The Spare
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Summary: When Princess Rosie unexpectedly is thrust into a political tour of the country, a working-class Air Force Captain is assigned to be her pilot. Although the princess is unhappy about the decision, she realizes sheâs stepping into unknown territory when the unexpected happens
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By @k-evans-writes and @ourfinest-hour
Word Count:Â 8,059
The loud applause echoed off the high ceilings of the historic hall as Rosie stepped back from the microphone, her chest rising and falling as she caught her breath. The speech sheâd just given wasnât like the countless amount of speeches sheâd delivered the past four years written by the palaceâstoic, strong, not one word misspoken or anything less than perfect. This speech was different because it was hers. Every word, every phrase, and every heartfelt sentiment had come from her. She had taken one look at the polished, impersonal speech her advisors had handed her and decided enough was enough.
The crowdâs reaction was immediate and overwhelming. Rosie saw their facesâsome smiling, some teary-eyed, but all of them captivated. She had spoken about the challenges people faced, about resilience and hope, and most importantly, about how she felt about the country and her strong sense of duty to help unite the country during this uncertain time. It had been so many years since sheâd spoken her own words, having been beaten down the palace for too long after she had made headline after headline in her younger years and once she stepped into Jamesâ shoes, she knew it was a losing battle and she had to hold the party line.Â
But something in her had changed. For years, sheâd been told to keep her head down, to fit into the mold James had made. She had triedâGod, had she tried. But it had left her feeling hollow, like sheâd lost pieces of herself along the way. But there had been moments on this tour that a specific captain had helped to bring some of that spunk and sparkle back out of her, reminding Rosie that she had just simply had enough. She couldnât keep wearing this heavy mask anymore⌠but that didnât mean she hadnât been nervous as hell.Â
The applause and expressions of each person in the room had helped to make her breathe a sigh of relief but as she turned to step off the stage, her eyes instinctively searched for one face in particular. Chris stood at the edge of the room, arms at his sides, his posture as steady as ever. But his face wasnât stoic now. His lips curved into a small smile, his eyes carrying a glint of pride. Rosie felt her heart skip, but she shook the thought away, focusing instead on the wave of adrenaline coursing through her.
An ear to ear smile was plastered on her face the entire time she slowly worked through the room as the event went on, Rosie fulfilling her duty to make her way to shake hands and chat with all of the people in the room. Normally she had dreaded these moments, each of them draining so much from her, but this time it felt different. She felt a little more confident, empowered and more like herself.Â
The second that she could pull away though, she slipped into a side room when she caught a glimpse of Annie waiting for her in the corner of the green room. Her younger sister had been allowed to join her for the day, a rare treat for both of them. Rosie beamed as she walked over, pulling Annie into a tight hug.
âIâm so glad you were able to be here, Annie, even if itâs just for the day,â Rosie said, her voice warm and light.
âI am too. I miss you, Rosie,â Annie replied, squeezing her tightly before stepping back.
Rosie laughed softly, her nerves finally starting to ease. âHopefully, when this tour is over, Iâll actually get time to come visit you at uni.â
âIâd love that,â Annie said with a grin. Then her expression softened as she added, âI think youâre going to make quite a splash with that speech you gave.â
Rosie chuckled, a genuine, lighthearted laugh bubbling out of her. âOh, Iâm sure Iâll be hearing about it from the palace.â
Annie blinked in surprise at her sisterâs tone, then broke into a grin. âNow thereâs my sister. I havenât seen her in a long time.â
Rosie tilted her head, the smile still on her face. âWhat do you mean by that?â
Annie hesitated for a moment, her gaze searching Rosieâs. Then she said plainly, âI just mean you havenât reallyâŚbeen yourself the past couple of years.â
Rosieâs smile faltered. She knew her sister was right, but hearing it so plainly struck a chord deep inside her. A heavy sadness crept up on her, wrapping around the edges of her heart. She could feel the weight of the past few years pressing down on herâthe weariness of trying to be something she wasnât, of hiding the parts of herself that didnât fit the royal mold. Her spunkiness, her humor, her heart-on-her-sleeve natureâall of it had been tucked away in favor of a stoic facade that pleased the palace but slowly chipped away at who she truly was.
âItâs kind of hard to be when people are constantly reminding you that the way you are inherently isnât good enough,â she admitted quietly, her voice barely above a whisper.
Annieâs face softened. âI know,â she said gently. âBut my sister wouldnât have really cared what they thought if she knew she was doing the right thing.â
Rosieâs lips pressed together as she looked at her sister, the wheels in her mind turning. Finally, she asked, âAnnie, why are you bringing this all up today?â
âBecause today, I got to see the old Rosie back,â Annie said, her voice filled with warmth. âI got to hear your voice up there giving that speech. I got to see you really connecting with people and laughing and being expressive. I got to see your sparkle back, and that makes me so happy.â
Rosieâs heart ached at her sisterâs words. âIt was the first time Iâve felt like myself,â she admitted softly.
