you're pretty fucking dope;

[joshuaatwood]

blakemarin:

Blake nodded his head, even though he didn’t fully understand the push behind his reasoning. It just felt like the right thing to do, even though he’d never really cared about morality when it came to situations like this. He tried to push it out of his head, telling himself that he was being an idiot and overthinking something that didn’t even matter. The boxer knew how unlikely it would be for the two of them to see each other again, especially when they weren’t even going to fuck. He chuckled at the response. “I mean you might as well. You can even go sleep on the couch if you’d be more comfortable. But it’s a lot warmer in here.” Again, he laughed when he saw the others dick pop out of his pants. He nodded, taking no shame in staring at it. “You don’t need to apologize. It’s a good thing that I turned you on so much.”

Joshua quickly shook his head when hearing Blake saying he could sleep on the couch if he wanted to, hating the thought of having to let go of the man at that moment. “I’m good here, thanks.” He smiled back at him, feeling his face blushing harder. He allowed his hand to move up and down Blake’s chest while looking at his face. He hated the way the man was looking at him, because that was only making him want to go back to making out with him again, but he knew that if Blake didn’t want it, there was nothing he could do. He bit his bottom lip for a moment before leaning forward, pressing his lips against his for a second and pulling away just as quickly. “Okay.” He turned around, with his back against Blake, and reached for the male’s arm, pulling it close to his chest. “I’m good now. We can sleep.”

[joshuaatwood]

blakemarin:

“No! No, don’t worry about it. I just… I don’t want to take advantage of you, or whatever. You are still drunk. I… We could do this in the morning, yeah? If you’re still interested?” Blake brought one of his hands up to run through Joshua’s hair, pushing it back. He didn’t know why this meant so much to him. He could have just fucked him and then he’d be gone by the morning, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it on a clear conscious when he knew the other male wasn’t of a clean mind. It was mind-boggling to him, but he didn’t want to think too much of it. He shouldn’t care, he barely knew him. “Do you need some different clothes to sleep in? Or water?”

“Okay…” He didn’t understand what changed and what made Blake not want to be with him anymore, but he knew he couldn’t do anything about it. He closed his eyes when he felt the male pulling his hair back. “Wait—“ He opened his eyes. “You want me to spend the night?” He didn’t know why that was so surprising to him, he was in no condition to go home by himself, but spending the night in someone else’s bed without having sex somehow seemed more personal than actually having sex and Joshua leaving right after. “I mean…” He was already shirtless, so he simply unzipped his pants and managed to take them off without having to stand up. He felt his face turn red when he noticed his hard-on poking out of his underwear. “Sorry.” He quickly covered himself, but kept his body close to Blake’s. “I don’t need anything, thanks.”

[joshuaatwood]

blakemarin:

It was killing him to not have their lips pressed together. He kept his hands on the male, breathing heavily. He nodded simply, he hadn’t meant for his words to be viewed as anything close to malicious. Josh simply felt different from the usual guys Blake fucked, and he’d voiced the realization. He stared back into his beautiful eyes, feeling himself fill up with lust once again. “Fuck, I don’t know,” he began, shifting slightly so he had a better view of his face. “Well, I’ve never taken someone who was drunk from work to here. And certainly never been with someone like this who didn’t like fighting. That I knew of, at least.” The boxer shrugged, before moving his hands to pull Joshua in for a simple peck. “But, maybe we shouldn’t do this. At least not right now.” He moved his hands to wrap around Josh’s torso, pulling him tight against his chest.

Joshua immediately regretted saying something when he felt Blake shifting to look at him, missing the feeling of the other male pressed against him. He nodded at his words. He wasn’t sure if he was just being insecure at that moment, but he felt like the other male meant that he never hooked up with someone who wasn’t as hot as he was. Joshua decided not to say anything to that, mostly because he shouldn’t be feeling this insecure about someone he had just met, especially considering that Blake was the one that asked him to come over first and didn’t show any indication that he wasn’t into him. He allowed the male to pull him closer and pressed his lips against his, his eyes closing when heard his words. “Crap. Did I kill the mood? I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything.”

