jstaysclassy

Headmaster of Classy University www.twitch.tv/jstaysclassy

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NEW SCHEDULE ALERT!

I'm throwing in a new game into the mix because I can and feel like something different. That's all I got, see y'all Saturday night!

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"im tired of living through major historical events" is now "dear lord please let me witness a high profile political assassination in the next 1-2 years. amen"

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All of this…

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Bluesky

Just gonna leave this here

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jstaysclassy - Twitch

So about those world dragons…

Live with some Shining Resonance Refrain for your viewing pleasure!

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Time for test number 2 of the week

The PRISM stream went well, so let's see how OBS is handling this time!

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I’m leaving this here for those that are scared and afraid about their future. Never forget that you are loved. If you want a place to just escape, my Discord server is open to you. Don’t forget to reach out to loved ones too IRL. We can make it through this.

Check out the Classy University community on Discord - hang out with 20 other members and enjoy free voice and text chat.

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Sky Strikers Defeat

Well I might as well post my favorite Master Duel replays up here since I'm using this account again. Here's one that brought my Gravekeepers out of retirement

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Time for test number 1 of the week

Streaming live using PRISM Live Studio right now

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It seems I tend to neglect this site A LOT...but with everything going on in the world right now, I'm fixing that, and it starts with this. Here's my stream schedule for the week of 1/19-25. I finally got a proper setup so now I can stream properly. Hope y'all will join me on Sunday!

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My current thoughts

This was originally posted on Threads:

I started Twitch back in March/April/May of 2020 as a way to reach out and connect with others while being isolated. For a while, it was great. The times I spent with everyone has been amazing and I loved every minute of it. Now, as I'm about to turn 29 in about two weeks, I'm starting to realize just how alone I am and how much I haven't achieved. While I'm not where I was in the past, I honestly wish I was further along by now. It all comes down to one thought that has been running through my head for a while, and that's if I should keep on going with Twitch at all. I hate the fact that I have this thought in my head since I love streaming, but I'm just not sure anymore if it's worth doing it. I'm just not sure anymore and it's really starting to eat at me emotionally. This thread is not a "pity me" kind of thread, nor is it a call to suddenly follow me or anything like that, these are my real emotions that just need to be heard and I needed to vent. I just need to think for a while about my future.

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New streaming schedule

Since Twitter is on fire right now, I’ll also post my stream schedule here as well. It’s essentially last week’s schedule but I canceled last week due to a bad mental and emotional state I was in, so here it is:

Also, if you want to join me on Saturday night for some UNO, just let me know. I’ll DM you the link to my Discord server so you can join in.

With all that said, I’ll see y’all tomorrow night ✌🏾

Twitch

Twitch

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Twitter is broken again so I'm back baybee!

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I know I don’t have much of a following on here, but I just want to bring y’all my streaming schedule for this week. Had to move some things around due to my work schedule.

As for Wednesday, it’s going to be a test stream to see how well it works again. To ensure that nothing goes wrong with the stream, I did implement some rules for it that can be seen below 👇🏾

I hope y’all will be able to stop by and I hope you are having a great weekend. ✌🏾

jstaysclassy - Twitch

jstaysclassy - Twitch

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I’m alone…

I just realized that just now while I was working on some stuff…I’m alone. During 2020, I felt like I was on top of the world. A decent group of friends that are always around to chat and whatnot. But as time moves forward, life does too. Life doesn’t wait for anyone, no matter how much it seems unfair. On my quest towards mental and emotional healing, I realized that I was holding back, not just because of my past experiences with bullying, but because I was trying to hold on to something that can’t always be.

My streams had so much life back in the day, but now they are just me talking to the void. Sometimes it’s a good thing, other times I just wish there was that extra voice there with me. But we can’t always get what we want…and I have to accept that. It would be nice to at least have one person reach out and see how I was doing or to just say that I’m doing a great job or something. Again, we can’t always get what we want.

Sometimes the loneliness is just unbearable. It feels like no matter how many people I meet, I’m just going to wind up alone in the end…and that honestly scares me more than anything. I hope that I can find that one person that will never leave one day…but I’m not holding my breath.

As you can see, my mental and emotional state are still a work in progress if I’m feeling like this right now. But I’d much rather have it be a work in progress than what it was last year or even years before. All I can do is keep moving forward and do my best to keep the faith alive within myself.

If you took the time to read my rambles, I thank you. I hope everyone else is doing well, and I’ll see you when I see you ✌🏾

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One small kindness, in one small moment led to such a marvelous transformation.

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This is a line that I now live by everyday

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Taking Accountability and Finally Moving Forward

I rarely post on here as it is since I don’t have much of a following to do so, so it makes sense for me to also say this here. On one of my Twitch streams earlier in the week, I took some time before getting into the games where I talked about some changes that are happening. You can read them here (from left to right):

But that’s not the only thing I brought up. I also brought up the topic of forgiveness, something that I saw myself doing less and less of as the years went on. There's so many people I have yet forgive in my life and I don't even remember their names...but that doesn't matter.

I've held on to so much pain for so long that it was doing me a MAJOR disservice to myself and the people around me. So, in order for me to move forward within my mind and begin to finally heal, it starts here and with more than just forgiveness on my part...

One thing I also realized is that I did hurt a lot of people too. I'm definitely no saint myself, I've made my mistakes too. Some of those mistakes have hurt those around me...and I've never apologized for it...a mistake that I've lived with for far too long.

So, to those that have wronged me and have scared me so greatly...I forgive you. You might not remember me, I surely don't remember you or what you look like...but I remember what you did, the pain you caused me...and I forgive you. This doesn't me I'll forget it, remember that.

To those I've wronged in my life in any way, again, you might not remember me and I don't remember you...but I have a feeling you remember the pain I caused you...and I apologize for all I've done. Wether you accept it or not, it's up to you, I can't force you to do anything.

And to myself, the one that's typing all of this...it's time to forgive yourself for holding on to all this pain, for essentially holding yourself back from moving forward...for letting hatred win...you deserve better, and you will get better...it all starts here.

Thanks for taking the time to read all of this. I'm really doing all of this for accountability reasons. The last thing I need is someone saying that I'm just saying stuff without backing it up. Have a good night folks. I'll see you when I see you.

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The healer for when you are sick