other side of the earth, for Christโs sake, he could at least reply to your texts just like he did to Sunghoon a few hours before.
Seeing you so sorrowful made his heart ache; he wouldnโt admit it out loud but he had always found you attractive, since the first day he saw you on campus.
Screw his introverted personality, he never tried to speak to you, only admired from afar.
However, when he learnt that his best friend had found a girlfriend and the so-called girlfriend was you, he couldnโt help but blame himself.
Especially since jake was treating you like you werenโt worth anything.
You were worth it, you were everything Sunghoon dreamt ofโ if only you knew how better he could get you. good for him, he had two weeks to prove you so.
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โYou just didnโt strike me as someone who likes doing grocery shopping.โ You commented, putting milk inside the cart Sunghoon was gently pushing for you
Truth to be told, Sunghoon hated grocery shopping. Heโd rather starve himself than get out of bed to buy himself food, which was why his friend Jay and his mother would often bring him food or just something enough to survive.
But it was for you and you needed to eat to be healthy, he could do an exception.
โI donโt have anything better to do, do I?โ He said, chuckling at the sight of you trying to take a bag of chips which was on the top shelf, clearly too high for you.
You felt his figure hovering over you, the warmth of his body surrounding yours, his chest caressing your back as he took the chip for you.
That movement lasted no longer than five seconds but to you, it felt as if time had stopped.
You snapped out of your trance at the sound of the bag of chips being thrown inside the cart and Sunghoon moving forward.
You failed to notice the smirk on his lips, but the man was quick to hide it before his undercover was caught.
โWhatโs left on your list?โ He asked, scanning the cartโs contents to see if he mentally remembered
โUhโโ You quickly took the grocery list that was crumpled inside your pocket and cleared your throat โJustโฆ donuts.โ You said quietly.
You werenโt usually one to overeat, but since your heart was upset, your stomach was the same and you craved junk food.
You waited for Sunghoon to make a comment over it, to call you โgrossโ the same way Jake once did when he saw you putting a bag of chips โ the same type Sunghoon helped you take โ inside the cart. You waited for it, but nothing came.
Instead, Sunghoon pushed the cart a little further in the lane until he reached the snacks section and eyed the shelves โThereโs strawberry, brown chocolate and oreo.โ He turned toward you and looked genuinely interested in your choice.
โWhich one do you want?โ You blinked faintly, unsure on how to handle that situation. He raised a brow, awaiting your answer โStrawberry.โ You murmured.
โStrawberry it is.โ He took the donuts and placed them in the cart โDo you want something?โ You asked, reaching for him with a smile.
โMe?โ You nodded in reply โYes, take something you like, Iโll sugar mama you.โ You joked nudging his shoulder.
Sunghoon stayed silent a few beats, โNo.โ He said sternly, โIโll buy this for you.โ He pointed to the food you wanted to purchase.
Your brows furrowed โWhat?โ Sunghoon smiled, a wicked grin creeping on his lips โIโll sugar daddy you.โ
It seemed like you had hurt his pride trying to say youโd pay for his food, but you still didnโt want him to spend money on you, so you shook your head โThatโs not necessary.โ
โI insist.โ He took another small cartoon of donuts and placed it in the cart, hurrying away before you could talk back. You reached him again โNo, Sunghoon.โ
โYes, Y/N.โ He kept taking useless things from the shelves and you kept putting them back, this went on for almost two whole lanes until you placed yourself in front of the cart.
Sunghoon tilted his head โWhat?โ You narrowed your eyes, clearly upset. Seeing your change of mood made Sunghoon freeze. Did he overdo it?
He let out a small sigh โAlright, Iโll stop adding things.โ You nodded satisfactorily, placing yourself back by his side.
โBut Iโll pay.โ Your head snapped back to him and Sunghoon chuckled โItโs the least I can do, you invite me to your house and I pay for your groceries, itโs even.โ
Arguing with Sunghoon seemed to be a losing battle, so you just nodded your head and smiled back at him โOkay, thank you.โ
โAnything for you.โ They were just three words, but they were the most sincere youโve ever heard.
After paying for your groceries, you two made your way towards the parking lot, you walked in front of a window, a crimson short dress on a mannequin.
You stopped to glance at it for a few seconds, your eyes sparkling. Sunghoon noticed you stopping and took a few steps back โLike it?โ He asked, smiling at you
You were so stunned you just nodded in reply, eyes still glued to the dress. It seemed so perfect, sleeveless and not too short but not too long as well. You could see strings on the back, leaving it a little exposed.
โYou want to try it?โ At his question you snapped out of thoughts, turning to face Sunghoon (who was also a rather nice view).
โNo, no, we should go home.โ Sunghoon frowned at your reply โBut you like it.โ
You sighed softly and chuckled โYes, but that doesnโt mean I should try it.โ He eyed the dress and then you, studying you from head to toe โEven if I want to see you in it?โ
His words took you by surprise and you widened your eyes โW-what?โ He smirked, his fangs showing from the corner of his lips โLetโs enter.โ He took your hand and dragged you inside the shop.
He sat on a small sofa in front of the dressing room, patiently waiting for you to try that dress on.
The way your eyes seemed to light up made him want to buy you anything if it meant to see your pretty face smile and be bright.
He knew you were still shaken from your argument with Jake, and by the fact that the bastard was obviously ghosting you, and heโd do anything to take that sorrow away from you.
โReady?โ He asked after a few minutes of not hearing anything from you.
You carefully opened the curtain and lord if he didnโt get an erection on the spot.
Seeing that tiny dress hugging your perfect curves, the shy blush on your cheeks and still that perfect smile on your lips โItโs so beautiful.โ You commented
โGive me a twirl.โ He asked and you complied, twirling gracefully โYouโre beautiful.โ Your smile lit up the whole room, you nodded in reply โI think itโs pretty nice.โ
Sunghoon stood up and walked toward you, his arms raising and taking your hair away from your back.
The proximity between you two made your breath hitch once again. You could smell his manly cologne and the fabric softener of his hoodie.
โThis should be tied.โ He murmured in your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. His breath hit your skin, so warm. You closed your eyes, waiting for him to finish tying the lace behind your back.
He placed your hair back where they were and placed one strand behind your ear. He pulled away satisfied and smiled โNow, thatโs even better.โ
You looked at yourself in the mirror of the dressing room and Sunghoon brought his hands on your shoulder. He leaned beside your ear and whispered huskily โLet me buy it for you.โ
Your brows shot up and you quickly shook your head โI canโt let you do that.โ Sunghoon gave you a mesmerising smile from the mirror โWhy not?โ
โBecause you already paid for the groceries.โ Sunghoon tsked at your reasoning โAnd?โ
โAnd itโd be too much if you also bought this dress. Besides, I donโt even have a reason to wear it.โ
โWeโll make one.โ You felt a sudden rush of coldness when his breath left your skin and he stepped away โItโs settled, Iโll buy it.โ
You turned around, โButโโ He brought a finger to your lips โSh, I said Iโd sugar daddy you and I always keep my word.โ
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Y/N: Please Jake, can you reply to me?
Y/N: Itโs been five days, at least let me know youโre fine.
You sighed and dropped the phone on the mattress beside you, tired of reading โdeliveredโ beside your messages. Had you crossed the line when you argued? Personally, you thought what Jake said was far worse, but you were ready to forgive him if only he swallowed his pride.
You bit your bottom lip, your body craving to be touched and screaming for release.
Not only had you and Jake not spent time together, but it had also been more than a month since you last had sex.
You tried to ignore your primal urges, however your hips unconsciously moved back and forth, trying to soothe the aching feeling between your legs.
Your breath got heavier as you let your palm wander under your nightgown, touching, trying to turn yourself on.
You bit your bottom lip, your hand reaching down to touch your clit, circling it with your fingers; using your slick to wet it more.
You slid one digit inside of you, fingering yourself for what seems like ten minutes, trying to find that one spot that makes your head spinโ it didnโt feel good.
You decided to try and squeeze your breasts, fingering yourself at a fast speedโฆ nothing seemed to work out.
Frustrated, you pulled your fingers out and curled yourself in a small ball, checking your phone just to see that again, Jake had not texted you.
At that moment, a new message popped on your screen.
Sunghoon: Hey Y/N, movie night tomorrow?
You unconsciously smiled and replied with a positive answer, feeling strangely giddy at the thought of having another plan with him.
Y/N: Sounds good.
It didnโt take much for him to text you back, only a few seconds needed.
Sunghoon: Awesome. Tomorrow @ 9pm?
Y/N: Yup. Iโll make sure to do some pop corns.
Sunghoon: Haha ok
You turned off the lights, placed the phone back on the bedside table and tucked yourself under the covers, ready to fall asleep when it buzzed again.
You took it, the screen light too bright for your poor eyes. You narrowed them, trying to read the new messages
Sunghoon: What are you doing now?
Your cheeks flushed at the thought of what you had been doing before he texted you.
Y/N: About to sleep
Sunghoon: Aw :(
Y/N: Why the sad face?
Sunghoon chuckled at your innocence and kind self. He bit his bottom lip and leaned back on the chair, typing his reply.
Sunghoon: I was playing a game and wanted some company.
Y/N: Iโm not really sleepy
His eyebrows raised, he thought youโd just turn him off.
Maybe his plan was working.
Sunghoon: Can I call you?
You jolted up, sitting on the bed and looking around in panic.
Y/N: Voice call?
Sunghoon: Anything you want, x
The way Sunghoon was treating you wasnโt the way you treated fiends, but you decided not to overthink it much. Sunghoonโs contact name flashed on your screen as he called you.
You cleared your throat and tapped on the green button.
โHey,โ His voice came out as hoarse from the other line โHi.โ You whispered back, hugging your knees to your chest and fidgeting with the sheets
You could hear some keyboard tapping and asked โWhat are you playing?โ Sunghoon chuckled โLeague of Legends.โ
You hummed โIโve never played.โ Sunghoon let out a sound of disbelief โNever? Jake never let you play with him?โ
Jake would always complain when you ever interrupted his gaming nights with friends, โNo.โ You replied simply.
โShoot!โ He exclaimed from the other line, making you jump in surprise and gasp โSorry about thatโ I didnโt mean to startle you.โ He was quick to apologise.
โItโs okay,โ You reassured, not wanting him to feel guilty about that. โSo, how was your day?โ
You two started talking about everything and anything, laughing and just enjoying each other's company.
You hadnโt even realised you had fallen asleep, your light snores and deep breaths probably became Sunghoonโs favourite sounds.
Because he never hung up, not until you woke up the next morning and did it yourself.
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Something didnโt feel quite right that day, you let Sunghoon inside your apartment and the two of you prepared the living room for the movie nightโฆ but he had something different. Perhaps, the other night something changed between you two.
Maybe it was his not-combed hair, all fluffy and wild, or the white tee he was wearing that showed the shadow of his muscles and absโ or maybe the grey sweats he was wearing. You gulped down, it was you, you were the one off.
Not cumming for so much time did tricks to your brain.
You decided to ignore it and you two sat side by side, but still keeping distance โWhat movie do you wanna watch?โ
Sunghoon asked, lazily eating a pop corn while scrolling through Netflix โCause I had one in mind, but we can watch something else if you want.โ
You hummed โWhat did you have in mind?โ Your voice was softer and quieter, making Sunghoon feel goosebumps all over his skin.
Oh, the effect you had on him.
He took one pillow and sneakingly placed it on his laps, hoping it wasnโt obvious that he was trying to cover his growing bulge.
โHow to lose a guy in ten days?โ He asked, faking innocence when you widened your eyes and physically squeaked โI love that movie!โ
โIs that so?โ Sunghoon asked but he already knew the answer. you had said that one day when you were having a group hang out with the others.
He remembered, actually, he remembered every detail of youโ even the ones you may think of stupid.
โThen, letโs watch it.โ He said and clicked play, the movie beginning peacefully.
It all went alright until Sunghoonโs knee got closer and closer, touching yours.
He acted oblivious, focusing on the scene unfolding in front of him but he was painfully aware of you.
Maybe it was also because of your exposed thighs, the shorts hugging your legs so perfectly, making him almost drool. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself.
Seeing that you didnโt reject his touch, Sunghoon grew a little bolder and placed his hand on your thigh, caressing it.
An alarm inside your conscience screamed danger! stop! but something told you that his touch was safe, soothing and so attractive.
Your mind went to Jake, how he would react if he ever saw your best friend touching your thigh, too close to where he shouldnโt be touching.
Nonetheless, Jake was so far away and Sunghoon so close to you, his hand slowly creeping closer to where you ached, where you just needed him.
Your breath hitched and your stiff state made sunghoon smirk sly. his plan was working smoothly.
His hand squeezed the flesh beside your thigh as your gaze was still fixed on the tv; however your attention was all on the coldness of his fingers, the way they felt on your skin.
โSunghoon.โ You wanted to say sternly but only a small whisper left your lips โHmm?โ He hummed, his dark eyes back on you
You gulped down and turned your head to meet his face, you glanced at the hand on your thigh and shook your head โYou should stop.โ
โStop?โ Sunghoon asked, his voice teasing and soft โIt seems to me that you are enjoying my touch.โ
Deny was what your brain told you to do but his hand moved even closer, resting just below the hem on your shorts.
Your hesitation made Sunghoonโs smirk turn more cunning, โWhat is on your mind?โ He asked, his position shifting so his whole body was facing yours, the pillow falling on the floor.
You didnโt move a bit.
โThat itโs weirdโฆโ You murmured โWhat youโre doing.โ
โYeah?โ He cooed โAnd why do you think that?โ He asked and his finger tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, making a small tint of blush appear on your cheeks
You werenโt naรฏve, you knew what Sunghoon was hinting at with his actions and words.
You knew it, yet you didnโt want it to stop.
โBecause Jake wouldnโt like it.โ At your words, Sunghoonโs smirk fell.
You were loyal and that was admirable, but it was only because his best friend made a move on you first, before he built the courage to talk to you.
Though Jake wasnโt treating you like you deserved, like Sunghoon would.
โDonโt think about him,โ He said, his voice harsher than he intended to โThink about me.โ
You watched him with hooded eyes as his hand that was tucking the small strand of hair behind your ear slowly slid down your shoulder.
Your heart was pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat and your breath heavier than before.
โThis is wrong.โ You whispered, unable to voice out the coherent thoughts forming in your brain with his hands touching you ever so gently โwe shouldnโt do this.โ
Sunghoon gave you a smile that was meant to be reassuring even if it was just victorious.
He knew youโd give in to him, sooner or later.
โIt's wrong only if Jake finds out.โ He looked down at your body, the way your nipples hardened and their outline could be seen from the shirt, he licked his bottom lip โBesides, donโt act like you donโt want it to happen as well.โ
Silence filled the room except for the sound of the long forgotten movie, Sunghoon could sense your hesitation and your pretty brain overthinking, so he let out a small sigh โIโll try something, you can tell me to stop if you donโt want to.โ He said but remained still, waiting for your permission
โTry what?โ You asked, your voice so soft and quiet it made his cock harden inside his sweats
โThis.'' His voice sounded more like a growl, Sunghoon cupped the back of your neck while his other hand hooked around your waist, bringing you close; his lips connected to your neck, leaving wet kisses all over.
You instantly closed your eyes and a shaky breath left your lips, Sunghoon took it as a clue to add more pressure and suck small spots, careful not to do anything sudden.
One of your hands raised and placed on his forearm, feeling the muscle of his arm, Sunghoon smirked on your skin and detached himself just enough to talk โDo you want to stop?โ
You sighed softly and grasped his hair with your other hand, bringing his mouth down on your neck โKeep going.โ You said and sunghoon felt as if he was the luckiest man on earth.
His kisses grew hungrier, not leaving even a single spot untouched by his lips. one hand grasped your hair back, bringing it back to have more room while the other groped your breasts from outside the shirt.
You squeezed your thighs together, trying to find relief. โN-no marks.โ you said as he sucked a spot for too long, he pulled away and bit his bottom lip, repressing a chuckle โToo late.โ
Before you could reply, his lips found yours in a heated and desperate kiss, it was so wrong but it felt too right to stop.
You let your hands slip under his shirt and roam freely, feeling his sculpted chest under your palms, earning a deep groan from sunghoon.
His tongue slipped inside your mouth, he was the one in control of the kiss but you didnโt mind. You just craved to be taken care of.
He pulled away from you and began to lift your shirt up, too eager to feel your whole bodyโ to make you his even if you didnโt belong to him.
He threw the shirt on the floor and widened his eyes as he saw your naked upper body.
Sunghoon stared in trance at you, but it made you feel self conscious and your arms wrapped around your chest.
Sunghoon frowned, taking your hands away โNever,โ He murmured, kissing your lips once more โNever cover yourself from me, understand?โ You nodded in response โYes, Hoon.โ
He squeezed your tit and lowered his lips to the other one, sucking on your abused nipple โSuch pretty tits.โ He commented and you unconsciously grind on the sofa, the wetness of your pussy glistening your panties.
He left one breast to pay attention to the other, sucking and flicking his tongue on it, making you whine โMhhh.. Hoon.โ You encouraged him to continue
Sunghoon smirked and looked at you, moving your hips while your eyes were closed and your mouth slightly opened, soft whimpers exiting it.
โLay down, princess.โ He ordered and you complied. His voice was so low and demanding you thought youโd do anything he asked without contemplating anything. Maybe he truly did a spell on you.
His fingers hooked under the hem of your shorts and he looked at your eyes, waiting for your approval. โDonโt ask,โ
You said, trusting him and knowing heโd stop if you ever asked, but Aunghoon pecked your lips โAre you sure you want this?โ He asked, because no matter how hard he wanted you, heโd never force himself on you.
You nodded, your mind hazy and you body in need to be touched โYesโ I need you, Hoon.โ Your soft pleading made blood rush straight to his cock, the visible bulge pocking through his pants.
โFuck, Y/N.โ He groaned and pulled your shorts down, discarding them on the floor โYouโll be the death of me.โ He stared at your body like you were a sculpture to admire at a museum, his hand tracing your curves.
โMy gorgeous baby,โ Sunghoon noticed the wet patch on your panties and smirked widely โSo wet for me? We havenโt even started.โ He cooed as he tucked the hem down, leaving you completely bare in front of him.
With one finger he gathered your juices and took his digit inside his mouth, humming in approval โTastes good, so fucking good.โ
At such a sight you couldnโt help but let out a small whine โHoon..โ You murmured and his attention immediately snapped back at you โYes, baby?โ
You moved your hips closer to him โTouch me please.โ And how could he say no when you asked so politely?
โWant me to touch you?โ His finger went down and played with your clit, making you arch your back โWant me to make you feel good, sโthat what you want baby?โ
He cooed, one finger slipping inside your needy and wet hole, your walls squeezing around it โFuck, youโre so tight.โ
He frowned, working his finger in and out your hole while you moaned under him โDoes jake even touch you, uh?โ He scoffed
He added another finger, keeping your legs opened with his other hand.
The movements of his fingers inside of you made you see stars, he was so skilled it almost made you forget you had a boyfriend that should do such filthy things to your body.
Not that you cared at that moment, and neither did Sunghoon.
Your hips moved back and forth to match his digits, deep inside of you.
He curled them and caressed your g-spot, making you squeeze your eyes and pant heavily โFaster.โ You asked โPlease Sunghoonโ feels sโgood.โ His fingers moved faster and faster, the knot in your stomach about to snap when he abruptly pulled away.
You opened your eyes and whined, looking at him with a huge frown which made Sunghoon smile.
You were so cute like that, face all flushed in desperate need to cum โDonโt worry.โ He reassured, pulling his sweat and boxers away โJust wanted you to cum all over my cock.โ
You smiled but it soon transformed into a huge jaw drop as you saw how big and fat his cock was. it pulsed, angry red and thick, up on his stomach.
Sunghoon chuckled at your reaction, โToo big for you?โ He asked, taking your chin in his hands and bringing your face slightly closer to him โJake isnโt as big as me, is he?โ
โThatโsโฆ never gonna fit.โ You whispered, embarrassed โWeโll see that.โ He pulled your head down on the sofa again and he fisted his shaft, your juices that still coated his fingers acting as lube.
He pressed the tip of his dick by your entrance, teasing it โHurry.โ You whined
Sunghoon smirked โSuch a needy girl,โ He scowled at you and pushed his cock into you in one deep thrust, making you gasp. you felt so stretched, your walls hugging his member, making his eyes roll back โShit, princess,โ He panted โYouโre really so tight,โ he pushed himself deeper, already bottoming out.
You whined in a mixture of pain and pleasure, gripping the sofa beneath you, Sunghoon noticed you and connected your lips with his, trying to distract you โRelax,โ He cooed, one of his hands caressing your forehead with his thumb โItโs all good, youโre doing so well.โ
His sweet words made you instantly relax, you looked at him through your teary eyes and he smiled warmly, pecking your lips once more.
He started moving inside of you, slowly at first and when the pain subdued to pleasure, you moaned โSโdeep,โ You breathed out, gripping his arm.
Sunghoon couldnโt hold back anymore, his hips started moving faster, your skin slapping together as he tsked โBet he canโt fuck you like i do,โ
He circled your clit with his free hand, while his other snuck around your neck, adding small pressure, just enough to make your mind hazy.
He groaned, trying his best not to cum right there as he heard your sweet moans, your tits moving back and forth alongside your body as he pushed his cock so deep he could see the shadow his bulge in your stomach.
โIโm the only one who can fuck you like you deserve,โ He kept saying nonsense while you laid under him, the knot in your stomach about to snap.
You nodded at his statement, not registering his words at all โHoonโ sโclose, iโm close.โ You said, your voice cracked and quiet.
โI know baby,โ He circled your clit faster โCan feel you squeeze meโ fuckโ squeeze my cock.โ He threw his head back to move the bangs sticking to his sweaty forehead, revealing an image of every girlโs erotic dream.
He felt your walls squeezing his cock, signalling that you were about to fall apart and so he hurried his movements โDonโt cum yet,โ He ordered but you shook your head, unable to resist anymore as you came, your orgasm hitting like a crashing wave, making your body squirm underneath him.
Sunghoon slowed his thrusts but never faltered, he helped you ride out of your high until you were able to open your eyes again, your breath so heavy.
He kissed your lips, holding your chin in his fingers while he resumed his speed, trying to reach his own release
You moaned louder, probably even your neighbours could hear you but Sunghoon pushed you to overstimulation, โGonna cum, just a little more baby.โ He panted, gripping both your hips and rutting inside of you until he pulled out and came all over your chest and body, shots of white seed painting you.
You spread it all over yourself, waiting for him to calm down as the realisation of what you had just done hit both of you.
You exchanged no words but Sunghoon carefully scooped your figure from the sofa and carried you bridal style to the bathroom, making you sit as he prepared you a warm bath.
โHoon..โ you murmured, guilt eating you alive. Sunghoon turned around and saw the state you were in.
Ignoring the hard-on he had again at the sight of you all dirty in his cum, he pressed a featherlight kiss on your forehead โDonโt overthink it,โ He said gently โitโll be alright if he doesnโt know, and you can keep a secret, canโt you?โ
Sunghoon asked and you nodded โThatโs a good girl.โ He pecked your lips but you brought him into a deeper kiss and before you knew, his tongue was inside your mouth again.
He reluctantly pulled away, shaking his head, feeling like heโd be taking advantage of you.
Sunghoon closed the tab of the bath and helped you in, despite your legs that were like jelly, you felt refreshed and happier.
He let go of your hand but you didnโt, keeping it secured in yours. He looked at you with a puzzled expression.
โGet inside.โ You beckoned to the bath and he shook his head again โIโll take a shower later.โ
You pouted โLetโs save water.โ Your eyes were so soft and glossy he couldnโt help but comply and he entered the bathtub with you.
Nedless to say, you found yourself on his laps, needy grinding against his hard cock as you two made out with the warm water around you both.
Maybe you could do more than that while Jake was away.
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The next morning you woke up to a strange sensation between your thighs, it felt hot but also good, waves of pleasure rushing through your body.
You slowly opened your eyes and looked down, seeing a ruffled head buried between your legs, two strong hands pinning you down the bed.
โHoon..โ You breathed out, your mind still hazy and eyes too heavy to keep open.
Sunghoon momentarily detached himself from your cunt, your wetness coating his chin โMh, hey princess.โ He smiled as if he wasnโt eating you out for breakfast โJust relax, let me take care of you.โ
You already weak heart melted at his statement and you just nodded, resting your head back on the pillow while Sunghoon flicked his tongue on your tongue, stimulating it with his fingers as well.
You closed your eyes and placed one hand behind sunghoonโs head, grasping his hair, trying to bring him closer, needing him closer.
The phone on your bedside table started ringing, making you take it and frustratedly checking who was ruining your moment.
You wouldโve jerked away if it wasnโt for Sunghoonโs grip at the sight of Jakeโs contact name โItโs Jake.โ You half-whispered, half-screamed, trying to pull Sunghoonโs head away from your pussy.
He reluctantly let go and nodded โAnswer.โ Though his tone said that was the last thing he wanted you to do. With shaky hands, you took the call and placed the phone beside your ear โHello?โ
โY/N, hiโฆ itโs morning there, did I wake you up?โ Jakeโs voice seemed to foreign to your ears it felt strange at first; as you were about to reply, Sunghoonโs lips attached to your pussy once more, making you gasp.
โYou good?โ Jake asked from the other line, worry lacing his tone โAll good!โ You exclaimed, a little too high pitched.
No matter how hard you grasped Sunghoonโs hair, the man was not going to pull away from your pussy and the way he pinned you more down on the bed confirmed your thoughts.
Instead, you bit your bottom lip and tried your best not to give away the pleasure your boyfriendโs best friend was giving you. โListen, I'm so sorry.โ You frowned, confused โWhat are you sorry for?โ
A whimper died down your throat when Jake answered โHow I left things, I shouldnโt have ignored your texts..โ He sighed softly โI was just mad, I needed some time alone, but it isnโt an excuse.โ
No, it wasnโt, but you had forgotten about the fight thanks to Sunghoonโs magic bed skills, so you just shrugged it off.
โI understand.โ You breathed out as Sunghoon inserted a finger into your sticky walls, fingering you while his tongue worked on your clit.
Jake sighed at your answer โI said hurtful things to you, can you forgive me?โ You moved your hips, fucking yourself on sunghoonโs tongue, earning a hum of approval that sent waves through your body.
โYes,โ you replied, though you didnโt know if it was meant for Jakeโs question or to incite Sunghoon in his act โReally?โ
Jakeโs voice sounded surprised, you usually took things personally, so why brush it all off? He wasnโt going to complain, though.
โHow are things going there?โ He asked โAlright,โ You murmured, Sunghoonโs skilled tongue making you see stars.
โThere?โ You managed to ask without letting your voice shake when Sunghoon added a second digit inside of you, curling them like he had already memorised where your sweet spot was.
And he probably did.
โWell.โ Jake chuckled โBut I miss you so much,โ You felt a pang of guilt, because since Sunghoon occupied your daily life, your mind had started to drift toward Jake less.
โMiss you too,โ You whispered, your words making Sunghoonโs fingers move faster. You bit down on your fist to prevent yourself from making unwanted noises.
You heard a second voice from the other line but couldnโt quite understand what it said, and then Jake sighed sadly โI have to go baby, I'll text you when I finish this meeting.โ
You hummed, your back arching โI love you.โ Jake said sweetly and you answered with a quick โMe too.โ Before hanging up, throwing the phone on the mattress.
You pulled sunghoonโs head away and pushed it on the bed, strangely he let you do it, not fighting you.
He laid on the bed while you crawled on top of him, hovering just above his face โYouโre so hot when youโre pissed.โ he teased, knowing that you wouldโve been anxious about being discovered.
That was what added the thrill to Sunghoon, it would be boring otherwise.
โShut up,โ You shushed, lowering yourself on his lips and gripping his hair, pulling his lips on your pussy, the sweet sensation appearing again.
You bucked your hips down, riding his face while you moaned, trying to reach your orgasm.
Sunghoonโs tongue found your entrance, fucking your hole, drinking all your wetness like you were his last meal.
On other occasions you would've been scared of choking him, but with the pre-orgasm bliss, your selfishness appeared and you just worried about cumming.
His nose poked your clit, his tongue fucking in and out and his hums of approval to let you know that he was, at least, still breathing made you reach your high, legs shaking.
He helped you ride out of your orgasm, your breath still hard as you laid down on the bed again, chest raising up and down.
He sat up and kissed your lips, tasting your cum on his tongue โMorning, Y/N.โ He murmured in a hoarse voice.
โMorning, Sunghoon.โ It was the same thing you two had been telling each other for a week, only this time, it meant so much more.
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โLet me see them, come here.โ He demanded as you two got home from your nail salon appointment, which he insisted on paying.
You smiled widely and walked closer to the sofa where he was sitting โ or rather, manspreading โ and happily showed him your pinkish nails.
โI love them.โ You confessed, the small brush of Sunghoonโs thumb on your knuckles making your breath hitch โPretty nails for a pretty girl.โ He smirked when he noticed the effect he had on you.
Sunghoon was no innocent man, despite his shy appearance.
When he said heโd do anything for you, he meant it, even betray his best friend for you.
Maybe you didnโt want to dump him because Jake was, in fact, a good boyfriend if you didnโt count the bad moments you had together.
But Sunghoon was better than him, and he was planning on showing you.
He let go of your hand and patted his lap, beckoning you to sit on it.
Complying, you straddled him and wrapped your arms around his neck โBut you didnโt have to pay for them.โ You murmured, feeling guilty that he spent so much for you, along with the necklace and earrings he bought you as a gift
โShhh,โ He hushed you, pressing a finger on your lips, brushing his thumb over your bottom one.
โI want to spoil you baby, you deserve it.โ His voice was barely a whisper, so deep and husky.
Your lips hitched with the urge you had to put them on his, kissing until you grew sick of itโ but you couldnโt.
โActually,โ You mumbled and pulled away, just enough to resist your deepest thoughts โI donโt want to send you away, but Jake wanted to FaceTime me,โ You gulped, fidgeting with his shirt
Sunghoon tilted his head, his hands securing around your waist, protectively keeping you close โSo?โ
โSo, I thought itโd be better if he didnโt see you here.โ You added, nodding at your own statement
Sunghoon frowned, โI can hide in the bathroom until youโre done.โ
โHoonโ youโve been sleeping here for four days..โ His jaw ticked โAm I bothering you?โ
You were quick to shake your head โNo, never.โ You bit your bottom lip, afraid to voice out your feelings since that useless argument you had with Jake
He sighed softly and took your chin in his fingers, making you look inside his eyes โWhatโs wrong, baby?โ He asked, holding you so gently you thought youโd shatter right there and heโd be able to pick up all your pieces
โIโโ You shook your head, but Sunghoonโs grip tightened on your chin โTell me.โ He demanded, not harshly.