[blakemarin]

Blake was so turned on by Josh as they kissed on his bed. He arched his back, pressing their bodies together as his neck was kissed. He certainly hadn’t imagined that the male would be so great at kissing, yet he was laying here corrected. The male let out many breathy moans as he lay underneath Josh, his large hands coming down to cup the male’s ass. “Fuck,” he breathed out, his voice hitching, “you’re killing me here.” He didn’t want this to ever stop, he was filled with lust. And, yet, this was somehow different from the other hookups he had had. The next thing he knew, Joshua had pulled away from his chest. He huffed sadly, opening his eyes and looking at him for a moment before they were kissing again. “It’s okay,” he managed to get out, “I hadn’t even noticed. “You’re sexy too. And if it’s any consolation, I’ve never been with someone quite like you either.”

[joshuaatwood]

A moan escaped his mouth as he felt Blake’s hands on his ass, and he pressed his face against his neck, part of it because he was too embarrassed to look at Blake, but also because he wanted to touch him. He let out a small laugh when hearing his words, not even recalling being called “sexy” by anyone else before, and narrowed his eyes at his words. “Someone like me.” He repeated Blake’s words back to him, breaking away from him enough to look him in the eyes. “What do you mean by that?” He wasn’t offended in any way, but Blake’s words confused him. He wasn’t sure what ‘someone like him’ was and why Blake had never been with anyone like that. He placed his chin on Blake’s chest and stared at him as he waited for an answer.

[blakemarin]

Blake blew out a sad huff when Joshua pulled away from him, and he eagerly leaned in so that he could try to kiss him again. The question was good, though, and he figured that the bed could be more comfortable, especially if this came to sex like he wanted it to. “Yeah. This way.” He moved to sit up, keeping Joshua close to him with his strong arms. As soon as they stood up he started to kiss him again, leading him into his bedroom at the same time. Soon enough they were in his bedroom, and he collapsed onto the bed, pulling Joshua on top of him. He broke the kiss just enough to say, “Is this good enough?” Once he was finished, he started hungrily kissing him once again. The kissing was getting rougher by the second, more desperate as he grinded their hips together.

[joshuaatwood]

He allowed Blake to guide them through the hallway towards his bedroom. He was glad the other male was leading him, because he was completely distracted by the feeling of Blake’s lips against his, so much so that he didn’t realize they were already at the bedroom until they were both on the bed. He nodded at Blake’s words and went back to kissing him, biting the other male’s bottom lip gently before moving to his neck, changing between placing kisses and small bites against his skin. He wanted to take that moment in, the feeling of Blake’s body under his own, the smell of his skin, the look on his face. But at the same time, something was telling him he couldn’t stop, otherwise Blake could change his mind. Joshua moved down to his collarbone and then his chest. He opened his eyes to see that he was kissing one of the bruises at the male’s chest, and he quickly pulled away. “Sorry… I didn’t see it.” he felt his face blushing as he moved up captured Blake’s lips once more. “You’re just, so hot. I never hooked up with anyone this hot before.”

[blakemarin]

Blake moaned approval as Joshua climbed on top of him and deepened their kiss. He brought one hand up to caress the back of the other male’s head, while his other hand snaked down to slide against his thigh. This was definitely going how he wanted it to, he was very impressed that Joshua was taking some initiative here as well. He was getting lost in the feeling of Joshua’s lips, taking a few moments to focus on the kissing and how it made him feel. After a bit he snapped out of it and shifted the both of them so that he was laying on his back, and the brunet was on top of him. In this new position, he grinded their hips together, pressing his toned body up against the male’s.

[joshuaatwood]

Joshua was so lost in the feeling of Blake’s lips against his own that he didn’t notice when Blake moved them so they were lying on the couch. He kept both of his hands on the other male’s face, maintaining their lips together for as long as he could. He leaned down so his chest was pressing against Blake’s, and when feeling Blake’s hips pressed against his own, he pulled away almost completely, sitting down on his hips, his hand on Blake’s chest. “Bed? Do you have one?” It was a stupid question, but Joshua could barely think straight at that moment. He meant to ask if they continue what they were doing in Blake’s room instead of the couch.