âAnd that showed,â Annie said, her tone encouraging. âYouâve gotten pretty good at hiding your emotions, but I feel like I got to see them all todayâŚespecially after your speech.â
âProbably because I was about to fall over in shock that people clapped so loudly for it,â Rosie said, her lips curving into a small smile.
Annie laughed, then tilted her head with a mischievous grin. âIâm surprised you even noticed people were clapping with the way you were looking at a certain captainâŚâ
Rosie rolled her eyes, though a blush crept up her cheeks. âI wasnât looking just at Chris.â
âYeah, you were,â Annie said with a knowing laugh. âI donât blame you, though. Heâs gorgeous.â
Rosie shook her head, laughing despite herself. But Annieâs words stayed with her, warming something inside her that had felt cold for far too long.Â
Once the crowd had finally dispersed, and Rosie felt the weight of the evening beginning to lift. She lingered near the doorway of the green room, the soft hum of conversation fading into the distance as staff and dignitaries made their exits. Annie walked beside her, their steps slowing as the quiet of the building setted around them like a warm cocoon.
âI needed this,â Rosie admitted softly, her gaze flicking to her sister. âHaving you here, I mean. Itâs beenâŚa long tour.â
Annie tilted her head, giving her a small, knowing smile. âYouâre doing amazing, though. That speech? That was a side of you I havenât seen in way too long.â
Rosieâs lips curved into a faint smile as they continued down the hallway, the marbled floors reflecting the soft light from the ornate chandeliers above. The weight of her sisterâs words still lingered in her heart.Â
They turned into one of the quieter rooms just off the main corridor, a space where Rosie could finally breathe. The room was simple but elegant, with plush seating and a large window overlooking the cityâs twinkling lights. It felt like a moment stolen out of timeâjust her and Annie, a rare break from the chaos of her royal obligations.
As Rosie perched on the edge of a nearby armchair, Annie set her leather tote bag down on the table and began rummaging through it.
âI almost forgotâI brought this for you,â Annie said suddenly, her tone light but her smile carrying a hint of excitement.
Rosie raised a brow, her curiosity piqued as Annie pulled out a perfectly wrapped box. âAnd before you even start, donât argue with me. Just open it.â
Rosie narrowed her eyes, a smile already tugging at her lips. âI wasnât going to argue,â she said lightly, though they both knew better. Setting the box down on the table, she peeled back the wrapping and lifted the lid. The second she saw what was inside, she gasped. âAnnie! This is gorgeous!â
Nestled in the box was a sleek film camera that Rosie picked up carefully, letting her fingers trace the smooth metal and textured leather accents.
âI know this tour hasnât been easy,â Annie said, watching her sisterâs reaction with a soft smile. âBut I thought maybe you could use it to capture some of the good moments.â
Rosieâs throat tightened as she hugged the camera to her chest. Then, without hesitation, she stepped forward and wrapped Annie in a tight embrace. âThis is the sweetest gift. Thank you, Annie.â
Annie returned the hug with equal warmth, and when they finally pulled apart, Rosie found herself smiling for what felt like the first time all dayâa real, unguarded smile.
Before either of them could say more, a firm knock sounded against the open door. Chris leaned in, his hand still resting on the doorframe. He offered an apologetic smile.
âSorry to interrupt,â he said, his voice gentle but steady. âBut itâs time to wrap up. The teamâs ready when you are, Ro.â
Rosie nodded, her gaze meeting his for a fleeting moment. âThanks, Chris. Weâll be out in just a second.â
Chris nodded once, stepping back into the hallway and letting the door swing partially shut behind him.
When Rosie turned back to Annie, she immediately noticed the mischievous grin spreading across her sisterâs face.
âWhat?â Rosie asked suspiciously.
âRo?â Annie teased, tilting her head.
Rosie rolled her eyes, though she could feel heat creeping up her neck. âDonât start.â
âDonât start?â Annie countered with mock incredulity. âYour entire staff calls you Princess or Your Royal Highness. Your friends call you Rosalie. Only people who are really close to you call you Rosie. And now your very attractive pilot calls you Ro?â
âItâs just the way Chris is,â Rosie said with a shrug, trying to sound casual.
âMhmm.â Annie crossed her arms, her smirk firmly in place. âYou donât think thereâs anything significant about it?â
âNot at all,â Rosie said, adjusting the strap of the camera like it was the most interesting thing in the room.
Annie just smiled at her before shrugging, âFine. Iâll drop itâŚfor now.â
Rosie laughed and gave her sister a playful shove toward the door. âAlright, time for you to go before you embarrass me any further.â
As Annie gathered her coat and bag, she turned back one last time. âYou know, I really love seeing you like this, Rosie. Happy. And even if you wonât admit it, I think I have a certain Captain to thank for part of that.â
Rosie could only roll her eyes again as Annie left the room, the teasing lilt of her voice still ringing in her ears. Left alone, she glanced down at the camera in her hands, her mind replaying the warmth in Chrisâs voice when heâd said her name.
