reminiscing
march 30th, 2019 (12:50am)
dear friend(s) i havent spoken to in a while,
how has it been? how are you? what are you up to nowadays? are you still as busy as i remember you? it was crazy back then i remember you use to have like 35 extracurriculars out of the 7 day week but you did it all because you were just so intelligent and determined to succeed. tonight i was looking back at old pictures and it made me really fucking sad because we had so many good memories that we just let slip away in an abyss because of highschool💔 it’s been so long i don’t even remember how long we’ve been friends, or your birthday or any of the things we would’ve been able to memorize 2 years ago .... i can’t help but blame myself for the distance and the lack of communication ... i’m sorry for letting our different environments completely drive a wedge between us to the point where if i ever saw you in public I’d avoid you rather than catch up. it’s funny because we’ve been friends for a while and they said childhood friends usually last a lifetime but there’s never been more silence. it’s been 2 years since grade eight graduation and i knew that day forward going to different schools would seperate us but i never gave it much thought and let it keep pushing us further and further away until you stopped being a thought for weeks at a time .... but less about me, what have you accomplished in the last while? where have you travelled? foods you ate? clothes you bought? do your new friends make up for all the silence and distance from your old friends? i saw you went to niagara during december, how was that? do you see a future with them? i remember we made a vow to be each other’s maid of honours but i don’t know if we will ever get that chance again.. wherever you are, just know, im forever changed by your existence and who you are or were as a person❤️ i wish you all the best AL, and i hope that one day we will meet again and start fresh ... sincerely, jamie