โI justโฆ I donโt think Jake would like it if he knew about this and I feel so guilty.โ Sunghoon felt his anger rise, because he wanted to tell you that your relationship was more off than on, he wanted to tell you to just break up with Jake and live with him, spend your day tucked under his protections so that no one could hurt you anymore.
But, you werenโt his and he couldnโt do anything about itโฆ yet.
โWhat weโre doing isnโt bad, alright?โ He tried to sooth your worry โWeโre just two adults trying to satisfy each otherโs needs,โ Sunghoon licked his bottom lip, looking at your glossy and innocent eyes made his dick harden inside his jeans.
โAnd I want to take care of you..โ He whispered, his hand slipping under your shirt, groping your breasts, earning a small whimper from you โWill you let me?โ
Were the necklace and earrings he gave you cursed? Because no matter how much you knew this was wrong, you only craved for more.
โYes,โ You whispered, โI want to make you feel good too.โ Sunghoonโs eyes softened, you were so cute and innocent and so his to ruin โIs that so, princess?โ You nodded in response
โWant to make me feel good?โ You hummed and Sunghoon got close to your ear, purring โGet on your knees.โ
You complied right away, climbing down his laps and placing yourself between his legs โNeed those pretty hands around my cock,โ He said and you unzipped his jeans, palming his already hard length through the fabric
โDo you know how to give a blow?โ He scoffed, almost being degrading โI bet Jake couldnโt even teach you properly.โ Sunghoon caressed the side of your cheek and then his hand gripped your hair, pulling your head toward his hips โHurry up, sweetheart.โ
Not wanting to make him wait, you quickly pulled the hem of his boxers down and let them fall to his ankles.
His cock sprung free, veiny and thick, you let your tongue trace it, giving kitten licks to the tip.
Sunghoon groaned, holding your hair up to a semi-ponytail so they wouldnโt bother you.
You circled your tongue all over the tip, tasting his bittersweet precum.
โStop teasing.โ he warned, pulling your hair back and looking into your eyes, his tone softening, โUnderstood, baby?โ You nodded in approval and took him whole inside your mouth in one swift movement, his long shaft hitting the back of your throat, making you gag.
He ard your slight gag but the sensation of your warm mouth wrapped around him was enough to cloud his mind. you bobbed your head back and forth, filthy sounds filling the room.
โShit princess, you feel so good.โ He groaned โMhโ could just cum right here.โ His praising fuelled your confidence, so you gripped both his hips and moved your head faster, trying to provide him pleasure
You palmed his balls as well, gripping them gently as Sunghoon let out a low moan, throwing his head back on the headboard on the sofa.
You spied him from your eyelashes, he looked like the epitome of erotic: mouth hanging open, eyebrows furrowed and eyes squeezed shut.
He pushed your mouth further, trying to bottom out when your phone started ringing. You got distracted, looking to the side, about to pull away as you knew it was Jake.
โDonโt you dare.โ Sunghoon groaned, standing up and pushing his cock deep inside your throat, you gagged, it being too big to fit.
You tried to push him away to catch your breath but Sunghoon didnโt seem to care. Only when he saw your teary eyes did he give you the chance to breathe.
You panted heavily, spit rolling down your cheeks and wetting your shirt.
Your ringtone started once again and Sunghoon watched you wild his eyes, he took your chin in his hands and raised a brow โYou going to answer?โ
Your eyes were glossy and the tip of your nose red, you shook your head in reply โThatโs what I thought.โ he smirked and yanked you by your hair, snatching them to push his fat cock inside your mouth once again.
The way you were just staring at him with those eyes made him grin, the sweat dripping down his forehead added a small spark to the whole situation.
Your phone rang once more and he let out an annoyed groan, taking it in his hands โMaybe I should just show your boyfriend what youโre doing right now, uh?โ You panicked and shook your head, trying to pull away from him.
โKeep sucking,โ he warned, maintaining his grip on your hair. He showed your phone screen to you, Jakeโs contact name appearing before your eyes.
You murmured, trying to tell him not to do anything reckless but that only sent waves of pleasure to his length.
โShit Y/N.โ he panted, throwing your phone back on the sofa, not caring about its ringtone anymore.
โAlways ruining the moment, that fucker.โ He murmured, holding your head with both his hands and pushing his dick in and out your warm and went mouth
โIโm so close baby,โ You nodded, dropping your arms on your side and letting him do what he needed to reach his high. His moans were low, more like growls which made the wetness between your legs grow more uncomfortable as time passed.
You liked when he acted so possessive, when he acted like you belonged to him.
You wished you did.
โFuck, Fuck, Fuck.โ He chanted, eyes rolling back โSuch a good girl for me,โ He groaned once more, pushing one last time, deeper until released his seed inside your mouth.
He took deep breaths, trying to calm down โSwallow.โ Sunghoon ordered, his eyes so dark and red.
You gulped down and then stuck out your tongue to show him that no trace of his cum was left โGood girl.โ He smiled, helping you up.
He helped you up and was about to pull your body closer when you shook your head โWhatโs wrong?โ He asked, confused at your sudden coldness
You glanced at your phone on the sofa and smiled faintly โI think I should call Jake back.โ You took it and bit your bottom lip, โIโll be back later.โ
You didnโt spare Sunghoon a glance and just disappeared in your bedroom, closing the door behind your back, leaving Sunghoon in the living room with the realisation that your heart still belonged to Jake.
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Jake was a total asshole. He had always known that, but realisation hit him the moment he saw you coming out of that room bawling your eyes out.
Despite not wanting to tell him, he had a feeling it meant Jakeโs foul mouth said things he shouldnโt have.
And as he rocked you to sleep, whispering sweet nothings while gently caressing your body, he was more than determined to take you away.
What made it worse was that you took your time to clean the drool from your cheeks, combed your tangled hair and even put some mascara on to be pretty.
Jake didnโt even consider that, or didnโt try to think how happy youโd be to talk to him and harshly destroyed your mood.
The next morning you woke up feeling groggy, your eyes were puffy and tear stains lined down your cheeks.
You looked at yourself in the mirror and sighed, trying to fix the damage that was your appearance.
After washing your face and doing your needs, you exited the bathroom thinking youโd be alone and mentally preparing to make something for yourself to eat when you came across a tall male figure cooking.
You stopped in your tracks, eyes wide as you drank him in. Sunghoon was toasting something with the pan, his forearms flexing as he twisted the bread.
He was quietly humming a melody, quiet enough not to wake you up, the smell of caramel and first loves filling the air.
You felt a sudden peace of mind, dreaming about waking up like this every day, lazy sunday mornings spent in, cuddling and just being with each other.
Your dream was crushed when you remembered you actually had someone to do that with you, and he wasnโt Sunghoon.
You walked towards him and hugged his waist, your small arms wrapped around his toned torso. He stiffed for a second before realising it was you โMorning sleepyhead.โ
โMorning Hoon.โ You said back, snuggling your face closer to his back. He turned off the stove and turned around, his arms wrapping around your waist, pulling your body closer
โSlept well?โ Sunghoon asked, placing the palm of his hand on your cheek, his thumb giving it gentle strokes.
The way he talked and looked had you so weak and vulnerable and the only place you wanted to be in was the space between his arms, pressed in so close and so tight.
โYes, thanks to you.โ You gave him a sincere smile. His lips twitch up into a smile and you can feel the warmth of his gaze on your face.
He shook his head and placed a featherlight kiss on your head โI did nothing, really.โ He did what Jake shouldโve done, instead he chose to be the reason for your hurting.
You were about to answer when he held your waist tightly and placed you to sit on the kitchen counter, you blinked faintly in confusion. Sunghoon smiled and pecked your nose โBreakfast will be done soon.โ He announced, winking at you.
He turned back to the stove and placed the toasts on a small plate; he walked to the fridge and took some jam along with butter.
You followed all his movements with your gaze, noticing how his muscles twitched at his every movement. He was wearing a t-shirt that was supposed to be Jakeโs, though you had to admit it looked way better on Sunghoon. You shook your head, getting rid of those (not so) untrue allegations.
Sunghoon finished making the toasts and turned towards you, his fang smile so addictive. โAre you hungry?โ He asked โI made toast and found strawberries in the fridge.โ
โI think youโd like to eat something else.โ You murmured, voice still hoarse from sleeping.
Sunghoonโs gaze darkened as he registered your words, placing himself between your legs โAnd what is it?โ He questioned, face so close to yours you could feel his hot breath hitting your skin
With one hand you held yourself on the counter and wrapped the other around Sunghoonโs neck.
You two had only four more days together, and you chose to make the best of them.
Youโd deal with Jake when he came back and could talk face to face.
โI have a perfect meal for you.โ You smirked, looking down at your lower body. Sunghoon let out a soft sigh, his bulge already poking from his shorts โMy favourite.โ
His palm traced all the way from your breasts, down to your stomach and hem of the shorts.
He slipped one finger inside and cursed under his breath when he realised you were wearing no underwear
You chuckled at his reactions and Sunghoon attacked your lips with his, sucking on your bottom lip, making you squirm.
He squeezed your breasts and simultaneously played with your clit, touching you in only ways he could.
He detached his lips from yours and lowered himself, kneeling in front of you.
He kissed your clothed core, smelling the scent of you, so addicting.
You felt your pussy clench around nothing, the usual warm feeling building inside your body.
You looked down at Sunghoon with pleading eyes and he was more than happy to satisfy you โOn it, baby.โ He licked his lips as he pulled your shorts down, the cold air of the room hitting your sensitive skin, making you shiver.
Sunghoon placed kitten kisses all over your thighs, so close to where you needed him but not exactly there.
โHoon.. please.โ You whined, pulling him by his hair closer to your core. Sunghoon flicked his tongue on your clit, making you gasp out.
He continued to lick your pussy like a popsicle, his skilled tongue brushing against your shaven mound, making your head hazy.
Your breath grew heavy and you couldnโt help but throw your head back, desperately pushing Sunghoon closer, trying to find satisfaction.
Sunghoon rewarded your bravery by inserting one finger inside your hole, brushing it against your g-spot โFuckโ Hoon, yesโ You moaned out
โPussy tastes so good.โ he purred, diving again between your thighs โAll mine, this is all mine, got it?โ in your blissful state you nodded your head in reply, bucking your hips to meet his movements
As Sunghoonโs fingers kept brushing against a certain spot that had your eyes roll back, you felt something snap inside of you and liquid spurred out of your pussy.
You widened your eyes, looking down at him with an apologetic look.
โIโ Iโm sorry.โ You said, taking in the sight of said liquid dripping down Sunghoonโs chin and having wetted his shirt.
Sunghoon, on the other hand, seemed to be on cloud 9 โThat was so hot, Y/N.โ He said with sparkling eyes โSquirt on me again baby, please.โ
He was really pussy drunk, drinking all your juices, fucking you with his tongue and fingers.
He raised himself on his feet and brought you into a sloppy and messy kiss, you could taste yourself on his lips.
His painful clothed bulge pressed against your core, rubbing against it.
Sunghoon made his shorts and boxers fall down to his ankles and rubbed his red tip on your wet folds, gathering your sweet juices.
He pushed his thick cock inside you and your breath hitched, its length still something you werenโt used to.
You propped yourself on your elbows and took deep breaths, trying to distract yourself from the burning stretch.
Sunghoon moved slowly, rubbing your clit to make you even wetter so that he could slip in and out without hurting you.
He held your face with one hand, his thumb inside your thumb while you sucked on it โYouโre so dirty.โ he smirked โMy dirty girl.โ He got close to your face and hurried his thrusts
โTell me babyโ shitโ you mine, uh?โ He asked, voice husky
โIโm not y-yours.โ Ah, wrong answer. He stilled his movements, looking down at you with a raised brow โNot mine?โ He scoffed, โThen you donโt deserve to cum.โ
You felt him pull out and panicked, gripping his forearm desperately โNo!โ You exclaimed โPlease Hoon.โ
He gave one deep thrust, making you whimper โWhat did you say?โ You blinked faintly โPlease..โ He shook his head โNah ah.โ
You sighed โIโm yours, Hoon.โ His lips twitched into a sly smirk โGood girl.โ Sunghoon praised as he gripped your waist.
You raised your top just enough to let your breasts run free and squeezed your nipple, stimulating your body.
Sunghoon joined you and squeezed the other one, bringing his lips down to circle it and send waves of pleasure through your body.
Sunghoon took hold of your hips, raising you from the counter while your hands were still gripping it, moving your lower body to meet his in quick and deep thrusts.
โFuck, get down.โ he helped you down the counter and manhandled you, turning you as he pleased.
He took your arms and hooked them around one of his, your back pressed against his chest.
Sunghoon entered your body once more, his movements so fast. You clenched around him, your moans so loud.
โYou were made for me.โ He groaned in your ear, kissing your shoulder โMine to fuck, mine to own, mine to love.โ
You felt the knot in your stomach tighten, crying out in pleasure โS-sunghoon.โ He breathed out โI know baby,โ the speed of his thrusts hurried, rutting inside of you as he hit the sweet spot โCum for me.โ
At his words your eyes rolled at the back of your head, mouth agape as you came apart on his cock.
He looked down, the white circle forming around his shaft, almost making him cum as well on spot.
Your legs started shaking, his thrusts never faltering even as you squirmed in his grip. He circled your clit with one hand, your eyes getting watery.
โShh,โ He soothed, letting go of your arms to make you stabilise yourself by gripping the counter; his hands grasped your hips, grip so tight it would probably leave marks by the next day as he thrusted inside of you, trying to reach his release.
โIโm gonna cum,โ Sunghoon panted, the speed of his movements increasing even more โInsideโโ You choked out โCum inside me.โ Your words made him release his seed right there, coating your clenching walls with his warm cum.
He hugged your back, lips brushing against your shoulders as he fucked his cum right back into you, not wanting a single drop to fall out.
He raised from your figure but still not pulling out, turning your head by your chin and connecting your lips.
The kiss was sloppy and uncomfortable due to the position, but it held so many feelings it made you melt.
Sunghoonโs fingertips caressed your stomach, holding you close while gentle thrusts kept uniting your bodies โYou begging me to cum inside really did something to me, pretty girl.โ He chuckled, kissing your jawline.
โFortunately,โ You started, still out of breath โIโm on the pill. Sunghoon chuckled huskily, โI wouldnโt have minded even if you werenโt.โ
He pulled out, drops of his cum running down your thighs. He turned you around and kissed you deeply once more โLetโs get you cleaned up, then we can eat.โ
You gave him a weak smile, you were sticky and sweaty, probably your hair was also messed up, but Sunghoon still looked at you like you were the most beautiful person in the world. โYeah. Letโs do that.โ
He kissed the tip of your nose and chuckled โIโm taking you out for the night, so prepare that dress I bought you.โ Euphoria took over your face as you nodded happily โThank you, Hoon.โ
โI already told you Iโd do anything for you.โ
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You were putting the earrings he had bought you, the crimson dress hugging your body.
You stood in front of the full-length mirror inside your room, trying your best not to poke another hole in your ear.
You felt a pair of strong arms wrapping around your waist, Sunghoonโs head snuggled in the crook of his neck. The familiar cologne filled your nostrils, bringing a sense of peacefulness inside you.
Sunghoon kissed the back of your shoulder, his arms bringing you to his body. You felt his erections pressing between your ass cheeks, making you chuckle โYouโre gorgeous.โ He whispered in your ear, his kisses raising toward your jaw
You let out a shaky breath as he started slowly grinding against your ass โHoonโฆ We have a reservation.โ You cleared your throat, trying not to think at the wetness between your legs
โSo?โ His voice was so low it made you shiver in his embrace. His hands moved towards your breasts, squeezing them from outside the fabric of your dress. โIโll be quick, I promise.โ
You shook your head โWeโre going to be late.โ He pressed your lower body even closer to his, rutting his clothes cock on your ass โPlease babyโฆโ He groaned, โIโm so hard it hurts.โ
His eyes locked with your from the mirror and you couldnโt deny him when he looked so desperate for you.
You loved it, you loved the way he seemed to be so obsessed with you.
You nodded โAlright.โ He didnโt waste time and flicked your skirt up, pushing his pants and boxers down and pushing your panties to the side. As his cock sprung free, you could feel it rubbing against you, so hot and hard.
He took your arms and held them in his hand, rubbing your folds with his shaft with the other. With one swift movement, he entered you, moving fast already.
Your moans were music to his ear and the sight of you rolling your eyes from the full-length mirror made his cock twitch inside of you.
Sunghoon groaned, sweat coating his forehead as he sped up, letting go of your arms to grip your hips and use your body as he pleased.
You put one hand behind his head and pressed yourself closer to him, your back tightly against his chest.
โMy perfect girl,โ He chanted, biting his bottom lip, trying his best not to cum just there โThis pussy was made for me, uh?โ
His heavy breath sent shivers through all your body, the sweet feeling of his dick bottoming out, hitting your cervix repeatedly made your legs shake.
โClose already?โ He asked, the sound of skin slapping and the wet sounds from your cunt filling the room โY-yes.โ You managed to say, the feeling of euphoria approaching you.
โFuckโ me too.โ He let out a few breaths, hurrying his speeds โLetโs cum together baby,โ Sunghoon hugged your body from behind, spooning you while standing up as he rutted fast your abused pussy
โYouโll let me cum inside, right?โ You nodded your head, โPlease.โ You breathed out โWant you to fill me up.โ
Your words were enough for Sunghoon to empty his load inside of you, your own hand went down to circle your clit and you came right with him.
Your walls pulsed around him and his cock twitched, with slow and deep thrusts. He kissed the back of your shoulder, his breath calming down.
โYou did amazing,โ He whispered, pulling out and covering your folds with your underwear.
He pulled his pants and boxers up and pulled you by your waist, kissing you hungrily โNow, youโre going to dinner with my cum inside,โ He murmured on your lips โAnd after we come home Iโll fuck it right back, filling you up again.โ
You were still dazed from your orgasm, or maybe it was the spell he gave you, because all you could manage to do was nod blissfully. Sunghoonโs plan was indeed working.
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Saying that you two had been fucking like two rabbits was an understatement.
Sunghoon took you in the kitchen again, then on the sofa, in the bathtub and so many times in the bedroom.
Like now, you had the insane idea to blow him around three am, the day before Jake was coming home.
Nobody could blame you, though, because the way he was sleeping with his lips open, bare chested and hands ruffled turned you so on you wanted to give him the sloppiest and messiest head of his life. And so you did.
Sunghoon was now cuddling with you, his fingertips brushing against your sensitive skin, the quiet of the night too comfortable as you laid in his embrace.
His breath was even and soft, his body heat shouldโve been bothering you since you were in July but it only made you seek more. Maybe it was the fact that the day before, it would be gone forever.
โHoon?โ you asked, tone gentle โHmm?โ he murmured sleepily, sniffling his head closer to your shoulder
You stayed silent for a couple of seconds, trying to gather your thoughts โWhen tomorrow comes, can you give me some time alone?โ
Sunghoon frowned โWhat?โ You gulped, looking down at him, smelling your shampoo scent in his hair. โI need some time to figure things out.โ
Sunghoon was scared to feel hopeful by your words, he still said โFigure what?โ
โMy feelings.โ You answered, sighing softly โItโs just that, Iโve never felt so happy like when Iโm with you.โ At those words, he raised his head, his tired dark eyes meeting yours
โWith Jake, everything feels on autopilot, we just live our lives as if we were two roommates.โ He caressed your shoulder, letting you know that he was with you, that he had got you
โBut with youโ you made me rediscover how love feels like, how it feels to be someoneโs first choice.โ
โY/N..โ He whispered, feeling a sudden urge to protect you โBut Iโm saying this after spending basically one month without my boyfriend.โ Hearing you utter those two words felt like a punch in the stomach, even though you were just stating the truth.
Sunghoon had just been a replacement for you, something to fill the void created by Jake.
โI need to see it for myself if I really have no feelings left for him or if..โ He interrupted you before you could finish โI understand.โ
You blinked faintly, โYou do?โ Sunghoon nodded, a smile forming on his lips โOf course, Iโll wait for you and understand if you choose to be with Jake.โ
Your eyes sparkled at his words, he was so gentle despite the fact that his heart was breaking.
But that wouldnโt happen, because as he held you close to him, he knew his spell had worked.
No matter how much you tried, you wouldnโt be able to get away from him.
โIโll always be there for you.โ No matter how many times he repeated it, you always felt the sincerity of his words.
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โIโm back.โ Jake announced, entering the front door with his huge luggage โY/N?โ He asked, walking into the living room
โHey,โ You smiled, reaching him โWelcome back.โ Jake smiled wrapped his arms around you โHow is my love?โ He asked rather happily
โLaylaโs alright, I think.โ Your answer sounded harsh, still not fully having forgiven him for the horrible things he said on FaceTime.
Jake frowned, knowing his sins โIโm so sorry, baby.โ You sighed, pulling away from his embrace โI know.โ You just said and took his luggage โIโll put the dirty clothes in the laundry.โ
Everything went smoothly, he had talked to you all about his journey, how awesome Los Angeles was, everyone was so kind and supportive towards him. And, not a single question on how you had been the past two weeks.
Shaking the feeling off and trying not to think about Sunghoon anytime Jake brushed his fingers against your skin, you successfully managed to get through three days.
What you told Sunghoon was true, your life went on autopilot when you were with Jake.
You woke up, went to work, did the chores and then went to sleep. You barely spoke to each other and the awkward silence in the house was always present.
โBaby?โ He asked while you were cooking by the gas stoves, you hummed in response, not turning around.
โSince when did you buy all those jewellery and clothes?โ He raised a brow, leaning against the counter โTheyโre pretty expensive, theyโre from Pandora.โ
โOh?โ You turned around and looked at the jewel case in his hands, trying to suppress a smile at the memory of Sunghoon buying you all the things you liked. Honestly, you wouldnโt even care if he had bought you diamonds or just paper rings, youโd take anything heโd give you.
โI liked them, so I bought them.โ You shrugged, turning back to stir the soup inside the pot
โYouโre so rich you can buy anything you want now?โ He scoffed, placing the jewel case on the table and crossing his arms.
You stopped in your tracks, raising a brow โWhat?โ Jake clicked his tongue โDid you pay the rent?โ You nodded โOf course I did, last week.โ
He let out a satisfied sound โWhat about the car insurance?โ Now did you turn around and stared at him in disbelief โItโs your car, Iโm not going to pay for you.โ
Jake sighed โCome on baby, Iโve spent all my money on the trip.โ You narrowed your eyes, dots collecting inside your brain โItโs a business trip, the company shouldโve paid for you.โ
Jake widened his eyes, stuttering โIโ I meant the food andโฆโ He trailed off. You werenโt going to buy it, you didnโt want to hear his excuses anymore.
โI donโt care, itโs your car. I donโt use it.โ You informed, cleaning your hands in the apron and crossing them on your chest โBut Iโm your boyfriend.โ
Your brows furrowed at his statement โOnly when you want to.โ Jake rolled his eyes โHere you go again.โ He ran a hand through his hair โCould you stop being so over dramatic?โ
โOh, so now Iโm over dramatic.โ You said sarcastically โYes! Yes you are.โ He snapped
You didnโt flinch or look away this time, you werenโt going to show your weak side. Jake always took advantage of it, and you werenโt going to let him.
โSunghoon was right.โ You murmured and Jakeโs head snapped back toward you โWhat?โ
โYouโre an asshole.โ You narrowed your eyes but Jake just dismissed your โYeah, ok. What about Sunghoon?โ
โIโve spent a lot of time with him lately,โ Jake laughed at your statement, seeming genuinely thrilled at your information โYou and that weirdo?โ
Your mouth hung open โWhat did you say about him? Heโs your best friend.โ
Jake tsked, โThatโs what he thinks. He was a loner and I just talked to him. He has stuck with me since then and Iโm growing pretty sick of it.โ
โHow dare you talk about him like that?โ Jakeโs brow raised โWhy do you care?โ
โBecause he is ten times better than you.โ Jake chuckled again โOh, he is? Baby, Iโm better than him or you wouldโve been his girlfriend by now.โ
He leaned back against the counter โAnd what have you two been doing, eh? Reading books? Watching corny films? Playing table games?โ
โSex.โ You replied, your tone monotone, having had enough of his bullshits. His chuckle died and he frowned, looking up at you.
โYou heard me, I slept with Sunghoon.โ His jaw dropped, anger building inside of him โSo you just go around and act like a slut? Is that what you do when Iโm not home?โ
โDonโt you dare call me a slut.โ You snapped, your voice raising for the first time in three years โYou cheated on me, Y/N. When were you going to tell me?โ
โI needed a few days to figure my feelings out, and thank you for making me realise how much of an asshole you are.โ
Jake scoffed โYou're the one who slept with another man when youโre supposed to be my girlfriend.โ
โYouโre right, and Iโm sorry for cheating.โ His face held some victorious feelings that quickly died as you added โBecause I shouldโve dumped you before.โ
โAnd thatโs what Iโm doing right now, Sim Jaeyun, Iโm breaking up with you.โ
โYou canโt do that.โ His face filled with anger, but no regret could be found.
You were glad you opened your eyes before you were stuck with him โYouโve sucked my happiness out, you took the life out of me. Now Iโm going to take it back.โ You took off the apron, throwing it at his chest โIโll come and get my things tomorrow.โ
You heard him throwing other harsh words to you, but you didnโt care. You didnโt even wear your shoes, just ran out of your old apartment in slippers, towards the only place you knew would always have space for you.
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โDonโt shoot me!โ Sunghoon was playing with his friends at a video game, the sound of keyboard taps filled the whole house along with his shouting.
It was strange his neighbours hadnโt come to complain already.
โAt your back!โ Jay informed him, Sunghoon was taking the aim to kill the enemy but his doorbell ringing distracted him, making his shoot pointless. โShit man, I think itโs Miss Choi again.โ
Jay snorted, โAlright, go deal with her.โ The friends exchanged goodbyes and Sunghoon got up, the doorbell kept ringing, making Sunghoon groan
โHere, Here.โ He sighed as he opened the door only to widen his eyes when he realised it was you in front of himโ not his neighbour.
โY/Nโโ He couldnโt even finish saying your name when you threw yourself on him, lips meeting his. Sunghoon was taken aback at first but soon enough kissed you back, your lips touching and moving together.
You pulled away, panting heavily โWhat are you doing here?โ He asked, taking in the sight of you.
Home clothes, slippers on and heavy breathsโฆ
โDid you run here?โ You took several deep breaths before speaking โIโm so sorry I made you wait.โ Sunghoon blinked faintly at your sudden apologies
โWhy are youโโ You shook your head โPlease let me finish first.โ
Sunghoon nodded slowly, waiting for you to continue. โWhen I first met Jake, I had never experienced love, so I thought what he did was normalโฆโ You recalled in your mind all the times he and treated you unfairly for a span of three years and shivered
โBut you made me realise how love actually feels, and I want to learn all the other forms it comes with.โ You looked up at his eyes โHe called you names and said heโd only been your friend for pity.โ
You continued โI just wanted you to know that you are not pitiful, in fact, you're the best person Iโve ever met. Please, donโt listen to him.โ
Sunghoon couldnโt care less about Jakeโs opinion about him. But a small smile appeared on his face at the way you seemed to be so annoyed by the fact that he had insulted him.
โYou defended me?โ He asked softly, and you nodded as if it was the most obvious answer โI also dumped his unworthy ass.โ
Sunghoonโs brows shot up in surprise and a smirk crept on his lips โThatโs my girl.โ
He brought his arms around your waist, pressing your body on his โI want to make it right, Sunghoon, I want to be happy and I want you.โ You bit your bottom lip โIf you want me too?โ
Sunghoon chuckled and twirled you in the air, your giggles filling his usual lonely apartment โIโve always wanted you, from the first day I saw you, I knew you were the one.โ
His answer surprised you, โYou liked me?โ Sunghoon booped your nose, you looked so cute, all rebel wannabe just for your insecurities to stop you again โI think I love you.โ
Your breath hitched, those words leaving his lips made you feel so warm on the inside, your heart skipping so many beats you werenโt sure it was still working โI think I love you too.โ
Sunghoon kissed you deeply, his tongue entering your mouth as he claimed you, finally able to call you his.
You pulled away and chuckled, wrapping your arms around his neck.
You tilted your head, tone flirty โSo.. Youโll let me stay for the night?โ Sunghoon secured your waist in his grasp โIโll let you stay forever.โ
When a single man moves in next door to you and your husband, it wasnโt difficult for either of you to take interest in what he could offer to the dynamic of your lives together. Unfortunately, the new and interesting man appears to be afraid to admit that heโs curious as to what happens behind your very unlocked front door.ย
or the one where your husband, jongseong, fucks you in front of the window to help the neighbor get off and then said neighbor shows up at the door a week later.ย
minors dni! | reblog to give husband and neighbor a boner
WORDCOUNTโ 18.9k
PAIRINGโ husband jongseong x afab reader x voyeur sunghoonย
CONTENTโ husband!jay, bachelor sunghoon, hotwifing/ open marriage, exhibitionism, voyeurism, second hand embarrassment, threesome, smut.ย
WARNINGSโ mentions of sunghoonโs ex cheating on him, also jongseong is assumed to be bisexual and/or he is attracted to sunghoon too but there isnโt any dude on dude stuff. jongseong does put his fingers in sunghoonโs mouth tho, deal with it.ย
NOTEโ i wrote this originally on ncteez. i am the same person lolย
smut tags under cut::ย
smut tagsโ exhibitionism, voyeurism, big dick jay, HUGE dick sunghoon, top/dom(ish) jay, service top/shy/bottom(ish) sunghoon, embarrassment kink???, mentions of porn, masturbation, phone sex kind of?? idk he calls sunghoon so he can listen to the shit heโs seeing, alcohol consumption, finger fucking, clit stimulation, unprotected sex, tit fondling, raw grinding,ย oral (f & m receiving), deepthroating/facefucking, making out, dirty talk, pussy drunk men, cock drunk reader, double vaginal penetration, riding, missionary, finger sucking, cum stuffing, desperate desperate people!!!ย
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Sunghoon ran from a lot of things. He ran from his ex fiancรฉe when she cheated, he ran from new opportunities out of fear of losing what he already had, ran from a cop once as a teenager for streaking near the old folkโs home. Running wasnโt exactly something heโs fond of but, more often than not itโs what his heart tells him to do.