And just for a moment, she let herself smile.
The door swung behind the last of the lower-level staffers as they quickly exited the room, having been beckoned by Thomas and Arthur, his junior security, to do so. Her arms crossed over her chest, feeling the tension ripple from her head to her toes as her jaw set anxiously.
âYour Royal Highness,â Thomas began, pausing momentarily as they met the otherâs eyes. His brows furrowed as he looked over her, and she felt herself wanting to shrink under his beady stare. âWhile we appreciate your... enthusiasm during todayâs address, we must discuss the deviations from the prepared remarks.â
Rosie forced her shoulders back and her chin to rise, a defiant feeling stirring in her. She had taken this narrative without argument for far too long, and was reminded of Annieâs words and compliments. She knew she did the right thing, even if the palace was too dense to realize. âI thought the speech I gave resonated better with the audience. The one the palace provided didnât feel genuine.â
âGenuine,â he repeated, lips pursed as though the word tasted sour. âIt is not the role of the monarchy to be genuine, Your Royal Highness. It is to be consistent. To preserve tradition.â
âI think itâs healthy for people to see the monarchy as human. They want to feel like the monarchy truly cares about them and understands what they feel,â Rosie firmly said, her eyes staying on Thomas.Â
âIt is precisely that humanity, Your Highness, that leads to destabilization. You are a symbol, not an individual.â
The words hit her like a slap in the face. Not an individual.
Rosie wanted to argue, to tell them they were wrong, but she could feel the weight of their judgment pressing down on her. They werenât just critiquing her speech; they were reminding her that she was never allowed to be herself.Â
âI think the monarchy needs to start adapting and listening to what the people want or we simply arenât going to serve a purpose anymore,â she rebutted, but even she could tell that the words shook in the wake of that jab.Â
âWith all due respect, I donât think thatâs for you to decide Princess,â Thomas answered, and her heart sank with the soft chuckles that escaped many of the top-level staffers around the room.Â
Rosie ran a hand down her blazer, trying to buy time as she smoothed a non-existent wrinkle from the pristinely-pressed fabric. âIf Iâm the one whoâs upholding it, then I think it is.âÂ
Thomasâ eyes narrowed as he looked at her, and this time it was Arthur who spoke up. âThis is not a discussion about what you think is best. Your role is to follow the guidelines set forth by the institution. The monarchy has thrived for centuries because it does not bend to the whims of the moment,â he informed her, his voice like nails on a chalkboard even at the best of times to Rosie, let alone now.Â
âAnd I think thatâs why it feels so out of touch now,â she all but pleaded, however she willed her voice to not sound desperate and vulnerable. Instead, she forced her tone to remain even, strong, and steadfast as she insisted, âThe world has changed. People have changed. If we canât change with them, weâll be left behind.â
âThis is not a debate, Your Highness. The Crown must remain above such sentiments. You represent stability, not controversy. Youâve already put too much personality and your own thoughts into the monarchy in the past and we arenât going to see that happen again.â
The words hit her like a blow to the chest, knocking the air out of her. She swore she could never do anything right in their eyes, whether it was the way she wore flats underneath a long dress after weeks of the highest heels aching her feet, or the way they criticized the smiles they trained her to always have glued to her face. She could never win, and it was starting to bring her down in a way that seemingly enjoyed.Â
But she vowed to herself that she wouldnât back down. This was too important to her, and it seemed like the build up of many years of struggle between the palace staffers and herself. If anything, sheâd promised to herself to fight for the chance to keep what little individuality and autonomy she had amongst this dour institution. âI stand by what I said. If we want to truly serve the people, then we have to show them that we careânot just with words, but with actions. Thatâs what I believe, and thatâs the kind of leader I want to be.â
âYouâre not the head of your monarchy, your father is King and Prince James is the heir apparent so they are the leaders,â Thomas reminded her, amusement flickering in his eyes as she huffed a sigh. âWhile youâre stepping in Jamesâ role, you need to follow in his ways, not yours.âÂ
âWell Iâm not James,â she muttered, hating the constant comparison to the golden heir. She swore nothing she did would ever be sufficient in their eyes, and it wasnât because of James. It was because heâd been molded from a very young age to be the perfect ruler one day, whereas she was only trained up to a certain degree just enough to be able to step in if need be. She was never good enough, and would never be, not unless she had been the eldest.Â
âYou certainly are not.âÂ
The words echoed in Rosieâs mind as she left the room, refusing to look them in the eyes as Arthurt told her that her father would be calling in the morning to go over things with her. She headed up the stairwell hastily, heading to her quarters to change out of the clothing from the event and into something more comfortable. She debated staying in her room for the rest of the night, but the balcony across the hall from her room was calling her, almost incessantly.Â
The late evening air felt cool against Rosieâs flushed cheeks as she stepped out onto the private balcony, her arms wrapped around herself. The city lights glittered in the distance, their soft glow contrasting with the chaos still swirling in her mind. The conversation with the advisors played on a loop in her head, each word a reminder of how trapped she felt in the role she hadnât asked for.
