kai-lee08

inactive.

[kai-leeeee]

I'm just here to tell my side of the story of what I know and I have no reasons to lie. Obviously I know that none of my behavior was excusable and the ones who are ogs and used to follow me when I had my kailee account know how bad I was mentally. Feel free to ask as many questions as you'd like!💗

I will be answering questions until a certain point and then I'll deactivate the ask button, but until then say wtvr !

[kai-leeeee]

Aint it past your bedtime? Since we acting like a kindergardener u may as well get the package whole

Nope, bright as day outside, actually.

[kai-leeeee]

Well dude if what youre saying is true then you've been an ass-dick on a stick

So whatya doing here besides complainen, ey?

I know I have been and like I just said, I'm just letting people know I'm the problem of the story and just give an idea how bad I hurt everyone n would stop asking "how bad did you have to hurt them?"

[kai-leeeee]

Yeah youre telling a lot alright

All about your mistakes and no changes

No apologies

Just rants and 'your version'

No one asked for it

U hurt enough people on here that hundreds of users follow

Either apologize or just leave it be dude

Okay.

[kai-leeeee]

If it don't matter why u continuing to say u not like that, hm?

Prove it.

Idk how to prove it, again, you don't have to believe me on what I say and you can make up any assumptions about me that you want too, but what IM saying Is I'm telling the truth and ik who I am. If I can't make you believe me then why waste my time when you'll always see me as a shitty person anyways? Either believe what I say and listen, or don't. Simple as that. It's your choice.

[kai-leeeee]

So instead of trying and at least giving them some sorta apology directly you out here posting shit about mistake and ownin them? That's not ownin them. It's evading. Go touch some grass, eat some and then get ur tits/balls togetha and make an official apology and what ya did without being like "boohoo, so sowwy, I wasntt well"

Okay.

I'm here to let ppl know who dont know shit know what happened with more details. I want you guys to know a little bit of what really happened.

[kai-leeeee]

I wish Nat would spill the tea

Cause what youre saying aint making no damn sense

Ya say ya wanna tell da truth? Then tell it and stop suger-coating it lady

You don't know the story for one and for two I am telling the truth. You're not forced to believe me.

[kai-leeeee]

Um...yeah...delulu definitely

Whaddya mean 'probably'? 'Not so bad'?

I've met sociopaths with more empaty then you

Well you don't know me irl, so you can form wtvr opinion you want on me, idm. Call me wtvr names you want. It was poor choice in words. I definitely hurt Niki badly, without a doubt.

[kai-leeeee]

Maybe own up to them? Not some random users or past followrs? To them directlly?

Hm see I was going to, I've already thought of that but i already un friended most of them and I'm not sure if some of them would even want to hear anything from me since it's already been so many months since it happened.

[kai-leeeee]

I did lie a ton to her, rude to her occasionally due to personal problems and broke many promises and there's most likely a lot more that I did like use insecurity against her or lash out on her a few times (it wasn't extremely bad but still enough to where it probably hurt her) I led her on after the break up bc I fell out of love and because she has a big heart she still had strong feelings for me n Id say shit i didn't realize made her think I still had feelings for her again even though I didn't until she brought it up n I apologized to her about it and some other stuff I can't really think about rn.

Not so bad? Probably??

Dude, bruv, chicken, r u delulu?

I mean, from what you've read, what do you think ?

[kai-leeeee]

No one hates on niki cause of u bruv💀and if they do, that's ur fault

People 'should' hate u? Where u living? Soap opera? Orphanage of self-pity? Bruv, ure not the victim, stop playing

I'm not playing the victim. And even if she doesn't get hate because of me specifically she still does look on her page. There's rude anons in her inbox rather it's from me or not. Ik it's my fault, Ive said it multiple times that it is and people should hate me because of what I did to all of them. There's no self pity or playing victim, I'm just now trying to own up to what I did to them.

[kai-leeeee]

Didnt ya have a girlfriend? Where she at? Whaddya do to her?

