˗ˏˋ 𝓔𝓵𝓸𝓲𝓼𝓮 𝓜𝓪𝓮!

a blog for my creative dump IG: @/joysdisorder

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‘ i’ve got the spirit, but lose the feeling . ’ — “ Disorder ” , Joy Division

♱ 𝓙𝓸𝔂𝓼𝓓𝓲𝓼𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓮𝓻 ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

Meet the Artist : 𝓔𝓵𝓸𝓲𝓼𝓮 𝓜𝓪𝓮 💋

🪼 Fine Art third year student currently studying in the heart of cornwall, england .

my works are fuelled around the experiences and feelings that i have had and are continuously going through— left with an ambiguous taste to create ‘ relation ’ for my audience . as of now i have no set style but rather allow myself to experiment and truly flow with how i want to express myself .

favourite medium : oil pastel .

favourite artist : claude monet .

favourite movement : impressionism .

Ongoing Project : 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕷𝖆𝖘𝖙 𝕭𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝕸𝖞 𝕳𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙 🫀

Commissions : Not Open

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post to be updated regularly with edits .

photos by @/adamthurlowphotos on insta .

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Solarius Ascendent 🗡️

close up render of the pommel on my sacred blade that I have officially named solarius ascendent— more to be explained on that soon!

modelled in blender 4.3

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‘ Sacred Blade ’ Render

(test edit)

I guess “promo pics”? But more so just a fun edit to make the render look prettier!

Modelled by me in blender 4.3, edited in picsart

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Sacred Blade 🗡️

Modelled in Blender 4.3

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sacred blade, concept design

illustrated using procreate

brushes by bluesssatan

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sacred heart, textile sculpture concept

illustrated using procreate

brushes by bluesssatan & crystalhawklee

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the last beat of my heart 🫀

hand sewn frock threaded with discarded lace & embroidery

modelled by me

edited using prequel

shot on kodak easyshare c2013 (2008)

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eat your heart out (2024)

complete.

up-cycled polyester blouse, hand sewn with scraps of purposefully tattered lace, & embroidered with a mixture of beading

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added textures, inc. beading

🥩 meat fleshy shirt coming together, I would say it is half way finished. just need to even out the pink on the other side and then add the same embroidered beading to it. thinking about blending it out with some white lace to the edges, but I am kinda liking how it is right now. we shall see..

have yet to even think about the sleeves .

(thank you for all the love on my other post, it means alot <3)

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more to come …

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“ eat your heart out ” cont.

(I should’ve worked on this over summer break frfr)

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textures 🥩

a bricolage ☆ made from scrap fabrics to showcase the continuation of my project “ deception ”

made up of 4 different kinds of lace and the most basic of embroidered beads

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“ the art of sabotage. ”

mixed media collage consisting of magazine cutouts, cigarette cards & bubble wrap 🌸

— scanned & edited using iphone & prequel app

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“ everything tends towards chaos ”

mixed media collage consisting of magazine cutouts, cigarette cards, netting & paper 🌀

—scanned & edited using iphone

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“ eat your heart out ” .

( work in progress )

eat your heart out: suffer from excessive longing for something unattainable // used to indicate that one thinks someone will feel great regret .

🥩 this piece as been known as ‘ untitled ’ for too long now, “ eat your heart out ” felt very fitting considering this textile art is supposed to represent your chest being torn apart— though visually, a current work in progress .

the idea of eat your heart out lies in the fact that one is longing for the distribution of deception to finally come to an end, and instead portray the truth. lies hiding fact eat away and tear at your flesh, to the paint it pains your heart .

—edited using standard iphone & prequel app for depth & dreamy effects

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more red lace . .

—edited using standard iphone to add depth

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i ❤️ red lace .

🥩 just a tad bit of layer #2 to the first one on the right side of the blouse to bring the vision to life more . since doing this, i feel a lot more confident in the direction i had originally planned for this piece .

currently pinned, needs to be stitched tomorrow 🪡

—edited using standard iphone for depth . ( original on right )

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