She let out a long breath, resting her hands on the stone balustrade, staring out at the skyline as if it could offer her answers. The soft sound of footsteps behind her broke her thoughts, and she didnât need to turn around to know who it was.
âFor being on my security team, youâre not good at sneaking up on me,â she murmured. She felt her cheeks warm at the soft chuckle that escaped him as the door shut quietly, leaving them alone on the balcony.Â
His steps drew closer as he came to stand next to her, leaning as his arms rested on the railing. âIâm a pilot, weâre better at showing off,â he shrugged, and she could see the wry grin that spread across his face as she turned to look at him.Â
âSo Iâve noticed,â Rosie murmured, feeling some tension begin to leave her body at his company.Â
They fell silent for several moments, just staring out at the sky beyond them. It was comfortable, and far more peaceful than most of the evening had felt for her. Chris dropped his head staring out at the grounds below before turning to look at her and asked, âRough meeting?âÂ
âLetâs just say Iâve been thoroughly reminded of my place after giving a speech that I wrote myself rather than the one they fed me that only succeeds in making everyone feel like theyâre going to fall asleep,â she explained with only a small roll of her eyes. She paused, then waved her hand as she added, âAnd now Iâm pretty sure they think Iâm going to single-handedly bring down the monarchy with my âradicalâ ideas about being human.â
His eyebrows shot up, his jaw dropping. âRadical ideas like caring about people?â He repeated, incredulously and disbelievingly.Â
âExactly,â she agreed, relieved he saw the hypocrisy in their words. She shook her head, rhetorically asking, âCan you imagine? A royal showing emotion? Connecting with the people? Truly scandalous.â
He laughed, but while the sound had quickly become one of her favorites lately, it did nothing to distract her from the insecurity rising within her. At every turn, she was badgered for the tiniest of choices, no matter what she did. It felt like she could never win, and while Rosie had struggled with this for years, the true weight of this burden was starting to be too much for her to carry alone.Â
âItâs not just about the speech,â she told Chris, her voice quiet and quivering with the admission. âItâs everything. The way they look at me, the way they talk to me⌠itâs like Iâm not even a person to them. Just some symbol. A walking, talking portrait of the monarchy. But I canât do it anymore, Chris. I canât keep pretending to be someone Iâm not. No matter what I do, Iâm just a poor substitute for James.â
âYouâre not just the spare, Ro. Not to the people who really matter,â he told her earnestly, and while she knew that must be true, it didnât help when her entire world revolved around that simple fact.Â
She turned, looking helplessly into his deep blue eyes, searching for something to grasp onto within them. âThen why does it feel like thatâs all Iâll ever be? Like no matter what I do, itâll never be enough for them?â She asked him hopelessly.Â
âWho are they?â Chris quietly asked.
âThe palace. The institution. The ones who run every moment of my life.âÂ
âFuck them,â he told her quickly, causing her to sigh and roll her eyes. She felt, again, that no one could ever understand the struggle of being in this position, not unless they too were, but Chris rushed to explain, âNo, Iâm serious, fuck them and what they say Rosie. The speeches you normally give couldnât be more aloof and out of touch. They sound like every other canned thing that royals say that make all of us roll our eyes.âÂ
She was completely silent as she listened to him go on, âYou want to know why youâre so popular with average people, Rosie? Because you used to sound like us. You would give speeches that came from your heart and you meant the things you said. You were someone everyone felt like they could relate to, not some girl with a silver spoon in her mouth. People want who you are. They want your individuality. They want Rosie.âÂ
At that moment, it almost felt like someone was speaking a foreign language to her. Never in her life had Rosie ever heard someone say something even remotely similar to the words she just heard. In fact, she had just heard the opposite and had been hearing that same sentiment over the years. She couldnât even count the times she had been in a closed room, a small group of grey haired men telling her in detail all the ways she had gone wrong, misrepresented the royal family, and just all in all wasnât who they really wanted. She was too opinionated, showed too much emotion, wrote the wrong things, was too soft, she was just too⌠wrong.Â
She wasnât stupid and certainly was well aware of the headlines that celebrated the peopleâs princess. She knew there were crowds of people at the events she was at, the thousands of letters she received from the public each week, and how the popularity of the royal family had soared since she came into the public eye but that seemed to only make it worse. It felt like the more she made headlines and the more the public became fans of hers, the more criticism from the palace, and her father, she got.
