No Tears Left To Cry

Right now, I'm in a state of mind I wanna be in like all the time Ain't got no tears left to cry

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo:

Camden knew Mackenna well enough to know when she needed a vacation, even if she didn’t say it, he could tell. With school about to start up, and him having spent most of the summer between practice and Tatiana, he figured this little surprise would be the perfect way to secure some time for the two of them. Camden was making a lot more money compared to when they first started fooling around now that he’d essentially worked his way to the top and barely had to do any of the dirty work anymore, plus his scholarship meant more of that money to him and the girls than to school. So, he was determined to make sure that this felt like a lavish trip for Mackenna, maybe a late little birthday trip combined with a getaway so she didn’t have to think about her next step all day everyday. He had organized most of it with Mackenzie to make sure the timeline added up and Mackenna stayed in the dark so she’d actually be surprised, but now that he was pulling up to the front of her house he felt like telling her everything he had planned out of pure excitement. Mackenzie was already opening the large garage to roll out the luggage she had packed for her sister, so even once on the plane Mackenna didn’t realize how big the vacation was going to be. After getting the luggage into his car, accompanying his own, he headed inside to call for Mackenna, Mackenzie sneaking back into the living room so it didn’t seem weird, “Hurry up. You’re taking too long, I told you we don’t got all day woman.”

It wasn’t hard for Mackenna to figure out when Camden was up to something. If not for how her sister was acting then the fact that he was in a rush was a quick give away. From the moment he texted her to get ready quickly she had already caught on to the fact that something was up. She didn’t know exactly what yet but she was hellbent on finding out. “Maybe I would move faster if you told me what I’m being rushed for,” the heiress grinned as she climbed into the passengers side of the white sports car she loved so very much. “This better be good,” she teased, leaning over the center console to press her lips against Camden’s in a slow but short kiss. Turning her head to the backseat she looked for the little girl who was normally in a car seat behind her. “Where’s Tati?” Mackenna questioned, her suspicions only growing now.

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CHRISTMAS & CHILL | Camden & Mackenna

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo :

“Why? Kenzie doesn’t make you shower her in gifts?” Camden laughed, although he was Kenzie’s friend first, it did make it all a lot more entertaining to poke fun at her because of that. “Tati, this is Kenna.” He handed the baby over to the girl, and she was usually pretty good with letting others hold her, only crying for her dad every now and then, “She hasn’t started talking much, but she’s got dada on lock and it’s pretty dope.” He smiled, glad he at least had that small victory so far since being in the babies life, as he stood with Mackenna and admired his daughter his sister had walked into the kitchen and started opening all the boxes of Chinese food, “Cam come make her a plate.” She insisted, and the boy nodded, “Yeah yeah, what do you want? We got chow mein, fried rice,  orange chicken and some veggies plus beef and broccoli, oh and wonton soup.”

Mackenzie was not only the hardest person to get gifts for, she was also practically the only person on Mackenna’s list.“I can only get the girl so much, she already has everything she could ever want,” They both had more stuff than they needed, and she always felt bad talking about it, even if Camden didn’t care it still felt like she was bragging. She listened closely to Camden’s words as she took the baby from her father, supporting the little girls head and bringing her toward her chest just to be sure she had a tight grip on her. “sounds like you’re doing something right then,” with a light smile she took a moment to look up from the girl to her dad. “Oh, so any other time you want to act like you know me, but now you want me to make my own decisions?” The dark haired girl teased though she was really thinking about it. “I’ll have a little of everything, I’m not super hungry,”

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CHRISTMAS & CHILL | Camden & Mackenna

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo :

“You’re right on time.” He held up the bags of food he hadn’t even had the chance to set down yet, “I just got back from getting the food.” But he quickly set down the food to help the girl with the gifts, “Here.. I got this.” Camden said, as he took most of them, “You didn’t have to bring all of this Mackenna.” He said honestly, although he couldn’t be too surprised, it was Mackenna after all, “I’m gonna just put these under the tree real fast.” He lead the way over to the living room where everybody else was, finding a place for the gifts before turning his attention to his sister, and the little girl in her arms, along with Jaxson, “Leena, Jax, you guys remember Kenna.” He nodded to the girl casually before going back to the hallway to pick up the food, and moving it to the adjoined kitchen, the best part about the small house was that everything seemed to be together. The boy then moved over to his sister, taking the small baby from her, and walking over to the girl, “And this superstar right here, is Tatiana.” 

