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Flood's about knee-deep @ Padre Campa St. when Habagat struck NCR and Central Luzon

08.08.12

BLOG THING

Since 2008, I use blogspot for my entries of random thoughts and tumblr for reblogging random photos. So now, I decided to splice my posts from the said sites in one unit. Because I have more followers here and more active friends utilizing this, I’ll switch my entries from blogspot to tumblr to make my Eworld organized.

It’s just so skeptical, that I turned 19! Thank you Girlfriends-slash-Powkies for a 2night celebration. More alak, more fun!

December 22, 2010 Entry on Blogspot

It's been year when I last click the new post on this blogger. I used to write whenever I feel an extreme of emotion, whatever kind it may be. Now, I just feel neutral. Yes, I am happy, and not that word itself can explain how happy I am.

Whenever I remember what I have experienced, I feel a pinch of pain. I remember when my only refugee is alcohol, when the only people who pick me up when I am hunched over the toilet are my friends. God has given me that experience to make me strong, I swam deeper into someone who's meaningful, who's more worthy than I thought. That heartbreak molded my mind to something that's unfathomable. I understood that life is more of it. I scrutinized each letter that comprises a noun. Forgiveness, pain, anger, hatred, chance, lost, letting go, moving on, detachment, almost everything that could sum up the word "heartbreak".

January 30, 2009 Entry on Blogspot

A Paroxysm of laughter and happiness happens when you don't expect a lot. Sometimes, good things come when you least expect it. When the unexpected happened, it'll blast you out and jerk you to be a better one. I thought I'd lost my self-esteem but the time came that it sudden knocked on my door again. There are just few things that will let your esteem collide, and sometimes the collision will prepare you to a step higher than your previous self-esteem. I thought I am just an absurd girl, living in my all clumsiness and awkwardness but that was what all i thought, now i knew my self more and i gathered self-confident that i can do great things. But then, I ought to keep on the ground and avoid too much expectation for i am frail that it can easily break me.

Whenever something unexpected happen to me, paroxysm of tears will be the next. They are tears of joy, of fulfillment, of self-believe. At last, all of my sweat and prayers have been answered but still i did not expect it. So why i don't expect too much? Maybe I just see myself as a weak one, one who can't do great things and i find it impossible for me to accomplish high achievement but then it still enter in my way and proved that i thought wrong. :D

Thanks be to God. Amen.

December 19, 2008 Entry on Blogspot

A SWEET SCENARIO

DECEMBER 18, 2008

seems that the day was so long.

distortion of emotions attacks.

each hour, feelings turned to about-face

there's a time im happy,

the next time i turned to gray.

reason behind this is just me.

my heart is broken, bleeding.

each minute i die.

thoughts smothers my heart

i think im just scared - i think too much

holding to tightly and afraid to lose control

but then i realized im holding onto nothing

holding nobody, just holding my hope

hoping for a chance - coz i know there is

and im not the only one that is expecting

i know he is, too.

this minute, it turned to be on a right way

then later on it jerked to the wrong.

don't know what must be the move

i can't fix it but i wanted, a lot.

every little scenario keeps on playing

times we've spent together

the giggles, laughters, punches,

smashes and cuddles.

those memories made me blue.

shriek bursts out very soon as each scene plays

anticipation strikes randomly --

what if it is really over?

then no more chance to make it.

i can't imagine how regretful will be i am.

all i thought, everything is irradicable

but then in just one jerk,

everything has been destroyed,

smashed and vanished.

i never imagined that all the words

we've agreed upon will drift unto nothing.

i expected a lot that there's insurance

i believe too much, confide strongly

as if i'd seen the future

and assume that we're still holding.

i got a great lesson from this --

in this life, nothing is certain

there's always a tendency for reversal.

never expect much to skip off from getting hurt.

it hurts deeply, cuts like a knife.

but i just have to accept the f*cking fact.

despite of all these fears,

i never lose hope, i know in time..

everything will be straighten out again.

the sunset had passed and nothing had divert. :(

he approached me that we have to talk

after the show, i agreed without hesitation.

my friends come with me to see us.

we talked about what's broken and he

asked me if we can fix it again..

i answered nothing.

minutes passed..

questions continuously go..

haay. sbi ko na nga ba..

everything will be straighten out again.

thank GOD for what happened.

i knew the people who care for me

so happy and glad that they're concerned

the lesson i learned, don't expect too much

coz nothing in life is certain.

and for bringing him back again.Ü

October 2008 Entry on Blogspot

Why do I make BLOGS?

This is my first blog on this account 'coz i'd already made a blog here before on my first acct but unfortunately, i already forgot the username. aw. so, why do i post blogs? TO EXPRESS. I'm a LUMEN MUNDi STAFF, and i think this would help on improving my writing skills. I'm not a good writer unlike my co-staffs -- paige(should come first for she really does writing good especially features and poems), nikka(one of my best bud, running for valedictorian, a reason that she can do writing brightly, jodi & alexis(the heads), lot, neil and immah. I just tried the screening and i never had a thought that i will pass. Funny thing about the screening -- when I received the text message from nikka karla about the passers, i started to feel a shriek coming up from the inside and it burst right away. *laugh* but why? o why? 'coz its not just "YOU PASSED" but its.. uhm. "YOU PASSED AND YOU RANKED FIRST". yes! 'nagtop ako'. that's why my tears inevitably fell. I never expected to pass but I! and I ranked FIRST. Those tears are because of joy and because i was absolutely surprised and proud of myself. Then, I realize that one of the best feeling in the world is to have what you didn't expected. ÜÜ _________________________________________________________________________________________

ON THE SCREENiNG:

>>1st screening There were two screening, the first was really simple but i take it seriously for my desire to pass.