Niki, she's still on Tumblr and posting you can freely go check her here on atinyniki and I did a lot to her. I'm not going to go in too much detail bc idk how much Niki is comfortable with me saying but it was a bit toxic on both sides while we got in the relationship just from possessiveness and etc. but mainly from me I believe. I did lie a ton to her, rude to her occasionally due to personal problems and broke many promises and there's most likely a lot more that I did like use insecurity against her or lash out on her a few times (it wasn't extremely bad but still enough to where it probably hurt her) I led her on after the break up bc I fell out of love and because she has a big heart she still had strong feelings for me n Id say shit i didn't realize made her think I still had feelings for her again even though I didn't until she brought it up n I apologized to her about it and some other stuff I can't really think about rn.

[kai-leeeee]

'True, but like yk how some people just seem to have no self awareness when around people/ in public or talking or just their actions in general until you say something about it and they genuinely didn't know they did what they did?'

Na bro, I dont

'Yeah, except I never kept my promise on being a better person and I wouldn't do it again etc and I kept doing it. That's the only way I can honestly explain it.'

So ure worse?

That's fine if you don't. And no, I'm not worse. I'm just saying at the time when it was happening and we were all still friends I wasn't a great person nor friend. I wouldn't be doing this if I was doing worse or still how I was before bc there wouldn't be a point In coming back just to explain why ppl should give me hate instead of Niki and the others. I'm not proud of what I did which is why I'm looking into therapy as of rn.

[kai-leeeee]

U're saying you used their insecurities aganst them the wole friendship? Is taht supposed to make it better?

Not at all. But, in the beginning before I got to know them on a more personal level it was all fine. It was little by little throughout and then just got way worse not too long before I just stopped talking to everybody. Wasn't intentional but I did do it.

[kai-leeeee]

Wdym you weren't self-aware at the time? It's not an ability or something that just leaves and comes back like u on tumblr💀

True, but like yk how some people just seem to have no self awareness when around people/ in public or talking or just their actions in general until you say something about it and they genuinely didn't know they did what they did? Yeah, except I never kept my promise on being a better person and I wouldn't do it again etc and I kept doing it. That's the only way I can honestly explain it.

It's a shitty explanation n excuse ik but that's the truth.

[kai-leeeee]

You can't tell me that NAT, the sweetest soul out there, who's always helping and always there to talk, just decided "no, that's it" because you ignored her. The hell did you do to make her only speak so vaguely of you and not daring to go into details? Like how badly did you fuck her up?

Ofc not, she's one of the most kindest souls I've met, she's given me many chances though to continue to prove myself to her and I kept breaking promise after promise and lying to her about the dumbest shit. Like, the last time she told me about an issue in our friendship I promised her I wouldn't do it again and how I'd tell her if I didnt want to be friends anymore and all this endearing stuff and I still didn't do that, breaking my promise and then I wouldn't say ignored her on purpose but i did ignore her and didnt really talk to her much after that if I remember correctly. That was like, idek, maybe the 5 or 6th time she's forgiven me and gave me another chance to prove myself? Maybe more? I knew what her ex's did and other people from the past and like she said, I still did the same thing to her just in lesser forms of it. That should give you an idea of how bad it was.

[kai-leeeee]

Not you still making Nat seem like some casualty by writing everyone's name with the first letter capitalized and then hers all small and tiny.

Also, why not just say you need therapy and a break? Why break everything apart and use their insecurities against them and then disappear? And now you're sorry? Should have thought about that before you pulled that shit, like chill bro. We're not in kindergarden here, we all can speak up and should, instead of just breaking something and then disappearing💀💀

Tbh I didn't realize until now bc usually their names audocorrect to capitalize since I've always done that and I didn't really re read it I just published it without re reading but I'll fix that. I really wasn't trying to do anything like that on purpose and especially not to Nat. Because I couldn't get therapy at the time and again, I was in an awful depression episode on and off continuously to the point where I didn't want to talk to anyone or do anything at all. And it wasn't like I quickly used their weaknesses against them right before disappearing, it was throughout the friendship it just got worse right before I stopped talking to everyone almost completely again from mental issues. You're right, but again like I said, I was a coward and I didn't know how to speak up about it or bring it up or talk about it. I know I should have now but at the time I just thought if I just didn't do anything about it they'd forget about me and I didn't have to confront them which is a pussy and dick head move to do. I know my mistakes now. Anyone has the right to be angry or mad, etc at me because I truly was acting on pure stupidity and immaturity.