“I could have carried them myself,” the younger girl shook her head as she followed him inside, though she didn’t resist as he took the gifts from her arms, leaving only the ones for his brother and his daughter in his arms. “It’s really nothing, and I never really get to go christmas shopping, so” she shrugged, moving through the small house until they reached the living room and she said hello to his siblings “Oh my god,” She grinned as the little girl was brought towards her. “You are even cuter in person, and look so much like your daddy,” Her eyes flickered from Cam to the baby in his arms, instantly noticing all of the similarities between the two of them. “can I hold her?” she questioned excitedly, holding her arms out for the girl.

[camdenrizzo]

CHRISTMAS & CHILL | Camden & Mackenna

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo :

So they had made their Christmas plans before his daughter was in the picture, but that wasn’t going to stop Camden from keeping them. His sister and him planned on doing the same thing they always do, and that was set up Santa gifts for their little brother, and then watch standup all day before picking up their Chinese takeout from the only place in town that was still open. Except now that included presents for Tatiana as well, whom he insisted on keeping for the holiday since he’d already missed out on so much. But, Mackenna planned on stopping by, and now that meant her meeting Tatiana for the first time, Somehow the day turned from relax take out and comedy, to two of the most crucial moments of the year, his first holiday with his daughter, and his girlfriend meeting her. Girlfriend, was that what he was calling it now? They hadn’t clarified, but in that moment as he waited for her to show up to the small home, he couldn’t help but think that made more sense, than saying his hookup for the last year was coming to meet his daughter. His sister was occupied with the baby when the doorbell did ring, and Camden had just gotten back from picking up the food, to turn right around and open the door, “Merry Christmas.” His lips pressed into a small smirk, as he stood to the side to let the brunette in. 

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Christmas was never Mackenna’s favorite holiday. To be honest,  most of the holiday’s that were considered family holiday’s she could have done without, but this year was different now that Cam was involved. She knew that meeting the toddler would make everything feel real for her, though the more she thought about it the more ready she was, or at least she thought she was. It only took an hour of pretending to be a family for the teens to tire of the charade, and both of them parted ways. It didn’t take long for her to get to camden’s, and when she got there she took a moment to compose herself in the car before finally getting out. Walking up to the door with presents not only for Camden and his siblings, but now the baby girl too her hands were more than full as he opened the door, which prevented her from hugging him. “Merry Christmas,” she repeated the words with a bright smile of her own, giving him a kiss on his cheek as she moved passed him. “I hope i’m not too late, Mackenzie and I lasted longer than I thought we would this year,” with a laugh she waited for cam before turning away from the door.

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camdenrizzo :

“Well yeah, because she was me with more hair.” Camden laughed, although the two obviously weren’t identical because the other was a girl, he was sure they looked more similar as babies, because they looked quite a bit alike now. “Yeah, I obviously didn’t have a say, but I think it fits her. It’s just weird I guess.. walking into her life at this point.”

“I mean, i’m sure it is...I think i would be more skeptical if it didn’t feel weird for you.” She looked over the little girl once more over his shoulder before leaning back onto her elbows. “But then again she’s what? not even a year old? That’s better than finding out when she’s twenty five,” the girl probably wouldn’t even remember the first year of her life without him, if that’s what cam was worried about. It was also a lot of things thrown at the boy in a very short period of time, so the way he was feeling wasn’t odd at all.

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camdenrizzo :

“Doesn’t she?” Camden beamed, there was a lot going on with him right now, but mostly he ended back on how proud he was that he was her father. Now he just had to learn how to be the best one. Camden let the girl take his phone so she could see closer, “There’s some more on there if you want to go through them. I wish I had baby pictures to compare them to, cause I feel like they would practically be identical.”

Looking through the pictures was still a little weird or the girl, as the thought of Camden being a dad was still pretty fresh in her mind, not enough that she wanted to stop looking though. “that would be cool. She’d probably look a lot more like your sister as a baby, don’t you think?” Even then there wasn’t that many differences between them, after all they were twins. “Jenna did a good job picking out her name, she definitely looks like a Tatiana,” Mackenna thought aloud as she handed him back his phone.

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo :

“Alright then.” Camden nodded, pressing against her lips again slowly, as a small smile formed on his face,  “I’m happy.” The boy assured her, before finally moving his hand from her skin and pulling out his phone, “You wanna see a picture of her?”

