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kaerou — heavily canon divergent ritsuka fujimaru from fate grand order , written by noel .

rules / ritsuka's info

18 + only please , please don't be weird otherwise i will block you immediately .

dark themes will be tagged ( as tw ____ for reference , if you need it tagged a different way please let me know ) . this blog will have frequent mentions of mental illness , suicidal ideation , gore , and any other dark themes that appear in the fate franchise ; if you need anything else to be tagged please let me know . don't stick around if you can't handle the topics well , i won't take it personally and would rather you focus on your mental wellbeing .

on a very , very crucial note : ritsuka's mental health is very integral in my portrayal of her . i don't take her cptsd or her suicidal thoughts lightly . i mean it bluntly when i say she's hanging on by a thread . when i say she is upset / angry it is NOT and will NEVER BE from a verbally / physically abusive standpoint . nor manipulative . she is constantly stressed out and paranoid , that's it . when she is triggered , she just wants to get out of the situation THAT'S IT . i will make a general post hightlighting important parts of her mental state otherwise for your / your muse's awareness , i will no longer post my headcanons surrounding her headspace publicly on this blog . if you have questions , feel free to dm me ! i've just had a bad experience in the past and would like to avoid it . she is not miserable all the time : in the past , as well as the present , and in the future — i will always do my best to balance out to give her happiness too .

mutuals only , private and non - affiliated . ermm .. i follow first ? basically ? yea h

i have the right to block freely , as do you . if there is a genuine issue between us as mutuals i am open to talk . however if we've only been mutuals for less than a month or so and i've suddenly dipped , the likelihood that i found myself not meshing well to your preferences in writing / ooc wise is higher than anything else . please don't take it personally . most times i hardblock to avoid the awkwardness of an accidental refollow . i'm just here to write and vibe with people i flow smoothly with , i'm not very sorry if i sound like an asshole this way .

please don't plagiarize my portrayal of my ritsuka . i don't take that lightly as i put a lot of thoughtfulness in headcanons and metas , it's an insult on me and you . i've severely swerved from canon on her concept so i will tell .

semi active , i work a lot . my pacing is off but i love to write , sometimes i'm easier to reach ooc .

cross over friendly , i will list any au info as i make them but im just :snail: a slowpoke . again , might just be easier to reach me ooc and see what i have for this and that .

noel / eden ; 21+ ; they/he/it ; i'm a lil guy ...

blogroll : @kaerou ( you are here ) , @1amsong ( multi-fandom multimuse ) , @infatuua ( pjm oc ) , @unattainedstar ( limbus company faust , highly inactive atm ) , @fiendcrown ( arknights multimuse )

banner credit : heh-kun on pixiv

#do not reblog .

@tenkoseiensei // 'now what' drills her wit kisses

" hey - " smooch . " —- yan qing - " smooch , smooch . " d'ya need some lipstick while you're at it - "

#tenkoseiensei #** // ic.#'now what' n the now what is they can do what they want Forevers #in the meantime she will jsut pucker up n kiss her shinshin back

i still relevant ?

#** // ic.#fgo ended now What.#maybe i can actually catch up with the story.....#no srsly tho is there hope for my ritsu---

homeport

" Of course I looked good, I always look good. " You're still allowed to keep praising him, though, his ego can still grow more powerful. " With your baby face? No way. But sometimes you have to choose function over looks. "

kaerou

" shucks . that ain't fair , mr . good looking . " alright alright , that'll be the last compliment she drops though . " but .. hrg ... if i look silly , i can't bear it ! err , beauty is suffering right ? i'll just stick with my hair as it is ... "

#homeport // takasugi shinsaku .#** // ic.

soulgathered-moved

"oh those do exist ! some of the elite families hire them because they cannot be bothered to interact with mundane people." mages are weird ritsu, don't be like them!

kaerou

" oh , you aren't kidding , huh .. somehow i'm not surprised . " mages are weird indeed , but isn't she weird in her own way too ? " if it's elite families , at least they get a good tip right ? hopefully . it'd suck if they suddenly decided to be stingy . "

#soulgathered // solomon .#** // ic.#i agree. to the pear wiggler with them!!!!!!!!!!!

homeport

" I recommend shaving it. " He did that before. For different reasons, but it definitively saves you from all bad hair days.

kaerou

" hm ... " hey wait , is she actually thinking about it ?

" but i bet you looked good with it , though ! do y'think i'd rock a shaved head around here ? " you have to be honest , shinsaku !

#homeport // takasugi shinsaku .#** // ic.#hai keks !!!!

soulgathered-moved

"sit down, I'll cast it and then teach you how to undo it. seems we have similar hair so it shouldn't be a problem~ !"

kaerou

" mm'kay ... ~ " and so she sits . " i wonder how a magus hair stylist would do in this day 'n age ... "

#soulgathered // solomon .#** // ic.#'we have similar hair' ritsu vc haha .. yeah that we do <3 what a coincidence <3 #akfjerjfvefrgvsenrgj

@pretty-little-teacup // Cannot offer that… But she has scrunchies!!

" awh shucks , thanks tea ~ . y'got a lotta pretty colors there too ... "

#** // ic.#pretty little teacup #ritsu vc lets go wit hazmat orange. how does it make me look

could anyone lend her the short hair spell . her hair is also .. insufferably fluffy ( but not as long .. ! )

#** // ic.#** // dash commentary.#ritsu vc unless thats code word for lopping ur hair off then nvm.... i like my hair :c #hey guys. hoogh

3erserk-deactivated20250924

yes. annoying.

kaerou

but ! he still comes back for more . what does that say about him , huuuh ?

#e1m6t3 // kadoc .#** // ic.#my tsundere senpai tht adores me.. aaaa ... its okay senpai i understand (she gets mauled

^ ritsuka ; annoying .

#** // dash commentary.#e1m6t3 // kadoc .#here comes trouble!!! make it double!!!(my laptop dies)

dnangelic

' you don't want me to ? ' his head tilts at her clutch , just a little . ' i was going to keep them safe until one of us could hand things over properly . ' even if it ended up being months . years . even while thinking of the future , the feelings of the master's heart were still important in the present-turning-past , weren't they ?

' ... well , it's not as if there's any hurry , or even necessity for things to fall into my hands . i'll respect your choice , so do as you like , master . '

kaerou

" that's not ... " the case ? well , she bites her tongue . that was the case , staring between her clutched letters and dark's lingering gaze . it always felt like her guts and feelings were exposed out in the open , but the letters were of nearly every instance of thoughts and words she could not utter aloud .

ritsuka wants to trust him with something like that . she wants to think it'd be as easy as her handing the letters , and watch as he'd tuck them away securely , much like a time capsule . but would it ever resurface ? for either life , to be able to hand over those letters ...

do as you like , he says — and so , ritsuka does . reaching her hands out more with the delicately enclosed words and entrusts him entirely with it .