And now, now when she had decided she was going to take back some of that control and actually say what she wanted to say, yet again she had been berated for it. She was reminded that she was a square peg in a round hole that just never seemed to fit. But right now, hearing from someone who had grown up as a normal person and chosen to dedicate his life to serving the country she represented, that people wanted her for almost more than her brain could process.Â
âBeing me is whatâs gotten me into trouble,â she admitted in a small, wavering voice.Â
âMaybe with some stuffy old guys who have been locked in that palace for a helluva long time, but trust me, thatâs not what everyone else thinks,â Chris challenged her.Â
âI just donât understand why the public can think one thing and literally everyone at the palace tells me the complete opposite," she was exhausted from the seemingly endless debate that had quite literally ruled most of her life.Â
âBecause theyâre wrong,â he said simply, his tone firm and unwavering. âYou donât need their approval to be enough. You already are. And that speech you gave today?â He shook his head slightly, a faint smile touching his lips. âIt was the best thing Iâve heard in years. You didnât just speakâyou connected. You reminded people why they care about the monarchy in the first place. Thatâs something no one else couldâve done.â
Rosie stared at him, his words sinking deeper than she wanted to admit. âYou really think that?â
âI know it,â he said, holding her gaze. âAnd I think you know it too.â
She exhaled shakily, the tension in her shoulders easing just a bit. âItâs just... exhausting, you know? Fighting them all the time, feeling like Iâm shouting into a void. Some days, I donât even know why I bother.â
Chrisâs expression softened even further, and for a moment, he hesitated, as if weighing his words carefully. Then he said, âYou bother because you care. Because you want to make a difference. Thatâs what makes you you, Rosie. Thatâs what people love you for.â
She bit her lower lip as she struggled, taking his words in earnestly. Feeling the weight of his gaze on her, she moved her eyes from the stone floor beneath their feet to meet his. âMaybe you should be the ones writing my speeches,â she suggested, only half-kidding.Â
The corners of his lips turned, first moving to a grin before they reached a smirk. âIâm too busy flying your plane and kicking your ass in tennis,â he reminded her.Â
Rosie felt the tension leave her body, knowing his earlier words were right. But this, this joking, playful banter was exactly what she needed, and she knew Chris knew it just as much as she. âI donât remember the latter being in your job description,â she murmured, shifting her weight between her feet as she snuck a glance onto the quiet grounds below. Â
âI threw that in for free,â he shot back, and her breath threatened to hitch at the hidden meaning beneath those words.Â
The one that seemed dangerous. Like she should lock it in a box and leave it in the middle of a lake, never to be touched for fear of ruining it. Of ruining him.Â
But her racing mind seemed to be of no concern to Chris, his tall frame moving to lean against the railing. He was silent, as if he was leaving her to her thoughts, in a way that was supportive even without words being spoken.Â
âThank you, Chris,â Rosie told him, the words practically trembling as they left her, her voice just barely loud enough for him to hear.Â
âFor what?â
Rosie paused, looking sideways at him, seeing his sweet, sincere expression, the one that would read as insincere on any other person in this building. Yet without hesitation, she knew just how honest it was. She was struck at how easy it was for him to be like this, to never waver from his morals. âFor being here. For making me feel likeâŚI matter.âÂ
âYou do matter, Rosie,â his brows furrowed as he whispered, face screwing up as though the idea, the mere implication of something otherwise disgusted him. As she nodded, feeling the warmth of comfort within those words cascade over her. He gave a pleased look at the shift in her expression, nodding to her as a wide, sideways grin appeared on his face. âAnd I donât want to see you let those men in grey take away the incredible moment you had today.âÂ
But suddenly, Rosie wasnât here on this balcony, the early spring chill sending goosebumps down her arms with the odd breeze. She was far younger, in her room, back where she first saw that smile.Â
Rosie was seventeen, her textbooks and notes scattered across the floor of her sitting room. The muffled hum of voices from the garden below barely registered as she worked through her history essay, her focus half-hearted at best. But then, a burst of laughter broke through the stillness, drawing her attention to the window.
Peering out, she saw James and his best friendâChris. They were jogging back toward the palace, drenched in sweat, their hair sticking to their foreheads as they grinned at each other. A soccer ball was tucked under Jamesâs arm, and Chrisâs jersey was slung over his shoulder, leaving his toned, sun-kissed arms and chest exposed.Â
She knew Chris had been coming around more oftenâJames had talked about him endlessly. His friend from school, the one who was training to join the Air Force, the one who always had Jamesâs back. Rosie had seen him in passing a handful of times, but this was the first time she really noticed him.
He was gorgeous. There was no other way to put it. With his strong jawline, easy smile, and natural confidence, Chris was... distracting and unlike anyone else sheâd seen before.
As they neared the side entrance of the palace, she heard James groan dramatically. âMate, you stink. Iâm serious. You need a shower before anyone lets you back in here.â
Chris laughed, shoving James lightly in the shoulder. âYouâre one to talk. Iâm pretty sure your royal sweat is worse than mine.â
Rosie couldnât help but smile at the easy banter between them, but her eyes stayed glued to Chris. He didnât look like anyone else in the palaceâhe was casual, unpolished, and radiated an effortless charm that contrasted so sharply with the buttoned-up world she lived in.
