If…. (Lindsay Anderson, 1968)
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If…. (Lindsay Anderson, 1968)
what yr fav britpop band says abt u
blur: anime trash elastica: will beat up your fuckboy boyfriend suede: gay pulp: all my clothes have wine stains on them. god i need to get laid the verve: walking aimlessly into a wall supergrass: in a drunken stupor at the local carnival oasis: bruh mansun: *tattoos KARL MARX on knuckles* lush: crying into pink moscato
definitely anime trash sorry/not sorry
Yeah, sure, I'll accept "gay," why not
Lola Montès, Max Ophüls, 1955
“There was the one David Bowie record, The Man Who Sold the World, which I bought this copy of the record, because it had a little poster in it. I think in a music store in Boston. And I bought some blank tapes - we were at somebody’s house, and I put the record on tape, and put that in the player and started playing that.” Those guys were like, ‘Whoa! That’s a trip, what’s this?’ Well, I think Krist [Novoselic] heard it before…I know Kurt [Cobain] hadn’t though, because he asked me who it was, and I said, 'This is David Bowie’
Chad Channing, ex-Nirvana drummer, 2011 (via bowiesongs)
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I guess this is my contribution to the “poptimism debate” which has raised its monstrous head again. If you have any sense at all then “a contribution to the poptimism debate” is the last thing in the world you want to read, so let’s rephrase that. This is an incomplete list of reasons people have found to write approvingly about pop music. Some good, some not.
Great read here from Tom.
A girl kissing the posters of David Bowie in Madrid, 1987.
i watched hackers the other night and lord almighty, is it dated - but i really enjoyed 1990s NYC, as always.
"king of nynex"
Finding it really frustrating that I'm so into Matthew Lillard in this photo.
Short Story of the Day (2015)
Hi Friends,
A thing I’m doing this year is posting one short story a day (not my own, thankfully) to Twitter. I finally created a Storify tonight to help keep track of them. Feedback and/or suggestions are more than welcome. Link below!
Enjoy!
Short Story of the Day (2015) Storify
“You read something which you thought only happened to you, and you discover that it happened 100 years ago to Dostoyevsky. This is a very great liberation for the suffering, struggling person, who always thinks that he is alone. This is why art is important. Art would not be important if life were not important, and life is important.”
James Baldwin, Conversations with James Baldwin (via bookshavepores)
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black matte/black bile
My first real kiss was a gay kiss. People tried to tell me that it didn’t count, that girls practice on eachother while we wait for boys to pay attention, resolved into a dystopian unilateral hetero future. I knew that I got anxious and sweaty around her and I lied to impress her and no boy had ever made my chest cave in like that.
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We are skipping class behind the basketball court, passing a Newport she’d taken from her older brother, who was in a band we both loved, back and forth, wearing matching flannels - how gauche - and sharing a set of headphones flipped inside out. Solo Peter Murphy, ‘Cuts You Up,’ that sharp synth hook twisting. If I close my eyes I see late skate at the indoor ice rink, when they shut off most of the lights and project soft white faux-stars against the high wood beams and all you could hear was some employee’s tinny radio turned up so loud it distorted and the whoosh-whoosh of skates and people falling and giggling.
I kiss her. For what feels like a very long time but in reality is probably thirty seconds, she kisses me back. We pull apart, and I get so nervous I wipe my nose on the floppy sleeve of my flannel. Neither of us say anything. We continue listening to ‘Deep’. The Newport burns down to ash, and she crushes it into the leaves with a toe.
We would be friends for seven more years, but we’d never talk about that kiss again.
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I’m definitely swimming in an excess of black bile, always have been, so it’s no wonder I’ve always been a sucker for a sad song. D and E, minor changes, maybe a shift up to G minor if I’m feeling feisty. That’s what’ll get me under the breastbone and that’s what I write. It’s not so much the heartbreak songs because I don’t love easily, I’m not consumed with love, love is an embedded and complicated affair for me not given to narratives easily explainable in two to three minutes tops. It’s the songs about alienation, ennui, disrepair, dissociation. I like the big melancholic sweeps but I like the small, barely noticeable twinges more.
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“There are two kinds of queer kids,” my friend Elena says. We are sitting cross-legged on her bed in her dorm room eating tortilla chips and listening to Move Into The Villa Villakula, because we are nothing if not stereotypical late ‘90s dykes. There are so few queer stories and so many straight ones that we find ourselves wedging our way into roles we don’t fit just to find some kind of home in our small, insular world, just to appear recognizable to others, just to be seen. “You and me, right? I’m all glitter, I’m pushing myself outward, I’m laughing so much and partying so much that nobody can see how sad and scared and alone I feel. I’m a parody of what it feels like to fit in.”
I nod. I am halfway listening to her and halfway listening to Ruby Falls and thinking about how Elena has a girlfriend and I do not. I feel ugly, awkward, all wrong. I wish I could be glittery. I am not. I feel sunken and sour. It has not been a good year, it has not been a good decade, I don’t trust people for good reason and I cry too much and I walk around campus with headphones in because music is the only thing that feels right and sane and warm to me, even the saddest of songs, even the loneliest of songs.
“You, you’re the other kind. You’re like … whatever’s not glittery. Black matte or something.”
“I turn inwards,” I say.
“You turn inwards. You don’t force people away from you with your rainbows, you cloak yourself and you disappear.”
She’s right. “Two ways of coping with a world that looks at you funny at best,” I agree.
“Yeah.” Elena’s mouth is full of chips. We chew companionably, thinking about how fucked up it is that we all have to strategize in this way. I hit repeat on “Spanish Olive,” because the line “I hated being a girl” really resonates with me, as it does with a lot of us. Not Elena, who is butch as hell but very solidly female; she lives in her body unapologetically in a way I wish I could understand. I am clawing at pictures of femininity, itching at the truth.
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I make him a mix, he’s expecting flirtatious messages. He gets ponderous guitars, thudding, wailing, pounding. The only fast songs are blurry and hard. A few of the songs are about fucking but most of them are about dying. Getting to know you, right?
“There are a lot of songs about, like, the cold war on here.” He is amused.
Black matte, black bile. It’s what keeps me humming.
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I know a lot of people, my contemporaries, who are dead. I’m 35 and I shouldn’t but I do. Suicide, murder, overdose. We are not here because of free choices we’ve made but because of what we are and how that constrains our opportunities in an unbalanced world: people who have endured great trauma in the borderlands. We resist with gallows humor and the refusal to be pigeonholed as ONLY freaks. We are freaks, yes, but that does not negate the fact that we are also humans who fuck up daily and are petty and absurd just like anyone else.
Sad songs sing to us because we are always in mourning and mourning is exhausting and sometimes we want to rest our heads on a wall of noise or the sateen of a synth glissando, because we are reminded by our bodily responses that we, despite our chances, still breathe.