As stated, the last time he ran away was when his fiancรฉe was found in the bed he paid for with her co-worker. Thatโs when his need to run came in the most handy, having no qualms with giving her the apartment and everything in it. His job allowed him to leave without much of a financial hit, herโs wouldnโt.ย
The ring he bought stayed on her finger for some reason, the home he made became one she shared with any man that wasnโt him. Itโs okay though, because to him? She can have it. Heโs much more comfortable starting over than she would be. So, thatโs what he does.ย
He has money, he has a good job, and now he has a lovely house of his own on a quaint little street on the other side of town. Far far away from her.ย
Starting over is equally as exhausting as it is exciting but Sunghoon keeps his chin up throughout the process. Making an empty house his new home, working his job as if his entire intimate life didnโt just fall apart, and of course, preparing himself to mingle with the new neighbors.ย
A month after moving, Sunghoon had made platter after platter of food for neighbors as his greeting in an attempt to make friends. Many accepted and returned his dishes washed and unscratched. All are friendly to him but the majority of people in this neighborhood are middle aged and a bit out of his league. There is one pair of neighbors who appear more around his age though, and interested in actual friendship with him. The pair who brought his dishes back full of their own offer of a decent dinner for him to eat on his own time.ย
Despite the majority of people living on this street being polite and fond of him as a newcomer, this specific couple appears to be the only ones without an entire family. Just like Sunghoon. No children, free time to go out on the weekends, no minivans or babysitters coming every day during working hours. Naturally, he internally clings to the idea of them being his new friends, because his old group of friends consisted of his ex fiancรฉe and her tight-knit group of pompous women and their boy toys.ย
Jongseong is the husbandโs name, and briefly he met you alongside him a few times. He assumes you must have your own interests to cater to, because each time he finds himself on his own front porch with Jongseong talking and joking around, you rarely come with him. Save for the one or two times you did stay to hang out for a couple of hours.
After a few months, heโs managed to sprout friendship with the man next door who has a pretty wife with a ring on her finger. Sunghoon tries not to internalize that he was supposed to be living the way Jongseong is. Maybe heโs a bit jealous of the happiness in Jongseongโs eyes when he talks about you, or maybe it makes him feel like he either wasnโt good enough as a partner, or his ex simply just didnโt love him anymore.ย
Still, even with the slight jealousy, Sunghoon is comfortable around him. Heโs never clicked with another man so quickly in terms of friendship, at least not without several shots of hard liquor to get himself comfortable. Itโs definitely different with his neighbor.ย
The guy is open, kind, and occasionally pretty funny. He comes over a few nights a week with the claim of โman-timeโ. Itโs been at least fifteen times since he officially met Jongseong and comfort comes alongside him when he sits on this porch and they fuck around about menial things. Hanging out with him is arguably like a breath of fresh air.ย
Jongseong though, he takes note of a lot of things that Sunghoon doesnโt quite seem to notice himself. One, any time he mentions his wife, Sunghoonโs eyes falter a bit. Two, Sunghoon is clearly a single man and Jongseong canโt quite grasp why that is because heโs a handsome dude, with a level personality. Three, there are slight self-deprecating jokes coming from Sunghoon at least five times an hour and itโs starting to make him wonder. At first it can be funny, but after a while it kind of stops being a joke.ย
So, here they are, joking and having a nice conversation on Sunghoonโs porch. Itโs a Friday night and Jongseong assumes theyโre close enough by this point to really talk. Youโre in the back of his mind, making offers, smirking about the new neighbor, laying down the interest flat out after merely meeting with him a few times. If Sunghoon really is a single man, and if heโs as open minded as he seems, perhaps laying down some hints and an invite can help him out of this clear slump that he tries to pretend heโs not in.ย
โWhat about you? Do you have someone in your life?โ Jongseong asks after a solid twenty minutes of gushing about you. Internally knowing what he says about you is true, but also trying to sell the idea of how wonderful and sexy you are. He leans back as he studies Sunghoon, noting the way he stiffens at the question.ย
Again, itโs clear that Sunghoon is a single man with the way heโs always in this house alone before and after work. On the weekends, heโs sitting on his porch waiting for Jongseong to come join him. Sometimes thereโs a doubt though, because looking at him, anyone would believe he is taken. He is down to earth, funny, kind, handsome as hell. Maybe he does see people and Jongseong just never catches it.ย
โAh, no,โ Sunghoon avoids eye contact, trying to laugh it off as he confirms Jongseongโs suspicions. He wants to talk about what happened though. He hasnโt been able to talk about it, and honestly, Jongseong seems like a trusted friend at this point. โI was with someone for six years, asked her to marry me, and then we broke it off. Thatโs why Iโm here now.โ
โOh yeah? Starting over, huh?โ Jongseong nods politely at him, figuring something like this may have happened. โCan I ask what happened?โ
Sunghoon shrugs nonchalantly, looking at Jongseong with a carefree face and a smile.
โShe wasnโt the most faithful, you know how it goes with those sorts of things, I guess.โย
Jongseong studies his face a bit more, seeing straight through that carefree attitude and noting the immense amount of hurt Sunghoon must feel.ย
โOh, well isnโt that nice?โ He responds with a defeated shrug, almost wanting to roll his eyes. โYou might be the first man Iโve ever met who hasnโt dealt with infidelity at some point. Even just as a teenager.โ
โOn the contrary,โ Jongseong says with a smirk, leaning towards Sunghoon as if he has a secret to tell. โWe fuck other people all the time.โ
Sunghoon stares at him as he processes those words. Unsure of it that means they both are cheating out of spite, or if theyโre about to divorce or something.ย
โSometimes in the same bed.โย
Oh.ย
โAt the same time.โ
Jongseong deadpan stares at Sunghoon, searching for a reaction to his words. There have been many times where he and his wife invite someone to their bedroom, and many more times where the person ended up so freaked out that they ghosted the entire situation. Perhaps out of fear that Jongseong doesnโt know what heโs doing with his wife. Many people canโt seem to fathom that possessiveness, jealousy, and competition arenโt part of the deal.ย
You married Jongseong and he married you long after the two of you started doing this. The trial period was over before it even started. He loved watching you be pleasured, and you loved the way he looked at you as it happened. Of course, not all of the sex involves other people, but it never hurts the marriage when a third shows up.ย
โOhโโ Sunghoon swallows around his dry throat, mind running in several directions at once. Heโs not sure how to respond to that information. โThatโs cool, I guess.โ
Jongseong stays silent, smirking a bit at the way Sunghoon, so tall and broad, stutters to find the words to say. Itโs not like he straight up invited him, not yet at least.ย
โI couldnโt imagine doing that, considering I just left my fiancรฉe for fucking someone else.โย
Jongseong nods both understandingly and apologetically. People do tend to mix up the two. Is it cheating when he watches another person fuck you? To some people, yeah but, monogamy is natural for many people.ย
โI assume she didnโt tell you that she would be fucking someone else.โ Jongseong shrugs, leaning back again. โI can imagine that even if she did tell you, youโd not have allowed it, right?โ
Sunghoon nods.ย
โIt puts my stomach in knots to think of someone I love wanting to be with someone else.โย
โThatโs fair,โ Jongseong starts, glancing away and thinking of how to word what he wants to say. โWhat if someone else wanted you to fuck the person they love?โ
Sunghoon freezes again, unsure of if heโs thinking too hard about that question, or not enough.ย
โIโm sorry, what?โ He asks defensively, looking his neighbor dead in the eye.ย
โIโm not saying you have to take up this offer but, I mean, youโre a single guy. Iโm a married guy, with a wife who is incredibly curious about you.โย
Sunghoon continues to process the words, still overthinking it.ย
โIs this a joke?โ He asks in a quieter voice, whispering as if the entire neighborhood can hear them.ย
โAre you attracted to her?โ Jongseong continues to press, wondering what itโll take to get a simple yes or no out of him. He notes the way Sunghoonโs ear goes red, and canโt tell if itโs because of the offer or because heโs afraid to call another manโs wife attractive.
โHere, let me rephrase,โ He starts over, leaning forward again. โMy wife thinks youโre, in her own words, โbeautiful.โ She asks about you every time I come home from hanging out here, and sheโs starting to get persistent.โ
Sunghoon, still at a loss for words, slowly nods.ย
โSheโs pretty, yeah.โ He says, now leaning himself toward Jongseong and raising a brow in curiosity.ย
โAs a single man, are you looking for love or are you looking for fun?โ Jongseong continues, prying answers out of him and smiling at the way it seems he was right in believing there is interest here.
โI just got out of a six year relationship, Iโm not trying to do all of that again,โ Sunghoon shakes his head in disappointment. โNot for now, at least.โ
โSo, do you want to fuck my wife?โ
Silence.ย
Jongseong pinches the bridge of his nose momentarily, seemingly frustrated.
โLook, does it help to know that I want to watch you fuck my wife?โ
Louder silence.ย
โOkay, you clearly need some time to think. Just, if youโre ever interested let me know. I can open the blinds if you want, like a sample or something.โ
Jongseong can see the way his eyes glisten at that offer through his silence. The wavering interest igniting right then and there. Ah, a voyeur, what a perfect addition to this neighborhood of dry vanilla cake. Itโs not strange at all to see a monogamous man watching his footing in this situation, but the offer to watch is an entirely different thing from an offer to join right off the bat. Especially since there needs to be boundaries set if he decides he does want to fuck you.
For instance, when did he last get tested? Considering he got duped by his ex, thatโs important. Does he like it raw? Does he know the ass belongs to Jongseong only? Etcetera.ย
โCan you say something? Iโm starting to feel like Iโm making you uncomfortable.โ
โAh, sorry. Itโs justโโ Sunghoon leans back with a sigh of relief at the general questioning being over and done with. โYeah, I need to think about it.โ
โDonโt think too hard,โ Jongseong laughs. โItโs getting late so, if you need me Iโll be fucking my wife.โ
Sunghoon watches him stand on his feet and follows the action. Feeling both closer to him and also in a rut of wondering if their entire friendship will rely on whether he wants to fuck his wife or not. Should he like, hug him goodbye or something?
He stands awkwardly as Jongseong studies him even more.ย
โJust think about it, really. She loves being watched too, if you donโt want to be involved directly.โย
God, he can feel how red his ears and face have become, surely Jongseong knows by now that the interest outweighs the concerns. And as Jongseong turns to head down the steps, he calls out to him.ย
โLetโs say Iโm interested but unsure of how to go about it, what then?โ
Jongseong turns to him and smiles, taking a few steps closer so that he doesnโt have to yell out to him.ย
โItโs sex. If you know how to fuck, you fuck.โ
โAnd if Iโm not entirely ready to throw myself into your marital bed?โย
โThereโs still a couch, and againโโ He smirks. โLike I said, opening the curtains isnโt the most insane sexual practice.โ
Sunghoon being the person looking through those curtains thoughโฆis it really not as insane as heโs thinking it is?
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โSoโฆ?โ You ask as soon as Jongseong comes through the door, clinging to him with doe-eyes and a smile.ย
โHe seems interested but,โ Your husband slides off his shoes and heads straight for the couch to lay against it in a huff. โI donโt know. Just found out his ex cheated on him after like six years, I think the whole idea spooked him.โ
โAh, damn.โ You look to the floor, and then make your way onto the couch with him. โWhat did you say?โ
โI asked him if he wanted to fuck you.โ
You narrow your eyes at him before rolling them with a frustrated sigh.ย
โWhy would you ask him straight up like that? I cannot believe you pride yourself in being the talker of our sex life. Itโs no wonder we have trouble finding people to join.โ
Jongseong looks at you with a fond smirk before shaking his head at you.
โWould you feel better if I told you that he admitted to thinking youโre pretty?โ
You smile, warming up next to your husband and feeling entirely safe here.ย
โWhat about if I told you that right before I came back home, he said he was interested and just didnโt know how to go about it?โย
A bigger smile forms on your face as you look up at him, devious eyes glistening in the warm lighting of your living room.ย
โI offered that he can just watch instead. If he takes up that offer, it won't be long before heโs banging on our front door ready to show us a good time.โ
You reach up to brush some of his fringe out of his face before releasing a dreamy sigh.ย
โHeโs so handsome. Like, even from here I can tell he must be packing. I hope youโre right.โ You say as Jongseong rolls his eyes, knowing damn well that Sunghoon is your type and youโre probably never gonna shut up about him.ย โCanโt believe someone cheated on that.โย
โAlright, alright.โ He playfully complains, shoving you back against the couch and practically smothering you with his form as he flops down on you. โHe hasnโt accepted yet, save those compliments for if he joins. He seems pretty shy, probably likes to be doted on.โ
โOoh, shy?โ
โOh yeah, for sure. He was actually stuttering when I made the offer, I donโt think he noticed how red his face got.โ
You chuckle at the mental image of Sunghoon being shy. You only had to meet him a few times to grow interest in him, but on first glance youโd think he would be the dominant type. Itโs a welcome change that your husband thinks heโs the opposite.
โDo you think If I joined you next time, he might be more inclined to pull it out or something?โ
โAbsolutely not. I can imagine he wouldnโt even come out of his house if he saw you on his porch after what I said to him.โ
โGod, heโs cute.โ
Jongseong nods against you in agreement, finally pulling his weight from you and standing on his feet.ย
โYeah, itโll be fun to see where this leads. Now if youโll just follow me to the bedroom, I also told him Iโd be fucking you tonight so Iโd like to make good on my promise.โย
Fortunately for you, Jongseong never makes a promise that he canโt keep.
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For days Sunghoon contemplates the things his neighbor said. Over the short time heโs known him, he clicked into friendship so easily and felt like he could trust him. Apparently, Jongseong felt the same way because spilling all of those intimate details right there during a regular hang out was a bit out of the blue. Then again, he canโt imagine a married man would simply offer for anyone to fuck his wife, so the pros definitely outweigh the cons of this situation.
If it was a joke, he thinks he would know by now. All heโs gotten from Jongseong since then is pleasant conversation as if the offer was never made to begin with. Which somehow makes it worse because he wants to talk about it. He wants more clarity.ย
God, since then, heโs had nothing but intrusive thoughts of fantasies heโs never considered before. Heโs so horny out of his mind on a daily basis thinking about it, especially now that he doesnโt have his ex fiancรฉe around. Porn has never been so loved by him until now. Even when he was a teenager, he never jerked off this much just to calm his thoughts.ย
The various types of porn heโs viewed within the past five days is insane. The post-nut guilt hit him pretty hard at first, sending him into both a sex crazed and sex starved stupor but, the interest only heightened from there as he would eventually start searching up porn related to the exact thing heโs been offered.ย
On the sixth night of contemplation, he peeks through his blinds at the house next door and notes the silence. He knows some wild things must happen in that bedroom and he wants to know what it is so badly. Naturally, he starts searching up some keywords without really knowing what any of it entails.ย
He watches cuckold video after cuckold video, feeling his opinions of fucking another manโs wife validated by the amount of people who seem to love it the way he wants to. Then, exhibitionism comes into play. He watches at least ten videos involving said kink, his cock growing so pathetically hard at the fact that this could be a reality if he wants. Then, voyeurism.
Good lord, thatโs him. All of these videos, at least in the ten more he watches, he can easily put himself in the shoes of watching. Which only makes it more arousing when he lands on a video that is clearly scripted, but entirely too similar to what his kind neighbors offered.ย
There, a man watches through his window, palming himself as a woman gets absolutely railed against her own window. The camera pans to and from both ends of the scenario, for five minutes he watches the woman get fucked from the manโs window view, and then for another five minutes, he watches the man pleasure himself from her view as she moans and whimpers for him.ย
He watches intently, weeping cock twitching each time he closes his eyes and realizes that if he wanted it, that could be him. He could be the stranger in a window watching his neighbors get eachother off, except Sunghoon isnโt a stranger.ย
He doesnโt even need to watch the video to imagine now. Thousands upon thousands of videos comfort him in the idea that yeah, maybe involving himself in a marriage that isnโt his own is okay. Jongseong is a handsome guy, and pretty fit himself. Then thereโs you, such a pretty fucking woman, walking around like you donโt like to get fucked by multiple people as your husband watches.
Goddamn, if thereโs any couple heโd want to be involved with, it would be you and your husband.ย
Okay, maybe heโs interested and maybe that interest plays out the next day. Or rather, the next evening. Another Friday night, when Jongseong usually comes over to hang out except this time Sunghoon doesnโt respond to his texts until much later. Out of both nervousness and his own mind games hyping himself up.ย
If heโs gonna watch, he doesnโt want Jongseong to see him a mere hour or two before it happens, at least.ย
Now though, ten at night, he hyped up his cock the same way he hyped up his mentality. When heโs horny, itโs much easier for him to work up the courage to lay down his own hints, to show his own interest, and to play along with things heโs never delved into.ย
Sunghoon: Hey umย
Jongseong: here I was thinking you were ignoring me or something
Sunghoon: can i ask about something?
Hell yeah he can.ย
Jongseong: oh? you finally warmed up to the idea?ย
Sunghoon: iโm just curious.ย
Jongseong peeps out his own window to see Sunghoonโs blinds very quickly close.
Jongseong: whyโd you back away from the window?ย
Sunghoon: i donโt know, i feel like a weirdo
Jongseong: i invited you to watch me fuck my wife, Sunghoon.ย
No response.
Thereโs a few moments of silence on Jongseongโs end as he turns to you and flicks his head to the window.ย
โIโm ninety percent sure he wants me to fuck you in front of that window right now.โย
โOh?โ You perk up in interest, hopping up from the bed and running over to the window beside your husband and peeking out. โOpen them up then. If he watches, he watches.โ
Jongseong nods, looking down at the silence of his text messages and smirking. Youโre right, if Sunghoon wants to watch, he will.ย
And so, as you go make yourself up in the bathroom for a good first impression, Jongseong is quick to work himself up now too. Given, the two of you were about to call it a night and sleep since the day was quite exhausting, this is a welcome change of events. After all, Jongseong knows how you act when youโre both horny and exhausted. Heโs sure Sunghoon will love it if he works up the courage to just look.
After a few minutes more of silence from Sunghoonโs message box, you make your way back into the room and stare at the window.ย
โIs his bedroom lined up with ours?โ You ask, quirking a brow.ย
โI assume so, yeah.โ Jongseong shrugs, still palming against himself lazily to get ready to put on a show.
โOh, this could be really fun.โ You say, now moving toward the window and pulling at the curtains to move them completely from Sunghoonโs presumed view.ย
Jongseong follows suit, raising the blinds so fast that the sound is almost laughable.
โShould I go ahead and take off my clothes, or?โ You ask now, noting the way Sunghoonโs blinds are still very much closed.ย
โPut this on, tie it loosely and let it fall open for him.โ Jongseong smiles, handing you the silk robe you only ever wear when a third is joining you.ย
โOooh, perfect.โ You laugh with a wiggle of your brows, stepping away from the window to completely undress and put on the robe.ย
Jongseong finally texts Sunghoon again when you get yourself situated, right there in the view of his dark and silent home.ย
Jongseong: blinds are open.
Thank god Sunghoon has read receipts on, because right as Jongseong goes to lock his phone and play with you, he notes that itโs been read and instantly glues himself against your back.ย
โHe knows. Keep your eyes at his window, yeah baby?โ Jongseong whispers before snaking an arm around you and slipping it under your robe to instantly rub against your clit.ย
You do exactly as he says, gluing your eyes to the window directly across from you as you slightly spread your legs and grip the windowsill. Jongseong is good at this, always great with putting on a show too. You know for a fact that even if Sunghoon doesnโt watch, youโre going to be seeing stars whenever your husband deems it appropriate.ย
โYou think heโs gonna look?โ You ask curiously with a sigh, trying not to immediately lose yourself to the feeling of his fingers against your clit, or the hand heโs currently slipping through your robe to grope and squeeze your tits.ย
โWe can only hope, until then, just enjoy it.โ Jongseong smiles against your neck, kissing the back of it before resting his chin on your shoulder, trying to work you up to where you start to slowly lose your sanity like you always do.ย
It works out perfectly for him, knowing that whether Sunghoon watches or not, heโs going to make damn sure youโre taken care of. His fingers expertly slide up and down your delicate folds, and his other hand pinches and rolls your nipple to the point that itโs swollen and sensitive. His kisses against your neck become peppered and gentle as he feels your legs start to shake a bit each time his fingers reach your clit again.ย
You try to turn your head to look at him, but he laughs.ย
โNo, eyes on the window.โ He says in a raspy whisper, pressing his barely clothed cock against your ass. Thankfully, heโs adjusted himself to where just the tip pokes out of his boxers and feeling the coolness of the silk robe offer a gentle and soft sensation, it satiates his needs for now. โFeels good even like this, yeah?โ He asks, sliding his fingers down to tease with your hole.ย
You nod against him, breathing in deeply and turning to jelly against him. You love and hate the way he makes your body react. Itโs hard to keep your eyes on that window across from you when youโre being offered sheer arousal right behind you.ย
โMm, you always get so wet when you know someone might be watching.โ Your husband compliments you, dipping his fingers in before sliding them out again and running them up to swirl around your clit with more pressure than before. โGod, youโre soaking my fingers already babe, he doesnโt know what heโs missing out onโโ
You let out a small moan, frustrated that you want Jongseong to be right. If only Sunghoon would take the two of you up on the offer. If only he would actually glimpse even for a moment. You clench at the idea of those blinds opening, grinding harshly against Jongseongโs hand with a desperate sort of sound.ย
Right then, you see movement next door. Jongseong can tell with the way your pussy grips his fingers tightly when he slides them back into you, and you let out a genuine and desperate moan. He flicks his eyes up, now noting the movement himself.ย
The way you writhe your body at the mere confirmation that Sunghoon is watching is insanely erotic to your husband. Whether itโs out of curiosity or if itโs out of arousal, it doesn't matter. He loves the way you get turned on so fast, and with this being the situation, heโs not surprised that you seem more desperate than usual. Plus, the fact that those blinds stay parted shows that Sunghoon likes what heโs seeing, and you couldnโt be more aroused by the thought of what he must be doing behind the veil of his own window-blinds.ย
Jongseong chuckles gently in your ear as you continue to lose your mind on his fingers, he can tell that now youโre moving to turn both him and Sunghoon on, rather than just him like moments ago. You grind more, you whine more, you get increasingly more wet.ย
And as you stare forward to the little space in Sunghoonโs window where his eyes sit, you grow more and more frustrated with the way he doesnโt open the blinds up. You want to see him too, you need to see if heโs touching himself.
Jongseong can tell through your frustrated moans that you need more, and like the doting husband he is, he offers a solution fairly quickly.ย
โWhatโs wrong?โ He coos, fucking his fingers in again at an angle, deepening them inside of you and holding your waist in place. โHeโs not giving you what you want?โ
You nod brokenly, finally tearing your eyes from the window and shooting a pleading look to your husband, rolling your eyes back only slightly when his fingertips bump the soft and sensitive spot inside of you.ย
โMy phone, use it.โ Jongseong smiles, holding your waist in place tighter so he can fuck his fingers in at a harsher pace. You tremble in his grasp, unsure if you can even process the idea of texting right now. โTell him to let you see him.โ
You nod, smiling through the sensitivity of your g-spot being repeatedly assaulted, clearly on purpose, surely to have you going fucking feral. Reaching for the phone, your hands are trembling as you unlock it and read over the messages from before with Sunghoon. His curiosity is hopefully strong enough to actually stick around for the next however long, because god, you want him to see you fall apart.ย
Jongseong: open your blinds, let me see
Sunghoon watches you text as your body jerks with each hidden movement of Jongseongโs hand under that robe, and when his phone goes off he almost panics. Almost. He drops his cock and grabs his phone in one hand while using the other to keep the split of his blinds open enough to keep watching. Fighting the feeling of appearing like a damn stalker, despite his hips rubbing his achingly hard cock against the trim of the window.ย
The way Jongseong stares from behind you, the way you smirk through faces of pleasure at what heโs doing to you, at what he must be saying to you. Sunghoon has never felt so fucking aroused watching someone have what he wants. The way you skew your head to listen to what your husband is saying, the way his hands move to places he canโt see. Arguably, you look like the most fuckable person on this planet at the moment and itโs incredibly difficult to not want to fuck something, anything, right now.
Sunghoon knows heโs done for if he so much as grips his own cock by now. So quickly the thought of doing this made his pathetic cock weep against his briefs, and now, seeing it happen in real time just across the yard. Yeah, he could cum within seconds if he doesnโt try to control it. Upon reading your text though, he finds himself following precise directions and opens the blinds for you to reveal himself.ย
His face flushes seeing you in full without the blinds cutting off his peripheral vision. It kind of hits him differently realizing heโs in his own quiet bedroom fucking himself to the image of you propped up against the window for him. Itโs embarrassing and he feels entirely pathetic when you look at him like this. Both so far away and so close at the same time. His senses are heightened tenfold the moment he sees you react.ย
An accidental moan spills from his lips, the sound breaking the heavy silence of his home and echoing through the walls as if to tell whatever ghosts that live here that he definitely wants to fuck around with the married couple next door. Your attraction to him only heightens the confidence he holds within himself.
You, on the other hand, can feel your arousal drip out of you and onto your husbandโs hand at seeing Sunghoon coming into full view. Your hand grips at your husbandโs, clumsily allowing yourself to feel the sheer force of how his fingers are plunging into you just at the right moment. You roll your head back briefly, basking in the pleasure of being fucked and watched.
โKeep watching babe,โ Jongseong groans himself, flicking his eyes to Sunghoon. โHeโs so hard.โ
You weakly lift your head again, opening your darkened eyes and looking directly at the man through the window. His hair is a mess, fanning across his forehead, and heโs shirtless, revealing the abs you only assumed he had at first glance. His cock is heavy against his dark gray briefs, stretching the fabric out enough to tell you that, yeah, he is packing.ย
You make eye contact with him, staring straight into his eyes as you press your ass back and against Jongseong, who readily accepts the movement and presses his cock directly against you with a soft sigh of his own.ย
โAlready?โ He whispers to you with an amused chuckle, stilling his fingers and dropping his other hand to toy at the tie of your robe, hopefully so it falls open naturally at a quicker pace now that you appear to be losing it.ย
โRight now.โ You respond in a desperate voice, hiking one leg up against the table off to the side and feeling your robe instantly fall open.ย
Your eyes devour the image of Sunghoonโs mouth falling open in what you can only assume is a moan at your naked body being revealed to him and Jongseongโs fingers rapidly fucking into you. Instantly, you shoot your hand to your chest and start toying with one of your nipples for him. Throwing a hungry gaze straight across the way and making obvious suggestions at him through it.ย
Jongseong from behind you is seemingly in his own little world when he pulls his fingers out and shoves his boxers down. He arches your back with his palm so that your ass lifts for him, instantly you can feel his cock between your legs. He takes a step back, pulling you with him and removing your leg from the table to position you in a way that if Sunghoon looks hard enough, he can see the way his cock slides between your thighs.ย
โNot yet, letโs play first.โ Jongseong soothes you through the disappointed sigh of your leg being pulled down from the table. You were so ready to start fucking immediately, but of course he wants to make a good first impression. โHold your legs together.โ He adds.
You listen perfectly, feeling Jongseongโs cock slide easily between your thighs.ย
โGod, fuckโโ He moans, feeling the wetness of you drip down onto his length as you squeeze your thighs together as tightly as possible. โHe would go insane over you.โ
โHe already is,โ You chuckle weakly, staring at the way Sunghoonโs hand snakes under his briefs and tugs against himself. โI want to see it so bad.โย
โMm, yeah, I bet you do.โ Jongseong responds mindlessly, loving the feeling your thighs offer to his desperate length. โTell him then.โ
Right then, Sunghoon can see a mischievous little smile form across your lips as he struggles already not to release against his perfectly cleaned window. The way Jongseong manhandles you is one thing, with his hands gripping onto your flesh just to pound his cock between your legsโ fuck. But, the way both of you stare straight at him is another. Sunghoon might be obsessed with the way the two of you touch each other intentionally to get all three of you off. So badly does he want to be right there in the room, hearing you in his ear, watching Jongseong kiss across your skin and massage your pretty sensitive pussy. One that he hasnโt entirely even gotten to see yet.ย
Then, he jumps as his phone rings.ย
From your end, you watch as he jumps out of surprise, glances at his phone, then back at you, shaking his head with a wince as he grips his cock again.ย
โHeโs not going to pick up.โ You comment as the tightened squeeze of your thighs loosen up with disappointment.ย
Jongseong is instantly smiling, letting his cock fall from its place of stimulation and is pulling you back, back, back. Offering a full view of him falling back on the bed, and you falling with him.ย
โShow him your pussy.โ Jongseong says, reaching around you to open your thighs as if youโre a grand prize for this little sex game of trying to seduce a broken hearted man.
Jongseong knows he has an entire list of positions he could do to get Sunghoon just as desperate as you get. Usually, presenting his wifeโs pussy at another man is enough to have them making decisions they previously doubted. He hopes Sunghoon reacts the same, because if heโs being totally honest with himself, saying no to you when youโre spread out like this is a fucking sin.
You stare at Sunghoon when your husband spreads your legs, pussy pulsing around nothing more than the stare being directed at it. And there, sitting on Jongseongโs hips with your back facing him, you easily hold your legs open and slide your fingers down to circle your clit.ย
You stay like that for a moment, squinting to see Sunghoonโs reaction and noting the way his hand fucks faster under the fabric of his briefs. You want him to go harder, so hard that he needs to take that last remaining bit of clothing off of him so that you can see. Thankfully, Jongseongโs cock lies right below where your ass is sitting , and itโs easy to grasp it and hold it up against your folds. You grid against it gently before swirling your clit along the length of him, still staring at Sunghoon with a smile. As if to tell him, โthis could be you.โ
The way Sunghoonโs hand moves faster is one thing, the way he looks more unashamed now compared to when you first saw him in that window is another. The way his arms flex as he keeps his cock hidden beneath those briefs, jerking himself off desperately as if you canโt tell heโs struggling not to moan loud enough for you to hear even from here, itโs too fucking erotic.ย
Never have you and your husband had a neighbor to play with like this. Typically, youโre being watched in the same room, this is something entirely different. This is insanely arousing and you can feel your pussy clench each time youโre reminded of how fucking sweet this deal could be.