Before they disappeared inside, Chris glanced up at her window. For a second, their eyes met. She froze, unsure if he had actually noticed her or if it was just a coincidence.
And then, he smiled.
It wasnât flirtatious or self-assured, but kind and warm, as if to say, âHi, I see you.â
Her cheeks burned, and she ducked away from the window, her heart racing.
âOh my god,â she blurted, jaw dropping and eyes widening.Â
Chrisâ grin dropped, straightening up as he quickly glanced around, seemingly worried that something had happened, or perhaps someone had seen the two. âWhat?â He asked, repeating it again when she didnât answer quickly enough.Â
âI remember you,â Rosie told him, reaching her hand out to grasp his arm. He couldnât have remembered, it was the slightest - the smallest - interaction amongst the busiest times in their lives - with Chris in University and Rosie pulling double duty with school and Royal Duties. âWeâve met before!âÂ
But it was Rosieâs turn to be surprised as he laughed, his opposite hand moving to scratch the back of his head absentmindedly. âYeah a few times actually,â he informed her.Â
She was torn. Torn between the admission that he remembered meeting her several times, none of which she remembered, and wanting to laugh. She felt like an absolute idiot and an asshole for not remembering something like this, not remembering the laugh sheâd come to love hearing, the winks he shot her throughout the day, and just Chris. She wanted nothing more to apologize, feeling awful for not remembering something he so clearly did, but the laughter that escaped him, the unrestrained, uncontrollable, full-body laughter that escaped him, that he kept just quiet enough to not draw any attention to the balcony, kept her from letting the âYou are an idiot!â side from winning. Â
âYou remember meeting me?â She finally asked, her hand twitching with a want to slide up and hold his bicep. She quickly dropped it from his arm, putting it back on the railing as she leaned her hip against it.Â
Chris scoffed, as if the idea was preposterous. âOf course I do,â he replied.Â
Her brows furrowed and her head tilted to the side, studying his expression. He wasnât mad, that much was obvious to her. He wasnât upset. He wasnâtâŚ. Anything. And that was the issue, she couldnât read him, and if it was the years of training, the years and years he spent learning to push aside his emotions for duty - something she knew all too well - that gave him that ability, sheâd never be able to tell. âWhy didnât you say anything?â She finally asked, her voice soft as she anxiously picked a cuticle, knowing her manicurist would chastise her later for it.Â
A sheepish look appeared on Chrisâ face and he shrugged, but his voice was anything but embarrassed as he admitted, âWell with how many people you meet in a week, I didnât expect you to remember and I didnât want to make you feel bad.âÂ
Rosie nodded slowly, still wishing he had reminded her. For so long, she had resented the fact that he was another outsider, another person with no connection to her beyond James - like so many before.Â
But now? Now she felt like memories were coming back in waves, with ten more coming to the surface and settling in her mind to digest, just before a new set came crashing in. Chris and James watching movies at the upcountry estate, laughter echoing through the halls as Rosie practiced piano with her instructor. Chris spending the first night of school holidays in Jamesâ quarters before heading back home for the remainder. Rosie watching Jamesâ university soccer match, walking side by side with the exhausted Chris and James back to their dorm afterwards.
âIâm surprised you remember,â she whispered to him, knowing all those memories would have been locked away in her mind forever, stuck down endless corridors until someone - Chris - could have reminded her of them, could have given her the key to remembering, if he ever would be able to in that world.Â
But for as often as she had been surprised by herself and Chris today, there seemed to be one last one for the night. âItâs not everyday I meet someone like you,â he told her, and it was enough to feel as though the wind got knocked out of her. It was hidden behind the simplest of words. The most innocent, and yet, it meant more than she could have ever hoped and dreamed.Â
Chris simply smiled at Rosie before he bid her a goodnight, and she bit back the selfish protest that threatened to rise as he slipped through the door back inside, heading down the hallway. She couldnât help it. Couldnât help any of it. She had tried to fight it - fight all of this - for so long, and yet here she was. Completely and utterly in the palm of his hand. And worst of all?Â
She never would deserve something like Chris. She could never - not this kind, smart, man, who would likely run back to his Air Force role as soon as the plane touched back down and she returned to the capital of Ellington.Â
He was here for duty and a favor. She was here as an unwilling Royal, destined for a life of handshakes and kind, fake smiles while he had his head in the clouds.Â
With a sigh, Rosie pushed herself off the railing, heading back inside and down the hall to her quarters. The door shut soundly behind herself as she sighed again, running a frustrated hand through her blonde hair.Â
She was so stupid to let herself get so comfortable with Chris. What chance did she really have with him? The thoughts raced through her mind as she tied her hair back, washing her face clear of the usual makeup sheâd had applied for the event earlier that night.Â
Only this time, one pushed to the forefront of her mind. He was there. He had, as she just remembered, always been there. No matter where she ran into him over the years, she couldnât help but realize that his smile, while virtually ever-present, had changed. It had grownâŚ. Softer. More comfortable and more relaxed as the tour had progressed, even when compared to what she remembered from years ago.Â
She wasnât the only one that had changed during this tour. And she wanted to kick herself for only just now realizing this.Â
