not all monsters do monstrous things

Jonica Adelin Lockwood. Daughter of mayor Kane & Janea. Former Cheer captain. Senior and juinor homecoming queen Jason and Valentina's best friend and Damien and Ryan's friend. Diana's partner in crime Hayley and Caleb's pup Rebecka Mikaelson's girlfriend

[jonicaxlockwood]

jason-fell‌:

Define okay

If it requires a definition, I’m gonna guess you aren’t, so you might as well tell me what’s going on.

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thedianafell‌:

Our parents being in the middle of this kind of kept us from a normal life anyways. Not all of it was in our hands. I don’t think I’ve met her but I know people that speak very highly of her. Becka is going to love you either way, I wouldn’t worry when it comes to her. It may be hard to adjust to but I know you guys will figure it all out together. Trust me, I’ve been there and it sucks but when it came down to it…my dad knew if he hurt Jordan he’d lose me forever. I hope your parents think the same thing if it ever happened. She’s tough, and if you need help there are a lot of people that can help you control all of it. I’m just…hoping I can make my dad think twice about everything if and when my brother meets him. I know there’s humanity in him…he could have killed Jordan but he didn’t. It’s not much but it’s a step in the right direction. And, well, if he doesn’t see things the same way as me then that’s how it is. Jordan is my home, and even though I want to protect him he makes me feel safe. I know he’ll never let anything happen to me. And, if I make the choice to spend an eternity with him I think I’d be a pretty badass vampire. I’m already a pretty formidable human. It’s all a lot to think about.

She’s been pretty good to me, all things considered. Apparently, she was friends with a Lockwood once, Caleb’s dad. I’m not sure if he’s here or not. I...I need to just tell her, don’t I? It’s just...I’ve met her dad, and even though it’s...weird he looks like he’s our age, he’s been really nice to me all things considered. I...I wish that I knew what my parents would do. Sometimes I wonder if they’d even notice a change if I vanished. So, that’s...just it, then? If Zane meets his vampire son and realizes you and Jordan aren’t negotiable, then that’s all they wrote? Not that I’m judging, I have no room to, I admire it actually. I just don’t want you to get hurt. You’re already a badass, I’m not sure being a vampire could change that. It’s...overwhelming how much there is to think about. Honestly, it kind of freaks me out.

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missrebeckamikaelson‌:

Paris, Italy, London, the world is your oyster, Jonica Lockwood. Like what? We can pretend that all of this doesn’t exist for a few months. It’ll probably be good for our sanity. 

Greece is the one place I’d like to go. Athens more specifically, but we should make a whole thing of it. Visit as many countries as possible this summer. Um, like the fact my family is...full of werewolves. I don’t think my dad knows. A few months from all of this sounds...perfect. Especially after this year. 

[jonicaxlockwood]

thedianafell‌:

I get it. It can be lonely being surrounded by family that will never understand you. Well, whatever happens…I’m here too. I…don’t have any advice on being a werewolf but I can try my best. It can be difficult, Jo, but as of right now you guys are still human. I…don’t know. You know, when I lost him, when my dad ran him off, I never got over it and now he’s back and we can be together. I’m very torn. I don’t think he’d want me to turn just to be with him…but my brother is a vampire too. I can’t even imagine living my life without Jordan in it. I don’t ever want to but when I get older…things would change. Now I’m not really sure what to do.

I know you are, Di. We’re in this together, even if this is...chaotic and terrifying and could potentially destroy whatever future we had here. Maybe I need to just...talk to Hayley. She’s practically adopted me anyway since I found out all of this. Right now, we’re human, and together, I just...I love her and I don’t know how to tell her. And, if my parents find out about her family, they could hurt her and ruin it. But if I trigger my gene to fight them and protect her, I could hurt her too, and I don’t know what to do. Well, clearly I’m...bad at this stuff. But I’ve met Jordan, and he lights up when he hears your name. I don’t know what I can do, but if being together is what you want to do, I’ll help fight them with you. Zane ruined it once, he shouldn’t get to again.

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missrebeckamikaelson‌:

First stop is Paris. Especially since I have quite a few vampires I know that can get us tickets anywhere we want to go. I just feel like my family’’s always going through…something. It’s difficult when you’re caught up in the supernatural world and you’re also human. I feel like I’m living a double life sometimes.

My family’s pretty loaded too, years of corruption and being the mayor since Mystic Falls was founded, and all that. We can go anywhere, but start with Paris. Well, maybe...we need to pick which world to be in. I know all about the double life thing. I’ve been so wrapped up in trying to be who my parents want my whole life, and I found some...things out recently that have been messing with me. But, maybe we make that choice after the summer. Have a few months of normal, human life first.

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missrebeckamikaelson‌:

We could travel after graduation. Just for the summer, maybe. And, then we can figure out what to do from there. College was what I’d planned to do, but life has a way of getting in the way of normal human things I want to do.