[blakemarin]

Blake nodded his head. He couldn’t help but smile, Joshua was being so cute in that moment. It was definitely an improvement to see the other’s bare chest, and he instinctively moved his other hand to brush against the exposed skin. All he wanted was to touch him all over and kiss him. “Right,” he mumbled, momentarily distracted by everything that was happening. He shook his head, snapping out of the slight daze, before shifting even closer to the other male. Again, he brought his hands up to cup Joshua’s face and turn it up towards him. This time, however, he didn’t give the male any time to react before he moved forward to push their lips together. It was innocent and sweet for a second before he turned up the passion and began to kiss him harder. He was testing the waters, and decided that if Joshua replicated his behavior, he would kick it up a notch further.

[joshuaatwood]

Joshua didn’t know how he came tot he conclusion that taking his shirt off randomly was a good idea, but there he was. Shirtless in a stranger’s living room, completely exposed and helpless. Although he knew he wasn’t as drunk as when he agreed to go back to his place, some part of his brain was still intoxicated, and he could blame everything he was doing on that. He bit his bottom lip when noticing the other male staring at his chest, completely aware of every part of his body. Suddenly he felt Blake’s hands on his face, and before he could even look away, he male’s lips were pressed against his own. Joshua immediately closed his eyes, surprised by the action even though he shouldn’t be. When the other male opened his mouth and started to kiss him harder, Joshua’s body started moving on its own and before he knew, he was on top of Blake, straddling his lap, knees either side of his thighs, and hands on the back of his neck, deepening the kiss. He didn't realize how much he wanted to kiss Blake until that very moment.

[blakemarin]

“Nothing,” Blake replied, shrugging his shoulders. He couldn’t help himself, he was really liking how all of this was going. He’d had many one night stands before, though ever any that panned out quite like this. It was new, and it was exciting. It was a surprise for him to bring someone home who didn’t like fighting and who made him think ‘cute’ instead of ‘sexy’ when he looked at him. He was dying to know how he looked underneath those clothes. Which is why he couldn’t help himself as he pressed himself further up against him, his hand coming down to rest on Joshua’s thigh. “Yeah. Isn’t that the point?” He laughed slightly, before reaching out to turn Josh’s face to look over at him. “Don’t you want to?”

[joshuaatwood]

He couldn’t help but look down when feeling the male’s hand on his thigh. His face blushed even harder, but he only let out a small laugh in response. “You tell me.” Joshua didn’t want to confess that he wasn’t that experienced with sleeping around, mostly because he didn’t know if Blake would treat him differently because of it. He knew he had to make a move, otherwise the other male would see right through him. He thought about reaching forward and kissing him, but he wasn’t sure if Blake would enjoy that. He knew that some guys didn’t enjoy being kissed, and he didn’t want to upset the male. He also thought about holding his hand, but that sounded too vanilla for someone who was hoping to have sex. So, without thinking, the male quickly reached for the back of his neck and took his own shirt off, throwing it on the floor and making a mess of his hair in the process. He looked down at his own exposed skin, before looking at the male. “I… wouldn’t be here if I didn’t… Right?”

[blakemarin]

“Good luck with that! I’m not gonna stop looking at you, though.” When he was sitting down next to Joshua, he couldn’t help but smirk. He was really enjoying the time the two of them were spending together, and he was definitely interested in finding out what Joshua was like when he was utterly sober. He grinned a little softer as the other turned to face him, scanning his features. He was beautiful, in a much more gentle way than he’d ever noticed before. He shifted his knees slightly so that they were pressing against Joshua’s. “Glad you think so,” he chuckled. Blake shook his head. “I”m used to it by now. I will get bruises, though, but they won’t be bad. They look kinda cool, after a while. And, it’s a lot easier to sleep when someone’s next to me.”

[joshuaatwood]

Joshua said nothing back at him, instead rolling at his eyes at the other male’s smirk. He felt his face blushing when Blake kept staring at him. “What?” Feeling his knee against Blake’s, Joshua avoided looking down at it, instead tilting his head to the side while hearing him talk. He let out a soft laugh, looking away from him momentarily. “Is that why I’m here?” he asked, even though he already knew the answer to that question. Joshua could be quite naïve at times, but he knew why Blake brought him over. If I didn’t know before, the way the other male was looking at him made everything even more clear. The problem was, Joshua was extremely awkward, to say the least. He didn’t know the first thing about having a one night stand, or how he should even start.

