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I’m don’t like being awake this late with nothing to do cause I start to remember a lot of unnecessary stuff about life

Like i remember when I was like in 3rd grade and my mom kicked my dad out of the house and me and all 7 of my siblings had to get counsellors like holy shit that messed me...

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Went to electric christmas last night with ruby, it was so good!! went because ytg (obviously) but then I realized that the other bands we're good too

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I loved today I saw syd and we went out :))))

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As soon as I got into my car today I really did think for a second that I was the luckiest person ever to have this cute little random leaf blow directly onto the window so perfectly but I was wrong it was a sign

On my way to work I drove through very deep rain puddles and I guess the car couldn’t take it so the engine was really wet and like died on me, in the middle of roseville in a very busy street at the busiest hour of the day and it was pouring rain

I was terrified tbh I panicked and started crying, thankfully I was saved by the nicest random guys that helped me push my car to a safer part of the road and I wanted to give them Money or something but I didn’t have any cash, I hope that good karma gets them and their families

anyway I was late to work but i’m home now, very tired but very very very thankful that it wasn’t worse

I’m so scared to drive again though..

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Can I just say that I appreciate all the things that have happened to me this year, the good and the bad. I just wish I felt better, I should be happy but I'm not

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Happy thanksgiving, the fam is here from la, I am content Can I stay this way forever

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I saw him and my heart seriously stopped for a whole 3 seconds I saw him After a whole 3 years you still had a small effect like why and how dare u I hate you

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Finally got the keys to Pablo car last night

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had breakfast and went shopping with my bff today

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I finally hung out with my best friend today + I finally got more film too!!

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For the first time since I started I hated work today. Like seriously I was on the verge of tears and tried my best to hold them in, it was incredibly busy and I was completely alone. I think what really pissed me off were the snotty ass servers fuck man they are so demanding and I wanted to punch someone seriously today was so stressful. Augh, on top of that I cut my hand 3 times and all cuts are really deep and on the same hand so I can barely move it it hurts so bad.

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pablo said I finally the car to myself on Tuesday, thank you thank you thank you I'm so grateful. I just hope I find whatever it is that makes me feel alive again. like I wanna feel happy again.

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I've caught him staring at me a couple of times I know it's not just me I cannot be imagining these thing.

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with work and all of the things that have been keeping me busy, I feel good again. I feel busy and productive and I finally feel like I'm beginning to change my attitude a little bit, I've been working on my positive thinking and stuff. work is hard but I like it, makes me feel like I'm doing something and augghhh can't wait to get paid. Also I hope that one of the many cute boys at work thinks I'm cool or something because if I turn 19 and I am still boyfriendless I will die, pretty much. wish me luck

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sooooooo I had orientation at bjs this morning, I got my schedule for the upcoming week and I work Sunday thru Thursday which I’m soooo happy about

augh family problems seem to get worse and worse every day.

I can’t wait to start work and not have to be at home every single day

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Also…. I deleted my ig