Et Tu, Brute?

Go then, there are other worlds than these.

[tobeagenius]

“Everything we do, every thought we’ve ever had, is produced by the human brain. But exactly how it operates remains one of the biggest unsolved mysteries, and it seems the more we probe its secrets, the more surprises we find.” - Neil deGrasse Tyson

[fluffytherapy]

[karlrincon]

[nitratediva]

Charlie Chaplin in A Film Johnnie (1914).

[filmforfancy]

[adaptinghoul-deactivated2025101]

[catesavi]

The Panic in Central Park

[joelle-asaurus]

I can’t stop thinking about the Girls episode “The Panic in Central Park”. I’ve watched it over and over again over the course of the last week. This is about everything I ever pictured happening if Jordan and my path ever crossed again. We promised that one day, when we’re ready, our paths will cross again. This is everything I pictured. A chance meeting, And then embarking on some crazy adventure, and not necessarily falling in-love again, but remembering why we once had. We will never get that chance. He passed away from a heroin overdose a year ago last month. He was my best friend for four years, and we treated each other like hell. But we loved each other fiercely, despite all of our flaws. Jordan, one day, in another world, we’re having an adventure and remembering each other. 

[jennamarbles]

Helium Booth Tag

[joelle-asaurus]

My love for Jenna is forever.

[dozydozy-blog]

[hopeinfected]

Yes

[beyonceperformances]

[cokeinaglassbottle-deactivated2]

nothing will ruin your 20s more than thinking you should have your life together already.

I need to write this on every wall of my room. (via thisyearsgirls)

[joelle-asaurus]

Is it weird that the announcement of the new Coheed album that comes out in October makes me sad?

Jordan loved them, and was the reason I ever got into them, and he will never hear the newest stuff.

[joelle-asaurus]

Things and stuff.

Today has been an emotional day. Between now losing 7 lbs, I got my beautiful dark tower tattoo, Geoff is the most wonderful human being and my best friend, and I get to fly back to MA to see my family and friends, whom I haven’t seen in over a year...I just keep crying. Happy tears.

Side note:

My dark tower (2nd) tattoo means so much to me. It got me through a dark couple years there, between Jordan and our relationship, we bonded over it, and escaping into it, it helped me through his addiction. But he’s gone now, almost 3 months now, and...the Dark Tower will always make me think of him.

[joelle-asaurus]

A work in progress. Session #2 once it has completely healed. This means so much to me. It is glorious.

[joelle-asaurus]

It’s been over a month and I still can’t believe you’re gone. I live so far away and it’s been so long since we last spoke, my mind just tells me that you’re back home, living your life and nothing has changed. But you are gone. You did die. I had envisioned all the things I meant to say to you, I always thought one day we would reconnect, we said we would. One day. When we both could handle it. But we can’t now, because you’re gone. And it’s such a sad empty feeling. I’m flying home next month, I’m going to see your family, and I’m going to visit your grave with Nick.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

[joelle-asaurus]

"Go then, there are other worlds than these"

I can't even put into words how I feel about this. We shared 4 years together, and more up and downs than most married couples. We had plans. But you had demons. And your demons are why I left you. But today, when your mother and cousin called to tell me your demons caught up to you, I couldn't help but feel still surprised. I loved you. I shared a life with you. We both moved on, but I never stopped giving a shit. I'm sorry you're gone. I'm sorry you never ever saw your true worth. I'm sorry. Rest in Peace, Jordan. Ka like the wind, my dear gunslinger.

“In the end, the wind takes everything, doesn't it? And why not? Why other? If the sweetness of our lives did not depart, there would be no sweetness at all.”

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