[blakemarin]

Joshua only made him chuckle. “Why not? You gonna stop me?” His tone was still mostly light and playful. Soon enough, they were inside his apartment. He looked around, wondering what Joshua thought about it. He didn’t spend too much time here, but he kept it looking alright. He tried to put some of the cash he made into making it look decent. “Thanks,” Blake laughed, giving him a nod before moving into the bathroom. “Good call” He yelled out. Stripping off his shirt, he got a washcloth and cleaned up his face. He wasn’t paying too much attention to the details, but he wanted to look good for him. Once he was cleaned up, he moved to throw another wife beater on and moved into the living room. Instantly, he crashed down onto the couch next to him. “Hey.”

[joshuaatwood]

Joshua felt himself starting to blush as he looked away from the male, rolling his eyes at his words. “I’m just gonna stop looking at you.” After he sat on the couch, it took less than two minutes for the other male to be back, this time wearing a different tank top and sitting down next to him. “Hello.” He looked back at him, uncrossing his legs as he turned to the side and placed his arm over the back of the couch, tilting his head at the male. “Much better.” The male nodded, referring to the other’s clean face. “Does it still hurt? You wake up with a bunch of bruises, I bet. Must suck trying to sleep after a fight.”  

[blakemarin]

Blake nodded his head. “It’s probably a good thing you’re worried. In general, I mean. It’ll keep you safe.” God knew most of the reasons he got hurt or ended up in a bad predicament was because he didn’t worry or even think ahead. He just lived in the moment. “You were bullied?” He asked, cutting straight to the chase. “That’s rough. You ever hit ‘em back?” He smiled, nodding his head. “Ooh, a writer? I’d love to hear more about that.” He was never good at any of that school stuff, hence his current occupation. He did admire the skills, though, even if he wouldn’t necessarily say them out loud. He couldn’t help but grin when he saw Joshua frown. Moving swiftly, he got out of the car and went around to stand by Joshua. Again, throwing his arm over his shoulder, he began to guide him up towards his apartment. Soon, they arrived out front and he searched through his pockets for his keys, unlocking the door. “I’m gonna go change. Make yourself at home.”

[joshuaatwood]

He gave him a skeptical look when seeing him grin. “Don’t smile at me like that.” He allowed the male to throw an arm over his shoulder and began walking towards the apartment. After the other unlocked the door, Joshua stepped inside alongside Blake and raised his eyebrows when seeing the inside of the apartment. “It’s a nice place.” He said, looking around. Nodding at the male’s words, Joshua walked towards the center of the living room. “You should probably wash your face, too. The blood’s all dried up but it’s still there.” He said while turning to him. After the male left the room, Joshua sat on the couch and looked around, surprised by how organized the place was. He didn’t know what he was expecting exactly, but that definitely wasn’t it. He took off his shoes and crossed his legs on the couch while waiting for Blake to come back.

[blakemarin]

“You sound pretty worried,” he answered, though he didn’t look over at him this time. They were quickly approaching his home. He laughed at the question, nodding his head. “Of course I have. I’m not Superman or anything like that. You win some, you lose some. You ever been in a fight?” He was still very interested in learning about Joshua. Blake chuckled. “Well, duh. What do you do, though?” He cracked a smile, finally turning to look at him for a brief second. “I didn’t force you to come with me. It’s still not resting on my shoulders.” While the male presumably checked his cell phone, Blake pulled into the parking lot of his apartment complex. Turning off the car, he turned to look at Josh. “Ready?”

[joshuaatwood]

He shrugged. “Fine. Maybe I am a little bit worried. I can’t help it.” He tilted his head to the side when hearing the other’s question, keeping his eyes on the road as if he was the one driving. “I mean… When I was a kid, sure. But never on purpose. Kids used to make fun of me a lot.” Turning his head to look back at him, Joshua responded. “I… Go to college. And I write.” The male let out a small laugh, knowing full well that if anything happened with his brother, it’d be his fault, not Blake’s. Hopefully his brother was telling the truth when he said he was already home, and Joshua didn’t have to worry about him being by himself. The fact that the male asked him if he was ready made him frown. “Sure. What am I supposed to be ready for?” He opened the door and exited the car.