โKeep doing thatโ Jongseong continues to instruct through a half-moan, feeling the way you rub his length against you as a form of masturbation. โIโll call him again.โย
This time, you note how the phone rings once before Sunghoon is fumbling to answer. You see the way his hand stills to put his focus on saying โhello?โ as if he doesnโt know itโs you and your husband. As if the people calling him arenโt watching him fuck himself.ย
Jongseong starts immediately though, his words driving you insane enough to know Sunghoon would have to react in a way that sends him over edge too.
โYou wouldnโt believe how wet she is,โ Your husband boasts without greeting him back, putting the phone on speaker and lying it next to the two of you. โI bet you would love to bury your tongue in her right now, wouldnโt you?โ
Sunghoon nearly stutters as he hears the words, staring at the way you hold Jongseongโs cock right where you want it to grind against. Itโs so much to be able to see and hear whatโs happening, and itโs like something in his head clicks. Heโs so fucking turned on that he feels like heโs going insane, so he puts his normal, level-minded self to rest. No room for embarrassment when his cock is already aching for the couple who seem to want him just as bad.ย
โFuck, yeah,โ Sunghoon sighs out, lying his own phone down against the window sill and fucking his hips forward into his hand. His briefs now stretched out to the point that they truly are more of an issue than anything else right now. โI would, god, how wet?โ
You moan at how desperate his voice sounds, now pressing your clit directly against the head of Jongseongโs cock and deliberately making yourself moan from pleasure. When he flashes his cock to you though, fuck. Just barely he lowers his briefs, palm teasing himself in such a harsh way. He looks so pretty over there, all alone, watching someone else get to play with you like some kind of pervert.ย
โThatโs it,โ You say, knowing he can hear you. โLet me see you.โย
Sunghoon does, shoving his briefs down entirely now, allowing you to imprint the image of how thick and heavy his length is in your brain permanently.ย
โOh, youโd feel so good,โ You half-groan to Sunghoon, now inching your husbandโs cock straight to your hole and preparing to fuck the daylights out of him. โI knew youโd have a cock just as pretty as you.โ
Jongseong chuckles from behind you, entirely aroused by the way you talk to another man, a more shy man. He can tell how desperate you are by now too, especially with the way you toy with his cock as if you picked it up from a store shelf and itโs not attached to him. He loves it. And when he sits up, wrapping his arms around you to also see Sunghoon, he smiles.ย
Both of you are totally fucking gone. Even from here he can tell Sunghoon is losing his mind over you. Thankfully, you deserve nothing less and Jongseong couldnโt be happier to play off of the way you both seem to want each other terribly.ย
โSee this?โ He says towards the phone,ย snaking his hand around you to move his cock and spreading your pussy lips. โEven from there, canโt you see how wet she is for this?โ
Both of you can hear Sunghoonโs muffled groan before you see it, his head falling forward against the window as he stares down at his hand and the way he fucks it. Youโre entirely satisfied, because you know what heโs thinking. You can see how badly he wants it, and your husband does nothing but remind him of it.ย
โDo you want me to fuck him?โ You finally ask, pushing your own agenda and rising up on your knees to situate yourself right above Jongseongโs length, where he takes over and holds it in place for you.ย
Sunghoonโs eyes shoot back to the two of you and he nods before breathing out a small โYeahโฆโ
He doesnโt seem like much of a talker, but it could still be stage fright. Even if he isnโt the one on the damn stage. You can imagine he would get better at this if he accepts the invite of your open blinds on more than one occasion.ย
Jongseong chuckles again at him, the breathy tone of his voice is quite obvious to him. Sunghoon is holding out, he doesnโt want to cum too soon and end the fun.
โYou heard him babe, ride me.โย
Instantly, youโre sinking down and feeling the harsh stretch of Jongseongโs cock pulsing inside of you. Your drawn out moan rings in Sunghoonโs mind as he watches the slow descent. Only now, noting how big Jongseong is, and seeing how well you take it. He twitches in his palm, eyes nearly rolling back to escape the overwhelming arousal that floods his thoughts.ย
Sunghoon isnโt sure if either of you are aware, but he can hear how wet you are through the phone. When you slide down and start bouncing, all while staring forward at him, he can hear it pour out of you. The slapping of your ass landing against Jongseong is a beautiful sound, and he does his best not to moan through it and muffle those sounds out.ย
He stares straight back at you, thinking hard enough at how he fucks the circle his fingers create. Heโs losing his breath when he fucks his fist in time with the way you bounce, tuning into your face and imagining that heโs the one youโre riding. No offense to Jongseong, itโs nearly like he doesnโt exist right now considering heโs almost entirely hidden by you.ย
That doesnโt last too long though, because Jongseong makes himself well known through his breathy words. Dirty talking in a way that somehow, Sunghoon still finds himself shocked by it. The words turn him on, he can only imagine how you feel about.ย
โFuck, babe, youโre so tight.โ Jongseong says at first, gripping your thighs and basking in the way you squeeze his length each time Sunghoon does something to turn you on. โ All spread out like this for him? So, so good.โ
Sunghoon feels so shameless, and for some reason it feels okay. Your husband is dirty talking to you about him and itโs insanely sexy when he hears it. Already stuttering his hips in his palm, especially when he notes that Jongseong moves his hands to your pussy and spreads it open again for him. Offering him the perfect view of his length sliding in and out of you.ย
โWould love to see how this pussy gets filled up, youโd like that, wouldnโt you?โ
Unsure if Jongseong is talking to you or to him at this point, Sunghoon answers without thinking.ย
โFuck, yeah, fuckโโ Sunghoon says with a cut-off groan, holding the base of his cock so tight he feels like he canโt breathe. He canโt release yet, he has to keep going.ย
You moan loudly at his breathed out answer, nodding your head frantically at the confirmation, answering for yourself shortly after.ย
โYeah?โ You start, encouraging Sunghoon to keep talking. โYou think you could stretch me open too? Yeah?โย
And then? He moans brokenly through the phone which instantly has you leaning yourself back, and lying against Jongseongโs chest. He falls back with you, holding you and once again and moving his fingers to your clit, his cock still pounding in at the perfect pace.ย
โFuck, sheโs thereโโ Jongseong grits out, feeling your orgasm wash over you and grip his cock insanely tightly. โGoddamn, feels so good babe, thatโs it.โ
Sunghoon, watching and listening, instantly releases the grip on the base of his cock, staring straight at the way Jongseong stuffs his length inside of you. Hearing the way you called his name with encouraging words echoes in his head, and then he stutters out a broken sob as he feels his own orgasm wash over him, and just like him, youโre also listening.ย
He must hold his breath when heโs close, or maybe heโs just way more shy than he appears to be, considering what heโs doing right now, but you donโt mind as you ride your own high. Ears popping shortly after when Jongseong continues to chase his own pleasure through the mess of your pulsing cunt.ย
Strangely enough, even Jongseong is shocked at how fast he cums from this. Releasing a mere two seconds after you relaxed around him. You can feel him pulse inside of you as you lie against him, pussy still on full display, cum dripping out of you in a beautiful scene for Sunghoonโs eyes to devour.
And devour, they do. Sunghoon just stares, head spinning as he ignores the spurts of cum hitting his window and dripping down onto his carpet. His hand is also drenched but he makes no attempt to move afterwards. Arguably, heโs still aroused by the image of the way your husband fills you up like that, and the way youโre so full of his cock that it dribbles out and onto your thighs from around him.ย
God, he wants to lick you so bad. Even now, fully spent and his sober-mind coming back to him, he wants to taste you. He wants to taste what Jongseong just spilled into you.ย
โSunghoon,โ Jongseong calls out, breaking the silence with an out of breath voice. โYou still watching?โ
Thereโs another moment of paused silence.
โYeahโโย
Jongseong smiles, nuzzling his face against you and your neck as you continue to lean against him out of breath. Slowly, he pulls out of you, once again spreading you open for Sunghoon to see, allowing the rest of his cum to drip out of you.ย
โTake a good look, because this pussy went fucking insane over you.โ He says, slapping your sensitive clit twice before sliding his hand down and playing in the mess heโs made of you.
Sunghoon does look. He has been looking. Honestly, itโs almost embarrassing at the way his cock twitches with interest again, so fucking fast after having already been emptied. Never has his ex let him raw her like that. Never has he seen his cum drip out of someone. Heโs so jealous right now.
โIโll be coming over tomorrow to discuss this.โ Jongseong adds nonchalantly, easily going from filth-talk to casual-talk. โGet some rest.โย
โGoodnight, Pretty boy.โ You call out with a dazed smile, finally moving yourself off of Jongseong and adjusting your robe back onto your shoulders.ย
And right before Jongseong hangs up the phone, both of you smile at each other at the way Sunghoon lets out, in the tiniest voice for such a broad man, a gentle little โGoodnight.โย
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By morning, Sunghoon nearly forgot Jongseong said he was coming over. It wasnโt until the afternoon when he managed to get the image of you getting off out of his mind that he remembered thereโs supposed to be a discussion about it.ย
Embarrassment hits him harder than it ever has, thinking about what he was doing for both of you to see. It wasnโt just a show for him, he put one on for the two of you as well.ย
When he makes his way back into his bedroom, he tries to ignore the fact that your blinds are still open, and thereโs no one in the room. He pauses briefly, once again trapped in the on-going loop of what he saw happening on that very bed just the night before.ย
It feels like heโs doomed when Jongseong comes over. He could just not answer the door but it doesnโt change the fact that he lives right next door and he already came all over his window before your very eyes. Before Jongseongโs very eyes. Heโs already crossed the boundary into someone elseโs marriage and despite loving the idea of it, itโs scary. Itโs not something heโs ever considered doing before meeting the two of you, and now, heโs kind of just confused as to how all of this works.ย
Like, it almost seems too sweet of a deal. Youโre a beautiful couple, who is he to be able to watch what you do with your husband? Whatโs the catch?ย
Well, he comes to find out that there isnโt much of a catch at all. Jongseong shows up with a warm smile and a gift of wine. It felt welcoming but insanely awkward with the way itโs the first time Sunghoon has ever been offered a hug by him.
They hug. Jongseong fucking hugs him to say hello with that expensive ass bottle of wine as if to say โnice cock, my wife loved it.โย
Jongseong does pick up on the awkwardness though, stepping through Sunghoonโs door and inviting himself in. After all, itโs only appropriate at this point. He keeps his smile though, loving the way you woke up in a good mood all thanks to Sunghoon letting his curiosity get the best of him.ย
โDonโt be like that,โ Jongseong says, glancing around the house and nodding in approval that it doesnโt appear to be entirely barren. He kind of expected the house to not feel like a home, because thatโs usually what single men do. โYou can back out anytime you want.โ
Sunghoon, somehow, feels eased by those words. His heart thumps against his chest at the thought of never doing it again though. Which is kind of weird to him.ย
โSorry, I just donโt really know how to act right now...โ
Jongseong offers him a warm smile again, seeing himself to the kitchen and opening the drawers.ย
โWe can talk about that,โ He waves him off, still rummaging through a kitchen that isnโt his own. โYou got a corkscrew?โย
Sunghoon nods, trying to make his frame seem as small as possible by tip-toeing past his neighbor with the huge cock and opening one of the only drawers he didnโt get to. He pulls out the corkscrew and hands it to him, making no attempt to look into his eyes even for a second.ย
โOh my god, loosen up.โ Jongseong rolls his eyes, shoving Sunghoon by the shoulder playfully and heading back to the bottle of wine.
Sunghoon feels slightly comforted by the fact that maybe he can loosen up with a bit of wine in his system, but getting to that point feels like itโs going to be hell. Heโs never felt so embarrassed.ย
โSorry,โ He responds in a small voice, grabbing two random cups and following Jongseong. โI donโt know what Iโm supposed to expect out of this whole thing, likeโโย
Jongseong cuts him off with a wave of his hand.
โThatโs why Iโm here to talk to you about it. Clearly this isnโt something youโve done before, itโs not like we didnโt want you to get off or anything. Youโll come to learn that we enjoy this kind of thing.โ
He pauses as he opens the bottle, shifting it to the side now to grab two cups and look at Sunghoon.ย
โIf you end up not enjoying it, thereโs always someone else we can find to take up the offer.โ
Sunghoon very nearly panics, hoping it doesnโt show plainly on his face as he takes over pouring the wine. Jongseong picks up on people so easily, watching Sunghoon shake his head slightly at the words and pour a suspiciously nervous amount of wine into both cups.ย
โThatโs the thing though,โ Sunghoon says, popping the cork back into the bottle and already taking a swig of his wine. โI did enjoy it. I mean, I do enjoy it.โ
Jongseong raises his brow, nodding his head in encouragement and grabbing his own cup before following Sunghoon to his living room.
โGood, Iโm glad you had fun. Letโs talk about it then.โ
Sunghoon knows itโs inevitable, and hopefully within the next hour, he wonโt feel so cautious in talking about it.
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โYou know, usually I wouldnโt let her cum so fast,โ Jongseong shrugs, standing to grab the bottle of wine and bring it into the living room. โI tend to try and get a few out of her but she just wasnโt going to let me. Did you see the way she grabbed it and sat on me? I couldnโt have stopped her even if I wanted to.โย
The way Jongseong talks loudly and comfortably about it is kind of soothing. Given, this is probably why theyโre opting to hang out inside of the house rather than outside. This is a private matter, an intimate one, even.ย
โShe slept like a rock afterwards, and is now insisting we keep the blinds open at all times to view at your discretion.โย
Sunghoon stutters a bit, scooting his cup towards Jongseong and hoping he pours another generous amount into his cup. Already, since he doesnโt drink too often these days, he can feel the buzz and comfort settles within him as Jongseong seemingly dotes on him.ย
โWhat Iโm trying to say is, our blinds are permanently open unless youโd rather not do this. Alternatively, the door is open too, but,โ Jongseong pauses so he can sip his drink. โYouโre going to need to get tested first if you want that thing anywhere near my wife.โ
Sunghoon shifts slightly, squeezing his legs together uncomfortably as his wine bubbles in his belly.ย
โIโve already been tested. My ex cheated on me with god knows how many people, you think that wasnโt the first thing I did?โ
โSmart man,โ Jongseong claps him on the shoulder, now leaning in a bit too close for comfort if Sunghoon were still in his embarrassed mind-state. โWe get that youโre shy about all of this, but Iโve gotta tell you, the way she clenched when you moaned, oh man.โ
Sunghoonโs eyes start to shine at the compliment, for some reason feeling like heโs on top of the world hearing that.ย
โFelt like I was being strangled, honestly.โ Jongseong laughs before going quiet. โSo, what do you think?โ
Sunghoon pauses, staring at his cup and then at his neighbor.ย
โI, umโโ He sighs out of frustration, wondering why he canโt articulate a damn sentence with confidence. โI liked watching, I guess. Not sure if Iโm ready to justโฆโ
โCome over and fuck my wife?โ Jongseong finishes his sentence playfully before immediately gripping Sunghoonโs shoulder and laughing fondly at him. โTake your time. Like I said, the blinds are open and we have a pretty active sex life. I can imagine youโre going to wonder how Iโm not milked dry yet.โ
He already wonders that.
โBut I do want to say, if you decide to actually come over and show her a good time, there are rules to that.โย
Sunghoon quirks a brow, unsure of if his mind is running in a way that will let him take down mental notes.ย
โFirst of all, sheโs protected so as long as you can provide proof of your test you can cum in her all you want, she likes that but, youโre not touching her ass.โ
Sunghoon nods, shrugging nonchalantly and surprised he even responded that way.ย
โShe likes it rough but she doesnโt know you well enough yet. Donโt slap my wife, donโt grab her neck with the intention of choking her, and donโt call her any type of degrading name. Not yet, at least.โ
Wow, his brain is actually taking down the mental notes perfectly. Even with these rules, heโs not entirely into hitting the person he wants to be inside of, not unless they ask anyway.ย
โThatโs it. Those are the rules.โ Jongseong says with a shrug, taking another drink and tapping his foot on the floor. โWhat about you? For possible future endeavors, whatโre your terms?โ
Thereโs a long pause. Sunghoon is totally unprepared to make rules for a situation heโs never even been involved with before, but he does his best.ย
โWell,โ He breathes out, blowing a strand of his fringe up from his forehead in a huff. โI donโt know. Donโt put anything in my ass?โ
โWell, thatโs sucks,โ Jongseong deadpans, then nods. โBut fair, okay. What else?โย
Sunghoon continues to let his eyes wander around his living room as he thinks of things he doesnโt like sexually.ย
โI really don't know. Iโve mostly just had normal sex. I can tell you what I do like?โ He admits, knowing that all of this is just in case.
โAlright, go on then.โ Jongseong nods, now topping off their drinks.ย
Itโs actually hilarious to him, hearing Sunghoon list off the most mundane sex acts. He does his best not to chuckle at the mention of โblow jobs, I like those.โ Instead, he offers something along with that, interrupting him.
โEver been deep throated?โ Jongseong asks, watching Sunghoon breathe in because itโs like he lost all of his breath trying to list off things he likes. โLike, you know, ever face-fucked?โ
Sunghoon nods, then shakes his head, then nods.ย
โ I mean, my ex never really let me hold her head in place, but I tried once. And donโt even get me started on the way she would refuse to continue if she gagged even once.โ
Jongseong shakes his head in pity.
โMan, youโre gonna love my wife.โย
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Well, to put it lightly, Sunghoon might, definitely, insanely, obsessively be in love with you. Not in like the โleave your husbandโ way but more in like the โi want you so bad and know that iโm allowed to have you if iโd just stop being a little bitch about itโ way.ย
Itโs been another entire week since Jongseong came over to discuss things with him and even more so now, is Sunghoonโs mind in the gutters. Heโs thankful heโs good at his job, almost able to do everything needed without much thought behind it because if that werenโt the case, he would probably be fired by now.ย
Fired for being too horny at work isnโt something he ever considered would happen to himself, and though it hasnโt and probably wonโt, he isnโt too shocked at this point to be learning more and more about these hidden little interests that only came to light when he met you and your husband.ย
Those blinds do stay open, and that little bedside lamp in your bedroom has become one of his favorite things. One, because it illuminates the way your body moves when Jongseong inevitably fucks the breath out of you, and two, because itโs actually kind of a nice lamp.
And god, his window. His poor fucking window. Four out of the seven nights since Jongseong came over has he been standing right there, blinds open, getting himself off. He knows heโs a pervert by this point. He embraces it now, knowing for a fact that youโre also embracing it, and even Jongseong is too.ย
The embarrassment that hits him after each time he releases hurts much less than the post-nut guilt of all that porn he was watching before all of this happened. Heโs not sure why, but thereโs something inside of him that tells him itโs because heโs wanted. Heโs being fawned over by an entire married couple and it makes his confidence go through the fucking roof.ย
That second time he stood at his window, he was still unsure of it. But now, three more sessions later, he finds himself considering the offer of being in the room. Each time he thinks he should do it. You know, like release his cock mid-jerk off session just to run next door and barge into the room to bury himself inside of you, all while Jongseong allows it to happen and praises him for manning up to do it.ย
He hasnโt yet though, because most of the time he struggles to pull his eyes away from how fucking good the two of you look together. And you know, to him, when he thinks about actually being in that room with the two of you, thereโs still some shame left in him about it.ย
Something about the idea of joining a married couple despite how much he loves watching them, the idea of them asking him multiple times to work his body on you, the idea of them leaving their blinds open just so he can get off at his own volition.ย
Itโs such an insane fantasy come to life and the shame he feels about actually following through stays despite it wavering with each time he watches and listens in by calling you himself to hear you moan.ย
Again, by now, an entire week later and several sessions of pure voyeurism, he questions that shame and wonders how much itโll take to ignore it. Next time for sure heโs going to go over there. Next time, heโs going to put that shame to rest like he did the first time with simply watching.ย
That next time doesnโt happen though, because youโre not wandering around your room naked for Sunghoon to see when his alarm goes off. Because yeah, itโs kind of a ritual now to look out the window and nod a little โgood morningโ to you and your tits.
When he looks outside near the afternoon, both cars in your driveway are gone and it hits him over how fixated he is on the two of you. It feels almost empty seeing the two of you gone on a weekend, when Jongseong is usually texting him to see if he wants to hang out.ย
By this point for him, yes, come over please.ย
Then, relief washes over him when he hears Jongseongโs car pull into the driveway. The amount of pining within Sunghoon at this moment is driving him insane. Itโs only four in the afternoon by this point and his mind is reeling. Going miles a minute and honestly, he needs this overwhelming feeling to be eradicated.ย
He needs to do it.ย
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Jongseong is shocked as he sits eating his dinner to the sound of a knock at his door. Heโs swift when he stands to his feet and answers it.ย
โOh, was gonna text you to hang out after dinnerโโ He pauses, realizing this is the first time Sunghoon has ever been on his doorstep save for when he greeted them with a meal after he moved in. He eyes him up and down momentarily before smirking. โWell, well, well.โย
Sunghoon doesnโt quite make eye contact as he stands there and shoves the proof of his tests into Jongseongโs chest, already regretting the decision to come over without so much as texting.ย
โShowing up looking like this, already hard too?โ Jongseong says snidely, glancing at the results and leaning himself against his door frame. His eyes stare directly at Sunghoonโs obvious raging hard-on beneath his pants, then he glances up at his face.ย
Sunghoon appears to be both ashamed and proud, presenting himself like a damn virgin.ย
โRelax, itโs cool. You can come in,โ Jongseong finally says, trying to ease the tension that seems to be festering within his friend. โIโll call and see if sheโs coming home tonight.โ
Sunghoon is fucking mortified. Of course heโs bad at timing. Of fucking course he shows up ready to fuck and youโre not even here. Now heโs just left standing just inside of the front door with a desperate and pathetic cock that, for some reason, still isnโt even going down.ย
โSheโs. not. here.โ Sunghoon says to himself loud enough for Jongseong to throw a laugh at him, putting the phone up to his ear after pressing the call button.
โShe went to see her parents. I bet the second I tell her youโre standing there like that, hot โn hard, sheโll be running red lights.โย
Sunghoon is flushed. Entirely aroused by this whole situation despite the embarrassment. The last thing he needs to admit to right now though, is getting off on the shameful way heโs acting. He knows he looks desperate, and thatโฆfor some reason, makes him feel proud.ย
Heโs so in his head that he doesnโt even hear Jongseong talk to you. Completely misses the way he says into the phone โhey babe, guess who is standing in our living room right now? so hard it looks like he might cry.โ
Totally misses the brief pause and then Jongseongโs response of, โyeah, you might wanna rush.โ
Luckily for him though, heโs so in his head that time flies as he tries to will his length to go down just a little bit. Itโs frustrating, really, to only learn certain things as they happen to him, but like, damn. He really feels like heโs about to burst already, just standing here with a womanโs husband who is knowingly about to let him fuck her.ย
โYouโre not usually this quiet.โ Jongseong finally says to Sunghoon, who is still just standing there in the living room. โYou nervous?โ
Sunghoon instantly nods, throwing his hands in front of his hard-on and looking at Jongseong.ย
โThis is the worst, actually,โ Sunghoon starts, shifting from one leg to the other and glancing away. โFuck you guys for being so enticing.โ
Jongseong shrugs proudly, offering a smile and then nodding his head as if to invite Sunghoon to sit on the couch.ย
โSheโll be here soon, Iโm just going to clean up. Donโt think too hard and take off running, sheโs excited.โ
Sunghoon nods reluctantly, taking a seat on the couch and staring up at the ceiling in defeat. Jumping out of a window sounds pretty nice but by this point he assumes every window he will ever touch probably has his cum on it by now. You know, association and stuff.ย
Then, he hears a car pull up and heโs practically throwing himself to his feet. His balance turning him into a clumsy mess, totally forgetting how to navigate his body and entirely losing the ability to know how to navigate this entire situation.ย
The good news for him though, is that you practically jump out of your car and sprint for the door. Not even greeting Jongseong when you rush inside and kick off your shoes.ย
All Sunghoon knows is that, one second he stands to his feet and gets a head rush, then he hears a door slam, Jongseong letting out a breathy laugh, and then you slamming into him and practically knocking him back down onto the couch.
โAll this time you made me watch? And now you show up when Iโm at dinner with my parents.โ ย You playfully scold him, immediately straddling him and grabbing his face with both hands so that he can look at you. โYouโre going to have to tie me up if you donโt want me to be all over you right now.โ
Sunghoon looks at Jongseong with a stunned expression, receiving a simple shrug in response.ย
โYou want her to touch you?โ He asks, heading for the bedroom and raising his voice to continue. โIf not, I do have rope.โ
Sunghoon looks at you, still totally stunned by how fucking fast you got on top of him. Heโs rendered more speechless than youโve ever made him, and his cock twitches painfully from the sensitivity of you sitting on top of him.ย
He nods politely, dipping his head and looking down.ย
โYou can touch me.โ He whispers, only to be cut off by Jongseong shouting from the bedroom.
โYou guys gonna come into the bedroom, or?โ He yells, peeking around the corner and shooting a look at you specifically, as if to remind you to pace yourself considering that Sunghoon is entirely new to this and still seems like a deer in the headlights.ย
You nod to Jongseong and then lift Sunghoonโs face back up to you again.ย
โI can tell your heart is racing,โ You say to him in a fond tone, tilting your head playfully. โItโs okay, come on.โ You add, pulling yourself off of him and grabbing his hand.
He stares at the way you intertwine your fingers. Feeling like if he thinks hard enough, youโre not married and youโre more into him than just sex. Then again, he doesnโt want to think about that at all. The whole reason heโs so turned on is because this is considered strange to most people he knows. He doesnโt even want to be in love, he doesnโt want to be in a relationship with any single person right now.ย
What he wants is this. What he wants is to watch you through his window, and lust over you, and then get to have you. Time and time again. What he wants is for Jongseong to always share you with him, because he can barely cross his own boundaries, better yet crossing someone else's.ย
At least with him, youโd be safe. Jongseong wouldnโt have to worry about broken rules or him coming into your home to take full control. This isnโt his relationship, itโs yours, and if the two of you want him involved even with just sex, heโs leaping for the opportunity at this point.ย
There, heโs led into the bedroom where Jongseong looks at him with a fond expression. Sunghoon stares for a moment, then looks around the room. It feels like heโs been pining to be in this very room for ages, and knowing heโs standing here right now feels even more overwhelming.ย
He glances at the window, looking through it into his own open blinds and the embarrassment hits him twice as hard, which obviously has his cock aching in arousal. He isnโt even ashamed of the little, breathy whimper of defeat he lets out at this moment, rolling his eyes back and furrowing his brows.ย
You let go of Sunghoon and take your place beside Jongseong, both of you checking Sunghoon out from head to toe before looking at each other and smiling.ย
โI donโt even know where to start,โ Jongseong admits, feeling defeated that for the first time in his sex life with you, he doesnโt know how to get the ball rolling. โWhy does this feel so intimate compared to usual?โ
You laugh, now staring down both of them, wanting nothing more than to fuck and be fucked. The air in this room feels electrifying, and already you have goosebumps rising against your skin. It feels like heaven.ย
โProbably because heโs so close to home,โ You chuckle, feeling totally in control with two lost men staring at you as if they want to eat you alive. โIsnโt that right, Sunghoon?โ You say, taking a step towards him and already lifting your shirt off of you.
Just as quickly as Jongseong loses his ability to be the one in control, he gains it back after seeing how confident you are. He knows for a fact how badly you want to be on Sunghoon right now, and he has no qualms with that, but part of the fun is being able to present you until the third in the room is practically drooling.ย
โNot too quickly,โ Jongseong warns, pulling you back by the arm and wrapping his arms around you, dipping his head down to kiss your neck and look Sunghoon directly in the eye. โJust look at him for a bit.โ
Sunghoon feels so fucking seen right now, his cock still wildly twitching at each word and glance. He very nearly falls to his knees right then, because in all fairness heโs been rock hard all fucking day and intentionally held off so that he would be so out of his mind, that surely heโd fuck you as good as you need him to.ย
โJongie, Iโve been watching him.โ You say, leaning against his warmth and devouring Sunghoon with your eyes, โCโmere, Hoonie.โ You add, giving both men shortened versions of their names to show your adoration for them at this moment.ย
Sunghoon manages to take a step forward without his knees buckling from under him, his eyes scanning your bare torso and the way your chest is hidden by your bra. He canโt not stare, after all, heโs grown accustomed to it by now. He knows what's under that bra and whatโs under those pants, but it still doesnโt change the fact that heโs never seen your body this close. Heโs never touched you before.ย
โWell?โ Jongseong looks at him as he makes his way across the room a bit too slowly for his liking. โWe have all day, technically.โ
Sunghoon switches his eyes over to Jongseong, who seems amused by how enamored he is right now with you. His mind is fairly blank right now, outside of thinking about everything he wants to do, everything he wishes he could say, but still, all he can manage to do is stand in front of you, still not reaching out. He looks at the way Jongseong has you locked in his arms, holding you still against his chest as if to tame a beast from him.ย
โYouโre so pretty, Sunghoon, really.โ You say, blinking up at him and tapping Jongseong to loosen his grip on you. โYou can touch me too, you know.โ
Heโs still reluctant, looking to Jongseong once again for confirmation and receiving a nod. His hands reach out, touching nothing more than your bare shoulder before sliding down your waist and stepping even closer.ย
You can feel the warmth radiating off of them as they sandwich you there between them. Jongseong and his confident breaths behind you easily contrast to Sunghoonโs deeper, nervous breathing. You kind of get now why your husband told you to just watch for a little bit longer. Sunghoon is so readable, with the way his eyes canโt find where to land, the way his hands know where they want to go but he clearly holds back from doing too much too soon out of fear that this entire agreement will shatter before his very eyes.ย
You hum out happily, leaning your head back against Jongseong and pressing your hips forward, against Sunghoon. Feeling entirely loved, wanted, needed.ย
โI missed this feeling,โ You sigh out with a pleasured smile, throwing an arm out and over Sunghoonโs shoulder, pulling him even closer. โI bet youโll miss it too. I bet youโll keep coming back for it.โ
Jongseong hums as well, nodding his head in agreement before blinking over at Sunghoon and lifting a brow. He wonders how long theyโre going to stand here staring at each other so, rolling his eyes dismissively, he presses on.
โI want to watch you eat her out.โ Jongseong announces, feeling that itโs not too out of the ordinary to make suggestions since Sunghoon appears to be totally blinded by your tits right now anyway.
Sunghoon nods with empty eyes, shortly before you see him physically break out of his presumed trance and take a step back, very nearly tripping over his own feet.
โWait, really?โ He asks, somehow still unsure that this is a thing thatโs actually happening as he regains balance.
