eternity is relative

Jordan St. John. Son of Lorenzo and Bonnie

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davidfell‌:

You would think that after all this time I’d know my way around by now.

You get the hang of it eventually.

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thedianafell‌:

Well, I haven’t had the most normal upbringing either, but I trust you. I just need to go about it the right way. I am happy for you, that you’ve found him. I love you, too. I am ready to if they give us no other choice. None of it is going to be easy, though.

You know your father better than I probably ever will. When it’s time, I think you’ll know whatever needs to happen. Yeah, it’s...been weird to adjust to. Especially since coming back means he found his girlfriend so now I have a mom, kind of. I think you’d like them. Bonnie at least, my dad’s a lot to get used to. They’re important to you, of course it won’t be easy. But we’ll figure it out.

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thedianafell‌:

Sometimes I just wish my mom was here. She would be so much better at talking sense into him. I will always be on your side and if that means being the one standing between you and the…council then they’ll have to go through me first. I don’t…blame you for leaving the first time. But there wasn’t a day I didn’t wonder if I’d ever see you again. I want to fight for us but that’s completely up to you as well. 

Maybe you could do it for her. Remind him you aren't a kid anymore whether he likes it or not. Or maybe...I stop giving advice on parents since I didn't know mine until a year ago. I only left so you wouldn't have to see me die. Back then, I was...not as good with control and if Zane took me out, it would be a lot easier to do. But then I found Enzo, my uh...my dad, and it got better. But I came back for you, Diana, I love you. So if that means we have to...stand up to that damn killing council then I guess that's what we do.

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thedianafell‌:

I changed because…I fell in love with a vampire. Against everything I was taught in my life, I met you and it changed me. I can only hope that a father’s love for his son is enough to change him. Everything I do, is going to be to protect you, and David, and Jonica, and all of the other people I have come to care about that are on the other side of this.

Given the stories a friend has told me...her father did change after she found him. I’m cutting some gory supernatural details out, but it’s possible. But you don’t have to protect me, even though I’m sure you’ll try anyway.I promised I wasn’t going anywhere this time, and I’m not. Whatever that means for us...that’s your choice. But I’ll be here either way.

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thedianafell‌:

I know that…he has done a lot of terrible things, some things I probably don’t even know about but he’s still…my dad. I’m just afraid that he’ll never change and once he knows that I don’t agree with him I think I’m going to lose him.I hate lying to him, though. I hate pretending to be someone I’m not. The only thing that maybe could change him is my brother but I don’t even know where he is.

Whatever happens isn’t going to change that he’s your dad, even if he doesn’t realize it. Lying about who you are is only gonna hurt you, no matter who it’s for. People...they can change. You know that better than anyone, you did it.

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thedianafell‌:

No, you’re exactly the reason I know that what they’re doing is wrong. But I’m torn between keeping this facade up in front of him and telling him what I really think. And, I…I can’t let him hurt you or try to hurt you.

Diana, don’t...don’t factor me into whatever decision you make about him, alright? I’m gonna be here either way, and I’ve got..a family this time that I didn’t when he ran me away. It’s gonna be okay.

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thedianafell‌:

My…dad wants to begin initiating me into the council since I’ve been out of school and I’ve…kept quiet for a long time but it’s not what I want and I’m not really sure what to do.

If it isn’t what you want you shouldn’t be forced into doing it, even if he is your dad. Then again...your dad did threaten to kill me if I ever came here again, so maybe I’m not the best person to take advice from on that.

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thedianafell‌:

Oh no. I know that face. Who are they and what’d they do?

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enzostjames:

No I’m sure Bonnie will take you away from me for awhile

At least until I start to annoy her. I’ve heard that’s easy to do.

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thedianafell:

It’s better that way, I haven’t seen much of my dad either. She’s pretty great, huh? Is she?

I'd say so, I'd rather not get staked. Yeah, she seems pretty cool. I mean she gave me the third degree for about two hours the other day, but I probably deserved it. I might be biased because I'm his kid, so I think everyone is out of his league, but Bonnie is pretty cool.

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thedianafell:

How’s it going so far being back?

Well, I haven't seen any of the council yet so it's been better than I expected. I met your friend Jo. And my dad's girlfriend, who's...way out of his league, but I guess that's just a thing in our family.

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thedianafell:

Hi.

Hi.

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thedianafell:

Really? Is he here? Honestly, having to lie to my dad and my family because I know they wouldn’t accept what I believe makes me feel like I’m already running. Or hiding. I don’t really know how to make that feeling go away. If you wanted to, yeah, I’d want you with me. Well…he doesn’t dictate my life and he…doesn’t know what’s best for me. 

He's here. I was leaving and he was...on his way back so it was pretty decent timing. I think you'd like him. You don't /have/ to lie, that's the problem. If they don't accept you for who you are that's their own faults. Of course I'd go, I wouldn't make you run alone. Well, he certainly seemed to think he did. But you said yourself things have changed, so I'll take your word  on that.

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enzostjames:

Hopefully know we can change that though.

I doubt it's going to take long.

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thedianafell:

It’s been a strange few years, honestly. If anything I can just…run away. Be someone I really want to be one day without all this…family drama. I’m just banking on the idea that the council doesn’t pay attention to me cause I’m not really part of it in their minds yet.

Yeah, it has. I...met my father. Running away is only fun for so long before it gets exhausting, so only do it if you want to. But if you do go, I'll go. If you want me to, that is. That would be nice, but...once your dad hears I'm back in town I'm sure he'll be watching you. I guess I can't blame him.

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thedianafell:

Yeah, my friend Jonica and me have been getting…quite involved with the supernatural world. It’s more…complicated than I thought.

I could have told you that. At least, I could now, it's been...a strange few months. I know I don't need to say it, but be careful. Not because of the supernatural, but I remember that council. They might be more dangerous than any supernatural in town.