[blakemarin]

Blake chuckled, nodding is head once at Josh. “Don’t worry so much, alright? I’m being careful enough to make sure we don’t die in a car crash.” He did spend more time watching the road than stealing glances at Josh, even if it was just to make the other male feel better. “Let’s just say that my first fight in these rings wasn’t my first fight. I knew what I was doing, and I’ve only improved since.” He realized that he was talking about himself a lot, but he didn’t know too much about his companion. “What about you? What’s your story?” He laughed at the male’s statement, shaking his head. “I mean, you can blame me all you want, but it’d really be your fault, wouldn’t it?”

[joshuaatwood]

He shrugged. “I’m not worried, I’m just saying. Eyes on the road.” Nodding his head at his words, Joshua figured he had to know something about fighting  before joining underground fighting. “Have you ever lost a fight?” Joshua turned away and shrugged at the question. He hated talking about himself.  “I don’t know. I don’t do anything cool like underground fighting, unfortunately.” The male shook his head at his statement. “Absolutely not. It’s your fault for making me come with you and leave my brother by himself. Speaking of him, I should probably text him.” He grabbed his phone, finding a text from his brother saying he was already home. Good, I’ll be home later.

[blakemarin]

“Are you? It doesn’t feel like it.” Blake shrugged his shoulders, chuckling lightly. “I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what it does.” Again, he shrugged and laughed. “I mean, I didn’t say that. But I guess I didn’t not say that, either.” He shifted his hands’ position on the steering wheel, resting at the bottom as he once again stole a glance at Josh. The male was incredibly cute, he couldn’t help but keep stealing glances at him. He could get used to looking at him. “One day I really needed cash and I stumbled upon the place. I figured I didn’t really have anything to lose, so I joined. Your brother? Did you ditch him for me?” Blake smirked, feeling very happy. “No offense taken. There’s a lot of people who don’t like violence, I guess. I love it, though.” He shook his head. “No, not really. Like I said, I get paid pretty well most of the time. I don’t really need to do anything else.”

[joshuaatwood]

He playfully rolled his eyes, deciding against saying anything else on that subject. He turned his face to look at him when noticing his eyes watching him instead of looking ahead. “Eyes on the road. If you’re not trying to kill me like you say you’re not, then pay attention to what you’re doing, please.” He nodded when hearing his story. “That’s really interesting. But did you know how to fight beforehand, or did you learn when you started?” He narrowed his eyes at him with a small shrug. He was about to lie and say that his brother had left before him, but decided there was no point in doing that. “Yes, I did. If anything happens to him, it’s on you. And me, for being a horrible brother, but mostly on you.”  

[blakemarin]

Blake chuckled again. “You’re littler than me, man. And, you got into my car. That’s like the highest for of trust. Plus, I already told you I wasn’t going to kill you. You can trust me on that, you’re far too cute to die.” He was taking all of this lightly, he wasn’t exactly concerned with what Joshua thought of him. The only people he ever worked to intimidate and scare were the people he faced off against in the ring. It usually paid off when the people he needed to beat the shit out of feared him. His long fingers loosely gripped the steering wheel as he drove, sometimes taking turns, but mostly continuing on straight. He gave a nod of his head, again sneaking a glimpse at the male in his passenger seat. “Yup. I fight people for a living. Makes a ton of cash, too. That fight tonight? $400.” His occupation was never received well by anyone he told. Everyone thought it was either bullshit or perverted, but Blake liked it. It was a good way to relieve aggression and he make a lot of money. He got a lot of people to bet on him because of his looks, and his skills weren’t that bad either. He didn’t have much family to speak of at this point. but his friends didn’t mind the truth.

[joshuaatwood]

Shaking his head upon hearing the other male’s statement, Joshua was quick to respond, “I’m pretty sure I’m taller than you.” He said it with confidence, even though he had no idea if that was actually true or not. “Just because you have muscles, that doesn’t make me little.” He couldn’t help but chuckle at his words. “Oh, so that’s the only reason? If I was ugly, you wouldn’t have a problem killing me? Nice.” He shook his head in disbelief of what the other was saying, immediately wanting to find out more about his life. “That’s crazy. How did you get into fighting? Was it by accident or did you always know that was a possibility? My brother seems to enjoy it. I‘m not sure when or how he found out about it, but he’s the reason I was there tonight.” The male confessed. “Like I said before, that’s definitely not my scene. I don’t get how people have fun watching other people punch each other in the face. No offense.” He turned to look at him. “Ever think of doing something else?”