โOh, absolutely.โ Jongseong encourages him, using the emptied up space in front of you to maneuver you over to the bed.ย
Sunghoon watches as your husband sits you down on the bed, grabs two pillows and places them behind you, then shimmies your pants off of you in a very loving way. He doesnโt know whether to be jealous of Jongseong for being able to love someone enough to pleasure them using others or to be jealous of you for being loved so blatantly.ย
โSunghoon,โ Jongseong calls out, tapping your legs to spread them out and taking a step back to make room. โGo on.โ
Sunghoonโs legs take him there before his brain can think twice. One second heโs looking at you from the angle of the center of the room, the next heโs falling to his knees, staring straight between your legs at the point of his lust for the last however long. Slender fingers gripping your thighs much the same way Jongseong did the first night he saw the two of you together like this.ย
It continues to hit him like a freight train. Heโs here. Heโs doing this. Not even a year ago he was sleeping in a different place, with a fiancรฉe, making calls to find venues for a fucking wedding, and now heโs here. Between the legs of another manโs wife, at his request.ย
Why is he so pleased with the drastic change of events? Why is his mouth watering looking at the small damp spot seeping through your panties? Why does he feel like he isnโt even himself at this moment?ย
None of it matters, not when you reach out and run your fingers through his hair to urge him forward. He leans into the touch, closing his eyes and breathing out through his nose because itโs been a long time since he felt the loving touch of another person in his hair like this.ย
Itโs been a long time since heโs felt the warmth of a woman in front of him, and even longer since he last felt this drunk on the atmosphere around him. Your soft fingers scratch against his scalp, and that alone makes his entire body shiver as he nuzzles against your thigh lovingly, leaving his kiss against your skin for the first time.ย
Jongseong watches, not entirely used to a man acting like this with his wife. Usually, theyโre already trying to get their cock inside of her, but Sunghoon seems to be basking in the touch and feel of it all through each step and in a way, he understands. He was with someone for six years and planned to spend his life with her, he can imagine this is something Sunghoon missed doing, despite the bitch not even wanting to gag on him.ย
He feels fond watching the two of you, situating himself on the bed and letting you lean up against him. There, he starts to work your bra off of you, matching Sunghoonโs slowly paced arousal.ย
You, on the other hand, feel like your body is catching fire. That little gentle kiss against your thigh was followed by several more, peppered up to your panty line, down to your knees, and then right back up before he even thinks about leaving a kiss against the seat of your panties.ย
Which, he does eventually get to doing. Jongseong watches your body jolt at the touch. He can tell youโve been anticipating it since Sunghoon got on his knees but knows youโre both pacing yourselves for the sake of him being able to enjoy himself.ย
Jongseongโs hands do remain on your tits through it, massaging and pinching against your nipples until theyโre erect and sending jolts of sensations straight to your clit. Thankfully, Sunghoon appears to be preparing himself to see your arousal up close and personal by this point, keeping his lips right up against it as his fingers toy with the hem of your panties.ย
He looks up at you, still searching for confirmation on instinct and canโt help but feel that the green light was given the second he moved into the house next door with the way you both look at him.ย
Youโre not the only one being loved on right now. He feels entirely taken care of simply for being able to go down on you, and he wants nothing more in this world than to make you feel good.ย
So, he does his best. Reaching his arms forward and gripping the sides of your panties before gently pulling them down. He watches as your, by now very wet, panties unstick from your folds as he reveals it to himself and honestly, he doesnโt even care at this point with how he blatantly moans over it.ย
And just as you thought he was going to take his time like before, itโs like your entire world is flipped upside down. You take in a sharp and surprised inhale at the way heโs got his tongue on you the second your panties hit the floor.ย
Jongseong chuckles at your surprise, internally praising Sunghoon for that sudden jolt of confidence he must have gotten to do that after unintentionally teasing you for far too long. He can feel your nipples react to what heโs doing, and through the sound of Sunghoonโs tongue, his groans through the taste of you, even he feels like heโs going insane just sitting with you against him like this.ย
โAh, fuck,โ You moan out, feeling the way his tongue leaves no part of your pussy unexplored. โFuuuck.โ You continue, totally speechless and unable to praise him the way youโd very much like to right now.ย
ย When you run your fingers through his hair again, feeling the way he moves his head beneath them, the way he stiffens his tongue as he slides it up your entire pussy, then lands on your clit and begins to flick his tongue at such a pace? You canโt help it when your legs nearly close in on him, shaking against his ears.
Jongseong is there though, quickly reaching down to hold your legs open for him.ย
โSensitive?โ He gleefully whispers to you, watching the way you grip Sunghoonโs hair in your fingers through the obvious struggle. He knows you wonโt answer, which is fine, because he loves when you get like this. Though itโs never through a man simply giving you some good head.ย
Sunghoon continues his assault with his tongue, so drunk on the taste of you that all he can do is keep going. Keep tasting, flicking your clit until itโs swollen before sliding back down again and burying his tongue inside of you as deep as itโll go. Like he canโt get enough, especially with the way your hips wiggle to get away, with the way your fingers try to weakly tug his head away from you.
He hopes this is exactly what Jongseong wanted to see, because he couldnโt be happier to fulfill the request. Moaning into you only to breathe nothing but you back in. His cock still neglected from a full day of arousal, tasting you alone is soaking his pants. Never has he felt so desperate for something. Never.
Even when he can feel the bed shift and your legs close around his head again, he continues.ย
โHold her legs open for me,โ Jongseong instructs as he pulls himself off of the bed, now seemingly so aroused that he feels the need to involve himself. He shimmies off his clothing and props himself back up on the bed, directly next to you and easily holding his length to bump against your slacked and moaning mouth.ย
You readily accept your husband into your mouth. Instantly taking him as deeply as you can out of sheer arousal. Wanting to do the dirtiest things your brain can come up with solely because of how good everything feels right now. Jongseong loves it, especially with how greedy you seem as you furrow your brows and will yourself to take more into your mouth.ย
โSunghoon,โ Jongseong calls out, reaching over to tap his hand thatโs putting his obvious strength to use against your thighs to get his attention. โLook.โ
Sunghoon does, after sliding his tongue back up and flicking your clit several more times to get those satisfying shakes of your body in reaction. His eyes trail up as he finally takes a breath of fresh air, only now realizing that youโre both entirely naked.ย
โIf you keep coming back,โ Jongseong starts, moving his hand to caress your cheek before holding the back of your head in place. โthisโ he punctuates with a hard thrust into your mouth, gagging you. โis what you have to look forward to.โ
Sunghoon watches as Jongseong holds your head there, continuously gagging, and then he glances down to your pussy and goddamn. Youโre clenching around nothing each time you gag, and the moans youโre letting out along with your gags sends him over edge. His tongue is immediately back on you, satiating that clench with his tongue as best he can.ย
The sound of Jongseongโs ever expected fond reactions goes unnoticed by Sunghoon as he puts his entire fucking soul into eating you out.ย
Thankfully, youโre able to breathe shortly after, kind of. Save for the fact that when Sunghoonโs isnโt knocking the breath out of you, Jongseong is stealing it by blocking your airways with his length and moaning all the same.
The entire room sounds so erotic, and everything still feels like itโs on fire. Your sensitivity subsides as your focus falls to pleasing your husband, leading your hips to chase Sunghoonโs hungry tongue anywhere it goes.ย
It stays like this for a few minutes, all three of you seemingly lost in each other before you feel your husband lean over, allowing you to take care of his cock without his help and sliding his fingers straight to where Sunghoonโs tongue is.
There, he easily slides them in, and still, Sunghoon doesnโt stop. It doesnโt phase him one bit. His tongue continues, working around Jongseongโs fingers and sometimes even licking around them to taste the arousal that seeps from deep inside of you. By now though, heโs humping up, wanting more, more, more. Your hips chase his tongue and your husbandโs fingers the same way his hips chase nothing.
Jongseong only likes him more by this point. Even the times they have been with curious men, typically theyโre not licking your pussy and his fingers. Sunghoon is so peculiar about this, and arguably his lack of experience is whatโs making this feel so fucking magical. His attention doesnโt appear to be divided between the both of you, nor does it even appear to be solely on you like he thinks it is.ย
Heโs treating you both as if youโre one person, one soul, and appears to accept anything either of you offer as long as you feel good and Jongseong is satisfied with how things are going.ย
Never has their bedroom been this silent of words either, especially when someone else is involved. Thereโs always crude words, but at this point all three of you seem to understand that youโre experiencing rather than trying to put on a show. Youโre not competing, youโre not rushing for the finish line, youโre justโฆfucking. Existing within pleasure together.
โHeโs a natural.โ Jongseong compliments, sliding his fingers up and out of you only to slide them into Sunghoonโs mouth. The man accepts them too, sucking your wet off of his fingers with a pornographic groan at the warmth and taste of them. โWonder what else he can do?โย
You smile when you pull off of Jongseongโs, now leaking, cock and look down at Sunghoon. Heโs already looking up at you, lips glistening much like his eyes are as he plants more kisses up your body. Solely because Jongseong practically hides your entire pussy with the palm of his hand from him as a hint to move his hungry assault elsewhere.ย
He does, happily. Heโs satisfied even as he kisses up your belly and feels like he doesnโt need to ask to plant those same glistening lips against one of your nipples and fondle it with his tongue just as beautifully as he did with your clit.
He leaves space for Jongseongโs hand when he moves up, trying to be careful to avoid his hard on brushing against anywhere where itโs not wanted, which doesnโt seem to be much of an issue because Jongseong pulls his hand back shortly anyway, pulling off of the bed and studying the two of you.ย
You hug Sunghoonโs head while he worships the chest heโs stared at from his window day after day. Jongseong can clearly see how shy Sunghoon is, but he still seems to be doing everything in a way that makes you both love it. At this point, it wouldnโt even matter what he does, he knows youโd go insane over it, and thatโs enough for him to allow it.ย
He canโt help himself when he leans over you to kiss you, seemingly so in love with you, careful not to accidentally bump Sunghoonโs head from your tit and probably cause some sort of huff or pout out of him.ย
โLay him back.โ Jongseong whispers to you through his kiss, pinching your chin to keep your lips on his for a few moments longer before letting you go.ย
The way your eyes shine, and the way Sunghoonโs tongue seems to never tire, youโre almost sad to pull him off of you. But you do, nonetheless, guiding him to stand to his feet and finally running your hands up his torso to urge his shirt off of him.ย
You stare at his abdomen, touching and feeling each dip of it. His arms are just as nice and toned, and god damn is his cock huge. You could tell from the window, and you can tell here, even while itโs clothed.ย
โOff.โ You say, tugging him forward by his jeans and sitting yourself up.
He laughs awkwardly at the movement, looking between the two of you and honestly, damn. Youโre both so fucking beautiful right now. Heโd be delighted to take these pants off, and he does.
Shortly after, you instruct him to lay back on the bed and heโs only getting more and more comfortable with the situation. Doing exactly as instructed, not even embarrassed by his angry and heavy cock twitching in near pain to be touched.ย
โGod, look at him.โ You groan, now moving yourself on the bed to lean on one elbow and trail your fingers up his abs.ย
His entire body twitches at the touch, and he winces just a little bit with a sexually frustrated huff.ย
โShould I fuck him?โ You ask, looking up at Jongseong, who was actively already fisting his length shamelessly at all of the ideas he has in his head that you could to do Sunghoon, or of what Sunghoon could do to you.ย
โDo you want to?โ Your husband retorts with an aroused moan following shortly after, looking over to Sunghoon and watching the way he straight up nods shamelessly and practically grabs you by the arm to pull you on top of him.
โSo eager,โ You laugh, throwing your leg over him and instantly seating yourself directly on his cock. Feeling how huge it is, how hard it is.ย
Sunghoon moans at that alone, hands shooting to your waist and squeezing so hard that you know itโll leave a painful sensation later.ย
โGo on then, fuck him.โ Jongseong says, amused with how badly this man wants it.ย
And you do, without much more of a warning. You lift yourself and expertly slide straight down on his pathetic cock. You watch Sunghoon as you do it, struggling to breathe through the feeling of your tight walls clenching around his length and attempting to adjust to his size.
Sunghoon runs his own fingers through his hair now, trying to keep himself grounded by the feeling heโs missed out on for so fucking long. He lets out a deep half-sobbed moan, cursing at the feeling and nearly tearing up at how fucking tight you are.ย
โShit,โ Sunghoon grits his teeth, holding your waist still as if to keep you from moving, then heโs wrapping you in a hug and pulling you straight down against his chest.ย
Jongseong skews his head, taking a step closer to see how well Sunghoon fits inside of you and damn. Your pussy is clenching every passing second trying to adjust, and his entire body is reacting to it. Naturally, Jongseong has no choice but to grip his cock harder at the scene, biting back his own desperate moan so that he can still appear to be collected about this.ย
As you lay in Sunghoonโs arms though, the harsh hold of him keeping you in place, you canโt help but sigh at the searing stretch inside of you. And he, on the other hand, is being driven crazy by the smell of your hair. Honestly, the scent alone is driving him wild enough that itโs a struggle to keep his own hips from writhing with the need to stretch your pussy out more.
โKeep him still while you make room for me.โ Jongseong finally chokes out. โDonโt let him cum.โ
You breathlessly nod, trying to press yourself up from Sunghoonโs heaving chest just to grip onto his shoulders and bounce against his desperate attempts to stop you. He gives in after the second bounce though, going from trying to hold you down on him to loosening up and almost helping you bounce.
โThatโs it, thatโs exactly what she wantsโโ Jongseong compliments, running his fingers up your back and making you shiver. โRight, babe?โย
You try to answer, but you moan out instead with the way Sunghoonโs hands keep you bouncing at such a pace that your g-spot is being repeatedly fucked against. And when he moves his hands to your ass, he loses himself to the pleasure as his eyes darken even more, fucking up now, deeper into you when you slide down on him.ย
โSo deep,โ You nearly sob out, hands reaching out for Jongseong somewhere behind you, and heโs quick to be there for you.ย
โI know, baby.โ He asks, leaning onto the bed to kiss against your face. โFeels good, doesnโt it?โ
Sunghoon moans before you can, sinking his head further into the pillows and letting himself get lost in the feeling of you bouncing on him. Jongseong was right about this before, you do get wet. Fucking soaked.ย
โYou can take more, baby.โ Jongseong says to you now, seemingly ready to give you more than either of you know you can handle.
Still, you nod, knowing exactly what heโs wanting to do. You adjust the way you bounce, now leaning onto Sunghoonโs chest so that his cock slamming into you is on full display for Jongseong.ย
โSlow down for a second, Hoonโโ Jongseong says, liking the nickname well enough to use it himself. โLet me show you what sharing feels like.โ
And holy fuck, Sunghoon is not prepared for it. Heโs shocked that youโre wanting it, with the way you pant out breathless, pained moans against his collar bone as Jongseong makes attempts to stretch you out more than you already are.ย
Sunghoon holds onto those little pants, feeling your hands grip against his body as your husband nudges the head of his cock inside, causing both of you to cry out with a desperate sound.ย
Inch by inch, Jongseong works himself in, holding his breath and soothing your back throughout the process, up until heโs managed to fit about as much as he can into you and thrusting forward just once to test the waters.ย
โShiiitโโ He moans through a laugh, pulling out and thrusting in again, harder. โSo tight.โ
The reaction is more than Jongseong could ever have wanted. Both of you, clinging to each other through the overwhelming sensation. Sunghoon, probably overly sensitive from the feeling of your pussy gripping him and Jongseongโs cock massaging the underside of it as he chases his own pleasure. Then thereโs you, constantly clenching to adjust, letting out little pleased cries that only get prettier and prettier, especially when theyโre mixed in with Sunghoons.ย
At this point, Jongseong can barely tell which one of you is moaning, but itโs all the same to him and he begins to do the work for all three of you. Loving the way heโs managed to make his wife and another man fall apart beneath him.ย
โGod, you both love it.โ He says, knowing for a fact that youโre both too gone by now to hear him. Which is good, because he canโt hold his own moans in anymore.ย
So, he doesnโt. He grips your hips to hold you in place and continues to thrust, feeling your pussy relax with each thrust until even Sunghoon is able to fuck up slightly. And for you, feeling both cocks sliding into you opposite of each other, you really canโt comprehend a single thing outside of pleasure right now.ย
You can hardly breathe, so talking isnโt entirely on your agenda, still though. You try.ย
โFuck, fuckโโ You breathe out, gripping even tighter onto Sunghoon now.
โSo fucking wet,โ Jongseong soothes, offering a harsher thrust now that heโs beginning to lose himself to the feeling too.
โSo fucking, bigโโ You say, mostly into Sunghoonโs ear despite your husband having a good size as well. โDonโt stop. Fuck me openโโ You moan to him, encouraging him to keep trying to fuck up.
Jongseong smirks at your hushed and out-of-breath words, you always get dirty when youโre super turned on. Plus, the way Sunghoon follows instructions is insanely sexy too.
In fact, he follows your instructions a little too well. Somehow, Sunghoon overpowers both your weight on him and Jongseongโs harsh thrusts. To the point that he actually has to stop moving his own hips because if he doesnโt, Sunghoon will get all three of you off within seconds if he keeps going at this pace.
โYeah, fuck, yeah,โ Jongseong moans in probably the most erotic voice youโve ever heard come from him before. Because, never in your life alongside him have you heard him have to cut off his comments with a moan. โHe likes it fucking rough.โ
And heโs not lying. Part of you wonders if Sunghoon has ever been able to fuck this way, because even as you and your husband manage to find room to converse through this, Sunghoon is still gone and lost in his own world. Still holding onto you, and still fucking into you so hard that youโre very nearly releasing little yelps each time he bottoms out.ย
Jongseong, on the other hand, knows exactly how your body reacts when youโre getting close. Usually knowing before you do, and he really does his best to keep his composure through this. He does his damndest to hold off, amazed that Sunghoon lasted past the first instance of you sinking down on him.ย
Shaking hands reach between you and Sunghoon, and youโre quick to sit up and lean back against Jongseong instead to let him have access to your clit. Despite his cock slipping out of you slightly, he can still manage to fuck a few inches in at this angle, and honestly itโs a welcome relief because if he continued any further, he worries your clit would be left long neglected by his brain malfunctioning in a sudden orgasm.
You smile in a daze as you stare down at Sunghoon, his eyes droopy and hooded when he opens them, but for the most part remaining closed and focused on fucking you as good as he can. And paired with the sensation of Jongseong rubbing your clit, youโre rendered useless in announcing that youโre close.ย
Thankfully, your lovely, amazing, and doting husband knows you as well as you know yourself.ย
โKeep going,โ He breathes, out of breath and reaching his other hand up to hold one of your tits in his hand, lips going to your neck. โSheโs close.โ
Sunghoon lets out a choked moan at the same time you let one out, and instantly Jongseong pulls out with a pleased and frustrated moan.ย
โThere you go baby,โ Jongseong coos at you, now focusing solely on rubbing your clit with one hand and fucking his fist with the other. โSqueeze him.โ
God, you do, coming undone wrapped around his relentless cock, pulsing and shaking as Jongseong makes no attempt to ease the orgasm out of you. His fingers only circle your clit harder, and Sunghoon only fucks up harder.ย
โFuck, Sunghoon,โ Jongseong calls out, watching the man in awe. โHow are you holding out right now?โ
Sunghoon blinks up, his eyes totally lost to arousal and he continues to fuck into you far past your orgasm ending, loving the slide of how much wetter you got through it. He feels like heโs fucking half a yearโs worth of himself into you, which is fair. Because he definitely is.ย
โLook at him babe, tell him itโs okay.โ Jongseong continues, wanting Sunghoon to get off so that he can stop holding off on his own. Itโs entirely insane how much self-control this man has.
Not even Jongseong himself could withstand this without losing a bit of self control, and yet, god. He really is the perfect third. The perfect neighbor.ย
This is an indication that Jongseong is about to go full cuckold and work at himself as you take what you want from Sunghoon, and you really do try.ย
Your legs shake around him as you continue to try and ride him, leaning down to hover over his lips in a faux first kiss to tell him to rest his hips, and he does, sighing out a little sound of relief as you take back the control.
Heโs never been so fucking turned on in his life, and in all honestly, not even he knows how he hasnโt gotten off yet. Heโs needed it all day. Heโs needed it all his fucking life, it seems.ย
Jongseong studies the way your tired legs work, the pace slowing down minute by minute before he steps in. His control now fully regained as his orgasm fades and he can continue to instruct and enjoy without a wall of pure sex invading his actions. He releases his cock now, stilling your hips and pulling you off of Sunghoon.
The sound alone is somehow filthier than any porn heโs ever heard. Sloppy and wet, paired with Sunghoonโs frustrated groan at the loss of warmth.ย
โHoon, take the lead.โ Jongseong says, helping you to lay back and rubbing your thighs to soothe them, only moving you from the position because he knows youโre going to be sore tomorrow.ย
Sunghoon, of course, jumps into action immediately. Lifting from his spot and situating himself between your legs with ease. Now being able to see you under him, rather than hovering above him, he feels like he has all the power in the world to treat you right.ย
โAnything you want,โ He says, already adjusting himself with your pussy and pressing in. โAnything, just tell me.โ
Youโre entirely endeared by his words and canโt help it when you pull him down in a huff and connect your lips to his for the first time. He melts into it, fucking his hips into you at a slower pace now, deeper, more lazily.ย
Heโs smelling you and feeling you entirely, every sensation in the world he could ever want is being satiated right now, and heโs not ashamed to whine through it. Pumping himself into you until it hits him, all because you fucking kissed him.ย
So hard does it hit him, each thrust milking him entirely of his cum and not trembling once through it. His cock has been sensitive all day, this new sensitivity is welcome to him as long as you continue to lick into his mouth and scratch against his back like this.ย
Itโs a given that he was a goner the second he got on top, and when he finally empties the last, impossible amount of cum into you, his ears pop and begin to ring.ย
โYou guys look so cuteโโ Jongseong coos, helping Sunghoon out of you on wobbly legs before he leans down to scoop some of the mess out of you. โNow, you lay back too,โ he adds, still toying with the cum dripping from you.ย
He does, relieved and thankful for the rest after that exhausting experience. Heโs out of breath when he flops himself down next to you, turning his head slightly to look at you and how content you seem to be. It makes him feel content too, even without your lips against his.ย
There, Jongseong scoops some of that cum out of you and slathers his fingers with it, shuffling forward onto the bed to place himself between your legs now. Then, his fingers make their way over to Sunghoon.ย
โTaste it.โ He says, wondering if Sunghoon will fight the idea of doing it.ย
Shockingly, he doesnโt. He opens his mouth with ease and sucks Jongseongโs fingers into his mouth for the second time. You watch, watching the way his adamโs apple bobs as he swallows the taste of himself mixed with you. You groan out, throat dry from the embarrassing amount of moaning before wiggling your hips.ย
โPatience, babe,โ Jongseong says, not even glancing at you and keeping his eyes trained on the way Sunghoon eagerly licks his fingers clean before releasing his fingers and blinking over to you, and then up at him.
โYouโre both going to fucking kill me.โ Jongseong lets out, rolling his eyes before training them on you. โGonna stuff this mess back into you, yeah?โ
You nod obediently.
Youโre so content, readily accepting your husband in his rightful place and basking in the familiar feeling of his length pressing inside of you. Itโs a feeling you know, and a feeling you love despite having already been fucked open by both of them already.ย
At this point, itโs not even just arousal in the air. But like, a secret second thing that somehow feels more content than content.ย
Jongseong is in love with the way you look right now though, arguably so for Sunghoon too. With his fucked out face looking just as drowsy as yours does despite the sun setting when all of this started. Itโs not as late into the night as it seems to feel, which is fine because time seems like it works differently at this moment.ย
โKiss her,โ Jongseong says, with a last gift to Sunghoon for fucking you so well. โThank her.โ
He does, because of course he does. He dips in so fast, cradling your face in the same delicate way he touched your thighs from before. Kissing you just as gently, all while Jongseong takes his time to slide into you with such a fulfilling pace that, honestly, if you will it hard enough, you could probably get off another three times if you wanted to.
But you donโt, putting that filthy side of you to rest as you allow your husband to take what he needs. His pace quickening much like Sunghoonโs kisses do, up until youโre bouncing up with each thrust of his hips, and Sunghoon is left chasing your lips. Up, down, up, down.ย
He chuckles into it, his teeth catching your bottom lip a few times before chasing your lips harder, all for Jongseong to admire from above.ย
And admire it, he does. Loving the way you kiss Sunghoon in a playful way compared to himself. Thereโs passion here, and it makes it all the more easy for him to work himself up to his own orgasm.ย
Youโre not shocked at Jongseongโs silence through his own high. Pressing his hips so tightly against yours, trying to bury himself as deeply as he can go to release all of this tension inside of his body. You still feel as full as you did when they both were inside of you, but this is something entirely different. Itโs Jongseong, and it still shows that heโs the one person on this Earth who knows you better than you know yourself.
He knows you love to feel his cock pulse inside of you, know you love when it dribbles down your thighs as you wobble to the bathroom, and now apparently, he knows you seem to love kissing Sunghoon through the entire experience. Clenching against his orgasm as if you were already willing to start over from the beginning.ย
And just like that, he pulls out and lays on the other side of you, stealing your lips from Sunghoon briefly and kissing you. Both out of appreciation and love.
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The clean up was devastating. Poor fucking Sunghoon, never realizing that aftercare is like, a huge important factor to fucking that hard. Which only solidifies it to both you and your husband that heโs clearly never been given the sexual freedom he so needed.
The two of you exchange side eyes at the way Sunghoon expects to shower alone and take care of himself, despite walking straight into a wall on wobbly legs with sleepy, mostly closed eyes.ย
You help him to the shower, Jongseong allowing you to join him and clean him up as he sits just outside and waits to ultimately clean himself up this time. After all, Sunghoon was the one who fucked you senseless, the least he can do is learn how to clean up the mess and soothe your muscles.ย
Fortunately, he seems to be pleased to learn and eager to put his new knowledge to use. Standing there under the warm water with a blissed out little smile, hands gently caressing your sore pussy as if to soothe your sensitivity. Obviously, it doesnโt work that way but, you still give him credit for it.
By the time youโre done showering, Sunghoon is practically dead weight. Literally fucked himself to sleep, it seems, as Jongseong laughs out and nods to the guest room, which he already made up for him.ย
You help him to the room while Jongseong helps himself to shower, where puddles of water remain on the floor.ย
Apparently you and Sunghoon both share the trait of not using a towel to step on after a shower. Which is only more of a reason to like him.ย
Jongseong likes taking care of people.ย
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When Sunghoon wakes up the next morning, sunlight blaring through closed blinds, his half asleep brain realizes very quickly where he is.ย
Heโs embarrassed again, but the content feeling in his chest replaces the heavy one he had been holding about the entire situation. He had fun. He liked it. No, he loved it. So much so that for the first time in his life, heโs needed to pass the fuck out immediately after.ย
And itโs not long after he wakes up, lying there in thought, that he hears a soft knock at the door.
Youโre poking your head in, blinking over at him and admiring his sleep hair. Which isnโt too different compared to his sex hair, and you smile.
โGood morning,โ You say, stepping into the room and revealing Jongseong close behind you. โWanna go again?โ
Sunghoon stares at you, and then at Jongseong and his smirk. Youโre both fucking insane.
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pls reblog my works ;o; if you do? i love u. if u dont? whyyyyy not?
warnings: smut (mdni), unprotected sex, cream pie, cum plugging, choking, slight nipple play, pls never fuck your co-workers (saying from experience), mentions of alcohol ofc, not proof read, anything else lmk!
w.c: 3.5k
REQ: Imagine Sunghoon and you are bartenders for a club and all shifts you guys are always stealing glances at eachother or having lingering touches while you make drinks one day u need to go get more supplies from the back and the tension is so thick he canโt take it anymore and takes you on the boxes of supplies with messy alcohol pouring sex
a/n: hi! it's me and my inability to write a small drabble and turning it into a semi-fic. hope you don't mind, anonnie! i had a lot of fun with this but as someone who used to bartend during uni, you can imagine the flashbacks going through my mind (i also spilt the keg on me like this so, personal experience and some aj lore for you). hope you enjoy!
The club is alive with the throbbing beat of the latest hits, a kaleidoscope of coloured lights dancing over the crowd packed tightly onto the dance floor. The air is thick with the mingled scents of perfume, sweat, and the unmistakable tang of alcohol. Behind the bar, it's a different world, a fast-paced rhythm of cocktail shakers, clinking glasses, and the endless chatter of patrons.
Youโre in your element, expertly mixing drinks, the repetitive motions are almost second nature by now. But tonight, there's an added layer of tension simmering beneath the surface. Sunghoon, your coworker, has been brushing past you intentionally for the nth time tonight.
The bar is small, and with Freshers Friday in full swing, itโs a given that thereโs going to be constant cross-overs between staff, clambering for ice and lemon wedges. But does he have to hold your waist as he passes, fingers lingering just a moment too long, or reach behind you for a glass when there are plenty on his end? Each touch sends a spark of electricity through your body, your pulse quickening despite your best efforts to ignore it.
You steal a glance at Sunghoon. Heโs busy pouring a drink, his jaw set in concentration, but thereโs a ghost of a smirk on his lips. He knows exactly what heโs doing. His dark eyes flick to yours for the briefest moment, and you feel a flush rise to your cheeks. You turn away quickly, focusing on the drink order in front of you.
The club's atmosphere is a mix of chaos and thrill. Neon lights flicker and pulse in time with the music, casting a surreal glow over the sea of bodies moving in sync. The bass reverberates through the floor, through your bones, creating an almost tangible sense of energy.
โExcuse me,โ Sunghoonโs voice is low, just above a whisper, as he leans in to reach for a bottle of vodka on the shelf behind you. His chest brushes against your back, and you can feel the heat radiating from his body. You grit your teeth, trying to focus on the cocktail youโre mixing, but itโs no use. Every nerve in your body is attuned to his presence.
โDo you mind?โ you snap, but your voice lacks the bite you intended. It comes out breathy, more of a plea than a command.
Sunghoon chuckles softly, his breath warm against your ear. โSorry, Y/N. Itโs just so crowded back here.โ His hand trails down your arm as he pulls away, and you shudder involuntarily.
You know heโs teasing you, pushing boundaries, testing your reactions. And damn it, itโs working. You can feel the tension between you two building, a palpable thing that hangs in the air, thick and heavy.
Itโs been like this since he started working here a few months ago. Training him up was harder than anticipated, not because he wasnโt good at it or couldnโt follow instructions, but because it took everything in your willpower not to pounce on him. Once, you showed him how to make the barโs signature Long Island Iced Tea. While he was pouring the Triple Sec into the mixer, the veins on his arms and hands strained, the muscles flexing with each precise movement. It was the moment you realized you had a hand kink.
