journal of esel

pictures, stories, personal blog of Saf

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this unfinished flooring at a bakso stall reminds me of ikea.

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The Queen's Gambit | Netflix Official Site

In a 1950s orphanage, a young girl reveals an astonishing talent for chess and begins an unlikely journey to stardom while grappling with addiction.

What I do love about the technology nowadays, they read our pattern of behavior to give recommendation. So do with N platform. But I guess this Series came up because of it just release on this week. From the first time I always add series and films on My List, but ended up never watched it (e.g. the hype of Kdrama series in between this pandemic season). I rather to watch something: “I guess this is cool”, “Hey, it is X actor/actress from Y movie!”, or some strangers on twitter just recommend it. Aaaaand most of all, I’ll go with the third. It happened so many times. I watched Love Guaranteed, Love Spectrum, Imperfect, Teenage Bounty Hunters, Beautiful Day in The Neighborhood and Criminal: UK. It happened with The Queen’s Gambit too. (But not all of my watched list from the recommendation by others wk wk)

Some stranger on Twitter said that it’s all about Chess game, “Hah? really??” I said. When I was in Junior High School, there’s a Sport Day Event. It held about a week. Every class should sent their representative to join every kind of sports. So I really want to be one of the player. A day before I just learnt Chess from my dad. So I signed up, and practiced every moves and tricks that I got from my father in 2 days in a row. Ha ha ha. I still laughed at it. I won the first game, cos my opponent walk-out (just lucky). The second game, I lost, she was like one of the grand-master in my school. That’s why this series just so overwhelming to me(?), idk.

So that night I guess, “I’ll give it a shoot for only one episode”. Then I ended up to watch three out of seven ha ha. Then I just post my so-far-review on my twitter and one of my friend told me she want to give it a try too!

I really want to end it as fast as possible, cos I’m so curious for the end of the story, but I have to work in the morning. So I guess to night I’m going to finish it as possible. Then I finished it on this month’s long holiday, and IT’S GOOD!! After this, I gonna think about what series should I watch at the best level, compare to this one!? Omg! Oh btw, I just thinking about to cut my hair short again because of Beth lol.

I can’t believe, I just post another journal to reviewing again. So go give it a shot to watch it!

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How beautiful the full moon at my backyard (thanks to the clear sky and stars around). Soon, i want a home with backyard. So i can see this view with my beloved ones. Hesteg eaaa. Hehehe

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This post is still relate to my current dreams. Sounds cheesy and silly. But love it.

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Ok, maybe this post gonna be a lil bit sentimental wk wk. Hm ok. So, a month ago, someone recommended this song. And I fell for it. Later I knew this song was written by Jong Hyun (actually, I love his songs. My favorite is Breath by Lee Hi). But this version by Crush, somehow I picturesqued very well. Maybe its setting for the show itself that makes it perfectly good.

The song tells about someone longing for his/her partner. Such a deep meaning and it could make you cry at your lowest point for longing someone. Sorry, it sounds sentimental, but it is true.

But for this thought changed in an hour ha ha.

My friend and me discussed this song lately. By the discussed it awhile, suddenly I changed my mind. It's not a song about longing for someone only, but how to strengthen urself in thunderstorm too. And yes we agreed.

At the end of the day, maybe your day seems like falling apart, feeling not good, or broken. I hope you can get well soon. 💛

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break

A few weeks ago, I listened to Raditya Dika’s Podcast. The guest of the episode was Marissa Anita, one of my favorite anchor. Almost about a year, I always tune for her episode on Great Mind. And on Dika’s podcast they were talking about Minimalism (wihhhh). One of the subtopics that I interested in is about taking a break.

She took a break from Instagram a long time ago (actually, I forgot the details, but I did following her, and I love her feeds when she was in England). Back then, I was sad she no longer on IG. Been questioning this, until I listened on the podcast.

Taking a break is a tool that I do realize we can control with. In present, everybody said that this is the disruptive era. We can get every information we need. Almost everything! But, in some case, a few people can get tired with it. A few people in my circle somehow ‘taking a break’ from social media, and I don’t really know the exact reason.

