Retrouvailles

Hi I'm Kendall. Nursing. SCVC '15, INFINITY '16.

[kushandwizdom]

I spent a year falling back in love with myself and unintentionally stumbled across a soul who showered me in a love I’ve never experienced before. Beforehand, it was evident that I made a habit out of undermining my value and this was reflected by the decisions I made and the environments I lingered in.

However, once I acknowledged myself, and realised I was deserving of great things, my change of thought ALONE encouraged the universe to unveil beauty into my life and gift me with things I could only truly appreciate once I knew my worth.

- Meggan Roxanne

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

I wanted to read you a million quotes to tell you how I feel but instead I got you this shitty poem

I keep trying to find the right sentence to tell you how I feel

And by sentence, I mean prison sentence

And by prison I mean how long can I look into your eyes before they have to lock me up

And by lock me up I mean please for the love of god kiss me until my name becomes yours

It must be illegal to be near you all night and still want to step inside you in the daylight

I’m no good at transitions or change or losing control but I might just let go of every plan I’ve ever made that didn’t have your name in red marker written across it as the copilot

I don’t know how many times I can tell you I want you without actually saying that my hands have only ever waited for yours

Without actually saying that I think my heart stopped while you were away

And I’ve been living off of a single breath trapped inside me because my lungs decided the air was polluted without you

I don’t remember the last time I believed in god but I’ve spent more than my fair share of time on my knees thanking him for you

I’m not saying that you make me whole or complete me because I was already whole

What I’m saying is that you fit perfectly between my ribs and you can live there forever if it’s comfortable

But mostly what I’m saying is thanks for coming back

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

To my oversized, not-so-broken heart

Maybe I was hoping that your heart was on your sleeve and I could waltz into it like it was a cold pool on a hot summer day

Maybe I was praying that your arms would still be mine to lie in through all of the growing pains

Or maybe you were in the right place at the right time and my heart shot a laser beam focus on your eyes

Your eyes, my god your eyes

They say eyes are the windows to the soul I never knew what that meant until yours bloomed around me and I was inside of you

I didn’t like sweet tea until I met you all of a sudden my insides needed to be coated in sugar to make up for the parts of me that were full of mold

I would drink a gallon a day if it meant your voice was my wake up call

If I got to pick my alarm clock your hands would be my top choice

All my burning body wants to do is engulf yours so that we can put our heads together and try to figure out how stop the flames

Every time the ocean took you out and made something new from the sand, it did an even better job

I know these are just words and there are a million more I could say to try to make you understand but I will settle with:

My frequently broken heart has never left it’s gaze on anyone as long as it has for your heart and I’m not sure if that’s a testament to it’s strength or it’s weakness but good lord if I had to have one weakness, I’m glad it was you

[sandandglass]

Chelsea Peretti: One Of The Greats

[queeringfeministreality]

that was not where I was expecting it to go AND I LOVED IT

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

Welcome to tomorrow

Welcome to two fists pounding at your door

You don't have to let them inside but the door is already open anyway

The door leads to a stairwell that leads to another door

And the fists are banging and we are all trying to hide

But the truth is that the fists are not me, they are not words, they are not fists

Welcome to a history lesson

The fists cannot teach you about the curves in your bones

They cannot teach you how to count the number of times it takes to know who you are

You can try to make them, try to force them to conduct a new story for your life

But they are just fists that are not even fists

So you can knock them to the ground again, tell them they are only made up

Or you can intertwine your fingers with theirs.

The first step is always to let the fists in, get to know them

Learn about the bruised knuckles, the cracked bones

And when they leave, don't be afraid if they come knocking on your brand new door

The door will not break, and neither will you.

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

To the boy on the other side of the tracks

I think my hair is falling out

I think I am touching my face too often, everyone knows now

I think that my skin is going to fall off in pieces

I think that my bones are going to break soon, just you wait

I have never been afraid of mirrors

I have never been afraid to cover my face until it's not me anymore looking back

But man, I look at you and it's like I'm staring into myself

Man, I look at you and it's the reflection I've hidden for years

Why don't you come lie down on my bed and we'll pretend there are no mirrors

By lie on my bed I mean lie to me

I mean tell me that you love the line of my spine more than you love the ocean

Hey, I'll believe you

We can pretend that we aren't staring at each other and seeing the truth

We can pretend that when we are touching each other there isn't a space between us

I'm really good at pretending

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

Someone help I want to march my age out for drum corps

[opwronghole-deactivated201103]

[aw0ik]

This is someone dying while having an MRI scan. Before you die, your brain releases tons and tons of endorphins that make you feel a range of emotions. Tragically beautiful.

i reblog this everytime.

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

THIS IS THE WALKING DEAD GODDAMN

[glassgirls]

when ur mental health is shit and ur room turns into a McFucking Mess

[jhameia]

this feels like a personal attack

[poehlermeyers]

[chessys]

i hate when people call certain dog breeds ugly like dogs dont even have a concept of beauty they only understand love and loyalty how could u project the worst of humanity onto something so pure

[theliteraryjournals]

I wanted to be where nobody I knew could ever come.

Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via theliteraryjournals)

[thequotejournals]

It is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath. (via thequotejournals)

[quotemadness]

Go out and do something. It isn’t your room that’s a prison, it’s yourself.

Sylvia Plath (via quotemadness)

[slavery]

this is my fav video

[gaytorade-gal-deactivated202110]

@kaleidoscope–hearts I feel you would appreciate this. Idk why though

[kaleidoscope--hearts]

It's like lil dicky I love it

[michellepsychologist]

[If anyone knows the artist let me know so I can give credit]

[1hat3u]

hopeless romantic with trust issues and a sex drive out the roof

[starting-to-feel-just-right]

I’ve never seen anything so accurate though