Nothing could stop your imagination since then, constantly thinking about his hands on your throat, the way they would feel gripping you, controlling you. Every time he reached past you or brushed against you, those thoughts flared to life, vivid and consuming.
The club is a frenzy of movement and sound, but all you can focus on is Sunghoon. Heโs making his way back to your end of the bar, and you can feel your heart rate spike in anticipation. He stops beside you, close enough that you can feel the heat emanating from his body.
โNeed help with that?โ he asks, his voice smooth and teasing, as he reaches for a wine glass on the rack above your head. His arm brushes against you, and the contact sends a shiver down your spine.
โIโve got it,โ you reply, but your voice betrays you, coming out softer, almost breathless. He smirks, clearly pleased with your reaction. He is nothing if not cocky and you do nothing but fuel it.
โSure you do,โ he murmurs, his breath tickling your ear. His fingers trail lightly across your waist as he steps back, a fleeting touch that leaves you craving more. His cologne isnโt helping either, the dark musk of Sauvage engulfing your nostrils and filtering its way straight to your core.
You bite your lip, trying to regain your composure, but itโs no use. Your mind is racing, filled with images of his hands on you, the way they would feel exploring your body, holding you down. You canโt stop thinking about the power he seems to have over you, how easily he can make you lose focus.
Your manager comes up behind you both, pointing between you. โI need you both to change the Guinness keg. A whole team of Celtic fans just came in and theyโll bleed us dry in a minute,โ he explains.
He doesnโt know that the innocent, very much part of your job request makes your heart stop for a moment. The charged energy between you and Sunghoon is so strong tonight that being alone with him, even for a second, could lead to losing all your inhibitions. You donโt mind fucking your co-workers, god knows youโve had your fair share of fun with Jay and Heeseung in the past, but this feels different.
As soon as Sunghoon bites those teeth into you, figuratively and physically, you have a sneaking suspicion that there is no going back.
โI can handle it myself,โ you say quickly, trying to avoid the inevitable. โItโs only a one-person job.โ
But Sunghoon is already stepping forward, his hand on the small of your back, guiding you towards the stockroom. โCome on, Y/N. Itโll go faster with two,โ he says, his tone leaving no room for argument, waving the manager off.
His touch is subtle but it feels heavy, and you curse inwardly at how easily he affects you. You let him lead you through the throng of staff, your body hyper-aware of every point of contact. This is bad, very bad.
As you enter the dimly lit back room, the noise of the club fades slightly, leaving the sound of your and Sunghoonโs footsteps and breaths as the only chorus to the quiet song of the corridor. The corridor always gives you the creeps, the lime-green walls and chipped floor make you feel sick, sicker than you already are.
Itโs not even that big of a deal, so what are you panicking for? Just go in, change the keg, and get back to serving duties. Plain and simple, easy as pie.
But as you reach the keg room, your hands are trembling slightly. You push open the door and step inside, the cold air hitting you like a slap. The room is filled with the metallic scent of beer and the cool hum of the refrigeration system. Sunghoon steps in behind you, the door closing with a soft thud.
He moves to grab a keg from the stack in the corner, and you canโt help but watch, mesmerized by the way his muscles ripple under his white t-shirt. The fabric clings to him, highlighting every contour, every flex. His biceps bulge as he lifts the heavy keg effortlessly, and you swallow hard, feeling a fresh wave of heat course through you.
Focus, you scold yourself. You turn to the valve, reaching up to shut it off. Your fingers fumble slightly, the cold metal biting into your skin. You canโt stop glancing at Sunghoon, at the way his forearms strain, veins standing out in sharp relief. Itโs distracting, and youโre not paying enough attention to what youโre doing.
You step forward to disconnect the old keg, but you donโt leave enough time for the pipe to empty. As you twist the connector, thereโs a sudden, forceful spray of beer, catching you off guard. You yelp, trying to dodge the spray, but itโs too late.
Sunghoon is at your side in an instant, his hands covering yours as he twists the valve shut. But not before both of you are thoroughly soaked. The cold beer soaks through your clothes, making you shiver.
โDamn it,โ you mutter, looking down at the mess. Your shirt clings to you, and you can feel the liquid dripping from your hair. You glance up at Sunghoon, and despite the situation, you canโt help but laugh at the sight of him drenched, his hair plastered to his forehead.
โNice going,โ he says with a chuckle, shaking his head. โYou always this clumsy?โ
โI usually know what Iโm doing,โ you retort, but thereโs no heat in your words. Youโre too distracted by the way his wet shirt clings to his body, outlining every muscle and defined bump of his toned stomach.ย
Sunghoon steps closer, his eyes dark and intense. โYou okay?โ he asks, his voice low with a hint of seduction, the rasp in his voice turning you dizzy.
โYeah, just...wet,โ you reply, shivering slightly. The cold beer and the cool air of the keg room are a stark contrast to the heat building between you two. You probably should have chosen a better sentence to utter into existence, knowing how it could be taken.
He reaches out, his fingers brushing a strand of wet hair from your face. โYou know, this wasnโt exactly how I imagined getting you wet,โ he says, a mischievous glint in his eyes.
Your breath catches at his words, and you know you should leave it at that, laugh it off, and walk away. But with his close proximity and his breath fanning your face, youโre almost under his spell. โWhat do you mean?โ you ask, your voice barely more than a whisper, tinged with curiosity and something darker.
Sunghoon steps forward, and you instinctively step back, making your back press against the cold wall of the keg room. He eyes you up and down, licking his lips as though he was a lion hunting his prey. โYou know what I mean, Y/N.โ
The beat of your heart skips, and you nod, agreeing. You arenโt stupid, youโre just horny.
Leaning down to ghost his lips over yours, his eyes grow hungry as they hood over, boring into yours intensely. โI want to bend you over and fuck you so hard you canโt remember your own name,โ he murmurs, his voice low and gravelly. โI want to make you gasp for air, to hear you scream my name until your throat is raw. I want to leave marks all over your body so everyone knows what I did to you.โ
You're quivering now, and every syllable sends a zap of electricity into you. His hand moves down your arm, fingertips brushing your skin and leaving a path of fire in its wake.
โI really thought I was going to lose it up there and bend you over the bar and fuck you in front of all those punters,โ he continues, his lips so close to yours that you can feel the heat of his breath. H
A whimper escapes your lips, unbidden, and his eyes widen in surprise and delight. โOh? You like it when others watch? You want me to drag you up there and give everyone a show?โ he teases, his voice dripping with amusement and arousal.
You shake your head in a daze, lust taking over because all you can breathe in is his presence. โNo...not there.โย Exhibitionism isnโt really up there in your list of kinks, not really for your own dignity, you couldnโt care less about who sees you naked or fucked out, but you hate the idea of anyone seeing Sunghoon and getting ideas.
Jealousy wasnโt an emotion you thought you possessed until he started at the bar. The other bartenders flirting with him in the breakroom or customers asking for his number over the bar quaked your heart a little, injecting a tiny speck of green into your bloodstream. You might have been apprehensive to start anything with Sunghoon, but that doesnโt mean others get a chance to shoot their shot.
โOh? So what Iโm hearing is you do want me to fuck you?โ he presses, his voice a husky whisper. His cockiness is showing once again, tongue roaming over his sharp canine lazily as his eyes drink you in.
โYes,โ you breathe out, unable to hold back any longer. The need in your voice is unmistakable, and it only seems to fuel his desire.
Rolling his eyes in relief, he undoes your apron from the front and lets it fall to the floor. โFinally,โ he mutters, his demeanour switching from teasing to something darker, more intense. In a flash, he has your black trousers unbuttoned and fully off your body, your panties following, leaving you bare with only your soaked white work t-shirt covering you.
He grabs your waist and hoists you up against the wall, your legs wrapping around his hips instinctively. With one hand, he reaches and undoes the button of his own trousers, shimmying them down slightly and whipping out his cock.
As it springs to attention, you feel it graze your folds, so close to where you desperately need it. The heat and hardness of him against your wetness make you gasp, your nails digging into his shoulders.
Sunghoon smirks, positioning himself right at your entrance. โYouโve been driving me crazy, you know that?โ he murmurs, his breath brushing against your skin. โWatching you, wanting you...you kept me waiting too fucking long.โ
โPlease,โ you whisper, your voice trembling with anticipation. โI need you.โ
His eyes darken with lust at your plea, and without another word, he thrusts into you, burying himself to the hilt. The sudden fullness makes you cry out, your head falling back against the wall. Heโs big, stretching you in ways that have your toes curling. You can feel every inch of him, thick and pulsing, as he fills you completely. Itโs overwhelming, the way he pushes your walls apart, making you see colours you didnโt know existed.
โFuck, youโre tight,โ he growls, starting to move. His pace is relentless, each thrust hard and deep, driving you up the wall with every stroke. Your moans mix with his grunts, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing in the small room. Youโre thankful that the room is isolated in the middle of the basement or else youโre convinced everyone upstairs could hear you.
His hands grip your hips, holding you in place as he pounds into you. You can feel the power and control in his movements, the way he takes what he wants, and it drives you wild. โYou like this, donโt you?โ he pants, his lips brushing against your ear, his breath hot and erratic. โYou like being taken so hard you forget everything else?โ
โYes,โ you gasp, your voice barely a whisper against the overwhelming stimulation. โYes, Sunghoon, donโt stop.โ
You bring one of his hands up to your throat, a silent plea for him to fulfil your fantasy. His eyes widen for a moment, and then a dark smile spreads across his face. โYou want it?โ he asks, his voice a dangerous whisper. โYou want me to choke you?โ
โYes,โ you whisper, your voice trembling with need. โPlease.โ
Sunghoonโs grip tightens around your throat, the pressure just enough to make your head spin, adding a delicious haze to your already overwhelming pleasure. Each of his thrusts feels like a shockwave of ecstasy, stretching you and filling you in ways that make your entire body tingle with need. His cock throbs inside you, the thick, hard length gliding in and out with a relentless rhythm.
โYouโre so fucking perfect,โ he growls, his voice a guttural mix of pleasure and dominance. His free hand slides up your body, brushing over your sensitive skin, and his fingers tease at your nipples through the soaked fabric of your t-shirt, making you grateful that you wore a mesh bra today rather than your usual beat-up t-shirt. The contact sends jolts of pleasure straight to your core, heightening the sensations.
Your nails dig into his back as you cling to him to stay against the wall, leaving marks that make him hiss and drive his thrusts even harder. Every push, every pull, feels like itโs unravelling you completely. The pressure around your throat makes your breathing shallow, and the world outside this small room seems to blur into insignificance. All that exists is the raw, primal connection between you and Sunghoon.
Clamping your walls down on him, you mewl out as the tip of his cock reaches a depth no other man has been able to reach, kissing your cervix with intimacy and urgency as you suck him in with each clench of your core.
Hissing, Sunghoonโs head burrows into your neck, his palm now pressed against your jugular in a beautifully punishing manner. โFuck, Y/N, your cunt is so greedy for it.โ
The words send a fresh wave of heat through you, and your moans become more desperate, more pleading. You arch your back, pushing yourself further onto him, needing him deeper, harder. โSunghoon, Iโm so close,โ you whimper, your voice breaking with the intensity.
He responds with a fierce, primal growl, increasing the pace of his thrusts. Each movement is forceful, almost punishing, but itโs exactly what you need. โCum,โ he commands, his voice rough and demanding. โI want to feel you cream all over me.โ
With that final command, the pressure around your throat and the relentless pounding of his cock push you over the edge. Your body trembles violently, and you cry out his name as wave after wave of ecstasy crashes over you. Your orgasm is all-encompassing, a dizzying mix of pleasure and release that leaves you gasping for breath, clinging to him.
Sunghoonโs own release follows almost immediately, his body tensing as he buries himself deep inside you, groaning your name with a raw intensity. His cock pulses with each spurt, filling you completely. The heat of his climax mixes with the remnants of your orgasm, creating a deliciously overwhelming sensation.
He holds you tightly, his breath ragged against your neck, as both of you ride out the aftershocks of your climaxes. Slowly, he eases his grip on your throat and pulls back slightly, his eyes still dark with desire but now softened with a trace of concern.
Sunghoonโs gaze softens as he looks at you, his breath still coming in short, ragged bursts. He brushes the damp strands of hair from your face, his touch tender against your flushed skin. โYou okay?โ he asks, his voice a gentle murmur, filled with concern and dissipating lust.
You nod, a satisfied smile on your lips despite the trembling of your voice. โMore than okay,โ you breathe out, your body still trembling from the intensity of the climax.
Sunghoonโs eyes hold a mix of tenderness and desire. He leans in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. The contrast between the gentleness of the kiss and the fierceness of what had just transpired sends a shiver through you. โGood,โ he murmurs against your lips, his voice low and soothing. โBecause weโre far from done.โ
He slowly lowers you to the ground, his hands steady and careful. As he kneels before you, a look of wonder crosses your face, mixed with a lingering haze of desire. His fingers, still slick with your combined release, gently part your folds, teasing and exploring.
You gasp as his fingers find their way to your sensitive entrance, carefully stuffing his dripping cum back into you. The sensation is both intense and oddly comforting, a reminder of the connection youโve shared. Your breath hitches as you feel the warmth and slickness inside you.
โSunghoon-โ you start, but his gaze, both commanding and affectionate, cuts you off.
โKeep that there until our shift is over,โ he instructs, his voice firm but laced with an underlying promise of more. โI donโt want a drop of it out of you.โ
His words send a fresh thrill through you, a combination of pleasure and anticipation. โWhen we clock out, youโre coming back to mine, end of story,โ he continues, his tone brooking no argument.
You look up at him, your eyes meeting his with a mixture of surprise and eagerness. โOkay,โ you manage to say, your voice steadying despite the rush of emotions.
โGreat,โ he smiles innocently, as if he didnโt just fuck you so good you thought you saw Jesus marking you off the gates VIP list. โNow help me with this keg.โ
SYNOPSIS: you, a top cardiac surgeon, find yourself increasingly frustrated by the distraction over the hospitalโs new head of neurosurgery, Dr. Jake Sim. Despite your initial annoyance, you can't help but notice Jake's charm and undeniable skills. As you keep running into each other, Jakeโs persistent yet respectful flirtations begin to break through your professional exterior.
PAIRING: neurosurgeon! jake x cardio surgeon! reader
GENRE: workplace romance, situationship
WARNINGS: explicit smut, unprotected sex (donโt), oral (m and f receiving), angst, language, MDNI!!
wc: 12k
You step out of the OR, still riding the adrenaline high from the successful triple bypass surgery you just completed. The intricate dance of sutures and clamps still echoes in your mind as you head towards the nurses' station to update your patient's chart. Youโve always prided yourself on your precision and dedication, and today was no exception.
As you settle into the chair, logging into the system, you can't help but overhear snippets of conversation from the nearby nurses. Their voices are hushed but excited, and despite yourself, your ears prick up at the mention of a new doctor.
"Oh my god, have you seen Dr. Sim yet?" one nurse gushes, her voice practically dripping with admiration. "He's the new head of neuro. I can't believe he's not married with kids."
"Seriously, he's so handsome," another chimes in. "I thought doctors like him only existed in movies."
You roll your eyes internally, feeling a twinge of annoyance. These nurses should be focusing on their patients, not swooning over some new doctor. You know the typeโcharming, overconfident, used to turning heads wherever he goes. Youโve seen it a hundred times. Itโs frustrating to think that professional women, who youโve seen handle the toughest of medical crises with unflinching composure, could be so easily distracted by a pretty face.
"He smiled at me in the break room," another voice adds, dreamy and far away. "I nearly melted."
You resist the urge to scoff out loud. Instead, you channel your irritation into the chart in front of you, updating the post-op notes with meticulous detail. Your patient, Mr. Harrison, came through the surgery well, and you want to ensure there are no loose ends in his care plan. His vitals are stable, and the grafts look good. You make a note to check on him in an hour.
The chatter continues unabated. "I heard heโs a genius in the OR," someone says. "Apparently, heโs revolutionized some new technique in neurosurgery."
"Brains and looks? Not fair," another nurse quips, and they all dissolve into giggles.
You finish charting, your irritation only growing. Itโs not that you begrudge the nurses their moment of levityโbeing a nurse is hard, often thankless work, and they deserve a bit of fun. But the object of their admiration rubs you the wrong way. Youโve had to work twice as hard to be taken seriously in a male-dominated field, and the idea of a doctor coasting on his looks and charm irks you.
Shaking your head slightly, you stand up and grab the chart. Thereโs still a lot to do, and you donโt have time to dwell on some pretty boy neurosurgeon. If heโs really as good as they say, youโll see for yourself soon enough. And if not, well, youโve never had a problem putting overconfident doctors in their place.
As you walk away from the nurses' station, you hear one last wistful sigh. "I can't wait to see him in action."
Neither can you, you think, but for entirely different reasons.
You step out of the OR, mind still buzzing with the details of the successful valve replacement surgery you just completed. you head to the cardiac unit to check on post-op patients, but something feels off. The usually bustling ward is eerily quiet, with only one nurse, Olivia, stationed at the desk.
โOlivia,โ you calls out, her voice cutting through the silence. โWhere is everyone?โ
Olivia looks up, a hint of guilt flashing in her eyes. โTheyโre at lunch,โ she replies a little too quickly, her tone unconvincing.
you narrows her eyes, knowing Olivia well enough to sense when sheโs not telling the full truth. โOlivia...โ you say in a stern voice, crossing your arms.
Olivia shifts uncomfortably under your gaze. โOkay, fine,โ she sighs, her shoulders slumping. โTheyโre in OR 2โs gallery.โ
Confusion flickers across your face. โWhy would they be in the gallery?โ you ask, your irritation growing.
โDr. Sim is clipping an aneurysm,โ Olivia admits, unable to meet your eyes.
Thatโs all you need to know, storming off towards the gallery, your footsteps echoing through the hallways. The idea of your nurses neglecting their duties to watch a surgery infuriates your. Jakeโs presence in the hospital had already been a source of frustration, and now he was serving as a distraction for your team.
Reaching the gallery, you push open the door and stride in, your eyes scanning the crowd of nurses huddled around the glass, their attention glued to the procedure below. you spot Jake in the OR, skillfully clipping the aneurysm, his focus unwavering.
โWhat is going on here?โ you demand, voice slicing through the murmurs. The nurses jump, turning to face you with wide eyes. โWhy are you all here instead of attending to your patients?โ
One of the nurses, Carla, steps forward, stammering. โWe... we just wanted to see Dr. Simโs technique. Itโs supposed to be groundbreaking.โ
your glare is icy. โI donโt care how groundbreaking it is. Your patients come first. Get back to your stations, now.โ
The nurses scurry out, their heads bowed in embarrassment. you watch them go, your anger simmering. Jakeโs impressive skills might have captivated your team, but to you, he was nothing more than a distraction. you couldnโt afford to have the nurses slacking off, not when lives depended on their diligence.
you turn back to the OR, eyes locking onto Jake. For a brief moment, your gazes meet through the glass, and you see a flicker of something in his eyesโcuriosity, perhaps? Or was it amusement? Shaking off the thought, you storm out of the gallery, determined to keep your team on track and your own frustrations with Jake in check.
You catch sight of Jake coming out of the OR, his surgical cap still on and his scrubs marked with the evidence of a long, intense procedure. Heโs engrossed in conversation with another surgeon, but as you approach, he looks up and meets your gaze.
โYou must be Dr. Sim,โ you say, your voice firm.
Jake smiles, wiping his hands with a towel. โDr. Y/L/N, Iโve heard a lot about you.โ
โI could say the same about you,โ you reply, not missing a beat. โSeeing as youโre the reason my nurses are disappearing during their shifts to watch this so-called groundbreaking technique of yours.โ
His smile falters slightly, and he raises an eyebrow. โI didnโt realize my surgeries were causing any issues. Iโm sorry if theyโve been a distraction.โ
โThey have,โ you state bluntly, crossing your arms. โMy teamโs focus should be on their patients, not on observing other procedures or a certain brain surgeon, no matter how impressive they might be.โ
Jakeโs lips curl into a playful grin. โOh, so you think Iโm impressive?โ
You feel a flush of annoyance, typical behavior for a neurosurgeon, always so full of themselves. โI didnโt say that.โ
โBut you implied it,โ he teases, taking a step closer. โIโll take it as a compliment.โ
You narrow your eyes, trying to maintain your stern demeanor. โMy team doesnโt have time for distractions, Dr. Sim.โ
โFair enough,โ he replies, his tone still light but his expression more serious. โI understand, and Iโll make sure to address it with the staff. I didnโt mean to disrupt the unit.โ
You study him for a moment, gauging his sincerity. Despite your irritation, thereโs something about his demeanor that disarms you slightly. You canโt help but notice his deep brown eyes, plump lips, and the way his Australian accent is way more attractive than it should be. You understand, in that moment, why the nurses might be so captivated.
โGood,โ you say, your tone softening just a touch. โI appreciate that.โ
Jake smiles again, this time a bit more warmly. โAnd if itโs any consolation, your reputation as a top cardiac surgeon is well-deserved. I look forward to working alongside you.โ
โLikewise,โ you reply, giving him a curt nod before turning to leave. As you walk away, you canโt shake the mixture of irritation and intrigue. Jake Sim might be causing headaches for your unit, but thereโs no denying his skill and charm. You just hope he proves to be more than just a distraction.
A few days later, you find yourself in the hospitalโs busy hallway, reviewing patient charts on your tablet. The hum of activity around you is a comforting backdrop until a familiar voice interrupts your focus.
โDr. Y/L/N,โ Jake calls out, his voice carrying that unmistakable Australian lilt. โFancy seeing you here.โ
You look up, and there he is, leaning casually against the wall, his eyes twinkling with mischief. โDr. Sim,โ you acknowledge with a nod, trying to keep your tone neutral. โWhat can I do for you?โ
โJust thought Iโd say hello,โ he replies, pushing off the wall and sauntering over to you. โAnd maybe ask how youโre doing.โ
โIโm fine, thank you,โ you respond, keeping your eyes on your tablet.
โBusy as usual, I see,โ he notes, glancing at the screen. โYou ever take a break?โ
โBreaks are for people who donโt have critical patients to tend to,โ you reply, not looking up.
He chuckles, the sound warm and annoyingly pleasant. โYou know, thereโs more to life than work. Maybe you need someone to remind you of that.โ
You finally look up, raising an eyebrow. โAnd I suppose you think youโre that someone?โ
โCould be,โ he says with a confident grin. โI mean, who better to show you the lighter side of things?โ
You roll your eyes, but a small smile tugs at your lips. โYouโre quite sure of yourself, arenโt you?โ
โConfidence is a necessity in our line of work,โ he says, his eyes locking onto yours. โBut Iโve heard it helps in other areas too.โ
โOh really? Like what?โ you ask, despite yourself.
He leans in a little closer, lowering his voice conspiratorially. โLike convincing brilliant surgeons to step out of their comfort zones once in a while.โ
You scoff lightly, shaking your head. โI donโt need convincing, Dr. Sim. I have my priorities straight.โ
โOf course you do,โ he replies smoothly. โBut even the best of us need a break sometimes. Donโt worry, Iโm not asking you out. Just offering a bit of friendly advice.โ
You look at him, trying to figure out if heโs serious. โFriendly advice, huh?โ
โAbsolutely,โ he says with a wink. โThink of it as a, professional courtesy.โ
You canโt help but laugh, despite your best efforts to stay stern. โYouโre something else, you know that?โ
โI get that a lot,โ he says, flashing that infuriatingly charming smile. โAnyway, Iโll let you get back to saving lives. But if you ever need a reminder of what fun looks like, you know where to find me.โ
later that day, the hospital corridors are quieter than usual as you make your way to the elevators, finally heading home after a long shift. The soft hum of the building is almost soothing after the constant noise of the OR. You press the button and wait, your mind already shifting to thoughts of a hot shower and some much-needed sleep.
The elevator dings, and as the doors slide open, you see Jake standing inside, leaning against the back wall, his expression relaxed but alert. He looks up and his face lights up with a familiar, playful smile.
โDr. Y/L/N,โ he greets, stepping aside to make room for you. โHeading home too?โ
โDr. Sim,โ you reply, stepping in and pressing the button for the ground floor. โLooks like it.โ
The doors close, and the elevator begins its descent. The enclosed space suddenly feels a bit smaller with the two of you in it.
โLong day?โ he asks, glancing over at you.
โYou could say that,โ you respond, leaning back against the wall. โYou?โ
โSame here,โ he says, a hint of fatigue creeping into his voice. โBut itโs all part of the job, right?โ
You nod, a brief silence settling between you. Itโs not uncomfortable, but thereโs an unspoken tension, a mix of mutual respect and something else you canโt quite put your finger on.
โSo,โ Jake breaks the silence, a teasing note in his voice. โAny plans for the evening? Or are you one of those surgeons who lives and breathes work even at home?โ
You raise an eyebrow, a small smile tugging at your lips. โAnd what about you? Do you have a life outside the hospital, Dr. Sim?โ
He laughs softly, the sound warm and genuine. โI try to, when Iโm not dealing with brain surgery. But Iโll admit, itโs a challenge. The job can be all-consuming.โ
โTell me about it,โ you agree, your tone more relaxed now. โSometimes it feels like thereโs no room for anything else.โ
โMaybe thatโs why itโs important to find some balance,โ he says, his voice sincere. โEven if itโs just little moments here and there.โ
You look at him, considering his words. Thereโs more to Jake than the cocky, flirtatious persona he often projects. โI suppose youโre right.โ
The elevator dings again, signaling your arrival at the ground floor. As the doors open, you both step out into the lobby, the cool night air from outside brushing against your skin.
โNeed a ride?โ Jake offers, his tone casual but thereโs a glint of genuine concern in his eyes. โItโs pretty late.โ
โIโm good, thanks,โ you reply, appreciating the offer but not ready to blur those professional lines just yet. โBut Iโll see you tomorrow.โ
โCount on it,โ he says with a wink. โHave a good night, Dr. Y/L/N.โ
โYou too, Dr. Sim,โ you respond, turning to head towards your car.
As you walk away, you canโt help but feel a strange mix of irritation and curiosity. Jake Sim might be a distraction, but thereโs no denying that heโs also starting to become a presence you canโt quite ignore. And maybe, just maybe, thatโs not entirely a bad thing.
The next day, you find yourself scrubbing in for a complex procedure. Todayโs case is a particularly challenging one: a patient with both a severe cardiac condition and a cerebral aneurysm, requiring the combined expertise of both cardiac and neuro specialists. As you meticulously scrub your hands and arms, you hear the familiar voice of Jake Sim beside you.
โLooks like weโre working together today,โ he says, his tone a mix of professionalism and that signature playful edge.
You glance over, meeting his eyes. โSeems like it. Ready for this?โ
โAlways,โ he replies, his confident smile never wavering. โIโve been looking forward to this case. Itโs not every day we get to tackle something this intricate together.โ
You nod, appreciating his enthusiasm despite your initial reservations about him. โAgreed. The patientโs condition is precarious. We need to be perfectly in sync.โ
Jake gives you a serious nod, his demeanor shifting. โAbsolutely. Letโs make sure we give them the best outcome possible.โ
You both finish scrubbing in and enter the OR, where the patient is already prepped and waiting. The atmosphere is charged with a mix of tension and anticipation, the surgical team moving with practiced precision. As you take your place on one side of the patient, Jake positions himself on the other, eyes meeting over the sterile field.
โReady to start?โ you ask, your voice steady and focused.
โReady,โ Jake confirms, his expression equally determined.
The surgery begins, and the OR fills with the rhythmic beeping of monitors and the soft hum of machinery. You work methodically, your hands moving with practiced precision as you navigate the complex landscape of the patientโs heart. Jake mirrors your concentration, his focus unbroken as he tackles the aneurysm with equal skill.
โForceps,โ you request, your voice calm and controlled.
โHere,โ the scrub nurse says, passing the instrument with a fluid motion. โHowโs the heart looking?โ jake asks
โStable,โ you reply, glancing up briefly to meet his eyes. โHow about the aneurysm?โ
โItโs going well,โ he answers, his tone steady. โWeโre almost there.โ
As the surgery progresses, you find yourselves falling into a natural rhythm, your movements synchronized in a way that surprises you. Thereโs a subtle, unspoken understanding between you, each anticipating the otherโs needs and adjustments.
โNice work on that bypass,โ Jake comments, his tone genuinely appreciative.
โThanks,โ you reply, a small smile forming behind your mask. โYour precision with the aneurysm is impressive.โ
โComing from you, that means a lot,โ he says, and you can hear the sincerity in his voice.
Hours pass, but the intensity of your focus never wanes. Finally, as the last suture is placed and the patientโs vitals stabilize, you both step back, a sense of accomplishment settling over you.
โGreat job, everyone,โ you say to the team, who respond with nods and murmurs of agreement.
Jake meets your eyes, his expression one of respect and something more. โWe make a good team, Dr. Y/L/N.โ
You nod, feeling a surprising sense of camaraderie. โWe do, Dr. Sim. Letโs hope the patient has a smooth recovery.โ
As you step out of the OR and begin the process of de-scrubbing, you canโt help but reflect on the dayโs events. Working alongside Jake, seeing his skill and dedication firsthand, has shifted your perspective. Heโs still cocky, still flirty, but thereโs depth and talent beneath that exterior.
โDrinks tonight to celebrate?โ Jake asks, a teasing glint in his eye as you both head towards the locker rooms.
You laugh, shaking your head. โMaybe another time, Dr. Sim. But good work today.โ
โThanks, Y/N,โ he says, dropping the formalities for a moment. โSeriously, it was an honor working with you.โ
โThe feelingโs mutual,โ you admit, giving him a genuine smile before heading off to change.
The next few weeks bring more opportunities for you and Jake to work together, and each collaboration reveals another layer of his skill and personality. Despite his initial cockiness, Jake proves to be a dedicated and talented surgeon, and you begin to see him in a new light. The more time you spend together in the OR, the more you find yourself appreciating his expertise and even enjoying his company.
One evening, you find yourself finishing up some paperwork in the quiet cardiac unit. The day had been long, but fulfilling, with several successful surgeries under your belt. As you look up from your desk, you see Jake approaching, a thoughtful expression on his face.
"Hey," he says, leaning against the doorframe. "You still here?"
"Just wrapping up," you reply, setting aside your pen. "What about you?"