“Yeah, of course.” Mackenna nodded once he had pulled away. Turning towards him she let her legs lay over his lap as she watched him pull up the picture on his phone. “Oh my god,” Immediately she saw Cam in the little girl and it made her smile even larger than she had been before. “You were not playing around, she looks just like you...you know, if you were a girl,” She held her hand out for his phone to take a closer look. “She’s beautiful,”

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camdenrizzo :

“I’m not being stupid Mackenna, I’m being serious.” And as much as he hated that it was a serious thing he had to think about because of how much came along with him now. “I’m just saying, it’s not an easy thing to just accept, it’s a big deal. And like you said, it changes things and fast, so if you aren’t about it, that’s cool.” He looked down at her and his own hand, “If that’s what you wanna do, do it. And if you really think you’re down to not leave and can handle it, then I’m here.”

“I’m being serious too,” She shook her head, slowly, keeping her eyes locked on his as she spoke again. “It won’t be easy, but I already know that. I didn’t fuck with you just because things were easy, Cam.”  Maybe at first that was the only reason, but that was a long time ago. “If that was the case, you think I would have even come over here in the first place?” The male was a bigger part of her life than that now and it would take a lot more than a baby he didn’t even know that he was having for her to leave all of that behind. “I already told you what I wanted to do, I’m not going anywhere...” Leaning in she gave him a slow kiss. “so am I,”

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo :

He laughed a little at what she said last, “Yeah I know…” He fell silent as he thought about what she said, knowing it was the truth, “You get a free out if you want it. You didn’t sign up for all this when we started fucking around so I get it. I ain’t gonna be mad if you take it.”

“Don’t be stupid,” Mackenna replied with a heavy roll of her eyes, and if her hands hadn’t already been preoccupied she might have hit him for even saying that. Maybe it wasn’t what she had signed up for in the beginning, but Camden meant a lot to her, and him having a baby was not going to change that. Yes, it was going to take some getting used to, especially with how young they were. It’s nothing that the two of them could figure out together, and that was something Mackenna was sure of. “I have your name tattooed on my titty where the hell do you think i’m gonna go,” She let out a little laugh at her own comment, squeezing his hand tighter in our own. “I told you, I got you. As long as you want me to be, we’re in this together,”

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camdenrizzo :

“Yeah, I didn’t bother tellin anyone cause it wasn’t gonna happen.” Camden couldn’t help but smile a little bit as she seemed to be proud of him for the fact. “I’m going to.” He said, and he was, even if school wasn’t hid long term goal before it’d probably be what was best for the baby. “You ain’t lying.” Camden agreed, things were changing so fast, a lot of parents had nine months to prepare and he found out overnight, nothing made everything change as fast as that. “Mackenna..” He dipped his head down to press his lips against hers, while his free hand snuck under her shirt to where his name was on her skin, his thumb running across it, “This is really fucking selfish, but I don’t want this to change.”

“I know, I don’t want this to change either,”Glancing to where she could feel Camden’s hands on her skin she sighed again. Mackenna was glad that they were on the same page there. Her only fear was that no matter how hard they tried to stop it, their relationship was going to change anyways. “But you’re a real daddy now, so I’m not sure we have a choice,” taking his free hand she laced their fingers together, before setting their hands in her lap.

[kennawex]

camdenrizzo:

Camden nodded up and down, “As much as we could manage, but I don’t know how it’s all actually going to work. I thought I was just going to get a job in the Elevators union after school or somethin’ but now that Tati’s in the picture I feel like maybe I should consider some of the football scholarships. Either way I know I want at least split custody.” Camden glanced over, his hand found Mackenna’s cheek and he turned it towards him, “What are you thinkin bout?”

“You got offered football scholarships?” that news didn’t surprise Mackenna like the others, just another thing Mackenna had no Idea about until now. “Cam, that’s great...you should one hundred percent consider that.” yet, his plan to work in the Elevators union was more than she had done to prepare for life outside of high school, so she didn’t have much room to talk. “I don’t know,” sighing heavily her eyes fell to the hand Camden had pressed to her cheek. “I feel like, everything is changing so fast,” She paused, lifting her eyes to meet his again. “and not just ...you having a baby or anything.”

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camdenrizzo :

“I know.” Camden agreed, he looked around his room scratching his head before moving over to the bed and sitting on the edge, “Yeah..” He processed some of the many thoughts that had gone through his head since he found out, “She’s crazy perfect. I don’t know. I keep thinking about how shitty this all is, and how mad I am at Jenna, and the shit fact that I’m a seventeen year old dad and live in this fucking place..” He gestured to the room, “But then I think about Tatiana, and I see her little face, and it doesn’t matter how shitty it is.” 

