justfuckingdance

I'm a former competitive dancer who has been out of dance for 10 years. Now, with the help of the Denver dance community, and the support of family and friends, I'm getting back into it. Follow my journey. All I need is to justfuckingdance.

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How could housesitting be lonely when I have these five babes (creeps) by my side? #dogsofinstagram #dogwhisperer #dylanthedog #dogsitter #dogsoverpeople

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Oh my. Colorado Crush is this week and these artists are blowing my mind. <3

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What I was trying to say, maybe, is that I don't know what it is I'm capable of transforming into.

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"Sometimes she feels like a third gender, preferring primary colors to pastels, the radio to singing. At least she's all mermaid: never gets tired of swimming, hates the thought of socks." Wednesday night with Matthea Harvey.

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Just a girl and her dog in the woods eating dried snap peas and searching for the weirdest wildflowers. #dylanthedog #weimaranersofinstagram #natureandshit

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New roommates. Weimaraner + Great Dane. I'm living with giants and it's amazing. #dylanthedog #weimaranersofinstagram #denver

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Moving/unpacking is stressful, so we took a break to explore the neighborhood parks. Dylan was into it. #weimaranersofinstagram #dylanthedog #denver

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#tbt to that time I found these matches on a beach in Barcelona, Spain. I hope these words never come out of my mouth.

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Last July my dad went scuba diving and never came back. This is our first Father's Day without him, and while I want to tell about how wonderful he was, I'd rather tell a story about the time he took me to my first middle school dance. It had rained that day, but as we rode along the long country roads, the sky began to clear and a rainbow took shape. He glanced at me, asking if I wanted to take a detour to find the end of the rainbow. I said, "Yes," not knowing that his motive was really to just spend more time with me. So he turned onto a dirt road and we chased the colors in the sky. We talked about what we thought would be at the end, knowing that it likely ended in someone's pasture. We never found the end of it, and I don't know how long the detour lasted, but I eventually made it to my dance. When we got to the school, most of my peers were outside socializing. Before getting out of his truck, I hugged him and told him I loved him. After I got out, a boy started making fun of me, "Ohhh! Kayla's a little Daddy's girl." Not knowing that Dad was watching, waiting for my response, I lifted my chin and flicked my hair, saying, "I love my dad. Sorry you don't know what that feels like." Even as a 6th grader, I felt strength in my love for my father and his love for us. That is not something that has changed, and it's not something that can be taken away. Happy Father's Day, Poppa T. <3

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Friday morning trail run up a little mountain. So happy to call this place home. #ilovecolorado #redrocks #trailrunning #itshot (at Red Rocks Trail)

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#mood #orlando #stopthehate #warsanshire #morelove (Excerpt from Warsan Shire's poem, "What They Did Yesterday Afternoon")

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Last week I quit my job as a project engineer. I knew it wasn't for me from the start, but I stuck through it until the sexism became too much. I stuck through it until I discovered they refuse to hire black people (seriously, wtf). I stuck through it until I'd had enough of putting off the things I care about. It was a bold move and I don't know what will happen from here, but I am excited to not be tied to something that doesn't serve me. I am resourceful and I love this city, so I don't feel worried about jumping into the unknown. Like they say, "Leap and the net will appear." #dowhatyoulove #justfuckingdance #fuckracism #fucksexism #bebold

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"I don't believe you can feel deep satisfaction in your life unless your life contains restless areas, holes, imperfections, shit." Last week I spent a lot of time assessing what I'm still good at, what I'm not. Despite struggling through things that used to be easy, it all felt good. I was excited to explore dance genres outside of ballet this week. Then I slipped on snowy stairs and pulled a muscle in my right leg and behind my left knee. Initially it felt like a huge setback. But setbacks are learning opportunities. I don't always need to be moving and dancing and working and networking. Lesson: SLOW THE FUCK DOWN and rest, or life will force you to. #justfuckingdance #takecareofyourself #bestill

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Just before the weekend storm popped off, I grabbed #dylanthedog and ditched Denver to spend time in a beautiful ranch house on the front range. Who needs the city when you have a mini movie theater, hot tub, copious amounts of food, and this amazing window? #escapethecity #justfuckingdance #snowdays #birthdayweekend #lostinthewest (at Littleton, Colorado)

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Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes! The celebration started last night and will continue on indefinitely. 28 is going to be dope as fuck, ya'll. #justfuckingdance #vegancoconutcake #birthdayweekend

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Just kickin' it in a high school gymnasium on a Monday night. A little dancing, a lot of stretching, and figuring out what my body is still capable of. #justfuckingdance #mondays #ishouldbesleeping

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End of the day photo shoot with my talented sister who also happens to be a ballerina :) we tried a couple of different angles but this was the best shot. #photography #iloveco #urbanballerina

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This is the beginning of my journey back into dancing after 10 years of being out of it. It’s also the beginning of my sister’s journey into learning a new trade: photography. We are collaborating on these projects and are SUPER excited about it. Follow us to see our struggles, triumphs, and bloopers. <3