unapologetically me

Hello Everyone! I really stink at making introductions in a personal setting. I am a graduate of Grand Valley State in the conservative stronghold of West Michigan. I am currently serving a year of service with the AmeriCorps program at Goodwill. I have two cats Marco and Tate. I am happily in a relationship for just over PJ. I also happen to be an FTM with transitioning the better half of 6 years. I am on testosterone for the past 3 years and scheduling chest surgery shortly.  

[kaydenrobinson]

Dear Gave It All Away, 

You’re 15 and you consistently think about “when your life starts.” What if I told you that your life right now is something that will shape you forever? 

What if I told you that these feelings you have right now to have experiences before you get behind should not run your life. High school is just that high school. It’s not the best time in your life. To be completely honest, 10 years later. It didn’t make the top 25. You are racing for things to happen and when instead it should be memories. Pro Tip- Don’t kiss her. Just say away from girls- they are a mess. These things should be memories to fall back on not moments to grimace at now. 

In about 6 years you’ll meet a nice girl. You’re going to think “why is this girl nice to me?” and you’re going to straight think you don’t deserve it. You’ll do everything you can to sabotage it.  For some reason- she stays. You marry her. It’s not that we are anything but, two people who care about each other. Because thats really what it comes down too. 

Something else too- I know you don’t have a name yet. You’re picking. I URGE you to consider the true picture of who you are. You don’t have to pick a name because its close to the one given. (though years later your mom admits that she apperciates it). 

Things get better- a lot is going to happen in the next 4 years. I do mean a lot. But, just stick to some solid life lessons I have learned. You are who you think you are and always have been. You’re much stronger than you think and enjoy the moment because life is moving so fast. Before you know it you’re going to be married and have a family and struggling to pay bills. Enjoy now and just get through it. Make memories not moments. 

Here for you, 

Your 10 years later.

[delusioninabox]

Daily #207. Effort is not something that can be measured by outcome, but only by your own heart. That, at least, is what I believe.

This was actually the beginning and end to a longer piece I had written, but I cut out the entire middle - which was my personal experiences with school and competitions - because it was too difficult to draw, and also too long.

[templeoflizardsandblankets-deac]

yep, pretty much. 

[kaydenrobinson]

Do revelations always come either on a playground or the shower?

So, I am home for a week because my car is in the shop costing me $1,300 (which is almost half of my expected take home pay over the summer). It was a rough day... needless to say it was a frustrating and emotional day. I think for me the best way to clear my head is physically. In retrospect this is a tried and true method of dealing with my problems. 

On a side-note, when I was a kid I was a perpetual liar. One of the persistent ones being that I was I was giving tours around the neighborhood... haha! We actually swindled a few kids out of some quarters. It was my version of a lemonade stand. 

So, I went and got on my bike and took off for about 45 minutes on my bike. I rolled into my elementary school and immediately took off around the school- until I saw the new additions. They built another playground behind the gym. They tore down the last of the playground equipment from when I was a student there and built a mini-track and an exercise playground with instructions on how to use it. 

I rode my bike around this new track and stopped to climb my childhood monkey bar cabin. Sitting on the top of it. I tried to remember what the playground looked like before they built a gym, the new playground, this brand new playground, tore down the trees and built this parking lot. It was like I was transported back into this sand pit next to the lady-bug spaceship (I know such specific terms) which a haven as a first grader with little friends. The ditch in the back of the playground was like a lake and now its a trickle I can easily ride my bike through. But, the outline of the original playground was still there and I can still imagine the way it was. 

I realized while I was sitting on the monkey bars that there is something to be said for change. I never expected the world to stay the same but, I think we all think that our childhood memories and places are always going to be there- but, mine is gone. I think that over 15 years I never expected it to stay the same. But, I think I am going to miss seeing it. But, it is consistent and ever changing. Without change we would be in a never ending groundhog's day scenario. 

[nintendofunclub]

Working on a threadless design. Look for it in a few days!

[camiivalee]

[travelingbythoughts-deactivated]

this is the greatest thing i’ve ever seen

[hungryhungryhiddles]

THIS GIF LITERALLY JUST MADE MY ENTIRE WEEK A THOUSAND TIMES BETTER

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[sourcedumal]

That is one dandy ass cat.

[kaydenrobinson]

I am not okay.

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This is so important

[citezen]

THIS

[repetition-is-holy]

I’m still not sure what lie my mother fed my father about this most recent hospitalization.

[thehopefoolignorant-blog]

Advertising Threat

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SCREAMING

[allys-in-wonderlandia]

FOREVER REBLOG

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i tried so hard to scroll past this. I really did

[did-you-know]

Source

[kaydenrobinson]

= I WIN

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[meanplastic-deactivated20140215]

making my way downtown

[thatsmisslaratoyou]

werk

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[transstudent]

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[nexldxkotx]

And If I’m flying solo, at least I’m flying free

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[kaydenrobinson]

LESBIANS UNITE!