[blakemarin]

Blake wasn’t thinking too hard about any of this. It was simple, really, after all. He had found a cute boy that he wanted to take home, and there wasn’t much that could stop him at this point. He carefully led the smaller male out of the establishment and into his car. The male wasn’t sure why, but he definitely felt a bit protective of Joshua, and wanted to make sure that he was alright and all that. He supposed that what was driving him the most was getting the male into his bed, as that was his initial reason for approaching him. He had a clear conscience and a mind that was currently void of anything malicious. He drove easily, and somewhat fast, as he navigated through the sketchier part of town. He didn’t live incredibly far from his workplace, but it was out of the city slums, in a place where he felt was a lot less likely to be robbed. He shook his head and stole a glimpse at the male in his passenger seat. “It’s not much further. I don’t like long commutes, y’know.” He shrugged and turned his attention back to the road, continuing to drive in the direction of his apartment. The other male’s question made Blake laugh heartily as he shook his head, once again taking his eyes off the road for a few seconds in order to glance at Josh. “What happened to the trust, little dude?” He laughed. “If I was going to kill you, I would’ve done it already. You’re completely safe in my hands, okay?”

[joshuaatwood]

He frowned when hearing the laugh that left the other male’s lips, not really expecting him to react that way. His frown went deeper when he heard the other one calling him ‘little dude’. “I’m not little.” He shrugged. “And when did I say I trust you? I barely know you. You could be a murderer for all I know.” He said, but not really believing his words. He liked to think he was good at reading people, and Blake didn’t seem like a bad person. Then again, Joshua was drunk, so he probably shouldn’t trust his instincts like he would normally. Plus, Blake was extremely attractive and that could also have something to do with why he was going with him in the first place. “Okay.” He said in a whisper, now looking straight ahead. He didn’t recognize where they were, and that was slightly scary, but he decided to try and have a conversation with the other male, mostly to try and distract himself. “So, that’s your job, then? Underground fighting? You don’t do anything else other than fight?” For some reason, in Joshua’s mind, that didn’t feel like a real job. More like a hobby, or something you do secretly, without your friends or family knowing about it. He couldn’t imagine how fighting could be a real job.

[blakemarin]

Blake was on an even higher buzz that what he’d felt from winning the fight, as he relished in the fact that he would soon be bringing this boy home with him. His mind was spinning a thousand times a second as he thought about what they were going to do, and he was driving himself crazy as he imagined what the boy looked like underneath that shirt. He chuckled softly as he continued to shove everything into his bag and listened to the other on the phone. He guessed that the other had came with someone, who he was now obviously leaving behind. Blake shrugged, because it didn’t matter to him. While this boy was the first he was going to take home specifically from one of these matches, he couldn’t care less about what Joshua’s company for the night did. He turned around, duffel bag in hand, and shook his head. “I shower at home, it’s a little dicey in them here around this time and I don’t feel like dealing with that. And, I know, I like looking hot and tough, and showing skin. Now let’s go.” He moved to wrap his arm around the man’s smaller frame once again, leading him out of the room and out of the establishment.

[joshuaatwood]

He let out a small gasp at the sudden movement of the other male’s arm wrapping around his frame, but let out a chuckle as Blake started leading him out of the room. He couldn’t help but silently wonder if his brother would be okay with going home by himself, although he knew Kevin was a smart kid, and knew how to take care of himself. If anything, Joshua should be worried about his own situation, going to a stranger’s house completely wasted was definitely not one of his brightest ideas. For all he knew, he was probably walking into his death. They left the place together, and Joshua didn’t remember entering a car, but that’s where they were now and all he could do was smile and watch the other male. “Do you live, huh, too far from here?” He asked, out of curiosity. Slowly, the male started realizing what he was actually doing, and how irresponsible that was. Maybe that meant that the drink was losing its effect on him, but now Joshua realized that that was probably not a good idea. “You’re not going to kill me, are you?” He bluntly asked with a joking tone in his voice, although he was very serious about the question.