closed.
i really doubt anyone keeps up with this account anymore but i havent posted/reblogged anything in months, and i feel like i should come back here to post one more thing, and thats to announce im closing this account for good. i debated about it with myself over and over and i lied to myself saying that i might eventually post here again. but, at the place i am in in my life, i just dont think i will. im 21, i have a life outside of the internet. i have alot of stuff on my plate and writing fics felt like a chore, and i started to not enjoy it anymore. i havent been on here in months because i needed a breather, some time to step away and rethink why i was even writing in the first place. i wrote because i loved it, but after writing on tumblr, i realized the passion began to fade. i started to write for all the wrong reasons and i paid attention to the number of notes, which i shouldnt have done, and i dreaded logging in. i questioned what i was doing in every aspect, personal and online, and questioned if i was happy doing what i was doing. and i wasnt. it wasnt fair to myself to keep doing things i didnt like doing and it took me awhile to realize that. now, i feel like i can start being honest with myself and pushing myself to do what actually makes me happy. like i said, i doubt anyone keeps up with this account anymore, but i figured id say all this anyway on the slight chance someone might care. im still on twitter and i have a personal tumblr that im on occasionally if you ever wanna talk to me. but, if you dont, thats fine too. i hope everyone that follows me or has read one of the things i wrote is happy and doing what they love in life. i wish all of you the best. ♡
