horse with no name

twenty-four | he/him | vent blog/diary heavy tw. death, grief. MDNI.

[kastenosis]

the taste of weed pen metal in the evening

[kastenosis]

i hate hospitals

[boy-moans]

you're getting hard ? that's sooo cool can you take your pants off so i can see it twitch ?

[kastenosis]

it’s insane how a day after my t shot i am so horny that it’s like i’ve never jerked off in my life

[kastenosis]

was just terrified i forgot his christmas song, finally remembered it. lord

[2-gay-2-furious]

[dogheadedsaint]

[kastenosis]

done feeling sorry for myself, my energy is mine to transform

[kastenosis]

two months on t again after like, a year break. i can already see the hairs on my face growing in🥳

[kastenosis]

my aunt thinks one of my youngest cousins might be trans and she wants to talk to me about my experience and how it might relate to them. my whole heart is bursting bc i so wished i could have had an older transgender person in my life, in my family, to have as a role model. and to maybe be that for them is so incredible, even if they aren’t trans and just are experimenting with expression. queer joy and representation is so necessary.

[maliusaidh]

[kastenosis]

word so funky microsoft word says it’s Wrong

[kastenosis]

yesterday i sat at my altar for the first time in. months and just talked to him. idk what i even said it didn’t matter. it was the first time i wasn’t scared to say hello, like it was going to leave me drained, it was so uplifting. like he was there sitting right in front of me.

when i’m so closed off it feels like my whole head is underwater, or like i’m asleep. i’m just so grateful for a little glimmer of smthn else, that hasn’t happened in a bit.

[kastenosis]

i think a little bit of spiritual psychosis is good for the soul

[kastenosis]

unrelated but i need to dip myself in cortisone like achilles

[kastenosis]

third eye is really open today

[djbodyhorror]

if i die horrifically promise you'll put images of my corpse on your edgy blog