Questions:

1) What is your Pseudonym? -- Pseudonym or pen name, I think about this for a long period, combining my name, nickname, anything thats possible but i want it to be sensical so i choose from my character. "THE DREAMER" - now, i don't even think that it is still a pseudonym 'coz i already told it here and everone can read this.

2) Why? -- because IM A DREAMER. Ü

3) what's you forte in writing? -- feature and literary. i answered. why? coz i can express whatever im thinking and feeling. Im free to express unlike in the news that i must depend on certain facts. Afterwards, i realized that its not my forte.. Im more into news. but still im into literary adn not in feature, as well. why? on the next screening we'll find why. : )) **other questions were already forgotten. :p** -- the next day, the passers were post on each building. Luckily, "THE DREAMER" was there. *smile* --

>>2Nd screening I felt hopeless on the next screening for MS. VICKY will be the handler. XD Got afraid about it, for all we know she's really strict. Our task was to do 2-3 articles for 30 mins. about the recent programs on our school. I find it hard, we only have to choose from the events for the month of June, we only have few choices. Then I selected Mass in honor of the Holy Spirit and Social day. I was so pressured because of the time and that pushed me to a thought that I made a crap. T_T

When i got home, I felt bad, worse! I thought that everything is a mess. I thought that there's no possibility that I will pass on that journalism stuff. Everything goes wrong, my dreams of engaging in different activities just fade on that day. I'm TOTALLY HOPELESS! FAILED AGAIN!

but! there's a big but.. a few days passed by and we can;t get the results right away, ms. vicky needs to review it well. So we waited.. I should say, I did not wait coz all i know is that i wouldn't pass. : )

Then, before the posting day. Nikka karla sent me a message. here it is:

NIKKA: hey! i have a news. JK: ano? kinakabahan naman ako. NIKKA: you passed and guess what? you ranked first!

JK: di nga? d ako makapaniwala. naiyak pa ko.

NIKKA: para kang tanga. congrats! :)

something like that, kinilabutan ako nang mabasa ko ung "YOU PASSED" at kinilabutan pa ko ng sobra nang mabasa ko yung "YOU RANKED FIRST". Then, I cried.

Then i realized that NEWS writing is my forte in writing not feature. My writing life started. : ) ________________________________________________________________________________________________________

I get too far from the topics. nashare ko lang. inspirational kasi. (nga ba?) Back to the original topic. WHY DO I POST BLOGS?

To express.-- what i feel. my heart gets light whenever i burst out what's in its depth especially when I'm feeling bad.

To improve.-- i want to improve my writing skills for LUMEN MUNDi. and i think, by posting and posting and posting here, i can get some articles here. Feature articles.

To have a pass time-- instead of doing nonsensical things, I'd rather post blogs.

To know more-- i think this gonna enhance my English skill. It will introduce me more English words and better grammar. hndi ako magaling magenglish eh, flustered ako na parang ang dami kong wrong grammar. : ( ________________________________________________________________________________________________________

I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SUBMiT THiS BLOG AS AN ARTICLE ON LUMEN MUNDi.Ü ________________________________________________________________________________________________________

NOTE: Hope you don't get annoyed and interrupted on my wrong grammars and typographical errors. Thanks. Ü

It’s amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.

LOST

LOST is the most painful of all. you've lost someone and yet the attachment is still there and you keep on hanging on though there's no chance at all. times of sorrow will come then cheer ups do so but when flashbacks strikes, you can't do anything but to find something that can redeem the pain. DETACHMENT is a thing which you can only do to the essential things and you'll find it the hardest. imagine, you get too attach to someone then the time will sent you off away. FORGET && FORGIVE, - most of us stick to this idealism but the truth is you can't forget for there is always a tendency and time that things will let you remember the good times. once you've love things, you can't forget them but the feeling may be lessen if some better things will cross your path. The LIFE will not be a life if there are no arrivals and departures. accept, accept and accept. :)

-- March 6, 2009

Did I write this? Seriously?

oh f*ck. did i make this?

I'd never saw my life as dark as like this. What have you done to me? As if you took the three fourths of thy world. I want you for i need you. Like I've never wanted anything ago. Why did you have to leave? Leaving me in emptiness. Sadness. I'd never thought you're the lost. I bet to know this until separation. If only i could have you back, I'll love you much better. Maybe, I get tired of all the pain. I don't wanna continue, but I find myself in remorse. Because of the perfection of us. We're so compatible. Too perfect for each other and that we can't handle it back. I must forgive you, then you must forgive me too. Confusion strikes. Does it? My thoughts are knotted. Sometimes, I wanna start again. For someone new. But too afraid that he's unlike you. And at times, I want you back, but scared that you'd leave me again. And he? Left in the air. Then, I'll be buried in regret for letting him pass by. I guess, things will eventually fall right. Some other day, i hope i made the right choice. Don't wanna be drowned in remorse nor in tears. I like him but I LOVE YOU. :(

-- saw it on my blogger page. it made me LOL a thousand. ha ha ha.

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