"Same," he says, stepping into your office. "I was going to head out, but I thought I'd check in on you first."
"Checking in on me, huh?" you say with a hint of amusement. "What for?"
"Well, I was thinking," he starts, a bit more serious than usual. "We've been working together a lot lately, and I wanted to say thank you. For trusting me in the OR and for being an amazing colleague."
You feel a warm glow at his words, appreciating the sincerity behind them. "Thank you, Jake. You've been a great partner in the OR. I couldn't have asked for a better neurosurgeon to collaborate with."
Jake smiles, the familiar twinkle returning to his eyes. "You know, I think we make a pretty good team."
"I think so too," you admit, a small smile playing on your lips. "It's been nice, working with you."
"Nice, huh?" he teases, his playful side emerging once more. "I'll take that as a high compliment coming from you."
You laugh softly, shaking your head. "Don't let it go to your head, Sim."
He chuckles, but his expression soon turns more contemplative. "You know, I've been thinking about what I said the other day. About balance and taking breaks. It's something I'm not great at either."
"a little hypocritical to be giving me advice then no?," you reply, your tone light but teasing. "It's hard to switch off when our work is so demanding."
"Exactly," he agrees. "But I've realized that maybe we could help each other with that. Maybe we could find a way to balance things out a bit more."
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued. "And how do you propose we do that?"
"How about we start with something simple?" he suggests. "Like taking a real break. Maybe grab a coffee together, no work talk allowed. Just two colleagues, taking a breather."
You consider his offer, the idea surprisingly appealing. "Alright, Dr. Sim. Coffee sounds good."
Jake's smile widens, a genuine warmth in his eyes. "Great. Tomorrow morning, then? Before our rounds?"
"Tomorrow morning," you agree, feeling a flutter of anticipation.
The next morning, you find yourself at the hospitalโs small cafรฉ, waiting for Jake. The early hour means the space is quiet, with only a few other staff members milling about. When Jake arrives, heโs carrying two steaming cups of coffee, a smile on his face.
โGood morning,โ he greets, handing you a cup. โThought Iโd get us a head start.โ
โThanks,โ you say, accepting the coffee and taking a sip. โSo, whatโs on your mind, Dr. Sim?โ
โJust enjoying the company,โ he replies, sitting down across from you. โAnd maybe getting to know the person behind the scalpel a little better.โ
You chuckle, feeling a bit more at ease. โAlright, what do you want to know?โ
โLetโs start simple,โ he says, leaning forward slightly. โWhat do you do when youโre not saving lives?โ
You think for a moment, realizing how rare it is for you to talk about anything other than work. โI like to read, mostly. And sometimes I go for a run. It helps clear my head.โ
โSounds nice,โ he says, nodding. โIโm more of a swimmer myself. Itโs the one thing that keeps me sane outside the OR.โ
โSwimming, huh?โ you ask, surprised. โI wouldnโt have pegged you for a swimmer.โ
โThereโs a lot you donโt know about me, Y/N,โ he says, his tone teasing but with a hint of seriousness.
โMaybe,โ you admit, feeling a strange curiosity about him. โBut Iโm starting to think Iโd like to find out.โ
The conversation flows easily, and you find yourself genuinely enjoying the time with Jake. As you talk, you see different sides of himโhis passion for his work, his dedication to his patients, and even a vulnerable side that he rarely shows.
When itโs time to head back to your respective departments, you feel a sense of connection that wasnโt there before. Maybe Jake Sim is more than just a distraction. Maybe heโs someone worth getting to know.
As you part ways, he gives you a warm smile. โSame time tomorrow?โ
โSame time,โ you agree, already looking forward to it.
And so, a new routine begins. Coffee in the mornings, shared surgeries, and increasingly personal conversations. The barriers you once held up start to crumble, and you find yourself drawn to Jake in ways you hadnโt anticipated.
Weeks pass, and the connection between you grows stronger. One evening, after another successful surgery, Jake catches up to you in the hallway.
โHey,โ he says, slightly out of breath. โDo you have a minute?โ
โSure,โ you reply, curious.
โI was thinking,โ he starts, looking a bit nervous for the first time. โWeโve been spending a lot of time together, and Iโve really enjoyed getting to know you. Iโd like to take you out for dinner. No work, just us.โ
You feel a flutter of surprise and anticipation. โDinner?โ
โYeah,โ he says, smiling. โWhat do you say?โ
You consider for a moment, then nod. โAlright, Jake. Dinner sounds good.โ
As he walks away, you canโt help but smile.
The evening of your date arrives, and youโre both excited and a bit nervous. Youโve chosen a smart but casual outfit, and after a final check in the mirror, youโre ready. Your heart flutters with anticipation as you hear the sound of a car pulling up outside your apartment.
When you open the door, Jake is standing there, looking effortlessly charming in a blazer and jeans. His eyes light up as he sees you, and he smiles warmly.
โDr. Y/L/N,โ he says with a grin. โYou look pretty.โ
โThank you, Dr. Sim,โ you reply with a smile, feeling a bit flustered. โYou look pretty sharp yourself.โ
He gestures to the car parked behind him. โShall we?โ
You nod and follow him down to the car. As you slide into the passenger seat, Jake starts the engine and glances over with a playful smile.
โSo, are you ready for an evening of fine dining and even finer conversation?โ he asks, his tone light and teasing.
โIโm definitely looking forward to it,โ you reply, settling into the seat and feeling a mix of excitement and curiosity.
As he drives, the conversation flows easily. Jake talks about his day and a recent surgery he performed, and you share some anecdotes from your own work. The drive is filled with laughter and engaging conversation, making you feel more at ease.
When you arrive at the restaurant, Jake parks and opens the door for you, offering his hand to help you out. The restaurant is a cozy bistro with warm lighting and a relaxed atmosphere. Jake leads you inside and to your reserved table, which is positioned by a window with a view of the city lights.
โThis place looks lovely,โ you say as you take your seat, admiring the ambiance.
โIโm glad you like it,โ Jake replies, settling into his chair across from you. โI thought it would be a nice spot for our first dinner out.โ
The evening progresses with delightful conversation and delicious food. Jake is attentive and charming, making sure youโre comfortable and enjoying yourself. As you both talk about various topics, you find yourself opening up more than you expected.
At one point, Jake asks, โWhatโs something youโve always wanted to do but havenโt had the chance to yet?โ
You think for a moment, considering the question. โIโve always wanted to take a cooking class. I love to cook, but I think it would be fun to learn some new techniques and recipes.โ
โThat sounds like a great idea,โ Jake says, nodding. โMaybe we could take a class together sometime. Iโve always wanted to learn how to cook Italian cuisine.โ
You smile at the thought. โThat could be fun. Iโd be up for that.โ
As the evening progresses, the conversation turns more personal. Jake shares stories about his family and his upbringing in Australia. He talks about the challenges of being far from home and the sacrifices heโs made for his career.
โItโs not always easy being so far away from my family,โ Jake admits. โI miss them a lot, especially during the holidays.โ
โI can imagine,โ you say sympathetically. โMy family is close by, and we have our own share of drama, but Iโm grateful for their support.โ
Jake nods, appreciating your understanding. โFamily can be complicated, but itโs important to have that support system.โ
You both continue to share personal stories and insights, finding common ground in your experiences. By the end of the evening, you feel a genuine connection with Jake, one that goes beyond professional respect.
When the check arrives, Jake insists on paying. โItโs my treat tonight,โ he says with a smile. โConsider it a small thank you for a wonderful evening.โ
โThank you, Jake,โ you reply, feeling touched by his gesture. โI really appreciate it.โ
. The night air is crisp and refreshing, and the drive home is filled with easy conversation. When you arrive at your apartment, Jake parks and turns to you with a hopeful expression.
โI had a great time tonight,โ he says softly. โI hope you did too.โ
โI did,โ you reply with a smile. โThank you for such a lovely evening.โ
you hesitate for a moment, then look at jake with a warm smile. โWould you like to come up? Maybe just hang out and talk some more?โ
he considers the offer, feeling a mix of excitement and curiosity. โThat sounds nice. Iโd love to.โ
He smiles and follows you up to your apartment. As you enter, the space feels even more welcoming with the soft lighting and cozy atmosphere. You both get comfortable on the couch with drinks, and the conversation continues to flow effortlessly.
You find yourselves talking about everything from past relationships to future aspirations. As the conversation flows, Jake starts to open up about his past relationships. โYou know, Iโve had my fair share of relationships that didnโt work out. One of the biggest challenges was balancing the demands of work and personal life. Itโs not easy to find someone who understands the hours and the emotional toll.โ
โI get that,โ you say sympathetically. โItโs hard to maintain a relationship when your job takes up so much of your time and energy. My last relationship ended for similar reasons.โ
Jake looks at you with genuine curiosity. โWhat happened?โ
You take a deep breath, reflecting on your past. โWe were together for a few years, and it started out great. But as time went on, he couldnโt handle the unpredictability of my schedule and the stress of my job. We drifted apart, and eventually, we just grew in different directions.โ
โIโm sorry to hear that,โ Jake says softly. โItโs never easy to end a relationship, especially when itโs someone you care about.โ
โThanks,โ you reply. โItโs part of life, I guess. We both moved on and found our own paths.โ
Jake nods, taking a sip of his wine. The easy conversation slows, a new, more, intimate silence settling between the two of you.
Jake shifts slightly, closing the gap between you. his eyes locked on yours. you could feel the heat radiating off his body, and you suddenly felt very aware of your own. He reached out and brushed a stray lock of hair out of your face, his touch sending a shiver down your spine.
your heart raced as Jake leaned in and pressed his lips to yours. you responded eagerly, parting your lips to allow his tongue to explore your mouth. you could feel the heat building between you as you kissed, your bodies pressed together.
Jake's hands began to wander, tracing patterns on your back. you could feel his fingers brushing against the zipper of your dress, and you shivered with anticipation.
Jake pulled away from the kiss, his eyes dark with desire. "May I?" he asked, his hand hovering over the zipper.
You nodded, your breath coming in short gasps. Jake slowly unzipped the dress, his fingers brushing against your skin as he did so. You felt a thrill run through your body as the dress fell to the floor, leaving her standing in just your matching black bra and panties.
Jake's eyes roamed over yourbody, taking in every inch of you. You could feel yourself growing wet as he looked at you, his desire obvious and reflecting your own.
Jake stepped closer to you, his hands reaching out to touch you. You could feel his fingers tracing the lace of your bra, you shivered with pleasure. He leaned in and began to kiss your neck, his lips leaving a trail of fire in their wake.
a soft moan escapes as Jake's lips moved down your body, his hands following close behind. โyouโre so fucking beautifulโ He reached your breasts, his fingers tracing the outline of your nipples through the lace of your bra. You could feel yourself growing wetter with every touch, your body begging for more. โbeen thinking about this since the first day I saw youโ
Jake reached behind You and unclasped your bra, letting it fall to the floor. He cupped your tits in his hands, his thumbs brushing against your nipples. You moaned as he touched you, your body responding to his touch.
Jake's mouth moved lower, his lips brushing against your stomach. you could feel his breath against her skin, and she shivered with anticipation. โw-ant youโ He reached for your panties, โrelax baby I got youโ, his fingers tracing the outline of your pussy through the fabric.
you gasp as Jake's fingers slip beneath your panties, his fingers exploring your folds. you could feel yourself growing wetter with every touch, your body begging for more.
Jake pulled your panties down, his eyes locked on your pussy, โshit baby, youโre so wet fโme, such a pretty pussyโ He leaned in and began to kiss your inner thighs, his lips igniting the heat pooling in your lower belly.
Jakes mouth moved lower, his lips brushing against your pussy. a loud moan leaves your lips as he began to lick at your entrance, your hand instinctively going between your legs to run your fingers through his black locks. โfuck, jake feels so fucking good donโt stopโ he hums in response, the vibration going straight to your core.
heโs practically making out with your cunt licking and sucking, his saliva and your juices combined, making a mess on your couch, but that was the last thing on your mind right now. โfuck iโm c-cumingโ your orgasm rapidly approaching. โyeah baby cum on my tongue, fuck canโt get enough of you, you taste so sweetโ. at his words, your orgasm hits you like a wave, your body shaking with pleasure.
Jake stood up, his eyes locked on yours. you could see the desire in his eyes, and you knew what he wanted. you reached out and unbuttoned his pants, fingers brushing against his hard cock.
Jake stepped out of his pants, his hard cock springing free. while he wasnโt remarkably long, he definitely made up for it in girth. You reached out and wrapped your hand around it, stroking it gently. โah shit babyโ you could feel him growing harder in your hand, your excitement noticable.
he pushed you down onto the couch, climbing on top of you. โcondom?โ he asked, stopping in his tracks before he gets too ahead of himself. โitโs fine, just put it inโ you reach down between you two, taking hold of his length as you begin to guide his cock into your dripping heat. his cock twitches at the thought of feeling you with nothing in between, โfuck, are you sure?โ, โyeah, mโon the pill, just fuck me already pleaseโ your walls clench around nothing, needing to feel him inside you more than anything.
without another word he slides in. the stinging sensation quickly turning into one of pleasure. your pussy gripping him tightly as he sets a pace that has your eyes rolling to the back of your head. โso fucking tight, pretty, youโre squeezing me so good. pussy was made for my cock mhm?โ you canโt even find the words to reply, the pleasure all too much to even think straight.
โfeels so good jakeโ your words encourage him, his thrusts growing more quick, chasing his release as well as your own. the room is filled moans and the sloppy, wet sounds of his cock pounding into your hole. โs-so close, faster baby, want your cum inside meโ you donโt have to tell him twice, his hips snapping into a pace that has you seeing stars.
โcum for me baby, cum on my cockโ his hand reaches between you to rub your clit in quick circles, sending you over the edge โfuck! iโm cumming!โ your release consumes you, his following not too long after.
he collapses next to you on the tiny couch, the both of you panting and out of breath as you come down from your high. โthat was amazingโ you turn your head to look at him, his eyes closed from pure euphoria he just experienced. โamazing is an understatement. it was fan fucking tasticโ you let out a laugh at his pure honesty, a comfortable silence settling in the room.
he pulls you in by your waist, positioning you so your back is against his chest, a more comfortable position since your couch is definitely not meant for this. โi had a good time tonightโ you canโt help the smile that grows on your face โme tooโ
as if the universe was against you, a beeping noise cuts through the silence, ending your moment. his pager was going off, they probably needed him back at the hospital, the realization of your jobs hitting you like a truck. โway to ruin the momentโ he says getting up to check the pager โI gotta go, iโll see you at work?โ you smile at him nodding. he quickly gets dressed and presses a quick peck to your lips โget some restโ he tells you before rushing out the door to make his way to the hospital.
you canโt help but be a little disappointed. The obligation of your job was one of the many reasons you didnโt date, simply because it didnโt work. why did you expect this to be any different?
you drift off into a slumber, too tired to let your thoughts cloud your mind.
The next morning, the hospital is bustling with the usual chaos as you walk through the corridors towards your office. Despite the busy environment, your mind keeps drifting back to the night before with Jake. The memory of his touch, his kisses, and the intimate conversations you shared fills you with a warm, lingering sense of connection.
As you turn the corner, you see Jake standing near the nursesโ station, discussing a case with a colleague. He looks up and catches your eye, a slow, knowing smile spreading across his face. Thereโs a new glint in his eyes that wasnโt there before, a mixture of warmth and mischief.
โGood morning, Dr. Y/L/N,โ Jake calls out, his tone playful and a bit louder than necessary, drawing the attention of nearby staff. โDid you sleep well?โ
You feel a blush rising but manage to keep your composure. โGood morning, Dr. Sim. I did, thank you. And you?โ
โdidnโt sleep much, had a lot on my mind,โ he replies, his grin widening as he walks over to you. โMust be the excellent company I had last night.โ
Several nurses and doctors nearby glance over with curious expressions, but Jake seems unfazed. He stops just a bit too close, his presence commanding your attention. โI was hoping we might catch up over lunch. Iโve been craving some more of those conversations we had.โ
You raise an eyebrow, fighting the smile thatโs threatening to break through. โIs that so? Well, Iโll have to check my schedule.โ
Jake chuckles, leaning in slightly. โYou do that. In the meantime, if you need anything at all, you know where to find me.โ His voice drops to a conspiratorial whisper, โOr maybe I should say, you know where to call me.โ
You canโt help but laugh softly, shaking your head at his audacity. โIโll keep that in mind, Dr. Sim.โ
He winks at you before stepping back, returning to his conversation with the colleague but not without a lingering glance over his shoulder.
Throughout the morning, you find yourself running into Jake more often than usual. Each time, he manages to throw in a playful comment or a flirty remark, making it clear that last nightโs intimacy has only fueled his interest.
In the break room, youโre pouring a cup of coffee when Jake slips in beside you. โwe meet again,โ he says, his tone light. โI was just thinking about how good you look in scrubs.โ
You roll your eyes but smile, feeling a flutter of excitement. โReally? Iโm sure you say that to all the doctors.โ
โOnly the ones who make a lasting impression,โ he replies smoothly, his eyes sparkling with genuine admiration.
Later, while reviewing patient charts at your desk, you receive a text from Jake. Itโs a picture of a heart drawn on a napkin, with a message: โCouldnโt help but think of you during rounds.โ
You canโt stop the grin that spreads across your face. Itโs clear that Jakeโs flirting isnโt just a passing fancy; thereโs a genuine interest and warmth behind his actions that makes your heart skip a beat.
Weeks turn into months, and your relationship with Jake settles into a comfortable, intimate rhythm. Without any formal labels, your connection grows deeper, rooted in shared moments and unspoken understandings. Lunches in the cafeteria become a regular occurrence, interspersed with stolen glances across the OR and late-night encounters that leave you breathless and wanting more.
You find yourself looking forward to these moments, the thrill of sneaking around adding a layer of excitement. During shifts, Jakeโs flirtatious comments become a highlight of your day.
One afternoon, youโre in the break room, reviewing patient charts when Jake walks in, his usual confident stride and easy smile making your heart skip a beat. He leans against the counter, his eyes sparkling with mischief.
โHey, beautiful. Busy?โ he asks, his voice a low murmur that sends a shiver down your spine.
โAlways,โ you reply, trying to keep your tone light despite the turmoil in your chest.
Jake walks over, his presence commanding your attention. โYou look like you could use a break. How about a coffee?โ
You glance at the clock, knowing you have a few minutes to spare. โSure, why not?โ
As you walk to the โcoffee shopโ side by side, jake quickly takes a glance around to make sure no one is watching and pulls you into the on-call room, the tension between you palpable, you canโt help but feel the thrill of anticipation. The moment the door closes behind you, Jakeโs hands are on your waist, pulling you close. His lips find yours in a kiss thatโs both urgent and tender, a mix of passion and familiarity that leaves you breathless.
โYouโve been on my mind all day,โ he murmurs against your lips, his hands roaming over your back.
โyou pulled me away for this?โ you let out a slight chuckle. โmhm want you so badโ his lips move down to your neck โjake weโre at work.โ
your eyes shut closed, enjoying the feeling of his soft, plump lips on that sweet spot behind you ear that he always found instantly. โdoors locked, no oneโs coming in hereโ he mutters out.
you give in, your hands immediately going to his pants and undoing the tie on his scrub bottoms. โwell in that case, I wanna suck your cockโ you whispered, lowering down into your knees in front of him. Jake's eyes widened in surprise, but then he grinned.
"Fuck, yeah," he said, dropping his pants and boxers. His cock was hard and thick, the tip already glistening with precum, your heart pounding with excitement.
you reached out and wrapped your hand around his cock, stroking it gently. Jake groaned and closed his eyes, his head thrown back. you leaned forward and licked the tip of his cock, tasting the salty precum. Jake's groan grew louder as you opened your mouth and took him in, lips sliding down his veiny shaft.
you started to suck, head bobbing up and down as youworked his cock. Jake's hands were in yoir hair, guiding you as you sucked him off. you could feel his cock throbbing in your mouth, his balls tightening as he got closer to cumming.
"yeah, baby," Jake groaned, his hips thrusting forward as he fucked your mouth. "You're gonna make me cum so hard."
You moan around his cock, the sound vibrating through his shaft. You could feel his cock twitching in yourmouth, his balls tightening even more. you continued faster, fingers digging into his thighs as you worked him.
Jake's groans grew louder, his thrusts more urgent. you could feel his cock swelling, his precum flowing freely. you sucked harder, cheeks hollowing as your mouth got him to his release.
"Fuck, I'm gonna cum," Jake groaned, his hips bucking as he came hard in your mouth. You swallowed, throat working as you took every drop of his cum. Jake's hands were in you hair, holding your head as he came, his hips still thrusting as he emptied himself into your mouth.
When he was done, you pulled back, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand. Jake's cock was still hard, but it was starting to soften. You stood up, smiling at him.
"Did you like that?" you asked, voice soft and seductive. Jake grinned, his eyes still glazed with pleasure.
"I loved it," he said, pulling you into a kiss. "That was amazing."
As the weeks went on, you and Jake continued the little rhythm you had set in place. He flirted with you every chance he got. The both of you ending up in each others beds more often than not.
One evening, after a particularly grueling day at the hospital, youโre sitting in your apartment, staring blankly at the schedule in front of you. Your mind keeps drifting back to Jakeโthe way he looked at you during lunch, the warmth of his hand on your back as he guided you through the crowded cafeteria. The realization hits you like a tidal wave: youโre falling for him. Hard.
It terrifies you.
Youโve always prided yourself on being focused, dedicated, and in control of your emotions. But with Jake, everything feels different. The boundaries you set for yourself are blurring, and youโre not sure if you can handle the implications.
The demands of your job loom heavily over you. The long hours, the constant pressure, and the emotional toll of the medical field leave little room for anything else. As you stare at the schedule for the coming weeks, packed with surgeries and patient consultations, the reality sinks in: maintaining a relationship would be nearly impossible. The thought of trying to juggle your career and a growing emotional commitment to Jake feels overwhelming. After much soul-searching, you come to a difficult conclusion. Itโs not fair to him or to yourself to continue something you canโt fully sustain. With a heavy heart, you decide itโs best to end things, believing that stepping back is the only way to preserve the little balance in your life.
The next day, youโre in the break room, trying to focus on patient charts when Jake walks in. He greets you with his usual easy smile, his eyes lighting up when he sees you.
โHey, what are you up to?โ he asks, his voice a low murmur that sends a shiver down your spine.
โjust charting, the usual,โ you reply, trying to keep your tone light despite the turmoil in your chest.
Jake walks over, his presence commanding your attention. โYou wanna step away for a bit and grab lunch with me?โ
You hesitate, the words on the tip of your tongue. You want to say yes, but the fear of what it might mean if you keep going down this path holds you back. โActually, I have a lot to catch up on. Maybe another time.โ
Jakeโs brow furrows, a flicker of concern in his eyes. โEverything okay?โ
You force a smile, trying to keep your emotions in check. โYeah, just a bit overwhelmed with work.โ
He doesnโt push, but you can see the worry in his eyes as he nods and leaves you to your charts.
Over the next few days, you start to pull back, keeping your interactions with Jake strictly professional. You avoid the on-call room, decline his offers for lunch, and keep your conversations short and to the point. Itโs not easy, and you can see the confusion and hurt in his eyes every time you brush him off.
One evening, youโre leaving the hospital when you run into Jake in the parking lot. Heโs leaning against his car, arms crossed, his expression serious.
โY/N, can we talk?โ he asks, his voice a mix of frustration and concern.
You nod, knowing you canโt avoid this conversation forever. โSure.โ
He takes a deep breath, his eyes searching yours. โWhatโs going on? Youโve been avoiding me, and I donโt understand why. Did I do something wrong?โ
You shake your head, feeling the weight of your emotions pressing down on you. โNo, Jake, you didnโt do anything wrong. Itโs justโฆ Iโve been thinking a lot about us. About what weโre doing.โ
Jakeโs expression softens, and he steps closer, his hand reaching out to gently cup your cheek. โTalk to me, Y/N. Whatโs going on?โ
You shift uncomfortably, feeling the weight of your decision pressing down on you. โIโve realized that I canโt keep up with a relationship right now. Our jobs are so demanding, and Iโm constantly running on empty. I donโt think I can give you the attention and commitment you deserve.โ
Jakeโs expression shifts from confusion to hurt. โY/N, I thought we were making this work. Why now? What changed?โ
You struggle to keep your voice steady, the lump in your throat making it hard to speak. โItโs not about you. Itโs about me and my inability to balance everything. Iโve been trying to make it work, but I canโt keep up with both my job and a relationship. It wouldnโt be fair to you.โ
Jakeโs eyes drop to the floor, and he takes a deep breath, trying to process what youโve said. โSo, this is it? Youโre justโฆ ending things? before they even started?โ
You nod, feeling tears well up in your eyes. โI think itโs best. I care about you a lot, but right now, I canโt handle more than what Iโve got.โ
Jake remains silent for a moment, then looks back at you with a pained expression. โI get it, Y/N. If this is what you need, then I respect your decision. But it doesnโt make it any easier.โ
You reach out, touching his arm gently. โIโm so sorry, Jake. This isnโt what I wanted, but I need to focus on my career right now. I hope you understand.โ
He nods, his eyes filled with a mix of sadness and acceptance. โYeah, I understand. It doesnโt make it any less painful, but I get it.โ
As you turn to leave, you feel a deep ache in your chest, knowing that youโve made the right decision for yourself, but also feeling the weight of the loss. The break room seems colder now, and the empty space where Jake used to stand feels like a gaping hole in your heart.
Adjusting to life without Jake is more challenging than you anticipated. The hospital, once a place of shared glances and flirtatious banter, now feels strangely empty. The absence of his smile, his reassuring presence, and the warmth of his touch leaves a void thatโs hard to ignore.
At work, you focus intently on your patients and your responsibilities, but the familiar routine feels different. The small moments that once brought you joyโa playful comment during a surgery, a quick coffee break togetherโare now replaced with an uncomfortable silence. Conversations with Jake are limited to work-related topics, and every interaction is laced with a professional distance that feels foreign and awkward.
In the OR, you work side by side, your focus on the patient and the procedure. Jakeโs skill and calm demeanor are still impressive, and you find yourself appreciating his expertise even more now. But the casual camaraderie you once enjoyed is gone, replaced by a formality that feels both stifling and isolating.
During breaks, you find yourself missing the easy conversations you used to have with him. You used to share small victories and frustrations, but now those moments are spent in solitude or with other colleagues who donโt quite fill the gap Jake left behind.
Despite your best efforts to maintain your composure, you canโt help but feel the pangs of loneliness. Your personal life remains focused solely on work, and the connection you once had with Jake seems like a distant memory. You remind yourself why you made the decision, focusing on the demanding nature of your job and the need for balance.
Gradually, you begin to adjust, finding solace in the routine of your work and the support of your colleagues. The initial pain of Jakeโs absence dulls over time, replaced by a newfound focus on your career and a deeper understanding of your own needs. Though the void remains, you learn to navigate your days with a renewed sense of purpose and dedication.
Youโre passing through the hospital lobby, your mind preoccupied with patient charts, when you spot Jake standing near the information desk. Heโs engaged in a conversation with Dr. Choi Miyeon, the oncology attending. Your steps slow involuntarily as you notice the easy laughter between them.
Jakeโs smile is wide and genuine, his eyes crinkling at the corners in a way that once made your heart flutter. But today, the sight of that smile, directed at someone else, sends a pang of jealousy through you. Dr. Choi, with her poised demeanor and confident air, seems to be enjoying his attention, and the familiarity between them feels almost too intimate.
You try to focus on your task, but your gaze keeps drifting back to the two of them. Jakeโs hand gestures animatedly as he talks, his face lighting up in a way that you havenโt seen directed at you in weeks. Dr. Choiโs laughter is soft and melodic, and she tilts her head slightly, clearly engaged in the conversation.
The sight of Jake looking so at ease with someone else brings an unexpected rush of emotion. You find yourself clenching your jaw, trying to ignore the gnawing sense of loss that accompanies the jealousy. Itโs a reminder of the connection you once shared and the void left behind by your decision.
You force yourself to look away, turning back to your work with a renewed determination to focus on your patients. But the image of Jakeโs smile and the easy rapport he shares with Dr. Choi lingers in your mind, leaving you with a mixture of regret and longing thatโs hard to shake.
As you continue with your tasks, the memory of Jakeโs interaction with Dr. Choi lingers, clouding your focus. Every time you glance up from your charts or interact with colleagues, your thoughts drift back to that moment in the lobby.
In the break room later that day, you catch sight of Jake entering, still visibly animated from his conversation with Dr. Choi. He looks up and sees you, his face lighting up with that same welcoming smile that used to be exclusively for you. The sight of it only intensifies the pang of jealousy you felt earlier.
โHey, Y/N,โ Jake says, approaching you with his usual warmth.
โHi, Jake,โ you reply, trying to keep your voice steady. You make a deliberate effort to maintain your professional composure, avoiding any mention of the earlier encounter.
Jake seems to sense a change in your demeanor but doesnโt press. Instead, he casually starts discussing the upcoming surgery, his tone light and engaging. You nod along, responding with the necessary professionalism, but your mind is elsewhere. You keep picturing him with Dr. Choi, the way they interacted so naturally, and itโs hard to ignore the twinge of regret.
As you wrap up the conversation and head to your next task, you canโt help but feel a deepening sense of frustration. The realization that you still care about Jake more than you initially admitted weighs heavily on you. The professional distance youโve maintained seems more like a barrier than a solution, and the void he left behind is harder to ignore than you thought.
Later that evening, as you drive home, you replay the scene in your mind, questioning your decision. You wonder if stepping back from Jake was truly the right choice, or if you were merely trying to shield yourself from the possibility of a meaningful connection. The jealousy you felt is a clear sign of unresolved feelings, and it becomes evident that the emotional aftermath of ending things is more complex than you anticipated.
By the time you reach your apartment, youโre left grappling with the realization that you might have made a mistake. The lingering image of Jakeโs smile, coupled with the undeniable ache in your chest, leaves you pondering whether thereโs a way to reconcile your fears with the genuine affection you still feel for him.
But it would be utterly selfish of you to go running back to him when heโs seemingly started to move on. This was all your doing after all. He had every right to find what you couldnโt give him in someone else.
The ache in your chest refuses to fade. The image of Jake smiling at Dr. Choi replays in your mind like a loop, and the jealousy you felt transforms into a deeper, more introspective turmoil. You sit in your apartment, the stillness of the room amplifying the thoughts racing through your head.