With a decisive look in the mirror, Rosie slipped a jacket over her shoulders and her shoes back onto her feet, she headed back out of the door. Letting her feet carry her, she moved quickly through the otherwise quiet estate, ignoring the few guards she saw relaxing and enjoying the quiet evening.Â
She turned the corner, counting the doors until she reached her final destination. With a bite of her lower lip, her hand hesitated momentarily, before quickly rapping on the door.Â
She could hear movement from within the room, knowing that her intrusion was unexpected. Footsteps shuffled closer, before the handle clicked and the door swung open.Â
âRosie?â Chris asked, his hand moving to pass through his rumpled brown hair. She gave him a sheepish look, enjoying the sight of him in his sweatpants and wrinkled tee - for once, he looked comfortable in this big estate. âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âWhat makes you think something is going on?â Rosie bit back, a smirk on her lips.Â
âBecause youâre standing outside my door in the middle of the night looking like youâre up to no good,â Chris replied easily, but the soft look in his eyes matched the grin on his face.Â
Rosie leaned against the door, shrugging slightly as her hands fiddled with the worn hem of her baggy sweatshirt. âI just wanted to see if you wanted to go get ice cream?â She asked, her voice hopeful, almost afraid of his rejection.Â
He rolled his eyes, shaking his head at her as he sarcastically said, âWhat? You need an escort to go to the kitchen now?âÂ
âIâm not going to the kitchen, I want to go downtown. Iâm sneaking out,â she informed him, dropping her hands from the hem of her sweatshirt as she stood up straighter. âAre you in?âÂ
She saw the curiosity peak in his eyes - the flash of desire to jump in headfirst with her. But he couldnât let her win too quickly. âSneaking out with the princess? I could lose my job for that, ya know?â He told her with an overexaggerated sigh.Â
Rosie couldnât help but play along in this little game they had. She couldnât tell you when it started, when it took off, but she was grasping onto it tightly with both hands, trying to keep it close. âThen Iâll just make sure you get hired back,â she retorted with a wink.Â
Chrisâ eyes narrowed at her and they were both quiet for a few beats. âWhat kind of ice cream are we talking about, here?â He finally asked her with another sigh, leaning his shoulder against the door.Â
Her eyebrow arched sharply, mulling over what may be the thing to tip him onto her side. âIâll buy you whatever kind you want,â she offered, even though it was already her plan.Â
âWell I guess I canât refuse that,â he sighed after a moment, shaking his head with a soft grin. He looked into her eyes, raised a single brow at her and asked, âSo how are you planning on getting out of here without getting tailed by your security?âÂ
âI have a planâŚâ she said, nodding her head to the window behind him.Â
âYouâre kidding,â he began with a sharp intake of breath, grabbing her arm when she made a move to walk into the room. His voice dropped lower, almost as if he was worried someone may hear them, âRo, this is the third floor.â
She tried to shrug him off, but couldnât help the way goosebumps peppered her skin at his touch. âThereâs a trellis, itâll be easy to just climb down,â she reminded him, nodding her head as if to reassure him.Â
âAbsolutely not.â
Rosie leveled him with a look, her head tilted. âCâmon, itâs nothing I havenât done before,â she shot back, knowingÂ
âI wholeheartedly believe that,â he told her, his voice still low but without a trace of disbelief. His hand didnât move off her hand, if anything, his grip tightened, causing her heart to race. âBut Iâm still not about to have you break your neck for ice cream.âÂ
With a deep sigh, she looked up at him through her eyelashes. âYou got a better plan?â She asked.
It was his turn to roll his eyes as he pushed himself off the door, his hand dropping as he moved to get his shoes. âJust about anything I come up with will be better than that,â he told her, tossing the words over his shoulder as he slipped his feet into the sneakers haphazardly.Â
âThen lead the way, Captain,â she smirked.Â
She followed him through the estate, through the back corridors and stairwells sheâd yet to venture down but he seemed to know like the back of his hand. They had just reached the final hallway when his hand darted backwards towards her, stopping her in her tracks without a word as footsteps drew closer and closer, until the click of a door echoed through the otherwise quiet house. Quickly, they darted out without a second glance, not making a sound until they slipped out of the front gate and made their way towards the nearby town square.Â
Rosie gave into the temptation to sneak a glance at him, wanting nothing more than to see the sideways, boyish grin on his moonlit face as he laughed. But she hadnât expected to see his eyes trailed on her as they moved farther from the estate and closer to reality.Â
The butterflies stayed in her stomach as they reached an ice cream store, drawing her sleeves over her hand as they quickly ordered, paid, and left, strolling the empty streets lazily. Neither of them seemed to want to go back. Neither rushed, neither turned the other back towards the tree-lined street to head back home.Â
They talked - about what? She couldnât tell you. Everything under the sun, it seemed. But based on Chrisâ expressions, his laughter, and the way his eyes crinkled when he grinned, she knew it wasnât just her having a good time. When he grabbed her napkins, tossing them in the trash along with his own, she found herself disappointed as they turned onto the tree-lined street. Tonight, this adventure, it felt like medicine to her. Sheâd been craving something, some anonymity, some normalcy. And slipping out, walking side by side with Chris as they laughed, and not having anyone bat an eye at them in town was therapeutic.Â
She wasnât even disappointed when they made it back. If anything, she felt revitalized, refreshed, and eager for more. Being with him felt almost natural, effortless. The two of them, together, moving through the night as if it was meant to be. They snuck back in, retracing their steps without a second thought. As she followed him through the halls, she inhaled deeply, feeling the warmth as their hands brushed.