Actually, I write down this post to tidying up my mind (sounds as Marie Kondo wk wk) and to reconsider about taking a break from it. This past month I found that I got too much information to handle. I guess its worth to try. Somehow we do really need to take a break from a routine, and be right back with something sparks joy, isn’t it? :)

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re-route

brainstormed during pandemic, such a good thing to do. to keep me sane, and re-route myself toward dreams ahead. last night, four of us were talking soo many topics. perkara cinta, patah hati, kerjaan, cita-cita, album blackpink, sampai pembicaraan mengenai biaya kuliah s2 dan cari beasiswa. and also how our neighborhood’s perspective of our views on this things. we realized that we have our own pace, and why we are love it. since our stomach grumbled and sleepy eyes need some rest, we were sayin good bye. hopefully, our dreams and plans ahead came out well. aamiin. wish us luck!!

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Watching this movie countless. And as Gigi said, it given me a lot to think about. To sum up: If he does love you, he gonna make it works. If not, so adios.

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the last shot of me strolled around ikea

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met stray cat.

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July, 2020. missing photo hunting.

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August, 2020. Late dinner at sidewalk.

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February, 2020. An abandoned hotel.

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April, 2020. Running errand.

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February, 2020.

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Oh, actually this is office thingy ...

Baru beres kerjaan, liat Jiwa Toast. Sebenernya agak serem sih buat sekedar takeaway doang. Tapi karena situasi store cukup sepi, gue iyain aja buat masuk.

Sambil nungguin orderan, gue liat-liat sekitar. Tadi malem gue tidur lebih malem dari biasanya. Seharian ini abis gue masuk mobil, jalan dikit tidur. Sementara gue liat-liat tl twitter, temen gue masih telponan urusan kantor.

Singkat cerita orderan kita udah bisa diambil. Temen gue? masih telponan haha. Gak jauh dari meja gue, ada bapak sama anak yang lebih muda, nunggu orderan juga. Yang muda kayaknya mencoba mengenalkan bapak ini kopi kekinian. Gue perhatiin baik-baik. Anak muda ini wajahnya meyakinkan si bapak, “es kopinya enak loh”. Ekspresi wajah bapaknya ini: awal mula liatin gelasnya, lalu kopinya beliau coba. Ekspresinya semacam bilang, "Ya boleh lah" trus diseruput lagi kopinya. It’s really fun you observe ths things. Bikin cengengesan sendiri🤭

Abis dari sini, kita cari makan malam. Kita pengen makan cepet. Ga pake duduk masuk restoran, yang penting bisa isi perut, karena badan udah lelah banget. Ada nasi goreng abang-abang di pinggir jalan. Yang beli ga terlalu penuh, jadi kita pikir aman buat makan di sini. Temen gue beli mi goreng, driver kita beli nasi goreng, dan gue pesen mi tek-tek kuah. Angeeet banget elahh itu rasanya, rich dan mengenyangkan. Ngingetin masa-masa gue balik kuliah malem, cape banget, trus nemu abang mi tek-tek di jalan pulang. Rasanya gitu, kurang lebih sama.

Hahaha. Heu yauda. Cape, tapi seru.

Jam 10 malem, Garut udah sepi jalannya, sama kayak Tasik. Balik-balik ke penginapan, gue langsung ganti baju tidur, bersih-bersih, trus ngerjain tugas di luar kerjaan gue selesai jam 1 malem. Alhamdulillah beres!

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Himawari.

Anyway, last week, I ticked one of my bucket list again. It felt good. And next week, could be my highest so far. It feels overwhelmed for sure. I hope everything's fine.

Then, Adele's Daydreamer picturesques my thought at its best, I guess 😅. Btw I just put a link here for my spotify playlist. Maybe you wanna listen (emang gue siapa wk), ya boleh lah kalo mau denger 🤪

Hmm, trus, been thinking a lot these past few weeks. Makes me excited, curious, and nervous. What I've been thinking, "should I find another options?"

I guess, for now on, I'm gonna live the moment. Let it flow. I think I'll never know the real adventure feels like, if I don't give it a try, right? Hope it's going to be bright as himawari 😊

Oh, well, I realize being an adult is never an easy job, eh? But you can make anything seems possible hehe. Okay, enuf for blabbering, bye!

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In the times of co-to-ro-to-na, I realize that I had several broken heart moments. So many things have been postponed during pandemic. Even it's takes more patience in relationship with someone. The one that I can really trust to share my thoughts about him just my tweet drafts :): co-to-ro-to-na please go go away