[worldsandemanations]

枝垂蘭（薄ピンク色), 2009

[jupiterdolll]

went snorkeling and the guide picked up the harvested conch from the bottom and explained how the tell is by the cut at the top. he gave it to me to take home by complete chance lol. he passed it to me to observe and he swam a bit away, so he misheard me saying "i want to tighten this" (my life jacket) as "i want to take this" and he said take it take it. i wouldnt have if it wasnt recently harvested. there wasnt any barnacle however very much algae. afterwards these 2 horses would not leave me alone, the one on the left was literally barely a foot away from me at one point. just standing contently. it was nice to be that close to a horse for that long, they leave me with such a serene state of mind. i pressed those flowers and they still have the exact vibrancy and color to them

(not my photo) the fish i seeeen !!!! they're so so pretty

[jupiterdolll]

[jupiterdolll]

[jupiterdolll]

remember that one story i think like last year about this kid who crushed a dead butterfly into powder and injected it into his arm

[girlisreading]

[everynart]

[jupiterdolll]

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[cvntdracvla]

to your joy i tether

[lif3-0n-m4rs]

chaos theory by far

[yallove]

[velvetcloak]

pomegranate bag @ chanel | fall/winter 2026

[jupiterdolll]

i want to watch a beautiful, weird movie with a cup of tea

[jupiterdolll]

i cant nap and i have never planned a nap in my life because whenever it happens by accident, in the afternoon or especially in the evening when the sun is about to set, i wake up with this crushing feeling of existence. one of the most horrid feelings i have repeatedly experienced. it starts with hearing a tv in the distance, children outside the window, possibly accompanied by a dog barking or a basketball being dribbled down the sidewalk. the rumbling of a car going down the street. crickets and birds upon many living their simple lives and sending their joyful chirps into my world. i shrink and shrink as if each noise i hear outside of the enclosed walls i am in is swallowing me, little by little. my whole world becomes that room and that bed in those moments, and it's as if no one knows about me and nothing will ever matter.

its not a matter of depression or not wanting to be here on this earth. when i wake up in the middle of night everything feels the exact opposite. peaceful and serene. quiet and i can even say motivational, my life and this world feels so eternal in that waking moment.

i've come to the conclusion that waking up from a daytime nap, its.... in a watered down more simple way of putting it, an extreme feeling of fomo and overwhelm about how many places i can belong to, yet i don't. it feels as if the whole world pushes me into a structure where my edges just don't fit quite right in. there is so much needed of me. and yet, the only thing that stops me from panicking and stopping this crushing feeling is by opening a curtain, stepping outside. accepting that we all have to conform to this reality, maybe? i can't quite tell.

i remember being at a friends house and falling asleep on their couch, and when i woke up this feeling came to me. i recall immediately wanting to open the curtains but it wasn't my place to do so, and i felt so small, like i was going to become nothing, getting smaller as each second passed me, like i was The Incredible Shrinking Man (1957)

[jupiterdolll]

[jupiterdolll]

i cant nap and i have never planned a nap in my life because whenever it happens by accident, in the afternoon or especially in the evening when the sun is about to set, i wake up with this crushing feeling of existence. one of the most horrid feelings i have repeatedly experienced. it starts with hearing a tv in the distance, children outside the window, possibly accompanied by a dog barking or a basketball being dribbled down the sidewalk. the rumbling of a car going down the street. crickets and birds upon many living their simple lives and sending their joyful chirps into my world. i shrink and shrink as if each noise i hear outside of the enclosed walls i am in is swallowing me, little by little. my whole world becomes that room and that bed in those moments, and it's as if no one knows about me and nothing will ever matter.

its not a matter of depression or not wanting to be here on this earth. when i wake up in the middle of night everything feels the exact opposite. peaceful and serene. quiet and i can even say motivational, my life and this world feels so eternal in that waking moment.

i've come to the conclusion that waking up from a daytime nap, its.... in a watered down more simple way of putting it, an extreme feeling of fomo and overwhelm about how many places i can belong to, yet i don't. it feels as if the whole world pushes me into a structure where my edges just don't fit quite right in. there is so much needed of me. and yet, the only thing that stops me from panicking and stopping this crushing feeling is by opening a curtain, stepping outside. accepting that we all have to conform to this reality, maybe? i can't quite tell.

i remember being at a friends house and falling asleep on their couch, and when i woke up this feeling came to me. i recall immediately wanting to open the curtains but it wasn't my place to do so, and i felt so small, like i was going to become nothing, getting smaller as each second passed me, like i was The Incredible Shrinking Man (1957)

[jupiterdolll]

so brutal to just exist

[eseninkit-blog]

your one and only shadow