You replay the conversations and moments you shared with Jake, recalling the comfort and joy he brought into your life. The connection you had felt real and profound, and now that itโs gone, the void seems more pronounced than you expected. The professional distance youโve maintained does little to mitigate the lingering emotional impact, and the space between you feels even more significant.
The next day, you find yourself in the hospital, struggling to maintain the professional facade youโve carefully constructed. Every interaction with Jake, though polite and necessary, feels strained and awkward. You avoid his gaze when you can, focusing solely on your patients and tasks, but the undercurrent of unresolved feelings remains.
During a particularly intense surgery, Jake is once again by your side, and the familiarity of working with him brings back a rush of memories. His presence, though professional, is comforting, and you find yourself drawn to him despite your earlier resolve. As you work together seamlessly, the shared glances and brief touches become almost impossible to ignore, reigniting a flicker of the intimacy you once had.
After the surgery, youโre in the on-call room, trying to catch your breath and clear your mind. Jake enters, a small smile playing on his lips, and for a moment, the professional barrier youโve erected feels flimsy. He approaches you, his tone soft but playful.
โEverything okay, Y/N? You seem a bit distracted today.โ
You look up, meeting his gaze. His concern and warmth are genuine, and it only adds to the confusion youโre feeling. โJust a lot on my mind,โ you admit, forcing a smile. โItโs nothing.โ
Jakeโs eyes linger on you, a hint of frustration and worry evident. โIf you ever want to talk, Iโm here. You donโt have to go through this alone.โ
His words cut through the walls youโve built, and for a moment, you allow yourself to consider what youโve been missing. The idea of opening up to Jake, of sharing your fears and feelings, feels both daunting and inviting.
As the day goes on, you grapple with the decision to reach out to him. The barriers youโve erected are crumbling, and you realize that avoiding Jake might not be the solution you hoped for. Instead, you begin to consider whether thereโs a way to address your fears and find a balance between your demanding career and a meaningful relationship.
The thought of reaching out to Jake, of possibly reconciling your emotions with the connection you still feel, starts to take shape. Itโs a daunting step, but one that feels increasingly necessary as you navigate the complexities of your feelings and the emptiness left by his absence.
The days following your realization feel like a mix of regret and self-reproach. You canโt ignore the growing sense of remorse over ending things with Jake. The emptiness left by his absence is more acute than you anticipated, and the thought of missing out on something meaningful drives you to act.
One evening, determined to make things right, you head to Jakeโs apartment, hoping to talk things through. Your heart races as you reach his door, and you take a deep breath before knocking.
After a moment, the door opens, and your heart sinks when you see Dr. Choi Miyeon standing there. Her presence immediately sends a wave of jealousy and discomfort through you.
โDoctor Y/L/N?โ Miyeon says, her tone a mix of surprise and curiosity.
You stand frozen for a moment, the sight of her at Jakeโs door intensifying your doubts. โDoctor Choi,โ you manage, trying to keep your voice steady.
Miyeonโs expression shifts to one of mild confusion. โDid you need something?โ
The thought of Jake being with Miyeon, combined with the realization that youโre intruding on what feels like an intimate moment, makes your decision for you. The hurt and uncertainty youโve been feeling come to a head, and you realize youโre not ready to face him under these circumstances.
โI uh actually Iโll come at a better timeโ. Without another word, you turn and walk away from the door, your heart heavy with a mix of regret and frustration. You can hear Miyeonโs voice calling after you, but you donโt stop. The realization that youโve arrived at the wrong moment only deepens the sense of regret.
As you leave the building, the cool night air hits your face, offering a brief respite from the emotional storm youโre navigating. Youโre left grappling with the decision to return, to try again, or to accept the possibility that you might have missed your chance. The weight of the encounter with Miyeon only adds to the complexity of your feelings, leaving you to ponder your next steps in the solitude of the evening.
The following days are a haze of frustration and introspection. Seeing Miyeon at Jake's apartment made you feel even more disconnected from him. At work, maintaining your professional facade becomes more difficult as your emotions threaten to overwhelm you.
One morning, youโre at your locker, preparing for your shift, when Olivia walks in, her usual cheerful demeanor tempered by concern. โHey, Y/N, you okay? You seem a bit off lately.โ
You force a smile, trying to mask your turmoil. โJust a lot on my mind, Olivia. Thanks for asking.โ
She nods sympathetically. โIf you ever need to talk, Iโm here. We all have rough patches.โ
You thank her and head to the OR, trying to push your thoughts aside. But every encounter with Jake is a reminder of what youโve lost. You see him in the corridors, in meetings, and every interaction is laced with a painful awareness of the distance between you.
One afternoon, youโre in the middle of reviewing patient files when Jake approaches you. His expression is neutral, but thereโs an underlying tension in his eyes. โY/N, can we talk?โ
You nod, setting your files aside. โSure, whatโs up?โ
He leads you to a quieter corner of the hospital. โIโve been meaning to talk to you about the other night. I saw you at my apartment, and then you justโฆ left. What happened?โ
You take a deep breath, the memory of that evening still fresh and painful. โI came to talk to you, to explain that I made a mistake in ending things. But when I saw Miyeon, I realized I couldnโt do it.โ
Jakeโs expression softens, a mix of understanding and frustration in his eyes. โMiyeon and I were just going over some research. Thereโs nothing between us, Y/N. But I get why youโd feel that way.โ
The weight of your regret feels heavier now, knowing you misinterpreted the situation. โIโm sorry, Jake. Iโve been struggling with everything, and seeing you with her justโฆ hurt. I felt like Iโd already lost you.โ
He steps closer, his voice gentle but firm. โYou havenโt lost me, Y/N. I care about you. But we need to figure out what weโre doing here. This back and forth isnโt good for either of us.โ
You nod, feeling the weight of your emotions. โI know. Iโve been scared, Jake. Scared that our jobs would make it impossible to have a real relationship. But I realize now that pushing you away was a mistake.โ
Jakeโs gaze softens, and he reaches out to gently take your hand. โWe can make this work if we both want it, Y/N. But we have to be honest with each other, and we have to be willing to try.โ
You squeeze his hand, a sense of relief washing over you. โI do want to try, Jake. I want us to work.โ
He smiles, a genuine warmth in his eyes. โThen letโs take it one step at a time. Weโll figure this out together.โ
As you stand there, hand in hand, you feel a renewed sense of hope. The road ahead wonโt be easy, but the thought of facing it with Jake by your side makes it seem possible. For the first time in weeks, you feel like youโre on the right path, ready to face whatever challenges come your way.
The days following your night with Jake are a blend of professional decorum and personal confusion. You both agreed to take things one step at a time, but it's hard to ignore the magnetic pull between you. At work, Jake is as focused and brilliant as ever, but thereโs an added layer of warmth in his interactions with you, a silent acknowledgment of what you share.
One afternoon, you find yourself in the break room, sipping coffee and going over department paperwork . Jake walks in, his eyes lighting up when he sees you.
"Hey, Y/N," he says, his tone casual but with an underlying hint of playfulness. "Howโs your day going?"
You look up, trying to suppress a smile. "Busy as usual. Just finished a tricky valve replacement."
Jake nods, moving closer. "I heard. You did a great job."
You feel a flutter in your chest at his praise. "Thanks, Jake. How about you? Any groundbreaking surgeries today?"
He chuckles, leaning against the counter. "Just the usual brain stuff. Nothing too exciting." He pauses, his eyes twinkling with mischief. "So, dinner tonight? My place?"
You glance around to make sure no one is within earshot. "Are you asking me out, Dr. Sim?"
Jakeโs grin widens. "Maybe I am, Dr. Y/L/N. What do you say?"
You pretend to ponder, then nod. "Alright. Dinner sounds good."
The evening arrives, and Jake picks you up from your house. Heโs dressed casually but still looks incredibly handsome. The drive to his place is filled with light conversation and laughter, easing any lingering tension.
Once inside his apartment, you feel a sense of familiarity and comfort. Jake leads you to the living room, where heโs set up a cozy dinner with candles and soft music playing in the background.
"This looks amazing," you say, genuinely touched by the effort heโs put in.
Jake shrugs modestly. "I wanted to do something special."
The dinner is delicious, and the conversation flows effortlessly. You talk about your families, past relationships, and the challenges of balancing demanding careers with personal lives. As the night progresses, you feel the barriers between you dissolving.
After dinner, you move to the couch, a glass of wine in hand. The atmosphere is relaxed, and thereโs a growing sense of intimacy.
"Tell me more about your family," Jake says, his voice soft and curious.
You take a sip of wine, thinking about your parents and your brother. "Well, my parents are both retired now. My mom was a nurse, and my dad was a teacher. My older brother is a lawyer. Weโre close, even if we donโt see each other often."
Jake listens intently, nodding. "Sounds like a solid family. Mineโs a bit scattered. Parents divorced when I was young, so I spent a lot of time between Australia and the States. I have a younger sister whoโs an artist. Sheโs currently exploring Europe."
The conversation continues, each revelation bringing you closer. You talk about your past relationships, the heartbreaks and lessons learned. Thereโs a vulnerability in the exchange, a mutual understanding of the complexities of your lives.
As the night deepens, you find yourself leaning closer to Jake, the warmth of his presence enveloping you. He reaches out, gently brushing a strand of hair from your face.
"Y/N," he says softly, his eyes locking onto yours. "I really care about you. I want this to work, despite the challenges."
You feel a rush of emotions, the sincerity in his words touching you deeply. "I care about you too, Jake. I want us to work."
He leans in, capturing your lips in a slow, tender kiss. The kiss deepens, your bodies pressing closer together. The desire that has been simmering between you ignites, and you find yourself losing track of time as you explore the depths of your connection.
You found yourself crossing the room to stand in front of him, heart pounding in your chest. You'd reached out, hesitantly, and brushed a strand of hair from his forehead. And when he'd looked up at you, his eyes dark with desire, you knew that you couldn't resist any longer.
You leaned in, pressing your lips to his in a kiss that was both gentle and passionate. He'd responded eagerly, his arms wrapping around you and pulling you close. And as you kissed, you felt a surge of desire coursing through your veins.
You pulled back, just enough to look into his eyes. "Jake," you whispered, voice husky with longing.
"Yeah, baby?" he'd replied, his voice low and rough.
And then you stripped, slowly and deliberately, letting him watch as you revealed her body to him. Youโd seen the heat in his eyes as he'd taken in the sight of you, and you knew that you had him.
You moved closer, pressing your naked body against his clothed one. You reached down, unbuttoning his pants and freeing his hard cock, dropping to your knees, taking him into your mouth and sucking him deep.
He'd groaned, his hands tangling into your hair as you worked magic on him. โs-shit baby, taking me so good, thatโs itโ you sucked and licked and teased, driving him wild with pleasure. when you felt him on the brink, you pulled back, smiling up at him.
"Fuck me, Jake," you commanded, voice husky with desire.
He'd obeyed, lifting you up and carrying you to the bedroom. He laid you down on the bed, spreading your legs wide and burying his face between them. You cried out as he licked and sucked your clit, bringing you to the brink of orgasm.
And then he entered you, driving deep and hard. Your wrapped her legs around him, meeting him thrust for thrust as you made love. It had been passionate and intense, a connection that went beyond the physical and was different from the previous times you had indulged in each otherโs bodies.
when you finally reached your peak, collapsing in a tangle of limbs, you knew that you made the right decision. You finally acted on your attraction, and in doing so, you found a deeper connection with Jake.
You both lie there, still engulfed in the bliss of this newfound feeling between the two of you. He canโt help what he says next, feeling as if keeping it in was impossible. โi love you Y/Nโ.
you snap your neck in his direction, maybe itโs the post orgasm haze but you search for reassurance anyways.
His big brown eyes confirming his words. โI love you too jakeโ.
The next morning, you wake up in Jakeโs arms, the sunlight filtering through the curtains. He stirs beside you, his sleepy smile a welcome sight.
"Good morning," he murmurs, his voice rough with sleep.
"Good morning," you reply, feeling a warmth spread through you.
As you lie there, wrapped in each otherโs arms, the world outside seems distant and unimportant. In this moment, you feel a sense of peace and certainty. Whatever challenges lie ahead, you know you can face them together.
At the hospital, the dynamic between you and Jake shifts subtly but unmistakably. The stolen glances, the brief touches, the shared smilesโall are infused with a new depth of intimacy. Your colleagues notice, but no one comments, respecting the unspoken bond you share.
In the weeks that follow, the relationship deepens. You navigate the challenges of your demanding careers, finding solace and strength in each other. The on-call rooms become your private sanctuaries, the moments of stolen kisses and whispered confessions a lifeline in the chaos of the hospital.
One evening, after a particularly grueling shift, you find Jake waiting for you in the parking lot. His presence, as always, is a balm to your weary soul.
"Hey, pretty" he says, pulling you into a hug. "How was your day?"
"Tough," you admit, resting your head against his chest. "But it's better now."
He kisses the top of your head, his arms tightening around you. "Come on, let's go home."
As you drive back to his place, the city lights blurring into a comforting glow, you realize just how much Jake has come to mean to you. The fears and doubts that once plagued you have faded, replaced by a certainty that you can face anything as long as you're together.
Back at his apartment, you settle into a comfortable routine, cooking dinner together and sharing stories about your day. The conversation flows easily, punctuated by laughter and affectionate touches.
After dinner, you move to the couch, your bodies naturally gravitating towards each other. Jake pulls you into his lap, his hands resting on your hips as he looks into your eyes.
"Y/N," he says softly, his voice filled with emotion. "I know we've had our challenges, but I want you to know that I'm all in. I want to be with you, no matter what."
Your heart swells with love and gratitude. "I feel the same way, Jake. I want us to be together, through everything."
He smiles, his eyes shining with affection. "Good. Because I can't imagine my life without you."
You lean in, capturing his lips in a slow, tender kiss. The world outside fades away, leaving just the two of you, wrapped in each other's arms.
As the night wears on, you find yourself reflecting on the journey you've been on together. From the initial tension and uncertainty to the deep, abiding love you now share, it's been a rollercoaster of emotions. But through it all, you've found something rare and precious: a connection that transcends the challenges of your demanding careers, a love that grows stronger with each passing day.
and as you fall asleep in Jake's arms, you know that whatever the future holds, you'll face it together, hand in hand.
Greying clouds and rolling thunders, the stormy weather made you reminisce. Huddled in the comfort of your blanket, your eyes gaze up at the ceiling of your bedroom as thoughts flood in with memories of your youth. It wasnโt that long ago when you left university; a mere 4 years ago, prompting the end of a chapter to move on to the next. That time of your life was unforgettable to say the least, not like youโd ever tried to forget even in the slightest way; the highs and lows of friendship, the overbearing pressure of excelling in your studies and of course, love.
The first time you had your heart broken, it felt impossible that the tiny fragments could ever be picked up again. It was hell for you, the countless nights spent awake and crying your eyes out, the loss of purpose in anything and everything. You chuckle back at the thought of how helpless you were, how young and naive you had been to be falling for someone like Lee Heeseung.
The fresh air of summer with the golden shine of the sun mustโve made you delude in your fantasies that this man wanted more with you. All you ever were to him was someone he could use, someone he could have at his disposal. So why did he do the things he did with you, if all he ever wanted was sex? Why did he treat you like you were his and he was yours, pouring somewhat a level of affection enough to make you feel like it was all real. Surely, he realised this himself, cutting you off as nonchalantly as he could with excuses and avoidance until you couldnโt take it anymore. He got what he wanted.ย
So why was his name lit up on your phone screen right now? Where did he get the nerve to even ring you up after all heโs put you through these past few years? You were in disbelief at the audacity this man had, but more so at the effect he still had on you. You didnโt even know he was back in town. The last you heard of him was that he left abroad to pursue his dreams.
โHey..โ his voice was low and muffled like he had his face buried in his pillow as he talked. You werenโt sure why you even picked up in the first place, why you still had his number saved and why he still had yours.ย
โY/n?โ he calls out, voice a little clearer this time when you failed to respond. His low, resonant voice saying your name sent a shiver through you, as if you'd been waiting for this moment all your life. โHeeseung.โ was all you could muster up to say, fog caught up in your head now that you could not think straight.ย
โI missed you.โ
Your body froze, yet a rush of heat flooded through your skin, as if you were about to succumb to a fever. It seemed as though all the effort you had put into walking past the memories of him was in vain. With a heavy sigh, you surrendered to the weight of honesty.
โI missed you too.โย
โI know itโs been so long..but Iโve been thinking about you. Can I come see you?โย
His voice, slightly slurred as if intoxicated, echoed in the quietude of the late hour. Despite the lateness of the night, the vulnerability of your state crept into your mind, causing you to falter at his request. The memories of his voice, with its subtle imperfections, stirred emotions long kept at bay. As you hesitated, time seemed to stand still, the weight of his words and the intimacy of the hour enveloping you in a moment of uncertainty.ย
"Okay," slipped from your lips almost involuntarily, a breath held for too long now exhaled. With a click, Heeseung ended the call, leaving you momentarily suspended in silence. The phone lingered against your ear as the void of nothingness enveloped you. Yet amidst the silence, the echo of your racing heartbeat echoed, a frantic rhythm driving you into the depths of the apprehension of what you just did. Before you could fully register the abrupt end of the call, your phone screen illuminated with a gentle buzz, signalling the arrival of a new message. The sudden interruption broke through the silence, injecting a flicker of anticipation into the stillness surrounding you.
"I'm outside."ย
Your eyes widened slightly as you read the text, a surge of adrenaline coursing through your veins. With a jolt of panic, you rose from your bed, the gravity of the moment sinking in.ย
With a quick glance into the mirror, you assessed your reflection and your lack of clothing; only covered in a nightgown that ended before your knees and not missing the faint traces of anticipation etched upon your features. Hastily, you scurried towards the door, your hand hovering over the knob as you hesitated for a moment. Despite the urgency pulsing through your veins, you paused, drawing in a deep breath to steady your nerves before slowly turning the knob to open the door. And there, standing before you, were the eyes that held a magnetic pull, captivating you in an instant. In that fleeting moment, time seemed to stand still as you found yourself locked in a gaze that stirred familiar sensations within you, melting away any lingering doubts or hesitations. After all these years, he still wore the same expression, the familiar boyish smile gracing his lips as his big, deer-like eyes sparkled under the fluorescent lighting of the hallway. Though maturity had softened some of his features, it only enhanced his appeal.
"Hey," he murmured, his eyes never leaving yours, conveying a depth of longing as if you were the missing piece he had been yearning for his entire life. How ironic it seemed that despite his past selfish actions, he still regarded you with the same affectionate gaze, and even more ironic was the fact that you found yourself succumbing to him once again, as if nothing had changed.
You parted your lips slightly, as if poised to speak, yet found yourself speechless, overwhelmed by the sudden closeness. Sensing your vulnerability, Heeseung seized the moment, drawing himself nearer, his arms wrapping around you in a tight embrace. With gentle yet firm hands, he guided you back into the comforting embrace of your home, the door closing behind you with a soft thud as he kicked it shut. Pausing, he brought his face inches from yours, your noses brushing lightly against each other, a silent exchange of longing and familiarity lingering in the air.
His gaze flickered down to your lips, and you found yourself mirroring the action, your heart pounding with anticipation. Without hesitation, he bridged the distance between you, his lips meeting yours in a tender yet desperate kiss. With each passing second, he deepened the kiss, his desperation palpable against your lips. It was as if his emotions were pouring out, tangible and raw, seeping through your skin and intertwining with your own. In that embrace, there were no words neededโonly the fervent exchange of feelings, each kiss a testament to the depth of his hunger and the intensity of his craving. Your hands instinctively found their way to the nape of his neck, pulling him closer, as if unable to get enough of the lingering touch of his piers. Heeseung swipes his tongue against your bottom lip and pushes it in at the brief parting of your lips, licking your cavern wet and continuing to knit both of your tongues together, sucking on them ever so roughly. Breaking the kiss, dishevelled and breathless, traces of mixed saliva lingered on your jaw. The man took this instant to rest his forehead against your own, his dark brown orbs locked with yours in a gaze that felt eternal.ย
You weren't sure what thoughts were swirling in his mind, so you sought solace in his eyes and scanned his expression, yearning for any hint to ease the doubts clouding your own thoughts. "Hee-" You barely had time to mutter his name before Heeseung's lips crashed onto yours once more, but this time harsher and intensifying than before. You responded with equal eagerness, matching his vigour with your own as he lifted you effortlessly, his hands securing around the curve of your ass and groping them. With an urgency born of lust, you wrapped your legs around him, drawing him closer as if trying to meld into one another. Without breaking the kiss, Heeseung easily guided both of you back to your dimly lit room, moving with a familiarity that suggested he knew the layout of your apartment like the back of his hand. With gentle precision, he lowered you onto the surface of your soft mattress, maintaining his position above you, the heat of his body a comforting presence as the passion of the moment encompassed you both.ย
With one hand supporting himself on the bed for balance, Heeseung's other hand began to trace the soft, bare skin of your thighs, sending shivers down your spine. His fingers traced up your skin, reaching the hem of your gown with familiar confidence. You felt a ripple of tension as he boldly pushed the fabric away, his touch climbing higher with each movement. As his fingers made contact with the now-damp fabric of your underwear, a soft moan escaped your lips, betraying the intensity of the sensation coursing through you. You try to lean up closer to him, your body responding instinctively to his touch; his finger resting on your underwear begins to move, the motion slow and deliberate. With each circular rub, he teased you, eliciting soft moans that escaped between kisses. Your hands, now gripping onto his shirt, pulled him closer, your bodies pressing against each other as if he'd disappear if you let go.
"Fuck, you're so wet." Heeseung lowly breathes out into your mouth meshing with your moans, and holds your underwear to the side with his thumb, pushing two fingers into your folds. As everything escalated rapidly, you found yourself swept away in the heat of the moment, unable to recall the last time you took a moment to breathe and process what was happening. Each touch, each kiss, seemed to blur together in a whirlwind of desire and passion, leaving you breathless and intoxicated by the intensity of the experience. The experience you've been dreaming of and longing to relive again for the past four years.ย
As his fingers push in deeper and faster in and out of your clit, the grasp you had on his shirt tightens at the feeling of increasing pleasure shortly before they sneak downwards to the growing mound in his pants; gently but firmly grasping its outlines, earning a stifled hiss from him.
"Yeah, yeah, more. I need you, Hee." the said man groans with quick movements of his digits at the sound of his name moaning past your lips, his upper body grinding against your breasts covered by the gown.ย
ย A smirk lifts up the corner of his lips at your desperate plea only fueling the fire within you. With a sudden force, he pushed his fingers deeper, igniting a surge of pleasure, before withdrawing them completely, leaving you achingly empty for a moment. "You want me? You need me?" he taunted, his words dripping with mockery, as he rose to stand on his knees above you. With a casual flick, he lifted his shirt off and discarded it onto the floor, revealing the expanse of his bare chest, a testament to the power he held over you.ย
Despite the blush spreading across the apples of your cheeks at the tone he used, you couldn't help but take a moment to examine him. His chest seemed broader now, his arms more muscular than you remembered, evidence of the passage of time and the changes it had brought; while his tousled hair only added to his allure, making him undeniably more tempting in your eyes. Feeling the subtle twitch beneath your clammy palm, your attention was drawn to the burgeoning bulge, signalling his equal excitement as you gazed down his body. Heeseung takes this beat to pull your underwear down and off your legs completely, flinging it away to the floor and joining his shirt.
"Say it again," he demanded softly but with an underlying firmness, his touch tender as he brushed his hand against your cheek before gently grasping a handful of your hair and pulling it slightly. This caused you to wince, a reflexive response, as the hand that was resting on his bulge instinctively grabbed onto it slightly. Looking up at him, lust overtook your eyes, the intensity of the moment washing over you in waves. It was a view you never imagined facing again, yet here you were, consumed by fixation in his presence. It was as if he had this hold on you, encompassing your mind, your body, your entire life, a force you couldn't escape no matter how much you wanted to and you realised at this moment,ย you've never wanted to.ย
"I want you, I need you, Heeseung," you exhaled firmly which earned an approving chuckle from him. Heeseung withdrew his hand from your hair and began to pull the hem of your gown up and off your body, revealing you to lie there bare between his knees for his sight. You were beyond the usual feelings of vulnerability with him, even in this exposed state. The way he looked at you made you feel wanted and desired in a way only he could evoke. A profound feeling of belonging, as if you were exactly where you were meant to be. Old feelings came rushing in like waves, a flood of adoration and longing for this man overwhelming you. You weren't certain if he felt the same way, but as the tension grew thicker in the air, the look in his eyes, entranced by your bare figure, seemed to confirm that he too was lost in reminiscence.ย
"Fuck, you're the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on." he murmured, and though you weren't entirely certain if he ever meant whatever he says to you but at that moment, it didn't matter. Without wasting another moment, Heeseung swiftly untied the drawstrings of his pants and pushed them down along with his boxers, allowing them to rest just before his knees and springing out his cock free. You gazed down at it for a moment, memories of past pleasures flooding your mind, salivating at the thought of the satisfaction it once brought you. Heeseung lowers his body to hover on yours once again, delivering a firm kiss on your lips as his hands push both your thighs apart and bringing them up to rest each on his shoulders. He positions himself between you, steadying himself with hands gripped on your ankles. He then proceeds to tease you
with the tip of his erection gently brushing against your clitoris before thrusting himself inside roughly without even a warning. The folds of your clit envelope him completely in an instant, with every quickening thrust he pushes in constricting yourself around his cock. As the strands of his hair fell to cover his now hooded eyes, a primal groan escaped past his lips, the sound resonating in the room as he surrendered to the overwhelming sensation coursing through him. You echoed his groans with your own, your eyes tightly shut as you indulged in the comforting waves of pleasure washing over you. Heeseung starts to pace faster, his fingers gripping your ankles tightening.ย
"Open your eyes, baby. Look at me while I fuck you." he commanded with a tinge of dominance in his tone. You complied, trying to resist the urge to close them again, locking gaze with Heeseung's darkened eyes as they bore into yours. "That's right, look at who you belong to," he groaned lowly as he quickened his pace; yet you don't miss the smirk forming on the corner of his lips. The slickness of your gushing clit made his movements effortless as he slid in and out of you, overwhelming you with a high you could not replicate without him. Heeseung was like a drug you were addicted to, irresistible even with a sheer brush of his skin.ย
Your hands roamed aimlessly over his bare chest, absorbing the warmth of his skin. Time seemed to freeze as he thrust harder with each breath you inhaled, every sensation heightening in your veins. Despite the lingering guilt and regret of letting him use you yet again, they weren't strong enough for you to care.ย
"Mmhm..H-Heeseung. Your cock feels so good in me." Your moans grow louder as you squirm around him, fingers now tightly grasping your bedsheets but you made sure to keep your eyes on him. Heeseung released one of his hands on your ankle and gently placed it on top of your belly, applying light pressure as he leaned down to nibble on your earlobe. "You feel so fucking amazing. I missed you baby." his gentle whisper pulled you out of your thoughts, warmth flooding your cheeks at his tender words. Despite the softness of his tone, he continued to slam against you even rougher than before. Both of your chests were heaving rapidly by now, trying your best to catch your breath in between.
Heeseung buries his face on your chest, leaving gentle brushes of his tongue against your nipple before he sinks in his teeth to the flesh of your breasts; leaving distinct marks behind. Marks that showed you wereย his.ย "I-I missed you too," you managed to stutter out, your breath hitching as he pulled himself back to tower over you once more. He examined the ecstasy filling your expression, taking in the pleasure he had brought you with a satisfied smirk.ย
"Yeah? You missed me fucking you like this baby?" The tip of his cock was slamming against you harder by now, it was getting harder to resist shutting your eyes in pleasure. "Nobody fucks you better than me, yeah?" Faster and harder, he pushes his hand down your belly even more. Taking his other grasp off your ankle, Heeseung gropes one of your breasts harshly as pleasure seeps through his skin. Your knuckles were turning white from gripping the bedsheets tightly as he continued to lace his groans with lustful words, each one sounding like music to your ears. Feeling the tip of his cock pushing itself exactly into your right spot, you whine out his name repeatedly. The back of your body arches, toes curling as the air around you grows hotter with every nerve on edge. A whirlwind of emotions rushed through you all at once, lost in the throes of ecstasy as your vision and mind grew hazier by the second.ย
"O-only you, Hee. Only you fuck me this good." Your louder moans indicated you were nearing the climax, the intensity building with each passing moment. Sensing this, Heeseung quickened his thrusts, both of you on the verge of reaching the pinnacle of pleasure together.ย
"Cum with me like my good girl, yeah?" Hoarse, low groans escaped from his lips with each accelerated movement, echoing your own whines of pleasure. With one final deepened jab atย justย the right spot, you cry his name loudly as so does he with yours; feeling the surge of his warmth fluid fill you to the brim. "Fuck." you hear him mumble under his breath as he tries to catch it. Lost in the aftermath of pleasure, you were dazed, unable to comprehend the implications of what had just transpired. Yet, with his chest resting gently against yours and his soft kiss, a feeling of completeness washed over you. With his head now rested on your breasts, you both stay like that for a while basking in the stillness of the moment only to be occupied with controlled breaths.ย
The moment Heeseung pulls himself out of you and rests your legs down on the mattress, the momentary feeling vanishes in an instant. You observed his quiet yet swift departure from the bed, his silhouette disappearing into the connected bathroom and back to you with a wet towel. In the quiet of the room, your eyes fixated on Heeseung as he meticulously cleaned you up; and though you wanted to say something,ย anything, no words came out. What was there to say? You knew deep down that this was how it was going to end, that it was no different from before. What made you think it would be any different this time?ย This time, you only had yourself to blame.
As Heeseung picked up his clothes, dressing himself in silence with his eyes fixed on the ground, you couldn't help but feel a pang of ache etched in your chest. Once he finished dressing, he approached you, gently pulling the covers over your bare form before meeting your gaze one last time. You searched desperately in his eyes for any sign, any glimmer of emotion that might hint at something deeper than mere lust. Yet, as you gazed into his eyes, all you found was a reflection of your own longing, mirrored back at you with a tinge of guilt. It was a new facet of him, one you hadn't seen before, but it offered little solace in the face of the inevitable farewell. "I'm sorry," his voice finally broke the heavy silence, leaning down to press a fleeting kiss on your temple. With that he turned away, his departure signalling the end of this fleeting chapter in your life once more.
Heeseung was nothing but a ghost in your life. A shadow coming back to haunt you mercilessly, only to leave again like he was never there. And once more, you felt the familiar warmth of tears forming in the corner of your eyes, stinging pain in your heart just like the first time it broke.ย
