just whatnots and whatever

relieving some thoughts

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Universe, I'll take this challenge but you owe me a big return.

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It's been a while...

journaling really helps.

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new in the hive feels

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i hate that I'm back to walking around and living with a lump in my throat. my tears are always on brink and it feels like I can't stop them anytime.

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here I am now at mcd. Waiting for our order. As I sit here and wait, I ponder. Ponder and reminisce what my life was like few months ago, I can't help but feel grateful that I am now living in one of my answered prayers...

At the same time be question my progress

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can't help but I'm in moment of realizations that I'm living in one of my answered prayers.

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you can't just disappear and pop out of nowhere and expect people to accept you again like nothing happened. you deserve more and you deserve self-respect.

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at some point in someone's life, they'll get to a point of realizations that no amount of money could equalize their sanity.

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hoping for better days. Universe, thank you.

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To be at peace.

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I think I've seen this film before

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morning realizations

while on my way to work, I looked at the sky. What a magnificent view I said to myself. I can't help but stare at it and admire while thinking what a privilege would it be to stare at it until the sun fully rises, to get soaked in the light while taking your time to sit back and stare at the view.

I romanticized the hustle culture so much that I only now realize that true luxuries can't be paid by money.

Just dumping my thoughts while I'm rushing on the way to work.

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i hate it here

Looking back, it's been two years since I last felt this way, but this one's wayyyyy different, in a way that it fucked me up in every aspect of my well-being and I hate it. Since January started, I've been crying non-stop. I felt like I was on survival mode, literally. Going out and coming home crying. Even on my supposed to be "rest" days that I don't feel well rested. This is not normal, well at least for me. This is not how I was few months ago and before this year started. January made sure that I get to feel every day of its month. I hate how I'm feeling that I just want everything to freeze.

Universe, you owe me a big one for this. Hoping for brighter days and I hope it will get easier than this as time goes by.

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Universe, I'll take this challenge but you owe me a big return.

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Moments like this makes me think about the Universe doing me a grand favor making its way as a return for putting me into situations like this.

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will always be kept in the what ifs.

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I have to put me first. I owe my self love and respect.

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Confirmed my hunch, there's another girl. Maybe finally and hopefully I can sing wholeheartedly the boy bye. Lost my interest. Realized that I was holding on to the potential and not on the actual person.