JKazuma

Hello, This is JK, I'm a person who lost what he got and trying to get it back. Welcome to my blog :)

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Is this for real? Am I dreaming? Is it really finally over? After more than three years of struggling is it finally over? I still can’t understand what’s happening now, even though it’s been 3 months since our engagement and I still can’t believe it! Tomorrow I’m gonna be with my love of my life forever, sleeping in one bed, doing whatever we want, sharing our lives together as a husband and wife! No more waiting, no more fear, living our lives the way we want! الحمدلله. It’s more than worth it. I can’t show how happy I am, the way she knows me, the way she loves me, the way she share everything with me,… Etc. I can’t wait to see the most beautiful bride ever. BTW I have to remind myself that this bride is mine!!! الحمدلله.

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There is no way to describe my happiness. Thanks my lord for letting me have the best girl in the world. She's so amazing, beautiful, handsome,.... Etc. She became my everything now. I can't let a single day pass without seeing her face. She is my love and she will always be. الحمدلله we did it finally.

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This is how I feel right know while waiting for the answer 🤣. It's gonna be alright ان شاء الله so I have to calm down a bit.

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الحمدلله. It’s finally happening now and it’s just a matter of time and we’ll be free forever ان شاء الله. It’s been two years since we last talked to each other like this and I really missed her so much. She’s the most amazing woman I ever met in my life and yesterday she so damn beautiful. The way she understands me is really making me so happy. Even though it took two years to come back thanks to Allah she’s still here for me. So I can’t wait to be together forever ان شاء الله and we’ll always be the best friends ever.

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Well, since I were a child, I always wanted to be someone special and have someone who’s special too. I found that special person who was by my side when I need someone to hear me and to talk to. But now, this person isn’t here anymore.

I know that I am someone not worth what she always did to me.

She is really a special person to me whatever happens, and I always will remember what she did to me.

I wonder if I still that special person to her?

It’s really hard to miss someone who supports you all the time! And now, here I am, still the same person, not getting better in anything.

Failing to improve myself in anything!

And still wondering if she still wants me as I want her so bad?

Even that I don’t know if I’m that good to have someone like her? If I still can get her for me?

I’m lost in this life, dunno what to do anymore. Don’t want to marry anymore!

Still waiting for a better tomorrow.

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Can't we talk just like regular friends? I'm missing my friend here. That society is rude! We're just friends you know why can't we talk just like others?

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Thanks God she understand and leaved me alone cuz I don't wanna feel like this anymore. Feels like no one. Like a man without a soul. Like a hollow. Like nothing left inside. I'm not the guy that worth these types of love. I'm the lonely guy and will always be.

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Wth is wrong these days! A girl called me by accident and now she's in love with me and texting me!!! Wtf!! Just let me go, I don't want these shit!

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Losing something you used to have fells really wrong. Like a part of you is missing. It's almost a year now and I can't forget what the hell that happened to me to not let me what I really want! My God how much I miss the days when everything was going well. I want these all days back. I want to be the person who can be reliable. I want my own happiness back. Please God help me, I'm not doing that well. I'm getting fat back again and fighting to not get all the weight back. The only thing that keeps pushing me is that I'm doing well with my physical therapy thanks to Allah. Will I get back what I lost? Will our families be ok? Only Allah knows. So please Allah my lord help me.

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