Mackenna let him finish before moving down the bed towards the tan boy. Once she was beside him she sat up and brought her right knee to her chest. The corners of her mouth lifted into a smile as she listened to him talk about his daughter. Even if their conversation didn’t feel real to her it made her happy to know that something good for Camden had come out of this whole thing. Her mind was still blank as far as the right thing to say went, so she relied on the smile on her face to show Camden how genuinely happy she was that he had found some good in the situation. “have you and Jenna talked at all about what you’re going to do now that you know?”

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camdenrizzo :

Camden did his best to decipher her reaction, but it was hard, although he had been preparing for the worst considering it changed everything between them, he still wasn’t sure what that meant. “Uh yeah.. it’s alot huh?” He scoffed, nodding to inside, “Wanna come in?” It felt weird them just having this conversation at the door, as if she’d never been inside before or something, he turned inside and lead her towards his room, “Yeah.. yeah. It was… amazing. She’s awesome.”

“A lot is an understatement,” the dark haired girl muttered as she stepped inside and followed him to his room where she didn’t hesitate to take her usual spot on his bed, this time folding one of her legs underneath herself. “Really?” Her eyebrows lifted at his answer, which had once again taken her by surprise. She attempted to hide the emotion for Camden’s sake, how ever she was feeling Camden had probably felt it a hundred times harder than she was. Her struggle for words was much more obvious as she avoided the older male’s eyes. “uh...”

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camdenrizzo :

“Not might, Mackenna, I do.” He confirmed, answering all of her questions with that one, “Jenna didn’t fuck around on me, and the time table lines up perfectly from when she left and everything. Plus, she looks just like me. She barely looks like her mom.” Camden could push a lot of things aside, and he was great at denial, but there was no denying this. He let out a small laugh, at this point that was about all he could do, “I don’t even know what I’m going to do with myself.”

“Oh, wow...okay,” Mackenna didn’t have any words now. She was less shocked than she would have been had that not been something she’d thought about beforehand, and hearing him actually say it was much different than the younger girl had expected. “you met her? how was that?”

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camdenrizzo :

He crossed his arms over his chest shaking his head no, “She still technically hasn’t, it’s like she can’t even say it,” Camden recalled their encounter the first day he heard about it and immediately went to her house, “I had to practically force a yes out of her just to confirm it for myself.” He didn’t seem enthused, which wasn’t how he wanted to come across over the issue, he didn’t want a baby, his baby, to even be considered an issue. But he still was adjusting to his new reality, and it was changing so much more than just his title. “I really ain’t been sure what to say, so I’m sorry I didn’t call you or anything.”

“So, you know for sure the baby is hers....” Mackenna nodded, brushing a loose piece of her hair back behind her ear, to get it out of her face. “Do you know for sure that it’s yours?” Her intentions hadn’t been to pry when she came over, just to make sure that Camden was okay. It seemed as though everytime she tried to do that it only brought up more questions. She almost wished she had already known the answers so that Camden wouldn’t have to talk about it anymore. “You just found out you might have a kid and you’re apologizing to me?” Mackenna starred at Camden for a moment, in an attempt to make sure that she heard him correctly. “what am I going to do with you?”

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camdenrizzo :

Camden wasn’t sure who could be at the door, if he was being honest. He hadn’t been to school, he’d mostly just talked to his twin sister the past week or so, and their foster mom hadn’t been around in the past week, plus she wouldn’t knock. When he opened the door he was only a little surprised, because usually Mackenna would let him know she was coming, plus he had been avoiding her. “Mackenna..” He nodded, “I mean yeah..” He shrugged, the boys face remained mostly straight, not having much left in him after the week he had just suffered through, “Just been dealing with some shit… and you, I–” he wasn’t even sure what to say to the girl, she obviously knew something was going on, but had she figured out what it was. “I got to tell you some shit too.” 

She could tell right away that the answer to her question was no, which was more than understandable. Mackenna of course had only heard rumors, but from what she was told she had narrowed it down to two possibilities. Either Camden’s ex had cheated on him and had a baby with someone else, or the baby was his. She felt terrible for wanting it to so badly be the first option, but that was a lot of responsibility for Cam and though there was no doubt in her mind that he could handle it she didn’t want him to have to. “When did she tell you?”

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The last thing Mackenna ever thought she would be doing was showing up at Camden’s door unannounced. Normally she would ask first because of his home situation, and the fact that they weren’t dating nor was it her place to, but she couldn’t risk having him lie over the phone to her about how he was doing. More than either of those facts she cared about Camden, and making sure he was alright was her number one priority. “Hey...are you okay?”  Mackenna asked once he had come to the door. her words were soft and matched the look on her face. It was sort of a loaded question at that point with everything that had been going on, but at the very least she wanted the older boy to know that she would be there for him regardless.

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