Rosie felt it coming.
Maybe not tonight, maybe not right now, but at some point, this was always going to happen. Â
Chris had become⌠something to her. Someone. Someone steady, someone who didnât treat her like she was fragile or untouchable. Someone who teased her and laughed with her, who felt like she was real and had actual feelings. Someone who had, without her realizing it, become the person she wanted to turn to when things felt heavy. Â
And right now, walking beside him through the quiet palace halls, she felt it more than ever. Â
Theyâd been flirting for weeks, little things, small moments. A look held too long, a teasing remark with too much weight behind it, the walks heâd join her on or tennis matches he jumped practically headfirst into. But more than that, they had just become close somewhere along the way, Chris had become someone who made her feel normal. And not just normal, enjoyed. Â
He liked her, and not because he was supposed to, not because she was a princess. He just liked her.
And she was crazy about him. Â
It was why her heart was racing now, why she felt warm all over as they slowed in front of her door, standing just close enough that their arms brushed. Â
âWell, Rosie,â Chris said, hands in his pockets, that lazy grin tugging at his lips. âGotta say, breaking palace protocol for ice cream wasnât exactly in my job description, but I think Iâll let it slide.â Â
Rosie smirked, tilting her chin up, âYou had fun.â Â
âI didnât say I didnât,â he murmured, his voice quieter now. Â
The air shifted, the teasing fading into something softer. More charged. Â
She glanced up at him, heart hammering. He was watching her, that sharp blue gaze flickering over her face like he was committing every detail to memory. The way he looked at her, it made her feel like the most fascinating thing in the world. Â
Chris liked her. And maybe, just maybe, he was just as crazy about her as she was about him. Â
Her fingers brushed his forearm, and she felt his muscles tense under her touch. Â
âChris,â she said, barely more than a whisper. Â
That was all it took. Â
In an instant, his hand was on her waist, pulling her toward him, his other hand sliding up to cup her face, calloused fingers grazing her cheek. Her breath caught, anticipation curling in her stomach and then his lips were on hers. Â
It wasnât hesitant. It wasnât careful. It was everything she had been waiting for, everything she had felt coming, everything that had been building between them. Â
Chris kissed her like he had been holding back, like the floodgates had finally broken. And Rosie melted into him, her hands gripping his shirt, pulling him closer because close wasnât close enough. Â
She could feel his heart pounding, could hear the sharp breath he took through his nose before he tilted his head, deepening the kiss. He tasted like vanilla and something warm, something that made her dizzy. Â
And it felt so good. Â
When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against hers, their breaths mingling in the space between them. Â
âHell,â Chris muttered, his voice rough. âWe shouldnât have done that.â Â
Rosie swallowed, trying to catch her breath, trying to think through the haze of him, âWhy not?â Â
He let out a breathless chuckle, shaking his head slightly. She expected something about duty or royal protocol to come out of his mouth but it surprised her to the core when he just smirked and stated, âBecause youâre trouble.â Â
A slow, knowing smile pulled at her lips, âAnd yet, here you are.â Â
Chris exhaled sharply, his hands still lingering on her. But then, finally, he let go, stepping back just slightly, enough to make her ache for him again. Â
âGo inside, Ro,â he murmured, almost more to himself than her.Â
She hesitated. Just for a second. Â
But then she nodded, reaching for the doorknob. Before stepping inside, she looked back at him, her voice softer now. âGoodnight, Chris.â Â
His lips twitched at the edges, something unreadable in his gaze. âGoodnight, Rosie.â Â
And as she shut the door behind her, leaning against it, she closed her eyes and pressed her fingers to her lips, a breathless smile curling at the edges. Â
Yeah. Â
She was completely, hopelessly gone for him.
A/N: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR YOUR PATIENCE! We cannot begin to tell you how much we appreciate it. There has been so much going on and while our brains never stopped thinking of Rosie (seriously, đŻ listens to the playlist we've made for her nearly daily), we needed time to get this behemoth of a chapter out into the world. We hope it was worth the wait and cannot wait to hear all of your thoughts!