Maybe we should. It’d be nice to get out of this place...especially since I never really expected to. Where would we go? You could still do college if you wanted to, Beck. What normal human things would that get in the way of?

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thedianafell‌:

You know I love you and I don’t want you to have to do anything drastic like that that you can’t take back but it is your choice to make. When it comes to all of this, I don’t even know what choices to make.I’m sure we could…find another way. If you really wanted it, the only way I know that you wouldn’t have to suffer as much is if you turned into a hybrid but all of that is a lot to think about. Learning control is a whole other demon when it comes to being supernatural. And, you’d be giving up any chance at a normal life with Rebecka. It’s hard being caught up in all of this, but you guys have a chance. 

I don’t know if any of us know what choices to make. Which makes all of this...so much worse, somehow. The thing is, I don’t..think I want to do it. But if it happened, I would have Caleb, which is...more than I would at home. You know, until he showed up, I didn’t really have family I liked. It’s kind of weird. Diana, I don’t think we had that shot before. There’s nothing normal about any of this. What about you? Are you...with Jordan, what are you going to do?

[jonicaxlockwood]

missrebeckamikaelson‌:

Just give me another year. Perks of a small town I guess. 

There aren’t very many perks, I guess we take what we can get. I’d say at least we graduate soon, but then...I’m still gonna be stuck here, so it won’t change much for me.

[jonicaxlockwood]

thedianafell‌:

I think it would make them question their judgment. Your father would realize he has the gene, too. It would…completely change your world as you know it. It’s…difficult to make that decision.

I’ve met a few of the wolves that showed up with everyone. My cousin is one, but then there’s...a few others. They all triggered it and told me I shouldn’t ever wish that on myself. I should probably listen to them, right? But I can’t shake the feeling that maybe...if it’s my dad’s kid on the line, maybe he’d be willing to change.

[jonicaxlockwood]

missrebeckamikaelson‌:

I’m surprised I haven’t gotten used to it. I guess they can just be jealous.

You haven’t been here long enough to have built the immunity for them, I guess. They’re usually jealous over something or other, it’s pretty entertaining after awhile.

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missrebeckamikaelson‌:

A lot of people, mainly at school. I’m a lot smarter than I seem to look. 

Oh, they’ve been doing that forever. It’s irritating but you learn to tune it out. Plus you’re prettier than them, and they’re jealous. That’s part of it.

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thedianafell‌:

They’re used to…vampires without emotion or control. Not…originals, hybrids, witches, and vampires that’ll do anything to defend their families. There is a big difference. Do you…think you have the werewolf gene? I keep wondering the same about mine…if he knew about my brother. Just…don’t make any decisions you’re not one hundred percent sure about.

I’m...pretty certain I have it. You remember that other line of Lockwoods I told you I found out existed? One of them showed up a few months ago. He’s a hybrid, and he told me how his dad is my father’s cousin, somehow. The entire line has the gene going back to 1864. It’s been hidden in town records so I don’t know if my dad knows. But Caleb is pretty convinced I have the gene. I don’t...know if I could stomach killing someone, but if being part of it would make my parents hesitate...I don’t know.

[jonicaxlockwood]

missrebeckamikaelson‌:

It’s a shame to be underestimated.

Who did that?

[jonicaxlockwood]

thedianafell‌:

If they start a war there will be no going back. It’ll…all turn into complete chaos. Life as we knew it in Mystic Falls will never be the same because once one side starts lashing out, both will. Then there’s no convincing anyone that we can all just live here in peace. But, maybe that’s what our parents want. There are no winners in a fight like this, though. If they’ve got a plan ready the best we can hope to do is sabotage it. But then, it’ll be clear what side we’re on.

If there’s a fight, Diana...I don’t think our parents will win. Some of these vampires are really old. Some of them are hybrids. Either way, anyone who showed up in the last year here knows enough to protect themselves against weapons or poison or...whatever else. I don’t know if my dad knows what the Lockwoods are, but I...I keep wondering if maybe, just maybe, he’d have a change of heart if I was supernatural like the rest of them.

[jonicaxlockwood]

thedianafell‌:

Well, all the leverage we have is within the fact that we’re their blood. They’re also…vastly outnumbered. But, I don’t want a war. If they’re planning something…big I think the parents would keep it to themselves. Maybe we need to try to convince as many of us as we can that they’re not all bad. That they have humanity.

If they do something to threaten anyone...I don’t know if anyone will hold back. They’re protective of their own. And, some of them do have an advantage. I’ve heard stories about how they eluded the council trying to kill them before. It’s got to be possible somehow, I just...don’t know how. 

[jonicaxlockwood]

thedianafell‌:

At this point the possibilities scare me. They’re…smart people, I wouldn’t be surprised if staking vampires isn’t all they know how to do.

I’ve been hearing stories about the original council. And our parents...they have the journals. My family is a werewolf bloodline but I don’t know if my dad realizes that, and even if he does that venom kills vampires, too. I don’t know how we stop them.